Montesano Unvisited

With houses hung that slanted and remote

the road that goes there if you found it

would be dangerous and dirt. Dust would cake

the ox you drive by and you couldn’t meet

the peasant stare that drills you black. Birds

might be at home but rain would feel rejected

in the rapid drain and wind would bank off

fast without a friend to stars. Inside

the convent they must really mean those prayers.

You never find the road. You pass the cemetery,

military, British, World War Two and huge.

Maybe your car will die and the garage

you go to will be out of parts. The hotel

you have to stay in may have postcard shots,

deep focus stuff, of graves close up

and far off, just as clear, the bright town

that is someone’s grave. Towns are bad things happening,

a spear elected mayor, a whip ordained.

You know in that town there’s a beautiful girl

you’d rescue if your horse could run.

When your car is fixed you head on north

sticking with the highway, telling yourself

if you’d gone it would have been no fun.

Mountain towns are lovely, hung way away

like that, throbbing in light. But stay in one

two hours. You pat your car and say

let’s go, friend. You drive off never hearing

the bruised girl in the convent screaming

take me with you. I am not a nun.