Other than the afternoon I interviewed at the Hirshhorn, I’d only been to Washington, DC, for an eighth-grade class trip. I had exactly one distinct memory from the visit—that of a classmate with food poisoning decorating a White House carpet during our tour—but it was otherwise a dim haze of monuments and museums.
I should have come down one weekend to apartment hunt, but after I accepted the offer, the reality of leaving New York hit me like a wrecking ball and I couldn’t imagine wasting even one precious second of my remaining time there. My last two weeks in New York were a blur of indulgent dinners at favorite haunts; drinks upon drinks with friends, acquaintances, anyone I’d crossed paths with in my tenure there; and late nights roaming the streets, trying to commit every crowded, trash-heaped corner to memory.
One such night, buzzed on spicy margaritas and feeling the weight of my impending move, I’d gone home and inquired about a random apartment on Craigslist. When I awoke in the morning to an email from the landlady, I did just enough research about the neighborhood to convince myself it wasn’t a scam listing and told her I would take it. But even my meager concern felt like overkill: the woman used an email signature that included a motivational quote in rainbow text, for crying out loud. How bad could one of her apartments be?
I arrived in DC the afternoon before my scheduled move-in, and so I crashed with my college friend Cat. I couldn’t remember the last time we’d seen each other—two years ago maybe? At Amber’s wedding? I vaguely recalled unsuccessfully trying to pull a blushing Cat up onto a bar with me at the after-party—but when I told her I was moving to DC, she immediately and enthusiastically invited me to stay with her as long as I wanted.
When Cat opened the door of the well-maintained, three-story brick row house where she lived, she looked exactly as I remembered: thick, blonde hair falling to her shoulders in an enviable natural wave; bare face; long limbs emerging from a preppy sleeveless chambray shirt and pink chino shorts.
“Cat!” I exclaimed, leaning in for a hug. “It’s so good to see you!”
“You too!” she said, embracing me in a floral-scented squeeze. Until I was pressed up against her, I’d forgotten just how tall Cat really was; my head only hit her collarbone.
“Come in,” she continued, pulling away and leading me up a set of interior stairs to her unit. “How was the train?”
“You mean aside from Chi-Chi the Chihuahua? It was—” I broke off when I saw Cat’s confused expression. “You saw my Instagram Stories, right?”
She shook her head. “I don’t really use Instagram.”
“I forgot how weird you are about social media,” I teased.
“I just—”
“Relax, Cat, I’m kidding. Anyway …” I trailed off as Cat opened the door to her living area. “Wow. Nice digs.”
The entire second floor was one open space cast in a soft yellow light from the enormous front bay window. The seating area was anchored by a pale gray sofa I’d drooled over in the Restoration Hardware catalog and arranged around a brick fireplace filled with cream pillar candles. A full-size dinner table made of rustic-looking wood separated the living area from her well-appointed kitchen with its shining stainless-steel appliances, espresso machine, and high-end blender. Behind that, a wrought-iron spiral staircase disappeared upstairs.
“This place looks great,” I said appreciatively and a bit enviously, running my fingers along the supple fabric of the sofa. “I know you said you don’t do Insta, but this living room—or even just this fireplace—could get you a thousand likes easy.”
She laughed. “My decorator will be pleased to hear that.”
“Oh, you hired someone?” I asked, instantly relieved but not surprised. Style was my domain. Cat was sweet, but she lacked imagination—she was the kind of woman who walked into J.Crew and bought whatever was on the mannequin. Besides, Cat had the money to splash out on interior designers. She worked at a fancy law firm, and she came from money. In college, she was the only one of us wearing real Burberry, and I’d often wondered why she—smart, ambitious, wealthy—went to a state school. I assumed she’d flubbed her interviews at the elite private schools. Poor thing could be so awkward.
“You think I have the time to decorate? Come on, let’s put your stuff in the guest bedroom.”
Impressed she had a guest bedroom—my guests had always been lucky if I could scare up an extra blanket for the couch—I followed Cat up the tightly coiled staircase.
“Whoa,” I said, clutching the handrail. “This thing is an accident waiting to happen.”
Cat smiled apologetically. “I don’t recommend going down it in socks.”
At the very top of the stairs was Cat’s bathroom. Through the open door, I glimpsed gleaming white tiles and the edge of an old-fashioned bathtub. Cat pushed open the next closest door to the bathroom.
“Here we are. Is this okay?”
“Um, this is more than okay,” I said, looking around the room. Like the rest of Cat’s apartment, her guest bedroom had the obvious touch of a professional: clean lines, soft linens, thoughtful accents. Most of the room was occupied by a low Scandinavian bed covered in a gray duvet, accompanied by a minimalist nightstand topped with fresh flowers. But beside the flowers, one thing seemed out of place.
“You’re kidding me,” I said, laughing as I picked up the framed photo of Cat and me at a sorority formal. We were the picture of opposites: Cat draped in a gauzy, powder-blue dress with her hair pulled into a severe bun, and me squeezed into a skintight black dress with my long hair flat-ironed within an inch of its life. I remembered consuming nothing more than lemon water for two days before the event just to fit into that thing.
“Look at us! We were such babies.”
“I know,” Cat said, smiling fondly. “We were juniors there. Can you believe it’s been eight years since that picture was taken?”
“Unbelievable.” I sank down onto the bed and slipped off my sandals. “Thanks again for letting me stay tonight.”
“Stay as long as you want. Really. I rarely use this bedroom.” She smiled shyly. “It could be like college all over again.”
“You mean we could do shots of Goldschläger while watching Gossip Girl?” I laughed. “Sounds tempting, but my movers are arriving at the new place tomorrow.”
Concern flickered across Cat’s face. “I still can’t believe you rented a place sight unseen. How can you be sure the apartment even exists?”
“Don’t worry, I promise I didn’t wire money to some offshore scammer. I searched Google Maps and checked out the landlord, who, by the way, is a nice old lady named Leanne—”
“You think she’s a nice old lady. She could be anybody. She could be a he. She could be Ted Bundy!”
“Ted Bundy’s dead, Cat.”
“She could be like Ted Bundy. She could be worse than Ted Bundy. You never know.”
I shrugged. “Sometimes you have to roll the dice. You know what I always say—”
“Whatever doesn’t kill you makes you more interesting,” Cat finished. “Let’s just hope that apartment makes you nothing more than fascinating.”
CAT’S INVITATION TO MOVE IN was generous, and for a hot second I even considered backing out of my lease, but ultimately I knew I couldn’t live with Cat for more than a few days. It wasn’t that Cat was a bad roommate. Rather, she was too good of a roommate. When we lived together in college, she was always doing my laundry or fixing me tea or checking on me when I was out late. It was like living with my mother but with less nagging.
I never said anything to her, of course. Cat meant well. She was just a little needy. My stomach bottomed out as I remembered the first day of sorority rush. I’d stood in front of the Kappa Gamma Alpha sorority house—my top choice and the house I would eventually pledge—sweating in the midwestern August heat and scanning the (pleasingly lackluster) competition. As I was doing so, I locked eyes with Cat.
I recognized her from my dorm and looked away quickly, hoping she wouldn’t come over. There wasn’t anything wrong with her per se, but her entire demeanor seemed a little forced. She walked around with this approximation of a smile on her face that verged on a wince, and she was always lurking. She would come up behind the rest of us and just stand there, nodding like she was part of the conversation and smiling that weird smile.
As the door swung open and singing sorority sisters paraded out, I glanced over my shoulder to make sure Cat wasn’t going to glom on to me. She must have read my expression, because her face was red, her cornflower-blue eyes bright with hurt. My mouth went sour with guilt, but what was I supposed to do? I couldn’t let some girl I barely knew torpedo my chance at getting into a good house.
If I’d known she was a legacy, I might have behaved differently.
At the bid day party, the KGA president stood at the front of the room in a size zero Diane von Furstenberg wrap dress and clasped her manicured hands together, gushing about how lucky they were to have us, how lucky our chapter was to consistently pledge such amazing women. Later, after we had dispersed into smaller circles, I noticed Cat standing alone. As she was nearly six feet, it was hard for her to fade into the wallpaper, but that’s exactly what she was trying to do.
She’s in way over her head, I thought unkindly.
But then I remembered her wounded expression from the first day of rush, and I felt a flicker of shame. Hadn’t I promised myself I would be less of a bitch in college? And here I was, just a couple of weeks into the venture, already being exclusionary—and to one of my own sisters, no less! I excused myself from a conversation about sunless tanner with two girls named Lindsay and crossed the room to Cat.
“I’m Audrey,” I said. “We live on the same floor.”
“I know,” she said shyly, ducking her head so that her thick hair curtained around her face.
Stop acting like some bashful fucking tween, I wanted to scream. Instead, I smiled brightly and said, “Looks like we’re going to be sisters.”