VI

“I don’t think he’s dead in there,” Owens said. “I think that at least one of them is alive.”

“Probably,” Wulff said. He kept the Bonneville pinned, but even with 20/20 vision and lots of terrain-searching experience in Vietnam, it was not easy to detect movement in a car a quarter of a mile down in blinding, dazzling sun. Cloudy weather might have been better, but it was never cloudy on the desert; it was either a baking heat or rain. Nothing between. “One thing is sure,” Wulff said, “if he gets out we’ll see a door move. And he’s got to get out.”

“I think so, too,” Owens said. For all they had been through he was quite calm, a good man, Wulff decided; it was a pity that he hired out rather than being inner-directed. An inner-directed man like Owens with the right cause could have blown whole cities, not just ships, out of geography. “He can’t stay in there,” Owens said. He raced the engine of the Cadillac for emphasis; the compressor whined and little puffs of cold air came out of the air-conditioner vents as if for emphasis. Owens took his foot off the accelerator and said, “Of course, his problem is our problem. We can’t sit here forever; we’ll run out of gas.”

“I don’t think we’ll sit very long,” Wulff said. “I figure we’ll close in and take him out.”

“That’s how I think, too,” Owens said, “But I’d feel a hell of a lot better if I knew exactly what his condition was.”

“We’ll find out,” Wulff said. “We’ll find out soon enough. If there isn’t any movement out of that car in the next fifteen minutes, we’ll just close in, and if he does move we’ll come in anyway. Either way—”

“Either way I don’t see much of a problem.”

“There are always problems,” Wulff said. “I wouldn’t know what to do without a problem. I haven’t had a single goddamned thing yet in ten cities that wasn’t a challenge, and I don’t think that this is going to be easy, either. Everything’s a struggle. Nothing comes without work.”

“Yeah,” Owens said, “but this doesn’t look as bad as some of the others, does it?”

“Everything looks bad. You can die clumsy or brave, you can die fighting against a thousand or because some sixteen-year-old kid playing sniper nails you. But either way you’re just as dead. The quality of the death is exactly the same.”

“Not necessarily,” Owens said gently, “not necessarily. But then again I’m no priest, minister, or rabbi. I couldn’t get into any argument over that. And I don’t think this is the time to do it, either.”

“No,” Wulff said. “I guess we’ll table that one.”

They sat in almost companionable silence for a while then, saying nothing, waiting the situation out, Owens racing the engine every now and then, listening to the valves tap, and waiting for the Bonneville to disgorge some evidence of life or death. It was an easy vigil in a way because it had a good sense of pace and direction. It was not a matter of waiting out some nameless menace in an ambiguous position. They knew exactly who they were and what they were waiting for, and there was a definite end to it. There was a man out there; eventually he would make his presence known and they would kill him. Either that or he would give no indication of his presence and that would be good enough for them, too; they could deal with the dead or injured man by closing in on him. But the situation was essentially in their hands, or so Wulff calculated; that was a pleasure, of course—it was so rare that he had controlled the tempo of a scene—but then again you had to protect yourself against the possibility of being lulled, protect yourself against taking your safety for granted. He leaned back against the seat, letting the edges of steel come against him, and it prodded him into wakefulness.

“You got to understand the way a guy thinks; the kind of guy who really wants to die,” Owens said.

“Who’s that?”

“This guy I worked for. He really wanted to die. Going on living was what frightened him; dealing with death gave him something to do. But after a while when he kept on beating death he got to thinking that he was cheating, that he wasn’t taking death seriously enough or it would have gotten him. There’s no point in fooling around with death if you’re going to cheat it time and again. So he started to get more serious.”

“Yeah,” Wulff said, “I know the feeling. You begin to feel immortal if you take chance after chance and it doesn’t catch up with you.”

“No,” Owens said, “it’s not quite that way. I mean I know what you’re saying. If you get into a lot of tough situations and start to glide out of them you wonder if you’re just dreaming. But that doesn’t have to do with a guy who really wants to die. That’s a different situation altogether, when you’re talking about a man who really wants to end his life. He can push farther and farther, but if nothing happens, if he keeps getting away with it, he’s going to get the feeling that he’s not taking things seriously enough, so he gets damned serious.”

“I never wanted to die,” Wulff said and thought that over for a while. It seemed to be an important insight and one that he was on the edge of getting absolutely, but then it slid away. “No, I don’t quite mean that,” he said. “It was that I calculated that I was dead already. I got killed on West 93rd Street. So that I was a dead man already. They can’t kill a dead man. They can only stop him. You know what I mean?”

“Oh,” Owens said, “I guess I know what you mean. But that’s self-protection, saying that you’re dead. You really didn’t believe that, you knew you were alive, but saying you were dead, feeling that way was able to keep you operating. But that’s different from really wanting to die. If you had wanted to die you would have taken care of that.”

“Maybe,” Wulff said, “maybe. It’s hard to say. It’s hard to calculate anything like that.” He moved on the seat again feeling the exposed steel loops bite into his shoulder blades. “Enough,” he said.

“No,” Owens said, “it’s never enough. You think that something’s the end, you think that you’ve had enough and that it won’t be the same and that you’re moving toward the end, but every time you get that feeling it starts all over again. There’s no enough. It just goes on and on. Until you die, of course.”

“I don’t understand,” Wulff said.

“Me neither,” said Owens. “I don’t understand a fucking thing.” Then he looked up at the rear-view mirror and something caught his glance. He said, “He moved.”

“What?”

“He’s out of the car and moving,” Owens said. “I caught a glimpse of him. He’s on the ground now. He came out of the car and took cover. He’s crawling around down there now.”

“Slowly,” Wulff said, “he must have moved damned slowly.”

“He hit the ground fast enough.”

“I mean out of the car.”

“He probably opened that door inch by inch,” Owens said. “He probably spent fifteen minutes getting out of it, yeah. But he’s out now.” He leaned forward, clutched the shift lever, then dropped it into reverse. “I’m going to back up on him.”

“You think so?”

“I think that’s the best way.”

“What if he’s got heavy artillery?”

“Then he can reach us up to fifty yards anyway. Closing in won’t be any more dangerous then staying here. But I don’t think he’s got any heavy. Generally people don’t carry that around and you can be sure that Carlin, that cheap bastard, wasn’t supplying anything.”

“All right,” Wulff said. Momentarily slack, he had returned to full alertness, the old combat feeling coursing through him. He had not handed over the decision to Owens so much as having abandoned it, but now he let the feeling of control come upon him again. “Back up very slowly,” he said, “and if you see any movement, stop.”

“All right,” Owens said, one arm draped over the seat back, driving with the rear-view mirror, which was the way that the experienced ones did it. “Don’t worry about it.”

“I’m not worried about anything.”

“We’ll get him,” Owens said. “This is just a diversion.”

“I’m sure it is,” Wulff said. Something hit the rear window again, another part of the glass splintered, and Wulff heard the whine of the rifle. “Son of a bitch,” he said, scrambling below seat level, “he won’t give up.”

Owens had stopped the car, cranked it into neutral already, and then had hit the floor, squeezing himself in the place between steering wheel and seat, barely fitting in. Another round hit them, the glass splintering more densely now, little fragments momentarily visible in the air as a halo, then falling into the rear seat. Wulff, his pistol gripped in his hand, could not see the assassin yet, the assassin using the Pontiac as cover. The situation was not good. They had no cover but the assassin did. The glass splintered yet again and now Wulff could see open space, holes had been lifted out of the glass, the desert was coming in. “Bastard,” he said, but he continued to concentrate. “He won’t stop, will he?”

“You never stop,” Owens said. “If you stop you start to think,” and the fire went yet again, the bullet passed through the rear and impacted into the windshield, driving itself out on a course no more than a foot above Wulff’s head. “Back it,” Wulff said, “back it again.”

“I’m going to go right into him,” Owens said. “I don’t mind, if you don’t, you understand that? If you want to bear down on top of him it’s perfectly okay with me, but you’ve got to understand that we’re just giving him a larger and larger area—”

“I don’t give a damn,” Wulff said. It was almost as if the role-reversal was now complete; he had to explain his conduct to Owens, he had to justify himself to the man who only a few days before had been his captive, a man who had been hired to kill him. “Shut the fuck up,” Wulff said and waved the pistol at Owens. Owens gave him a single look of astonishment and then his eyes blinked shut in something like an ecstasy of concentration moving inward, seeing animals stalk behind the panes of his eyes, then he floored the accelerator and the Fleetwood was bearing down at ten to fifteen miles an hour in reverse, the fastest it could go in the low gear. Wulff perilously balanced himself on the seat, aiming for a good shot. He still could not see the man.

But even if he could not see him he could see the source of the fire. Another shot came through, this one a little high, smashing into the ceiling, scattering dust over him as he ducked. Owens grunted something, but his concentration did not lapse. He kept his foot on the floor and they had now closed to within a hundred yards of the Bonneville. “Son of a bitch,” Owens said, “son of a bitch, where is it coming from? Where is the bastard?”

“I don’t know,” Wulff said. “I don’t know where he is. That’s what we’re trying to find out.” He saw a scurry of movement, just a little twitch of shadows near the left front bumper of the Bonneville. It might have been the man moving, but then again it might only have been some reaction to his passage; the sun, off-angle, was casting shadows in a peculiar way counter to movement, and Wulff desperately tried to bring back the training he had had in combat sighting. They were still closing, and Wulff realized that the situation was cutting both ways. They were coming closer all the time, and at a certain point the assassin would no longer be able to find cover; but in exactly the same way they were losing their own cover, that distance which granted them some measure of safety.

Owens must have had the same thought. He was moving the car clamped down into the seat now, his forehead buried against his crossed arms, his eyes closed, his frame hunched over in anticipation of the killing shot. Yet to his credit—Wulff had to give the man credit, he was no fool, everything that he had said to Wulff about his training was the truth—he had not given any ground whatsoever. The only way they were going to get Owens out of that seat was to shoot him out, preferably with a howitzer and at close range, the man was not going to give. But the assassin was not going to give either. Another shot came through and Wulff twitched in reaction, taking cover deeply. Then, as if unconnected, he heard Owens’ dull scream, and then the car was thrashing, bucking out of control.

His processes had been so slowed by the shock of this, he had been so funneled into concentration upon the assassin, that for an instant Wulff reacted stupidly, trying to make some connection between the shot, the scream, and the wild slewing of the car. Then, as Owens collapsed from the wheel, pinning him with his weight, the feeling of blood coursing down Wulff’s body, Wulff understood what had happened and fell all the way to the panels of the floor, guiding himself to fall away from Owens, trying to find some stability. He could not move to stop the car, could not yank Owens’s dead foot away from the accelerator because he was pinned in by the weight and could not lose the time to try and strain. Owens’ bubbling death-sounds were moving high in his throat, sounding like a flute now.

“I’m sorry,” Wulff said, not that it made any difference now—it was another man dead, that was all, forget it, concentrate on the task at hand, stay to it, don’t get distracted, put it away. “I’m sorry, I’m sorry,” and the next shot came in, the assassin placing his fire carefully, gaining in confidence now as well he might, and this bullet passed so closely over Wulff that if he had not fallen, had not gotten below the line of the seat, he would have been gone. No time to think of that, though, no time for calculation of any sort, what he had to do was to somehow protect himself.

The assassin was obviously running out of fire. If he had not been he would not have settled for one shot or two; he would have followed up the dead hit on Owens with only one shot but would have made that one right, then would have pumped in the remainder and finished off Wulff for sure. But he had not done that and that could only mean one thing—he had only one weapon, he had run out, he was reloading. All of this swept through Wulff in a matter of thickened seconds while the Fleetwood was still barreling in reverse at its maddened ten to fifteen miles an hour, Owens’s dead foot linked to the accelerator, Owens already quiet above him. And Wulff did the only thing he could have in that instant to avoid either death by impact or by fire, nothing to lose really, double dose of death carried in the situation. He reared up from the alcove, pushing away Owens’s body with an effort of strength, came up on his knees and, centering his weapon, put one shot downrange toward what he saw as an explosion of light, then braced himself against the seat as he saw that they were going to pile into the Bonneville. There was nothing to be done. There was no way around it; no way to deny the crash. In a perfect panorama of stopped time, Wulff saw it all and what would happen then, and there was nothing to do but to hang onto the seat, close his eyes as had the dead man, and hope that when the Fleetwood crunched into the Pontiac dead-on, the assassin, if he were not dead already, would be caught in the impact.