Chapter 11

It had been a long day. One of the longest Stuart Sanders could remember. How had he allowed himself to get so caught up in this case? A case should stay a case, and a kid a kid. But it wasn’t like that this time.

His stomach rumbled ominously. He’d taken one look at the peppers and steak on the airline tray and pushed it away; he had no desire to tempt his ulcer. Lorrie led him to her motor home where, over a glass of milk and a turkey sandwich, Sanders had her tell him everything that had happened since breakfast.

“So Davey knew you’d be leaving soon to go to the laser show?” he asked.

“Yes. He knew, and he was very excited. He promised to stay close.”

“Do you consider him responsible—I mean, as responsible as a kid his age can be?”

“Davey is very responsible,” she answered. “He’s had to be because of his medical condition.”

“Right,” Sanders said, nodding his head. He’d wanted to talk to Lorrie and get her take on the whole thing because she would have a different perspective from the cops.

“You think he was kidnapped, don’t you?” she asked.

“I don’t know what to think, Lorrie. There are too many pieces to this puzzle, if you know what I mean. They can’t all fit.” He got out from behind the table and took his plate and glass to the sink. “I’m going to go outside and walk around. Do I go left or right around the lake to find the grave?”

“There’s a path that sort of veers to the right. It’s a couple of hundred feet away. You can’t miss it—there’s a deep gully. You’re not going to be able to see much and, from the sound of the wind out there, you might get blown away.”

“Are you going to be up for a while longer?” he asked.

Lorrie gave him a watery smile. “You don’t really think I’d go to bed while Davey’s still missing, do you?”

“No, but . . .”

“I’m not Sara,” Lorrie said, voicing his thoughts. “I know she would think it advisable to get some sleep so she’d be refreshed and ready for anything, but I’m not so logical or so . . .”

“Cold,” Stuart inserted, without thinking. He shook his head. “I’m sorry. I have no right to criticize your sister.”

“You don’t have to apologize. I agree with you completely. There’s no better word to describe Sara, except maybe for . . . heartless. I don’t understand her and, even if I did, there’s no excuse for the way she treats her own son.”

Looking at Lorrie, knowing the guilt and pain she was suffering, made Stuart want to take her in his arms. As if reading his mind, she reached out and touched his cheek. “I know if there’s anyone who can find him, it’s you.”

“I’ll do my best.” He put his arms around her and pulled her close.

“That’s all anyone can do,” she whispered.

Regretfully, Sanders left the motor home, the white beam of his flashlight guiding his way. He stopped as he neared the pond, sensing a presence. He turned and was about to reach for the gun under his armpit when he looked down into the pool of light and saw Duffy.

“How goes it, Duff? Kind of late for you, isn’t it? You’re supposed to bark when you see someone. Some watchdog,” Sanders said as he dropped to his haunches to fondle the dog’s ears. Duffy rolled over and let her paws go straight in the air, her signal that she wanted her belly scratched. Sanders obliged. “What happened, Duff? Where’s the kid? Where’s Davey? Jesus, if only you could talk.”

At the sound of Davey’s name Duffy woofed softly. She waited expectantly for Sanders to get on with his brisk massage. “You’re one of those safe dogs that are meant to be good companions for little boys. I’m not blaming you, you understand. Hey, what’s this?” Sanders’s fingers encountered a swelling in the dog’s groin. Duffy yelped and rolled over. “Let me see what that is.” Obediently, the little dog came back to the crouching man. It was apparent that she trusted him as she started to nuzzle his ankle and whine. Sanders could feel the dog tremble as he gently ran his hands over her body. There weren’t any other swollen areas but there was a small cut on her face. “Did somebody hurt you, Duff? It’s okay, girl. No one is going to hurt you anymore.” He picked up the fuzzy bundle. “We’re going for a walk, Duffy. We’re going to that grave and maybe you can tell me something in your own way.”

Sanders unzipped his vest and held Duffy close to his chest, making sure the dog was comfortable. “I can’t take any chances on you getting lost. You’ve been hurt and you deserve a ride.” Duffy yipped, then buried her head in the man’s warm shirt.

The wind whipped through the trees, whistling and shrieking. A three-quarter moon slid from behind a cloud, lighting the way for Sanders.

Duffy growled low in her throat. “Gotcha, girl. We’re close, is that it?” Some familiar scent teased at Sanders’s nostrils. It wasn’t the leaves or the pine needles; it was something more commonplace, something he smelled only once in a while. He wrinkled his nose, trying to place the faint aroma. Christ, it was mothballs. Cautiously, Sanders approached the gully, the flashlight held straight in front of him. Duffy cowered against his chest, whimpering and whining. He hunkered down and peered into the gully.

Duffy jumped out of his arms. At first the little dog’s bark was fretful. She approached the yawning gully then backed away, growling ferociously. Gaining her courage against some unseen or remembered terror, she used her front paws to dig into the soft earth. Sanders lowered the flashlight, illuminating the spot where Duffy was digging. Nosing and pawing, she made high-pitched whining noises, finally breaking into a howl, stopping only to stare up at him, waiting.

Sanders sifted through the dirt, looking for whatever the dog wanted him to find. The small, round pellet felt rock hard as he fingered it. It was a mothball! No bigger than the gumballs that kids got out of candy machines. “Good dog, good Duffy. I know this means something, but for the life of me I can’t imagine what it is.”

Sanders spent another half hour walking around, searching the area near the gully. He found nothing. Aside from the mothball in his pocket, it was a dry run, a bust. What had he hoped to find? Davey, of course. Always Davey.

Duffy backed off a step and barked. She planted her feet firmly on the soft earth. Her ears were straight up when she barked again.

“You got something in mind?”

Duffy backed off.

“Okay, show me.” Duffy was swift as she turned to follow Sanders’s order, and he was hard-pressed to keep up with the terrier in the dim light of the flashlight. Too much high-calorie food and too many cigarettes. He was breathless when he stopped next to Duffy. In all the time he had spent guarding the Taylors, he had never seen the dog so agitated. He lifted the flashlight higher into the leaves of the low-branched trees. A covered garbage can and a picnic table told him they were at a campsite. The campsite, if he was understanding Duffy correctly.

“Good girl,” Sanders said, squatting down. “You’ve gotten me this far, now what? Where’s Davey? What happened here?” He didn’t feel foolish talking to the dog. Duffy whined then howled. Sanders swallowed. “I need more than that, Duff, if we’re gonna find Davey.” Duffy stared at Sanders, continuing to whimper and whine. The noise set the agent’s nerves on edge. “Look, I get it—we’re at a campsite. But what does it mean? Was Davey here? Were you here?” Duffy cocked her head as though she understood every word the man was saying.

Then she barked once, twice, a mean, chilling bark. Sanders watched as the dog dropped to her belly, shimmying toward him. When she was within five feet of him, she lay down then rolled over, belly up. Sanders reached out to touch Duffy, to touch the tender groin. Duffy let loose with a low growl and then leaped to her feet. Playfully, she pranced around Sanders, circling him Indian fashion.

“Son of a bitch!” Sanders exclaimed as he scooped up the little dog. “The bastard who was camped here is the one who hurt you. Kicked you, probably. Is he the one who has Davey? Show me, Duffy. Davey, where’s Davey? What happened to Davey?”

Sanders lowered the beam of his flashlight to the ground. He squatted down and was able to make out tire tracks in the hardpacked ground. The truck with the pop-up had camped in this spot. It wasn’t a startling discovery—any of the police officers could have told him if he’d asked. What was interesting was the way Duffy kept circling the back end of the campsite, where the pop-up had rested. To his mind, it suggested that Davey had been in the pop-up. He squinted in the yellowish light at the panting dog. “Davey was in the pop-up. You got hurt here and made it back to the motor home. But Davey wasn’t that lucky, was he?”

Sanders kept walking around the back end of the campsite, trying to envisage what had happened to Davey Taylor. “You got hurt and probably ran off to lick your wounds. I’m not saying I blame you but the question is, did Davey hide in the pop-up or did the couple grab him and keep him in the truck with them? I think he hid. What do you think, Duffy old girl?”

The terrier whined in answer, nuzzling Sanders’s leg. Satisfied that the agent was watching her, she lay down, her head on her paws. Sanders frowned. “Are you tired, Duffy?” The dog lay quietly, staring at him with wet brown eyes.

“I see, you’re sticking with your story. That’s good enough for me. C’mon, you deserve a ride back.” He held out his arms to the little dog, allowing her into his shirt where she nestled her head on his chest.

He was walking back to Lorrie’s RV when he saw a mothball laying on the ground. Thinking it was the mothball from the gravesite, that he’d somehow dropped it, he bent down and picked it up. “I’m getting careless in my old—” He broke off when his hand dipped into his pocket and discovered the first mothball still there. “Well, I’ll be damned!”

Mac Feeley was waiting for him outside the motor home, an evil-smelling cigar clamped between his teeth. Sanders wondered what the agent looked like without the cigar. Jesus, probably naked.

“Everything’s taken care of—the kid’s picture will be in all the morning papers. Nothing’s going on here. What say we get some shut-eye?” Feeley’s tone was hopeful but he was resigned to what he knew Sanders’s answer would be.

“I have to call headquarters. But first I want to talk to Officer Ordway.”

Feeley grinned. “The guy’s a piss, Sanders. He’s combed his hair four times in the half hour I’ve been standing here.”

Sanders chuckled as he approached the young, blond policeman. “Officer Ordway, isn’t it?” he asked. “I’m Stuart Sanders, FBI. Were you around when they dug up Lombardi’s body?”

“Yeah, and I’m still around. Pulling double duty is no way to spend your life, if you know what I mean,” the young man told him.

“Did you see the body? Was there anything unusual about it?”

“Yeah, if you consider that bodies don’t grow in the ground around these parts,” came the flip reply.

Forcing himself to keep a cool head, Sanders persisted. “Were you at the scene?”

“I wasn’t the one who dug him up, but it made the ones who did pretty sick. We don’t have much crime down here. Drunks, petty thefts—this is a small town. Ever since Wild Adventure was built, things have picked up a little. Hired two new policemen last year, and there’s room in the budget for another one this year. My brother’s got a bid in for the job.”

Sanders listened with pretended interest. “Sharp guy like you, you could go far. You look the type who keeps on his toes. Bet you’ve got it all over these locals. You should set your sights higher; maybe I can do something for you with the Bureau.”

“No, thanks. If this is the kind of case you guys deal in every day of the week, I’ll just sit back and collect a salary for traffic control. A few weekend family squabbles, a couple of buzzed-out teenagers, an occasional robbery—that’s my speed. Don’t get dirty that way.” He picked an imaginary speck of lint off his uniform jacket.

“I heard digging up that body was real dirty work,” Sanders tried again.

“The worst. The stench was awful. Don’t think I’ll ever be able to smell that stuff again without remembering.”

“What stuff?” Sanders asked, getting to the point.

Ordway stiffened as if realizing he’d spoken out of turn. “Ah, you know—the smell of death.”

“Oh, sure,” Sanders nodded. “But I thought Lombardi had been dead only twenty hours or so. Bodies don’t usually start to stink that soon.”

Ordway shrugged expansively. “Yeah, well, twenty hours or not, that son of a bitch stunk.” He turned back to the magazine he was reading, apparently determined not to say any more on the subject.

Sanders grinned wryly. He’d figured the local police would hold back. It was always the same story—the search for glory. They wanted to be the ones to come up with the answers, and the only way to do that was to withhold information. It was a fact of life that Sanders understood, and he’d come up against it before. But what he had to do was make a definite connection between Balog and the dead man, and he could have what he needed right in his pocket. Lorrie had been there when they’d dug up the body. Maybe she could shed some light on things.

 

Lorrie was sitting at the table, staring out the window when Sanders opened the door to the RV. “Did you find anything?” The look on her face was hopeful.

“I’m not sure. You tell me.” He pulled the two mothballs out of his pocket and set them on the table. “I found one of these at the gravesite.”

“There were dozens of them in the grave with the body,” she confirmed, then glanced up at him. “You say you found one of the mothballs at the grave. Where did you find the other one?”

“At a campsite.”

“Was there litter all around it?”

He nodded.

“That’s where the couple with the pop-up were parked.”

“I thought so.” Sanders squeezed Lorrie’s hand and went back outside. The cops had an all points on Balog and his companion for questioning but, as of now, they were prime suspects in a murder inquiry, and possibly a kidnapping.

Walking up to Feeley, Sanders said in a low tone, “Keep pretty boy over there occupied. I want to call in and I don’t want him listening to my end of the conversation. Two can play this game.”

“We got nothing in common,” Feeley grumbled.

“Then asphyxiate him with your damn cigar. But keep him occupied.”

The Bureau chief picked up the phone on the first ring. “Carmichael,” he barked.

“Sanders here. Buzz, I want the okay to send Feeley into Newark. I’ve got a ninety-nine percent pure-gold lead I want him to check for me. We’re just holding up the walls here, and the locals are withholding information. Feeley can be back by morning. I want him to check out the apartment that Balog was renting.”

“You got it. No new leads on the kid, or is this part of it? You’ve only been there a few minutes and already you’ve come up with a snitch. How reliable is he?”

Sanders’s face was pained. He could hardly tell the chief that his “snitch” was a dog. “Yeah, she’s reliable,” he answered without elaborating.

“Stu, I don’t mind telling you this entire case is a pain in the ass. If I never see or hear from another local cop again, I’ll die happy. Feeley tells me that Chief of Police Allen and his squad have been dubbed Allen’s Assholes. True or false?”

Sanders strained to see Officer Ordway through the thick smoke coming from Feeley’s cigar. He was combing his hair. “Sounds fairly accurate to me. I’ll let you know my opinion tomorrow.”

“You holding anything back on the kid, Stu?”

“Only theories and personal opinions. You know they count for zilch as far as the Bureau goes.”

“Tell me about it.”

“I’m pretty sure the kid wasn’t snatched by any syndicate. It doesn’t fit. What I’ve got is a possible connection between this Balog character and the dead man. I say, if I find Lombardi’s killer, I’ll find the Taylor boy. I think the kid saw something he shouldn’t have, got scared and ended up in Balog’s pop-up camper.”

“Your snitch drop that in your lap?”

The pained look crossed Sanders’s features again. “In a manner of speaking. You could say she pointed it out to me. I promised her the biggest steak dinner of her life if it pays off.”

“Is that on or off the expense account? You sly dog, I always knew you had it in you. A word of caution from one who’s been burned—that young stuff out there can be hard to handle. They don’t mind givin’ if you don’t mind gettin’. You know what I’m talking about, don’t you?”

Sanders grinned. “This little lady, I can handle. I’ll check in midmorning. Have a good night, Buzz.”

“You too, Stu.”

 

A harsh violet-colored light was coming through the plastic drapes when Cudge opened his eyes. For the briefest instant he couldn’t remember where he was, or why. Then he realized the glare was the security light in the parking lot behind Snookie’s.

Candy Striper was in the bed next to him, turned on her side to face him. She wasn’t pretty now with her makeup streaked and her mouth partially open. Why did he always end up with the dogs? Each time she exhaled, the odor of stale wine and cigarettes assaulted him. She was a pig, he decided. He’d known it last night, but he’d thought she may have something to offer. He only hoped what she was offering wasn’t the AIDS virus. “Lie down with dogs, get up with fleas” as the old saying went.

His head felt heavy and he could hardly lift his arm to read his watch dial. Four forty. In the morning? It had to be. It was yesterday evening when he’d brought the tire to the gas station next door to Snookie’s. He sat up quickly, holding on to the wall for support. Shit! That mechanic had said he’d throw the tire into the back of the truck when he’d finished with it. What if someone had stolen it? All those drunks coming out of Snookie’s—what if they stole his truck?

“Hey, what’s the matter?” Candy groaned. “What time is it?”

“I gotta get outta here,” Cudge said, and rolled over her to get out of bed. The mattress sank beneath his weight and the bedsprings screeched in protest. Candy’s body was lush and soft beneath him and he remembered flashes of what it had been like with her last night. Soft, warm, like he’d been plowing into a featherbed.

“You got an old lady someplace looking for you?” she asked sleepily.

Elva. How could he have forgotten about Elva? What if she decided to skip out on him? Go to the cops herself? Pin the whole rap about Lenny on him. Then it wouldn’t be just that little kid to worry about, there would be Elva, too. Cursing under his breath that he’d ever gone into Snookie’s and got entangled with Candy, Cudge searched for his clothing. He never should have gotten sidetracked. He should have stayed to watch the mechanic fix the tire then gone right back to the camper, just the way he’d planned.

“Hey, babe, any more wine left in that bottle? My mouth’s dry.” Candy’s voice was husky with sleep and hangover.

“Get it yourself,” he snapped. “I gotta get going. Where the hell’re my boots?”

“Find ’em yourself.”

He bristled. “Watch your mouth. Where’s my boots?”

“How should I know? They’re your boots. What did you do with them?”

“I don’t even remember taking them off.”

“You didn’t. I did,” Candy smiled with satisfaction. “Hey, babe, why don’t you crawl back in bed here? I got something to show you.”

“Save it,” he answered uncomfortably, not liking women to take the initiative. “Didn’t you get enough last night?” He found his boots and something soft and rotten came off the bottom onto his hands. “Shit!”

“What’s that?”

“Dog shit,” he moaned, looking for something to wipe his hand on, finally deciding on the bedcovers.

“Hey! Don’t do that!” Candy sat up suddenly to inspect the damage. “Christ, ain’t you got no manners? Don’t wipe that stuff on the covers. One thing at least,” she said, turning on the lamp for a closer examination, “it’s not dog do, it’s apples. Even so, watch where you put it.”

“Apples!” Sure, now he remembered those rotting apples on the road where he’d pulled over in the pop-up. He must have stepped on them and gotten bits of the pulp wedged between the ridges of his soles. Apples. Elva. He had to get back!

Candy settled back against the pillows in a languorous pose. “What’s your hurry, babe? It’s not even morning. Come on back to bed. This time it’s for free.”

“It’s always free,” Cudge growled, tying one of his laces. “Your kind always are.”

“Like hell! That little parlor game we played is going to cost you exactly thirty bucks.”

“Don’t bug me, Candy, I ain’t in the mood. Right now you’re treading on thin ice. You think I’d pay to screw an old whore like you?”

“Old whore! Listen, you’d have to pay anybody to jump in the sack with you. And double if they’d been there once already. You ain’t exactly Casanova,” she mocked. “Tell me, you always have that much trouble gettin’ it up or was it just the wine?”

Cudge loomed over her, standing close to the bed, hands curling into fists. “One more word and you’re askin’ for it. One more word. I don’t want no more trouble, so just shut up!” He seemed to be fighting himself as he stood over her, forcing himself to back down, to quell his sudden rage. “Where’s my shirt?” Not waiting for an answer, he looked around the shabby room.

When he moved away from her, Candy propped herself up on her elbow. “You don’t really have any connections in Vegas, do you?”

“What do you think?”

“I think you were puttin’ me on, so the deal’s off. I told you, I’ve got expenses and that wine we drank together last night really knocked me on my ass. Far as I’m concerned, last night was a lost cause, and I ain’t got nothing to show for it. So, how’s about that thirty dollars I helped you win from that guy?”

“You gotta be kiddin’. That’s my thirty bucks. I won it. You already got all you’re gonna get.”

Candy sat up in bed, the blankets falling away to reveal her full, round breasts. “The way I see it, you parked your ass in my bed and that’ll cost you thirty dollars.”

Balog faced her in the yellow lamplight, his eyes cold and hard. The air between them seemed to become dense and still. His square, cropped head burrowed into his powerfully wide shoulders; his barrel-staved chest expanded with each deep intake of air. Candy heard a high, frightened whine and realized with horror it was her own.

The corral gate in Cudge’s brain swung open with nerve-cracking velocity. The beast lunged forward to freedom, sharp-edged hooves cutting into his brain tissue. Blackness obscured his vision. Rage ripped through him; he was almost senseless. Razor-tipped horns gored his sanity and attacked again and again.

Candy was helpless, defenseless as a rag doll in the jaws of a mad dog. She struggled against unconsciousness, fighting to stay alert, knowing it to be her only chance of survival. But when oblivion came, she surrendered gratefully.

The woman was still, no longer crawling across the floor to escape his onslaught. How long had she been like that? Still as death. Cudge backed away, stumbling over an overturned chair.

Incredulous, he looked down at his hands, just beginning to feel the tingle that preceded pain. He’d broken his little finger; it was sticking out at a crazy angle. Gritting his teeth, he straightened it and heard a sharp crack before it settled into place. Thinking he should wrap it to keep it in place, he searched the room, seeing one of the black stockings Candy had worn during her dance on Snookie’s bar. It was thin and long, suitable. Winding the nylon around his knuckles, he looked around for anything he might have left behind. Now he had to pick up his truck and make tracks.

He didn’t want to think about what he’d done to Candy. He didn’t want to think about anything. He’d have to keep his head, keep his temper under control. From now on, he promised himself, every move he made would be planned. He wouldn’t let the gate swing open again.

Davey woke slowly, trying to remember where he was. He opened his eyes to see Brenda still sleeping. Her arms were wrapped tightly around him. He had to go to the bathroom; it must be morning. He shouldn’t have stayed, but Brenda had been so scared; he had felt her heart pounding when she held him. He didn’t know what he had feared more: going off alone in the dark, or what the man would do if he found him.

He strained to see the hands on his watch. The big hand was on the seven and the little hand between the five and six. He felt confused, but knew he must leave the safety of the pop-up and try to find Aunt Lorrie. Through the mesh windows he could see daylight between the trees, streaking the sky a gunmetal gray. First, he had to go to the bathroom. He needed some food to take with him too, in case he got lost again. He had to be prepared. Should he wake Brenda and say goodbye? He should thank her for helping him.

Carefully and quietly, Davey inched from Elva’s arms and stood up. He held his breath when his foot touched his discarded leg brace alongside the small refrigerator. Should he put it on? Maybe Aunt Lorrie would feel better if he wore it. He struggled with the familiar straps, trying to be quiet. Wincing in discomfort when the padded straps touched his chafed ankle, he remembered to pull his sock up the way his aunt had shown him.

Hurry, hurry, he told himself. He looked at Brenda. He knew he should thank her but if he woke her up she might want to keep him with her the way she’d done the night before. Aunt Lorrie had told him once that sometimes the right thing to do was often the hardest. So it must be the right thing—to leave without thanking her, or saying goodbye.

The sound of a car coming close stopped him.

“Brenda, Brenda, wake up. He’s here. Wake up, please wake up,” Davey coaxed.

Elva sat up. “He’s here, Brenda. I heard the truck.”

“Oh, my God!” Holding Davey’s hand, she scrambled out of the camper. “Run, BJ, run!”

Davey didn’t hesitate. He was out of the camper and running as fast as his legs would carry him toward the trees. On and on he ran, the patch pockets of the red windbreaker ballooning. He fought for air as he staggered through the sodden leaves and twigs. It was good that they were wet and didn’t make any noise.

He needed to take off the brace; it was slowing him down. Could he stop? Did he have time? He had to stop. He had to take the time or the man would catch him. He sat down on a matted pile of leaves. The straps were tight and still damp from yesterday when he’d wet himself. The brace was always easier to put on than take off. There, it was off. He couldn’t take the time to appreciate how good it felt to have his leg free. He had to run. He had to run fast.

 

Cudge stood over Elva, his hands flexing as though working an invisible pair of grips. The long tendons in his forearms were hard and prominent under his skin. The meager light of early morning was behind him, throwing his silhouette into relief and hiding the brain-exploding rage on his blunt-featured face.

Elva backed away, shaking. She tried to tell herself that Cudge hadn’t seen BJ escape, but she knew that was just wishful thinking. His posture was threatening, lethal. But BJ was safe.

“What were you doing here with that kid? How long have you been hiding him?” Her father’s voice boomed in her ears, bouncing off her fear. She’d always been afraid of him, ever since she was a little girl. She’d never understood why Mama had married him or had children with him. There was no kindness in the man, only a love for the cheap hooch he bought in town.

“Papa, don’t. I didn’t do nothing wrong. Honest, I didn’t.”

She could smell the familiar liquor, sweet yet rancid, each time he exhaled. He’d been drinking again. There wasn’t food on the table, but the welfare check could buy hooch the same as it could buy food. Poor BJ. He was just a little boy and he needed milk, butter and eggs. Instead, all he got was thin potato soup made with dry skim milk. Poor BJ. All eyes, scared eyes, that watched the doorway waiting for Papa to come home. Praying he wouldn’t. And Mama, grim mouth, hunched shoulders, red hands from too much laundry and trying to keep the place clean.

Papa advanced on her, striking her in the thigh with his heavy boot. “How long have you been hiding that little bastard? You tell me or I’ll give it to you. I’ll finish you for good!”

The words were different, but they meant the same. Just like the night Papa had come home and heard BJ crying. BJ had never cried again. But Brenda—she had never stopped crying.

Elva was back in the poverty-ridden shack in the Pennsylvania foothills. The smell was the same. Liquor, dirt, fear. And the smell of dry urine from where little BJ slept. But this was the second chance she had always prayed for. BJ would be all right; she’d seen to it by making him run away.

She could hear the low intake of her father’s breath; it sounded like the growl of a beast. He moved toward her with sure, slow steps. She could sense his lust for the kill; she could almost taste it. An icy finger touched her shoulder, but she was too paralyzed to move, trapped in his gaze like a rabbit in the beam of a headlight. Somewhere in the back of her brain she heard her mother screaming: “Don’t touch my baby!”

His hands were in her hair, yanking her to her feet. “No! Leave her alone!”

With all the force she could muster, she kicked, aiming between his legs. She felt him flinch and heard his sudden gasp. He flung her from him, sending her on to the floor. The pop-up rocked wildly on its moorings as the world tilted before her.

Pop-up? This wasn’t Papa. Mama wasn’t screaming, those were her own screams. BJ was dead, long dead. Cowering in a corner beside the refrigerator, Elva shielded her head with her arms. This was Cudge and he was just like Papa. Nasty, mean—a killer. Before the cast-iron frying pan came crashing down on her, Elva had an insight that she’d never been quite able to put together before. She didn’t have to wonder any more why she stayed with Cudge—she knew. He was her punishment. She’d always known it would end like this. He was Papa all over again and, because he was, he gave her a certain security. Violence had been her birthright. And violence was Cudge. Through him, she would be able to pay for her sin of not saving BJ. She would die, just the way her little brother had died, and then her soul would be saved.

Her arms came away from her head. She allowed his weapon to fall, allowed herself to succumb to the blows. And always there was little BJ’s face, eyes watching, waiting for her.

 

The round, plastic disc on the zipper of his jacket bounced against his neck as Davey ran through the woods, his breathing harsh and ragged. Faster, his mind screamed, don’t let him get you. You have to find Aunt Lorrie. He was getting tired. And then he heard the words, and his Reeboks picked up speed.

“I’ll get you, you little bastard,” the man yelled. “You ain’t getting away from me!”

The trees were thinning so it was easier to run between them. Perspiration streamed down Davey’s forehead as he staggered ahead. It was so hard to breathe. Maybe he could hide somewhere and wait till he felt better, just a little while. No, he couldn’t stop. If he did, the man would find him and kill him. If only Duffy were here. If only Aunt Lorrie were here. But they weren’t—he was alone, and he had to find Duffy and Aunt Lorrie all by himself.

Saliva formed in the corners of his mouth as he heard curses coming from his left. His gasping breaths were making too much noise; his hand over his mouth to seal in the harsh sounds, Davey floundered ahead. He was slowing down now and tears of frustration gathered in his eyes. He stopped and listened to the early morning stillness. He was at the edge of the woods; ahead was a row of young trees then an open field. Davey looked ahead then back behind him. If he went across the field, he would be out in the open. If he stayed where he was, the man would catch him. Hide, he thought. He had to hide for a little while and rest. Davey looked around. There was no hiding place among the saplings.

Quickly he veered off his straight path, almost backtracking, but to the right. Hardly daring to breathe, he crouched down behind a wide tree and clamped one hand over his mouth to still his harsh gasps. His other hand fumbled with the zipper on his windbreaker. His eyes closed as he anticipated the sound the zipper would make as he pulled it down. It moved down but got stuck in the metal at the end. He needed two hands to make the jacket open. A second was all he needed, but he had to decide which was more important—keeping his hand over his mouth or getting rid of the red jacket. He crouched lower against the tree trunk. He crossed his fingers then yanked at the plastic disc and struggled out of the jacket, careful to make no sound. What should he do with the jacket? Mom would be mad if he left it behind. She always said you had to value your things and take care of them. He looked at his Reeboks. He might get away with the ruined sneakers, but not the jacket as well. He had to take it with him. If only it wasn’t red. He looked at it with disgust and saw that the inside was brown. Dirt brown. He pulled the sleeves inside out and put the jacket back on. Now he blended in with the forest colors. The man would have to have real good eyes to find him. He felt confident as he started out again, but a sharp noise close ahead made him drop to the ground.

“I know you’re here somewhere, you little twerp. I seen your jacket. You ain’t gonna get away from me this time. I took care of Elva, and now I’m gonna take care of you.”

Davey flinched. The voice was so close, almost at his head. The tone changed from threatening to cajoling. “You know I’m gonna catch you, so you might as well come out from wherever you’re hiding. You come out now, and I’ll take you to your folks. I’m gonna count to three, and you come out, okay?”

Davey remained still. The man was lying. He was trying to trick him, to make him come out, and then . . .

“One, two, three. Okay, you had your chance!”

Sounds of crashing and swearing fell on Davey’s ears. How close the man must be. Davey was shaking with fear. He didn’t dare lift his head or make any movement at all. It was a good thing he’d turned his jacket inside out. Gradually, the sounds grew quieter, as if the man were moving farther away, but his curses and threats could still be heard. Davey lifted his head and risked a look; there was no one staring back at him. A long sigh escaped him.

He struggled to his feet and looked at his watch. The little hand was on the seven and the big hand on the twelve. Seven o’clock, he told himself. Seven o’clock in the morning. If he were at home, Mom and Dad would be in the kitchen eating breakfast. He wished he’d had time to take one of the cupcakes out of the bag on the refrigerator before he left the pop-up. But he couldn’t think about food now. He had to get out of the woods and find a road where there were cars.

Davey trudged back through the woods. The man had gone in the other direction, so he didn’t feel he had to run. His legs ached furiously, and the knee that needed the brace kept bending when he put his weight on it. His hands were scratched and bleeding, and he could feel where the side of his face had scraped into a tree. Touching it lightly, he brought droplets of blood away on his fingertips. When had he had his last shot? Was it still working? Would the bleeding stop? His ankles and knees felt tender. Was it from running, or was it like before he started the shots?

Painfully tired and frightened, Davey hid in the brush under the trees. He would sit there and listen, watchful for the bad man. Lying on his belly, head cradled in his arms, he tried to stay awake.