Chapter 2
“To the ceiling!”
“What are you so happy about, Amelia?”
“I think I’m falling in love.”
“What?”
“Surprised?”
“Not with that transit I hope?”
“Vidalia, we’ve gone over this. And who else would it be?”
“A girl can dream, can’t she?”
“He is my dream.”
“Gag. Seriously.”
“You don’t even know him.”
“How could I? He’s not online. I didn’t even know there were stags our age who would opt to be offline. Maybe it’s a punishment.”
“Punishment? He does everything right.”
“Like what?”
“Like the way he kissed me.”
“Like in the wedding photos parents keep?”
“Like that, but different.”
“What, the drop didn’t know what he was doing?”
“No, I think he knew more. He kissed me with his tongue.”
“What kind of sickness is that? He must be a transit. Hungry or something.”
“It felt like hunger. Gave me an appetite for more.”
“More what?”
“More tongue. I started kissing him back with mine. I pressed his body against mine and asked him not to stop.”
“Did he think you were crazy?”
“No, he loved it.”
“How do you know?”
“I felt something.”
“Something what?”
“Something urgent.”
“Where he’s getting this spam? Sounds like residual, physical junk from the pre-digital age. Couldn’t he just send you some emoticon flowers so you wouldn’t have to risk getting picked up by the patrol or harassed by a transit?”
“I told you, he’s offline.”
“I’d say so: offline and off reason.”
“Reason isn’t everything.”
“Now you’re talking like a rebel.”
“I’m not a rebel. I’m just in love.”
“I’m going to gag, Amelia. You haven’t even told me his name.”
“His name is Marco. Marco DiBlasi. And his parents are tailors. They custom make. He’s got roots. No transit. Just cutting his own path.”
“I’d say. Where’s he come up with sticking his tongue and meeting out? Must have been cold out there without radiant.”
“Radiant is overrated. You can live without it. Plus it’s still summer.”
“What kind of jib is that?”
“You know how when there’s a power outage parents never mind it as much as their child?”
“Yeah, so what? That’s just poker face.”
“Marco says parents make their own radiant. Body-to-body keeps them warm undercover where they sleep skin to skin.”
“You mean like when they’re making their child?”
“He says they do it other times. After civil union they receive a tutorial on the subject. Parents download things students can’t learn online.”
“Everything worth knowing is online.”
“That’s not what Marco says.”
“Stop it with that Marco says jib. I’m not even convinced he’s real. You get a digital of him?”
“I had my mini, the camera app works outside, but he didn’t want to risk the flash. Patrols everywhere, and it’s against his code: no technology.”
“Then how do you plan your meets?”
"We don’t. We have a place. After nightfall, if he’s there and I’m there, then we meet.”
“What kind of boy or man or whatever he is sends his court out at the risk of falling prey to transits?”
“There aren’t as many out there as you think. I think the rumors are designed to keep us scared of going out. Plus, Marco found a location close to my tower.”
“Then why come back in? Why not become transitory?”
“Outside scares just the same. And I don’t need your sarcasm. Wild grass everywhere, the flapping of birds. We meet in what Marco calls the parking lot of an old ship center, where people used to buy product, this one waiting to be turned into a new cluster of towers. Out of the pavement, grass grows tall from every crack. Sometimes you can’t see anything else around you. When the patrol passes by, footsteps scramble in every direction.”
“So there are transits?”
“Maybe some.”
“I hope you kept your clothes on.”
“He says we should wait before taking them off: some courtship ritual from the days of love marriage before testing and parental approval. He read about it in a paper book.”
“I thought they were all gone?”
“There used to be a bookstore or something above his parents’ flat. Some guy collected things. That’s where Marco does his reading. Where he learns.”
“Like how to stick his tongue in your mouth?”
“You should try it.”
“How?”
“Try it on some stag during next year’s dance.”
“Long way off.”
“Then try your own tongue on the back of your hand.”
“Why?”
"To see how it feels. Should give you an idea. That’s how I practice for Marco.”
“Then what?”
“Then you’ll know appetite: what it’s like to hunger for another person.”
“Why not hunger for tomorrow’s ship?”
“Because tomorrow’s ship won’t be that different from today’s: fruits and vegetables, powdered milk and juice, prepared proteins, a sweet, and some vitamins. Maybe a new shirt or a pair of pants, sanitary papers.”
“Isn’t that the point of the actuator: predictability, convenience, efficiency?”
“Not if you want to try something new.”
“Why waste an allotment on something you may not like?”
“Intuition.”
"Into what?”
“Try kissing the back of your hand. Might give you the idea. What it’s like to want what you’ve never had. To want the real before you taste it. To imagine another body pressed against yours.”
“If real time is so much better, why you texting?”
“Feels more real after I write you. Feels too good, like a dream, before that.”
“Maybe Marco is a dream. Some advanced simulation planted by a fringe hacker, snuck into your subconscious subliminally during a web search. Then manifested as a dream.”
“Not the way my heart pounded or the way sweat poured when the patrol almost nabbed us: their lights were everywhere, birds rising up from the weeds. Marco’s eyes went wide. He told me to run. Gave me a warning: if I go back to our meet in a few nights and he’s not there, then the patrol is on to us. Marco will leave me a sign, a trail to follow.”
“What sign?”
“You’ll keep it hush?”
“Why would I spill?”
“Could get us both in trouble for defying the rationale: you for just talking about going outdoors without a license. They could tag us as conspirators.”
“Don’t you think I know that? My parents would pull me offline for weeks. I’d lose half my following. I’ve got plans for some funny posts. I think most of my friends will be dropping raves.”
“Then keep it hush.”
“Why take the risk of telling me?”
“Because you asked.”
“Tell me straight, Amelia. Why take the risk?”
“Because a girl never knows.”
“Never knows what?”
“That intuition thing.”
“Sounds like you just want to tell.”
“To kiss and tell, I guess.”
“What’s that?”
“A practice disfavored in one of those books. Marco said I shouldn’t, but telling you makes it feel more real. I’m only sharing with you. Marco knows that. He says I’ve been online too long. That if I go offline I’ll become more like him.”
“So, you’d be betraying his code by telling me?”
“He knows I’m not offline yet. He understands where I am.”
“Then lay it on me”
“His tag is @.”
“The ‘at’ symbol?”
“That.”
“Where’s he come up with this stuff?”
"Marco’s not even his regression name.”
“Sounds like a transit move.”
“He says we should choose our own first names, that we lose our humanity when regression picks one for us.”
“How else could we avoid redundancy? There are only so many last names left, and we keep those to avoid genetic union.”
“Mine is now Emmy.”
“Emmy Lee?”
“That.”
“What was wrong with the name Amelia?”
“It wasn’t mine.”
“Well, I’m sticking with Vidalia. The Palmer is enough to know where I come from.”
“Like one of those wedding pictures in your parents’ hall?”
“Yeah, sans tongue.”
“Marco’s parents met offline before testing and parental approval became part of the rationale.”
“Figures. Transits beget transits.”
“Enough already.”
“d^_^b”
“Always comes to that.”
“Can’t hear you, Amelia.”
“We’re chatting. You don’t need to hear me.”
“Well we can’t all fill ours day with :-* after :-*.”
“It’s usually at night.”
“d^_^b”
“Later, Vidalia.”
“Maybe.”
“Come on.”
“You’re freaking me out.”
“Don’t knock it till you try it.”
“I don’t kiss transits: with or without tongue. Besides, I’m listening to tunes.”
“I got that the first two times.”
“New tunes earned from receiving high marks. Wait till you enter your junior year of college, and they start incentivizing. You’ll see how serious studies become.”
“Priorities. I get it.”
“Then don’t make me cut the connection.”
“Later, Vidalia.”
“d^_^b”
“d^_^b”
“There you go: back to normal, finally.”
“Love . . . ”
“Don’t say it.”
“Songs.”