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There is a pub on campus, the Town and Gown, a modernistic place done in oiled pinewood; here students meet students, and faculty faculty, and faculty students, and students faculty, and they sit at very littered tables, in the crush, with the noise of reggae music from the jukebox loud in their ears, and discuss very open and discussable affairs, such as term papers, union politics, theses, colleagues, abortions, demonstrations, and sexual and matrimonial difficulties. But for matters of a more confidential or a more furtive kind, for caucuses, small liaisons, large conspiracies, or the resolution of serious methodological questions, it is customary to go off campus; and there are, nearby, two familiar and well-known pubs with a straightforward atmosphere and a number of convenient corners. Howard names one of these pubs; but Henry, it seems, has other ideas. ‘Look,’ he says, ‘why don’t we go to my local?’ ‘You have a local?’ asks Howard. ‘Well, I always pop into the Duke of Wellington for a drink on my way home,’ says Henry, ‘it’s a good place for a serious talk.’ The good place for a serious talk is down in the city; it smells of warm scampi and has a natty clientele dressed by Austin Reed and Howard has never entered it. ‘Very well, Henry,’ says Howard, ‘let’s go to my car.’ The rain blows over them as they enter the exposure of the car park, flapping Henry’s bandages. They get in the minivan and drive off, with Henry’s arm stiffly out ahead of him. As they go down the long approach road, Howard can look back, in the mirror, and see the campus behind him, a massive urban construct, lit with spots and flashes, throwing out beams and rays in the half-light, the image of an intellectual factory of high production and a twenty-four hour schedule. To each side of them, behind the wet trees, are the round porthole lights of Spengler and Toynbee, each window with its own diaphanous, indeed transparent, blind, each one in a different and pure colour, each presenting to the eye a penetrable circular blob, one found of great fascination by many citizens of Watermouth, who can walk a dog by night and see, focused in these elegant, composed circles, as in the lens of a camera, the shimmering image of a student, undressing. At the end of the drive, Howard turns the van left, on the main road, and drives them towards the town centre.

It was at 17.30 that Benita Pream’s alarm clock pinged, to announce the end of the department meeting. It is just striking six, on the brass-faced grandfather clock that stands in the hall, as they enter the Duke of Wellington. ‘I think you’ll find this a nice ambience, Howard,’ says Henry, as they go into the Gaslight Room, brightly lit by electricity and done out in camp Victorian detail. ‘Well, well, well,’ says the barmaid, who has somehow been persuaded into wearing a long Victorian dress with a lace neck, ‘you’ve been in the wars, haven’t you, Mr Beamish?’ ‘Two pints of bitter,’ says Henry, standing at the counter, his raincoat fastened Napoleonically under his chin, his white bandaged arm sticking out stiffly below. ‘Have I?’ ‘Looks as though you’ve been in a real punch-up,’ says the barmaid, ‘tankards or glasses?’ ‘Tankards, I think,’ says Henry. ‘No, I’m fine. I just had a bit of an accident.’ Behind Chloë is a large mirror; in the mirror are etched, for the solace of contemporary man, the firm, delicate lines of Paxton’s building for the Crystal Palace Exhibition of 1851, upon which is imposed the reflection of the plushy room. ‘It looks quite a lot of an accident to me,’ says Chloë, pulling the handle, and beaming at Howard, ‘lucky you’ve got a friend here to look after you.’ ‘Oh, this is Mr Kirk,’ says Henry, ‘yes, he’s looking after me.’ ‘There we are, then,’ says Chloë, ‘two pints, anything else?’ ‘I think we might have a packet of cheese and onion crisps,’ says Henry. ‘I wonder, Howard, would you be good enough to reach into my left-hand trouser pocket and get out my money? I’ve put it on the wrong side of me, for some reason.’ ‘You be careful,’ says Chloë, ‘you’ll get your friend arrested.’ ‘Never mind, I’ll get it,’ says Howard. ‘I protest,’ says Henry, ‘I invited you here as my guest.’ ‘You get the next one,’ says Howard. ‘Shall we sit down?’ asks Henry, attempting to lift up the two pint tankards from the bar in his single hand, and spilling a considerable quantity of the beer down his trousers. ‘Let me,’ says Howard. ‘Do you want the evening paper tonight, Mr Beamish?’ asks Chloë, as they move away from the bar. ‘I always read the paper here,’ says Henry to Howard. ‘Not tonight, I think, Chloë. I’ve some important business to discuss.’ ‘I see they went and hijacked another,’ says Chloë, ‘I don’t know what it’s all coming to.’

‘Ah, the world, the world,’ says Henry vaguely, putting the packet of crisps between his teeth, ‘if only people could learn to live together.’ ‘That’s right, Mr Beamish,’ says Chloë, ‘not what it was, is it? Except for the sex. That’s improved, definitely.’ ‘And the surgery,’ says Henry, through clenched teeth, starting to move unsteadily across the room with his glass, ‘there are real advances in surgery.’ ‘Well,’ says Chloë with a laugh, ‘I’m afraid you look as though you need them, Mr Beamish, tonight.’ ‘Grand girl, Chloë,’ says Henry, as they sit down in a lush plush booth across the room, overhung with an aspidistra, ‘they know me here, you see.’ ‘Yes,’ says Howard. ‘Nice place,’ says Henry, ‘the landlord’s an old military man. I suppose it’s not your sort of thing really.’ ‘Not exactly,’ says Howard, ‘what did you want to talk to me about?’ ‘Oh,’ says Henry, ‘yes. Well, Howard, I wanted to have a little word with you about last night.’ ‘The party,’ says Howard. ‘Yes,’ says Henry, ‘the party. I wonder, Howard, would you mind, I can’t open this packet of crisps.’ ‘There we are,’ says Howard. ‘Rather a chapter of accidents for me, I’m afraid,’ says Henry, ‘I got there late, then I got bitten, and then I broke your window. I’m extremely sorry.’ ‘You needn’t worry,’ says Howard, ‘things break at parties.’ ‘I’m afraid Myra was rather drunk too,’ says Henry, ‘not our evening, all round.’ ‘People drink at parties, too,’ says Howard, ‘but was there something wrong last night?’ ‘I wouldn’t say wrong,’ says Henry, ‘but it’s not like us, is it?’ ‘I suppose not, Henry,’ says Howard. ‘Anyway,’ says Henry, ‘the main thing I wanted to ask you is this. Would you let me pay for that window to be mended?’ ‘Yes,’ says Howard. ‘Good,’ says Henry, looking brighter, ‘well, that’s settled, then. The lavatories are through that door over there, if you want them.’

‘Henry,’ says Howard, ‘what happened to you last night?’ ‘I had twenty-seven stitches,’ says Henry, ‘very nice Indian doctor. Quite good English.’ ‘But how did it happen that you cut yourself like that?’ ‘Aha,’ says Henry, ‘now there’s a question. I’ve been thinking about that a lot. I slipped, you see, and put out my arm to save myself, and shoved it through your window. But it can’t have been as simple as that.’ ‘No,’ says Howard. ‘No,’ says Henry, ‘I think there was a piece of ice. I think someone must have had ice in his drink, and dropped it on the floor, and I stepped on it. I don’t mean dropped it deliberately. I mean, I was to blame, of course. Of course I was a bit unsteady, after the dogbite.’ ‘You didn’t mean to fall through the window?’ Henry stares at Howard; he says, ‘No, heavens, no. Why should I do that?’ ‘You do have a lot of accidents,’ says Howard, ‘doesn’t it worry you?’ ‘I’m a very clumsy person, Howard. I’m big and a bit top-heavy. I blame it on not playing games at school. They wouldn’t let me, you know, after the beri-beri.’ ‘You had beri-beri?’ ‘Haven’t I told you?’ asks Henry, ‘Oh, yes. A nasty attack.’ ‘Where was this?’ asks Howard. ‘Huddersfield,’ says Henry. ‘But, look, as a professional social psychologist, haven’t you ever wondered how you got into this accident pattern?’ ‘Well, it’s not my line, really, is it?’ says Henry, ‘I’m more a social control and delinquency man. I admit there’s an inexplicable statistical frequency.’ ‘Two last night,’ says Howard. ‘Yes,’ says Henry, ‘it makes you think. I suppose you’re asking me if I’m drinking too much, or on drugs. The answer’s no. I didn’t touch drugs last night, I don’t get on with them. And I didn’t get much to drink, either. If you remember I got to the party very late. When I walked home from the university to drive Myra back to the party, I found she’d already gone in the car. So of course I had to walk back all the way into town again, took me more than an hour. Then the dog bit me as soon as I got there, and I was ages in the bathroom, soaking my leg in antiseptic. And then I can’t have had more than two glasses of wine at the most, Howard, before I went into the guest bedroom, to change my socks, and I thought I’d open the window, and I put my arm through it. So it’s not that. Have a crisp?’ ‘No, thank you,’ says Howard.

‘It doesn’t give way to analysis, does it?’ asks Henry. ‘It was funny. It didn’t hurt at first, but then I realized you could die from a cut like that, so I thought I’d better yell for help. And then Flora turned up; wasn’t she marvellous? Well, I suppose things like that happen at parties, as you say. We like to read something into it, that’s our line, but nothing stands up. It really was just a bit of an accident.’ ‘Henry, you weren’t upset last night?’ asks Howard, looking at Henry’s bland face. ‘I was shaken by the dogbite,’ says Henry, ‘but not especially.’ ‘I think I’m more worried about you than you are by yourself,’ says Howard. ‘Well, that’s very nice of you, Howard,’ says Henry, ‘but I shouldn’t bother.’ ‘Well, that could have been fatal,’ says Howard. ‘You’ve got plenty going on yourself to worry about,’ says Henry, ‘from all I hear.’ ‘I have known you for a long time,’ says Howard, ‘I remember when I first met you.’ ‘My God, yes,’ says Henry, ‘yes. Some boys had just knocked me down with a football. I’d told them to get off the university playing fields, because they were private property, and they flung a football at me. You picked me up.’ ‘You had accidents even then,’ says Howard. ‘Look,’ says Henry, ‘I don’t like you being so worried about me. Do you think I did it on purpose?’ ‘What’s purpose?’ asks Howard. ‘I think you might have had good reason to be distressed.’ ‘What reason?’ asks Henry. ‘Wasn’t there a reason, last night?’ asks Howard. ‘Look,’ says Henry, ‘I want to know just what you’re getting at.’ ‘You don’t know what I’m getting at?’ ‘No,’ says Henry, ‘stop being so bloody mysterious.’ ‘Well,’ says Howard, ‘when you went home, and Myra wasn’t there, did you know where she’d gone?’ ‘Of course,’ says Henry, ‘she left me a note, she always leaves me a note. On the mantelpiece. She’d gone to you.’ ‘Do you know why?’ ‘Yes,’ says Henry, ‘it said in the note. To give Barbara a hand. She worries about how much Barbara has on her plate. We both do. Didn’t she come?’ ‘Oh, yes,’ says Howard. ‘There we are, then,’ says Henry, ‘what’s all that got to do with it?’

‘We thought she was upset,’ says Howard. ‘Grand girl, Myra,’ says Henry. ‘She’s had a bad summer of it, actually. This book of mine has decidedly not gone well. I’ve had what they call writer’s block. The words won’t come. Of course, charisma’s a difficult concept. And I’m perhaps a bit out of touch with new developments. You get that way, at our age. Lose the spark, go a bit dead. You know what I mean. Did she talk about that at all?’ Howard looks at Henry’s face, which has acquired a small moustache of froth from the beer, but seems free of all calculation, and says: ‘Yes, she did.’ ‘I’m sure it helps her to chat,’ says Henry, ‘she needs someone to take an interest. Not that I don’t. But she’s exhausted me. And to be frank I’m under the weather, rather, Howard. Not at my best. Did she say I was under the weather?’ ‘Yes,’ says Howard. ‘I see,’ says Henry. ‘You had quite a talk then.’ ‘Yes,’ says Howard. ‘Oh, well,’ says Henry, ‘is that why you wondered about me last night?’ ‘Yes,’ says Howard. ‘Did she say anything else about me?’ asks Henry. ‘She said that your marriage wasn’t going too well,’ says Howard. ‘Did she?’ says Henry. ‘Well, as I say, it’s not been a good summer. And the book hasn’t helped. Books make you withdrawn. But it’s nothing serious.’ ‘She thought it was,’ says Howard. ‘Isn’t she thinking of leaving you?’ ‘Is she?’ asks Henry. ‘Didn’t she tell you?’ asks Howard. ‘Don’t you know?’ ‘No,’ says Henry. ‘Is that what she told you?’ ‘Would it be a surprise?’ asks Howard. ‘Not entirely,’ says Henry, ‘Myra’s unhappy, you have to understand that. I’m not entirely good with her. I don’t give her all she needs from life. She gets unhappy, and telephones people. Talks to them about us. Sometimes she goes out and buys a new thing, a new Miele dishwasher or something. Because all the girls, what she calls the girls, in her set round the village are buying Miele dishwashers. Sometimes she talks of separating. Because all the girls at the uni, what she calls the uni, in her set talk about separating. It’s a kind of fashionable female preoccupation. The wives all seem to be doing it. They want a lot, and we can’t give it them, the kind of sex and attention they’re after. I’ll have to go soon. Have you got time for a quick one before we take off, Howard?’

‘All right,’ says Howard. ‘Get the money out of my pocket,’ says Henry. ‘Never mind,’ says Howard. ‘Have it, Howard,’ says Henry, reaching across himself, and pulling the contents of his left-hand pocket out over the bench and the floor. ‘There we are.’ Howard picks up some coins and goes over to the bar, where Chloë stands in her Victoriana. ‘Another two pints,’ he says. ‘One of my best, Mr Beamish,’ says Chloë, pulling on the handle, ‘in here every night. Fit as a fiddle, yesterday, he was.’ Howard lifts the drinks and carries them back across the room; when he gets back to the red plush seat, Henry, picking up his coins, raises his face, and Howard notices that, tucked into the indentation at the corner of his nose, there resides a small tear. ‘Thank you,’ says Henry. ‘All right?’ asks Howard. ‘You must excuse me for responding to the situation we’ve described with my usual inadequacy,’ says Henry. ‘Of course, she is upset. Or she wouldn’t have come to you. I mean, you’re in it professionally, aren’t you, the separation business. Myra always talks about how Barbara left you in Leeds. An act of heroism, she says.’ ‘She did mention that,’ says Howard. ‘She discussed it all then, did she?’ asks Henry, ‘I think that’s a very bad sign.’ ‘She seems very unhappy,’ says Howard. ‘I know,’ says Henry, ‘I can see it from her point of view. What’s the matter with Myra is me.’ ‘Not exactly,’ says Howard, ‘it’s both of you. Myra’s just beginning to realize what you’ve both chosen to miss.’ ‘Oh, yes,’ says Henry, ‘and what’s that?’ ‘Well, Myra can see it,’ says Howard. ‘You’ve withdrawn too far. You’ve closed in on yourselves, you’ve lost touch with everything, you’ve no outside contacts, and so when anything goes wrong you blame it on each other. What you’re doing is trapping each other in fixed personality roles. You can’t grow, you can’t expand, you can’t let each other develop. You’re stuck out there, in your little nest, out of time, out of history, and you’re missing out on possibility.’

‘I see,’ says Henry. ‘Is that what you told Myra?’ ‘There wasn’t much time to tell Myra anything,’ says Howard, ‘the party started. But it’s what Myra sees.’ ‘Yes, it’s what she expects you to tell her,’ says Henry. ‘Find someone else, try new positions, start swinging.’ ‘Myra’s growing up,’ says Howard. ‘Is that growing up?’ asks Henry. ‘Look, Howard, we’re in different worlds now, you and I. I don’t agree with you. I don’t see things like that, I’m at odds with it.’ ‘I don’t think Myra is,’ says Howard. Henry looks at Howard. He says: ‘No. That’s why it’s such a betrayal for her to come and talk to you.’ ‘But perhaps talking to me is the only way she can talk to you,’ says Howard. ‘To say what?’ asks Henry. ‘If Myra wants to talk to me, I’m there. We sit across the dinner table from each other every evening. We lie in bed together every night.’ ‘Most beds aren’t as intimate as people think they are,’ says Howard. ‘You’ve always seemed to like them,’ says Henry. ‘I don’t understand it. Is she leaving me, or isn’t she?’ ‘I think she was, last night,’ says Howard. ‘Isn’t it usual, in these things, to indicate one’s intentions to the partner one leaves behind? I mean, leave a note on the mantelpiece or something?’ ‘Perhaps talking to us was the note on the mantelpiece,’ says Howard. ‘But she’s back there at the farmhouse, cooking steak,’ says Henry. ‘I think she is.’ ‘Things have happened, since then,’ says Howard. ‘Ah, I see,’ says Henry, ‘you think she was leaving me last night, and my accident changed her mind. If it was an accident.’ ‘That’s right,’ says Howard. ‘So it’s a temporary stay of execution.’ ‘Unless you stop her, talk to her,’ says Howard. ‘I suppose,’ says Henry, ‘I could go and have another accident.’ ‘You know,’ says Howard, ‘I thought this was what you wanted to talk to me about this evening.’ ‘Oh, no,’ says Henry, ‘you don’t understand. You’re the last person I’d want to talk to about this. It’s nothing personal, I grant you your point of view. I just don’t believe in your solutions.’

‘But you believe in the problems,’ says Howard. ‘God,’ says Henry, ‘the Kirk consultancy parlour. I’m out of all that now. I had enough of it in Leeds. I’ve stopped wanting to stand up and forge history with my penis. And I’m rather sick of the great secular dominion of liberation and equality we were on about then, which reduces, when you think about it, to putting system over people and producing large piles of corpses. I think Ireland’s really done the trick for me, turned me sour on all those words like “anti-fascism” and “anti-imperialism” we always used. I don’t want to blame anybody now, or take anything off anyone. The only thing that matters for me is attachment to other knowable people, and the gentleness of relationship.’ ‘Well, that’s what we all want, isn’t it?’ asks Howard, ‘sweetness and light and plenty of Mozart. But we can’t have it, and you can hardly sit back and rest on your own record. If that’s life, Henry, you’re not very good at it, are you?’ ‘No,’ says Henry, ‘that’s the whole sad little comedy. The personal, which is what I believe in, I can’t bloody well manage. I’m stuck. And that’s why it’s no use your worrying about me. I don’t want my soul saved. I don’t want to be grist to the historical mill.’ ‘But what about Myra?’ asks Howard. ‘Right,’ says Henry. ‘Myra is the optimum point of suffering that arises. I’m a disaster for her. I know it. I look at her, and the feeling I count on doesn’t come: the love, the enormity of otherness, I’m after and can’t get. There are occasional cheap sparks: some student with nice legs comes alive in the chair in front of me, or the nagging caring about Myra, which is a sort of love. I wish the funds were there, I’d like to spend them on her, but they’re not. Well, it’s not hard to provide a psychological profile or a political explanation for all this. Actually I can probably do it nearly as well as you can, Howard. Or could, if we were talking about someone else. But in this case it’s me. And there’s not much help for being that, thanks, Howard. I do appreciate your thinking about me.’ ‘You mean you’ll let Myra go,’ says Howard. ‘Isn’t that what you’d advise her to do, anyway?’ asks Henry. ‘And me to find someone else?’ ‘I suppose so,’ says Howard.

Just then Henry looks up, and stares, and says: ‘My God, look at the time. I promised Myra I’d be home at seven to eat her steak. I can’t tell you the row there’ll be if I’m late.’ There is an old railway station clock over the bar, which says that the time is six forty-five. ‘I’ve got a busy evening too,’ says Howard, ‘we’d better rush.’ ‘Howard, would you mind doing up my top button again?’ says Henry, and Howard fastens the button, and helps Henry up from the bench. ‘Goodnight, Chloë,’ calls Henry, as they hurry out of the Gaslight Room. ‘Night night, Mr Beamish,’ calls Chloë. ‘Take care, don’t have another accident.’ They go through the cold car park to the van, and get in, and Howard drives them out onto the main road and out toward the countryside. They go at speed through the rurality of Henry’s kingdom, down narrow lanes, covered in big wet leaves, through fords, over small bridges, down rutted tracks. Dark creaking branches lean over the van; the wheels slip and skid; small animals appear under the wheels and force them to swerve. The cart-track to the farmhouse is on a high bank, but they reach it safely. Stopping the van, Howard can see that, in the kitchen, where he had eaten cheese and biscuits with Myra on the evening when Henry was out, there is a light. ‘Come inside a minute and have a word with Myra,’ says Henry, getting out of the van, his briefcase clutched in his good hand. ‘She seems to be in.’ And surely enough the back door opens, and there is Myra, in an apron, standing on the steps; she waves to Howard. ‘Tell her I’d have liked to,’ says Howard, ‘but I’m late myself, I have to rush.’ ‘Well, look, Howard,’ says Henry, leaning his head in through the van window, ‘I just want to say that I really do appreciate it. Our talk, and the lift. And don’t forget to send me the bill for the window.’ ‘I won’t,’ says Howard, ‘Can you just see me back to turn?’ ‘You’ve got two feet,’ says Henry, going behind the van. ‘Come on, come on.’ It is fortunately not a bad bump, and Henry is only slightly grazed on his good hand, the hand that he has put out to save himself as he falls forward onto the gravel as the van topples him. Happily there is Myra to pick him up, and dust him down. ‘He’s all right,’ she says in through the van window, ‘Christ, would you believe it.’ Turning the van, Howard sees them, momentarily, inside the kitchen, apparently in a quarrel, as he sets his wheels on the high bank.

The busy evening lies ahead; he drives down the rutted tracks, over the small bridges, through fords, down narrow lanes, covered in big wet leaves. It was just on seven when he reached the farmhouse; it is just on seven fifteen as, following the street markings, responding to the red and green lights, he pulls the van into the decrepit terrace. He parks, and hurries indoors. In the kitchen is a domestic scene. Felicity Phee has come, and ‘I don’t know how all those dirty glasses got there in the sink,’ is what Barbara is saying to her. ‘You want me to wash them, Mrs Kirk,’ says Felicity. ‘Well, it would be marvellous if you could, after you’ve got the kids in bed. It’s usually a bath night for them,’ says Barbara. ‘You want me to bath them, Mrs Kirk,’ says Felicity. ‘Would you like to?’ asks Barbara. ‘You’re all set up, I see,’ says Howard. ‘I’m sorry I’m late. I had to take Henry home. He came without a car.’ ‘The selfless service you perform,’ says Barbara, ‘it never ceases to astound. I gather you’re right off out again.’ ‘I have to go to a meeting,’ says Howard, ‘a psychological meeting. Everything all right, Felicity?’ ‘Yes,’ says Felicity, ‘I got here early, and Mrs Kirk and I got everything sorted out. It’s really great to be in a real house. I just love it.’ ‘Fine,’ says Howard, ‘can I give you a lift to your class, Barbara?’ ‘No,’ says Barbara, pulling on her coat, ‘I’ll find my own way. Well, well, a psychological meeting.’ ‘A physiological meeting might have been a truer description,’ says Flora Beniform, her naked body raised above him, her dark brown hair down over her face, her strong features staring down at his face on the pillow, while the clock in her white bedroom records the time as seven forty-five, ‘but it’s a familiar type of displacement syndrome.’ ‘I like to think it’s a psychological meeting as well,’ says Howard, looking up at her. ‘So do I, Howard, so do I,’ says Flora, ‘but I begin to wonder about you. I think you enjoy deceptions, and I don’t.’ ‘I just try to make things interesting,’ says Howard. ‘Oh, you’re heavy.’ ‘Too fat?’ asks Flora. ‘No,’ says Howard, ‘I like it.’

Around them is Flora’s white bedroom, which has long, deep windows and fitted wardrobes, and one picture, a large, steel-framed print of a Modigliani nude, and two small chairs, on which their two piles of clothes have been neatly stacked; they have hastened into the bed, but Flora maintains in all these things a certain orderliness. And now on the bed they lie, dipping and jogging in a steady rhythm; Flora’s big bed is fitted with a motorized health vibrator, her one great opulence. ‘Mangel,’ says Flora, moving about him, above him, ‘I’m disgusted about Mangel.’ ‘Don’t talk, Flora,’ says Howard. ‘There’s no hurry,’ says Flora, ‘you’ve got until nine o’clock. Besides, you don’t come to my bed just for the fun of it. You have to give a reckoning.’ ‘No, Flora,’ says Howard, ‘do that more. It’s marvellous. You’re marvellous, Flora.’ ‘You lied to me,’ says Flora, looking down at him fiercely from her eminence, ‘didn’t you?’ ‘When?’ ‘This morning in your room,’ says Flora. ‘How?’ asks Howard. ‘By not telling me what you knew. By not giving me all the truth.’ ‘There’s so much truth to tell,’ says Howard brightly. ‘I don’t know why I let you come this evening,’ says Flora. ‘You haven’t let me come,’ says Howard. Flora giggles, and says, ‘Come to see me.’ ‘You did it because you wanted to find out the rest,’ says Howard. ‘Which is, of course, why I didn’t tell you the rest.’ ‘Oh, yes?’ says Flora, ‘well tell me one thing …’ ‘Sssshhhhh,’ says Howard. ‘At a really good psychological meeting, the main business comes first, and then the question period afterward.’ ‘All right, Howard,’ says Flora. ‘All right, Howard.’ And she weaves above him, her breasts dipping, her ribcage tight. Her body is there once and then twice, three times, because it is shadowed high on the wall and the curtains and the ceiling, in shapes thrown by the two small lights on the tables at either side of the bed. The shapes, the formidable body and its shadows, move rhythmically, as the bed does; the pulses of self in Howard’s body beat hard; and time, at seven fifty-two, on Tuesday 3 October, pings like Benita Pream’s alarm clock, comes to a point, distils, explodes; and then spreads and diffuses, becomes flaccid and ordinary and contingent time again, as Flora’s head drops forward onto Howard’s chest, and her body collapses over him, and the clock ticks emptily away on the table next to his sweating head.

The bed moves slowly, lazily under them. After a while, Flora’s body slides off his, and comes to rest at his side, tucked in, delicately connected. Their sweat is ceasing, their pulses are slowing, the shadows are still. They lie there together. There is Flora, with Howard’s left hand on her large right breast, her body long and solid, with dark hair, Flora with her doctorate from Heidelberg, and her famous little book on the growth of affection in the young child. And there is Howard, with Flora’s right hand on his left inner thigh, his body neat and wiry, his Zapata moustache black on his skin; Howard with his radical reputation, and his two well-known books on modern mores, and his many television appearances. They lie there in the master bedroom of Flora’s compact, modern service flat, with its good-sized living room, well-fitted galley kitchen, its second bedroom that doubles as study, its bathroom with bath and fitted shower, in the elegant block in the landscaped grounds in the leafy suburb, all described by the letting agents as perfect for modern living, and ideal for the professional single person. They lie, and then Flora moves, turning slightly, lifting her head. She has a deep, serious, thoughtful face; it comes up and looks into his. He opens his eyes, he closes them, he opens them again. ‘Good,’ he says lazily. ‘Very good. A perfect psychological meeting.’ Flora runs a fingernail down the centre of his chest; his hand comes out, and strokes her hair. Her thoughtful face still looks at him. ‘Yes, it was,’ she says, and adds, ‘Howard?’ ‘Yes?’ says Howard. ‘Howard,’ she says, ‘how’s the family?’