Chapter 16

Souper à Deux: Menu

Turtle soup
Cold pheasant in a white sauce
Lobster mayonnaise with asparagus
Braised mushrooms
Potatoes à la lyonnaise

However often she looked at her two shabby gowns, neither became remotely suitable for a romantic tryst. What was she going to wear?

As she examined her meager wardrobe, Jacobin’s mood approached panic. Her stomach fluttered with nerves and growled with hunger. She’d hardly eaten a bite at the servants’ dinner, too keyed up to fancy the plain but hearty fare served in the servants’ hall. Besides, she’d be eating later.

The kitchen buzzed with the news that His Lordship was taking supper at the Queen’s House; he’d never done such a thing before. The cleaning staff had been run off their feet and complained vociferously about the work they’d had putting the place in order in a single day. Equally extensive was the speculation about who would be joining him there. The scarcely veiled innuendos of the male staff were enough to make Jacobin profoundly grateful that her participation in tonight’s entertainment was a secret.

She knew the menu for the evening. And then there was dessert. Jacobin had been busy that afternoon. His Lordship had made a special request. And then…

Afraid her courage would fail her, she tried not to think too much about afterward. She preferred to think about lobster, which a groom had been dispatched to the coast to fetch. She hadn’t tasted it in years. Such delicacies were reserved for the master of the house at Hurst Park.

She kept telling herself that she wanted what would happen tonight. That it was her own decision, freely made, to give herself like this. Yet it was far from the romantic—and post-nuptial—bedding of her youthful dreams. How shocked her mother would be. She’d always wanted Jacobin to be a proper English lady. Well, she thought defiantly, if her mother hadn’t wanted her to become a mistress—hateful word—then she shouldn’t have died and left her to the untender mercies of her abysmal brother. Her father would have understood her decision. He never cast judgment on others.

And she was going to enjoy it. From everything she’d heard about the act from the servants’ gossip at Hurst, it was most agreeable once you got used to it. She wouldn’t think about the maids’ horror stories about blood and pain the first time. Old wives’ tales, no doubt.

By the time the discreet Jem Webster deposited her at the door of the Queen’s House she was on the verge of bolting. Then Storrington greeted her at the door, and she remembered why she’d said yes. Her heart pounded in a way she hadn’t experienced since her sixteen-year-old self had first set eyes on Jean-Luc. And even the handsome Frenchman had never looked as gorgeous as Storrington in black trousers, a cream silk waistcoat figured in silver, and an evening coat of dusty burgundy that seemed to intensify the subterranean gray of his eyes. Eyes that were gazing at her in unalloyed admiration, despite her tatty cloak.

With a brave flourish she untied the strings and swung it off to reveal her best clothes.

Anthony’s eyes nearly popped out of his head. She wore her breeches and a linen shirt and tall shiny boots and looked good enough to eat. Luckily women weren’t in the habit of dressing thus—at least women built like her. They’d never manage to cross the street unravished.

“I don’t own a gown suitable for the occasion,” she said with an air of defiance.

His mouth felt dry. “It’s entirely suitable.” It was too gauche—or too early—to admit that what he really wanted was to get her out of that costume as soon as possible and discover if the feminine reality underneath matched the promise of those figure-hugging masculine garments. Not that he had much doubt. Always partial to long slim legs on a woman, he discovered that male attire revealed their existence without having to wait and get under her skirts.

“I have something for you that will enhance this delightful fashion.” He opened a box on a side table and picked up the result of a quick expedition to Rundell and Bridge, his last stop before he left London. A much more expensive one than any he’d made before. Confident, he awaited her reaction to the impressive diamond and emerald necklace. And was disappointed.

True, her eyes glinted for a moment, then faded to uncertainty.

“I don’t believe this is comme il faut.” She’d never seen such beautiful jewels, but such a lavish present sat badly with her. She’d rather have had something modest, or nothing at all. It made her feel…bought. A hint of arrogance in his stance as he held the necklace up irked her.

“Everything is comme il faut between lovers.” Now his expression held nothing but warm admiration and even a tinge of anxiety. His low voice sent shivers down her spine. “I saw it and it made me think of you. So beautiful, and so much fire.”

She was softening but didn’t want to let it go without giving him an intimation of her feelings. “You must have been very sure of me, to spend so much money.”

“I wasn’t sure,” he said quietly. “I hoped.”

He should have guessed she wouldn’t react like the average ladybird, who would have crowed with pleasure and snatched up the opulent gift without more ado. Jacobin’s unpredictability was no small part of her appeal. Her prickliness boosted his confidence in the decision not to reveal his knowledge of her identity. He knew she’d be furious if she found out, so he’d just have to make sure she didn’t.

Not that he was entirely comfortable. He ought to tell her he knew she was Jacobin de Chastelux, not Jane Castle. But his motives were pure—in one sense of the word. He wanted her to come to him freely, without feeling she owed him her body for reasons of obligation, gratitude, or any other emotion save desire. Once their relationship progressed, and she learned to trust him, she would no doubt tell him herself, and he’d feign decent surprise. So he ignored the niggling conscience that accused him of specious rationalization and listened to the part of him that wanted her badly. Immediately.

“Won’t you try it on?” he asked, removing the necklace from its velvet nest. “Let me.”

She turned and lifted her neat queue of hair, tied at the back with a black ribbon. Working the clasp he inhaled her scent, clean, warm, and slightly soapy with that faint hint of vanilla. Below her hairline light fuzz gave way to the slender arc of her neck. As he pressed his lips to her nape, he found the skin as silken to the touch as it looked. Taking her by the shoulders, he steered her to the gilt-framed mirror over the mantelpiece.

“Look,” he murmured from behind. “Perfection. You could start a fashion.”

The odd disparity between her beautiful face, set off by a small fortune in precious stones, and the masculine severity of her clothing was extraordinarily erotic. She stared at herself in the mirror, then at him, their eyes meeting in the glass. Her lips curved into a perfect bow. “Thank you. I should like to wear it tonight. It makes me feel more dressed.”

“Shall we sup?” he asked, offering his arm and imagining her less dressed. Food first. They’d both need their strength for later. He led her over to a small table where supper was waiting.

“I sent Jem home and thought we’d serve ourselves. It’ll be more enjoyable to be alone.” He poured champagne for them both and asked her to serve the soup, which was keeping warm over a lamp.

He wondered what they should talk about. He’d noticed her looking with interest at the furnishings in the house. His father had spared no expense in finding pieces his wife might enjoy.

“Does this room make you think of home?” he asked. “All the furniture is French and some pieces are said to be of royal provenance. My father bought them at auction from French émigrés.” He recounted the history of some of the objects in the room, then frowned.

“That piece.” He pointed to a desk between two tall windows. “I don’t know why it’s here. My mother had it in her sitting room. My father must have had it moved here. Anyway, it was built by a cabinetmaker who worked for Queen Marie Antoinette.”

“Very beautiful,” she replied. “And much finer, of course, than anything my family owned.”

He repressed a smile. Jacobin de Chastelux must know about such things. Or maybe not. She would have been born at the height of the revolutionary Terror, and he had no idea how such aristocrats as had survived Madame Guillotine lived. He’d be interested to ask her about it. Instead he had to pretend she was Jane Castle, a cook.

He couldn’t bring himself to call her Jane. He needed a nickname, or perhaps an endearment.

“Sweetheart,” he said, trying it on for size. “Darling.” Better. “Could you give me some of that lobster?”

She raised her eyebrows as she handed him a plate.

“Don’t you like such names?” he teased. “Would you prefer me to speak to you in French?”

“Your French isn’t very good, is it?”

It was true, though he didn’t particularly like being told as much. “What makes you think that?”

She started to gabble in very fast French, and he didn’t understand a word of it.

“Very well, I admit it,” he interrupted with a raised hand to stop the flow. “I neglected that portion of my studies. How did you know?”

“You misunderstood something I said to Count Lieven in the Pavilion kitchen.”

“Really? What?”

“I don’t recall now,” she said evasively, flicking a speck of mayonnaise from the side of her mouth with her tongue.

Like hell she didn’t. No doubt some detail about her fictitious career. “What did you say to me just now?”

“It’s not important,” she said shortly. “Why didn’t you like learning French? Don’t you like the French?”

He shrugged, which was answer enough, and sipped his wine. “I like you and that’s what matters. Would you prefer me to address you by some French endearment? You’ll have to teach me some.”

She cocked her head with a naughty smile, and he wondered what was coming.

Ma biche, mon lapin, mon poulet, ma puce,” she recited.

“I understand mon poulet—‘my chicken,’ isn’t it? But not the others. What do they mean? Biche doesn’t sound polite.”

“It’s just a female deer. A doe. Isn’t that pretty?”

Ma biche,” he repeated. “And the others?”

Un lapin is a rabbit and une puce is a flea.”

“A flea! That’s not very romantic. Tell me some more.”

Mon trésor. Mon coeur.” He understood those ones and approved, especially when spoken with Jacobin’s seductive inflection.

Ma mie,” she purred. He watched, riveted, as she raised a spear of asparagus to her luscious mouth.

“What does that mean?” he asked hoarsely.

“The mie is the soft inside of a loaf of bread.”

“You’re quite strange, you French. Animals. A flea, for heaven’s sake! And now an obscure culinary term. Appropriate for a cook, I suppose.”

She piled a plate with pheasant and potatoes for him and didn’t answer. Truth to tell, she felt skittish again. Ever since her arrival there’d been moments of awkwardness. For one thing, she was a little irked that he seemed to expect her to serve him all his food. In an intimate supper she’d have thought he could have shared the labor, instead of just keeping their glasses plied with champagne, the one task apparently not beneath his male aristocratic dignity. That last reference to her being a cook wounded her amour propre. Surely between lovers there should be nothing of the master/servant?

And there was his attitude toward the French. True, England had been at war with France for many years, but that was all over now. And they were sitting in a building modeled after a French house, filled with French furniture, drinking French champagne, and eating French food. Conveniently forgetting that she was half English, had lived in the country half her life, and spoke the language without a trace of an accent, that she’d loathed Napoleon and rejoiced in his downfall, Jacobin perversely decided that in disparaging the French he slighted her.

But what disturbed her most was an undercurrent of frustration that she was living a charade. Her disguised identity made for a fundamental dishonesty in their connection. Between lovers, even illicit lovers, there should be ease and openness. Instead she had to watch every word to maintain her mask.

Then he smiled at her, with affection surely, and something else, something scorching hot that melted her dissatisfaction. Pushing aside his plate, he leaned across the table and took her hand.

Ma biche—my deer—” he said, meeting her eyes in a sizzling exchange. “Shall we remove the dessert upstairs.”

She loved the play on the English and French words for the course that was the last to be served before the end of the meal. How could she resist a witty man?