Brenda started work at five in the morning these days, baking breads, pastries, and desserts to accommodate the array of dietary restrictions among the patients at Lakeside Serenity Center. The patients were, in her words, a choosy bunch, and with what they were paying, they felt they deserved a lot of options: macrobiotic, vegan, gluten-free. They had their choice of art and yoga classes, music therapy, and forest bathing. They swam in the pool, relaxed in the sauna, and got acupuncture. The center was a few towns over, nestled into the kind of view that tourists thought of when they thought of the Berkshires. Mountains covered with trees that flamed into red, orange, and gold foliage in fall.
Brenda was up each day at four a.m., and usually in bed by eight—and it was 8:30. Her head tipped forward, but she hauled it back up, fighting to stay awake as she sat with her daughter in the small, tidy living room.
Maya waited at the other end of the couch. As soon as her mom fell asleep, she would take her keys and drive ten minutes to the Blue Moon Diner in the YouTube video. The Berkshire Eagle article said that Cristina died on a Sunday, and today was Sunday, a likely night to catch the waitress at work.
The radiator clanged in the corner over the Simpsons rerun on TV. Reaching for the remote, Maya turned the volume down, and before long, her mom began to snore softly. Sneaking out of the house, creeping down the dark hall and through the kitchen as an adult, felt ridiculous. Like being a teenager again (the walls between then and now growing thin), a muscle memory of lifting her mom’s car keys from her messy, oversized purse and slinking into the night. Outside was cold and starless. A light snow had fallen. Maya brushed off her mom’s windshield with the sleeve of her coat and got in.
She couldn’t say exactly what she hoped to learn from talking to the waitress who’d been there when Cristina died, but maybe there was more to the video than what the camera had caught, some nuance to the blank expression on Cristina’s face, so subtle you’d only see it in person.
Or maybe the waitress had heard something. Maya had to try. Steven Lang still hadn’t written back. Maya took Lincoln, driving past more houses like her mom’s, an old silk mill, and the public library. The library had been one of her favorite places when she was growing up. She would hang out in the free air-conditioning all summer, reading books or sunning herself on the terrace. But now the old brick building brought on a wave of dread. The library was where she’d met Frank.
She drove across the icy Housatonic and into the parking lot of the Blue Moon Diner. Maya remembered coming here as a child, but it had been a Friendly’s then. Then, as now, the parking lot had been mostly empty. Maya took a deep breath as she got out of the car, going over what she planned to say to the waitress.
Entering the diner, she stood face-to-face with a statue of Betty Boop. A neon jukebox played “Dream Lover.” The floors were black-and-white checkerboard, the booths red vinyl, but the layout hadn’t changed since the place was Friendly’s. Maya remembered sharing a sundae with her mom at a table now occupied by a middle-aged man, eating alone while he looked at his phone.
“Sit anywhere you’d like,” said a teenage waiter.
Maya looked up and found the security camera, and used it to orient herself, then sat in the same booth where Cristina had sat with Frank.
“Anything to drink?” the waiter asked.
“Water, please.” She opened her menu, but as soon as the waiter walked away, her eyes skimmed the room. Less than half of the tables were full. Several diners sat alone at the counter. Maya recognized the décor from the video: the chrome-plated stools, the faux-vintage clock. Nothing seemed out of the ordinary. She was about to get up and walk around when the waiter returned with her water. “What can I get you?”
“Tea, please.”
“Anything else?”
Just then, behind the counter, the kitchen doors opened, and the redheaded waitress from the video walked out. She stayed behind the counter, filled a few coffees, apparently working a different section tonight.
“Actually,” Maya said, “I think I’ll sit at the counter.”
The waiter looked annoyed.
Approaching the counter, Maya wondered if this was, in fact, the right person: The waitress in the video had looked to be her own age, while the woman before her was easily in her fifties. Creases framed her heavy-lidded eyes and painted lips—but then, the camera might not have seen those things. And the waitress’s hair was right—short and red. Her nametag read barb.
She handed Maya a menu. “Know what you’d like?”
“Tea, please. And buffalo wings.” Maya was much too addled to eat, but ordering food seemed a step toward the waitress’s good side.
“ ‘Cruisin’ or ‘Come On, Snake, Let’s Rattle’?”
“I’m sorry—what?”
“You want your wings mild or hot?”
“Oh. Hot.”
The waitress turned to make Maya’s tea, poured hot water, while behind her, Maya steeled herself. She dabbed her face with a napkin. Three other people sat at the counter, two elderly men with newspapers and a woman in hospital scrubs.
“Here you are,” said the waitress, setting the mug on the counter. “Do you want honey with that? Milk?” Her voice was kind but cautious, as if she’d sensed something off about Maya.
“Actually, I was wondering if I could ask you something. My name’s Erica. I’m a friend of Cristina Lewis.”
“You saw the video. That thing’s all over the place.” Barb sounded almost proud of this. She glanced up at the security camera. “Still no idea who posted it online . . . Who’d you say you were again?”
“Erica,” Maya said, dropping her voice. Even with all the lies she’d told recently, she felt self-conscious. “Cristina and I went to school together back in Moab. Kindergarten all the way to high school.”
From the corner of her eye, Maya saw that everyone at the counter had fallen silent.
“I’m sorry for your loss,” Barb said. Then: “They find out what happened to her?” Her voice was bright with curiosity.
“Not that I’ve heard.”
The waitress looked disappointed.
“I was hoping you could tell me what you saw that day?” Maya said. “Or maybe you heard something?”
“Burger, extra rare!” said a voice from the kitchen, and the waitress turned to take a plate from the window.
“Need an order of wings! Hot!” she called back. She served the burger to the woman in scrubs, then turned back to Maya. “I didn’t hear a word they said. There was music playing, just like there is now. And what I saw is pretty much what anyone can see on the video.”
“Pretty much?”
“There was one thing the camera didn’t pick up. I told the cops about it, of course.”
Everyone at the counter was listening, and Maya sensed that the waitress didn’t mind. “What was it?”
“Cristina’s eyes,” the waitress said. “The video makes it look like she was staring at Frank. But if you were standing over there, you would have seen that she was actually looking past him, at something in the corner.”
“What was it?”
“Nothing. Literally. An empty booth.” Maya followed the waitress’s gaze to the red vinyl booth. “No one was sitting there that day either, but she just kept staring as if she could see something the rest of us couldn’t. My cat does the same thing sometimes. Creeps me the hell out.”
A cold dread bloomed in Maya’s chest. “Did she seem . . . normal?”
“Well, sure, if you call that normal.” The waitress leaned closer to Maya as if to tell her a secret, but then spoke loudly enough for the whole counter to hear. “Between you and me, I’ve always thought this place was haunted. I can sense these things, and I think maybe there was something over there that day.”
Maya’s dread turned to skepticism. “What—like a ghost?”
The waitress nodded.
One of the elderly men leaned over to Maya. “Don’t get her started.”
The waitress scowled. “That’s enough out of you, Doug.” She refilled his coffee.
“So you think,” Maya said to the waitress, “that Cristina saw some kind of ghost and it . . . killed her?”
“All I’m saying is she definitely saw something right before she died. Something only she could see.”
“Hot wings!” said the voice from the kitchen.
“You making a podcast or something?” the waitress asked as she set the steaming plate before Maya.
“Not exactly,” Maya said, before asking if she could please take her wings to go.
The foam box filled the car with the salty tang of buffalo sauce. The heat blasted on high, but she couldn’t seem to get warm.
The talk of ghosts called to mind what Dr. Barry had said about the link between sudden unexplained death and what he called magical thinking. Some cultures blame evil spirits. The idea was that the mind has ways of explaining things to itself. Grief can make the imagination extra creative. She understood all this. Dr. Barry would have said the waitress was delusional, and Maya might have had to agree with him.
Seeing this behavior in someone else was sobering. Her body flushed with empathy at the thought of Barb explaining her haunted diner theory to the police, but her mind sided with Dr. Barry on this one. Maybe this was Maya’s problem after all. Maybe her mind couldn’t see its own illness.