CHAPTER FOUR

JONATHAN, WHAT have I done? I followed you. I did everything you asked.

Be still, Jordin, and know.

What is there to know? You left me!

I never left, my love. See me.

I don’t see anything.

Open your eyes. See me. Find me…

Jordin’s eyes fluttered open in the darkness. She’d had the recurring dream for two weeks now, always the same, always the voice… always without him. She was no stranger to vivid dreams over the last six years. Some said that their dreams, like the unpredictable precognition and their emerald eyes, had been Jonathan’s last mysterious gifts to all Sovereigns. What the dreams meant, she had no idea. The meaning of any of their dreams was beyond them. Perhaps they were nothing more than lifelike experiences devoid of the suffering they’d found beneath the city. Snippets of familiar faces, of things that might be and that sometimes did manifest. But mostly she dreamed of Jonathan. Perhaps because she’d loved him in a way none of the others ever had, as a woman loves a man. And perhaps because Jonathan had loved her as well.

But that love now left her heartsick and alone. What was love if there was nobody to love… no lover beyond the figments of imagination or the fabric of dreams?

The events of the previous night had interrupted her sleep. Mattius’s ultimatum—seven days. A part of her felt relieved that they’d reached such a clear intersection. Waiting for death had never been in her blood, before or since it had become Jonathan’s.

The worn curtain into her room moved. She tilted her head to see who was there, but the curtain was still closed. She’d only foreseen it, the gift most active these days in the residue of her dreams.

Jordin pulled her shirt on and shoved herself up to greet whoever was coming.

The curtain moved, pushed aside by Rom, who was framed by the eerie light of an outer chamber. Seeing her awake, he stepped in, his expression calm, determined. She knew the look well.

“Come in,” she said wryly, leaning over for a match.

He stopped at the end of her pallet. “You were expecting me.”

She lit the match and applied the flame to the wick of her lamp. The amber light only seemed to further illuminate the shadows in the ancient crypt. Filled with cracks and sooty depressions, the wall moved with darkness, its uneven surface stained with secrets.

“I saw the curtain open before it did. Not that foresight ever comes when I really need it.”

“Then let’s hope that changes. I’ve made a decision.”

She blew out the match and looked at him. He was dressed in black as if he intended to travel aboveground. Was it still night? She’d gone back for the rice with Gamil and found it untouched. As anticipated, there were no Dark Bloods near the warehouse—they’d found them lying on the street, cut to ribbons by the Immortals. If Roland had lost any men, they had taken their bodies. And someone had taken Triphon’s.

For as much as she despised the Immortal Prince, she admitted her grudging respect. Their cunning and speed had proved the bane of Feyn’s new regime—Roland was as cruel and driven as she.

She wished them both dead.

“And?”

“You’ll lead while I’m gone.”

“Gone where?”

“Gone where only I can go,” he said, walking toward the bed. “Mattius must not be allowed to release the virus. I won’t accept any victory that comes with the death of so many innocents.”

“Innocents?” She narrowed her eyes.

“You know as well as I do… that is not Jonathan’s way.”

She returned his stare for a moment, then flung off her wool blanket and stood on the opposite side of the bed, dressed only in her long white nightshirt.

“You talk about Jonathan, but he’s in the grave and now we’ve found our own. If nothing changes, they’ll discover our bones in this crypt centuries from now. We might as well carve it here, on the wall: ‘Here lie unknown bones draped in dried-out flesh.’ ”

“Then I go to the grave with him. But I won’t deny the blood he gave me by doing what I know he would not.”

“No? Then what will you do? Wait here to die and take the rest with you?”

Rom looked taken aback at the harshness of her tone. She told herself to stop, that venting her frustration wouldn’t help anything, but she found herself unable to.

“If there were any other way, it would have presented itself to us by now. Mattius has a point. Sovereign blood must be saved at any cost. You know that Roland won’t rest until all Sovereigns and Dark Bloods are dead, leaving only hapless Corpses to block his way. Never mind the Dark Bloods—the Immortals will always be our enemies, and they won’t stop until we’re dead.”

He gazed at her, silent, eyes glistening in the firelight.

Jordin turned toward the chair and snatched her pants off the back. “I know that’s not what you want to hear, but it’s the truth. We have nowhere left to go. Even if we did, the others are too weak to even attempt to move. But we can’t just wait here and let them slaughter us.”

“You mean like they slaughtered Jonathan,” he said quietly.

The words cut. “Yes. Like they slaughtered Jonathan.”

“And yet he made no move to save himself. He knew what he was doing. He had a reason. Honor it, even if you don’t understand it. Seek him. Find him.”

She spun around. “How? Tell me and I’ll do it. Show me where to find him. But no, you can’t, because you don’t know either. No matter how much we might wish it otherwise—and believe me, I’ve wished myself to the bone—we can’t. We can’t because he’s dead.”

“Is he?”

“I’m not talking about his blood.”

“Neither am I,” Rom said.

She took a long, steadying breath. “What do you mean?”

“I mean I dreamed the same dream you told me about a few nights ago. His voice calling from the desert.”

“It’s a dream, Rom.”

“Is it?”

“Haven’t they all been?”

“I pray you lead the Sovereigns with Jonathan’s heart, Jordin,” he said in a soft voice.

The ugly echo of her words hung in the air. How could he have such surety about the heart of the man she had loved more than any of them… while she felt only lost?

“I have to leave now, while it’s still dark,” he said.

“Where?”

“To the Citadel.”

She wasn’t sure she’d heard correctly.

“To the witch?”

He only looked at her.

“You’ll never make it! Even if you do, she’ll kill you.”

“It’s a chance I am forced to take. I hope I’m right in saying that you underestimate her. She hosts the ancient blood somewhere beneath her death.”

“You’re going to just turn yourself in?”

His gaze was quiet.

“It’s madness!”

“I beg you, Jordin, never vacate your love for Jonathan or your vow to follow him. Tell the others that I’ve gone to Feyn to barter a way for our survival. Tell them Feyn will attempt to turn me into one of her Dark Bloods. If she succeeds, Mattius’s virus will kill me as well. Tell it to every Sovereign—not just the council. Promise me that much.”

“This can’t be the way.”

“It’s the only way!” He turned and strode toward the curtain as if to leave. “If Mattius is willing to kill me, so be it. But the others will think twice. If it’s true that we’re all doomed, then I have nothing to lose. And neither do you.”

She stood rooted in the dim light, feeling shame in the face of his commitment.

Rom turned back at the entrance. “You remember what we discussed about Roland? If there were no other options?”

How could she forget? “That, too, is insanity,” she said.

“They said that about Jonathan before his death.”

She stared after him long after he had left, the waistband of her pants still clutched in her hand.

“INSANITY!” Mattius’s voice rang out in the chamber. The man’s stoic face had gone red beneath his whitening beard. “How dare he attempt to take hostage our salvation by putting himself up as a martyr!” He paced, his robe sweeping the stone floor at his heels. He turned on Jordin, green eyes glaring. “No one must know of this. Not a word beyond this hall.”

“They already know,” Jordin said.

“Who knows?” the alchemist demanded, glaring at Gamil then Adah.

“All of them,” Jordin said.

“Insanity!”

“So you’ve said.”

The moment Rom left, she had fallen onto her bed and wept with frustration until, frantic, she’d tried to chase him down, planning to restrain him if she must. But when she reached the tunnel to the surface, Stephan, the elderly man on third watch, informed her Rom had left ten minutes earlier.

It had been an hour and a half to sunrise. Three hours to the customary rising hour. She’d spent half the time pacing in her room, wrestling with madness. Only in an extended moment of clarity, with the image of Triphon slain before her in a manner so similar to Jonathan, did her course of action become plain.

She would do as Rom asked. For Jonathan. For Sovereigns. For Rom. For herself.

Peace had come like a flood, and on its heels, absolute surety. She’d quickly dressed and made her rounds of the chambers still occupied by the living. With so few left, it took only moments to spread the message that Rom had gone to win favor with Feyn. She understood the widening of their eyes, the haunting look of fear: if Rom were taken, death would follow fast for them all.

“Trust him,” Jordin had assured each of them. “Trust Rom to know Jonathan’s heart. Even if Rom becomes a Dark Blood, he’ll find a way.”

In the space of an hour their whispers carried through the caverns with hallowed awe. Rom has gone to save us. Jonathan will come again; Rom will make a way.

Standing before Mattius now, she understood his rage because she had felt it herself—along with a grim respect for Rom’s genius; in one move, he had outmaneuvered the alchemist.

And where did it leave her? With Rom or with Mattius? Both of them had made their play.

It was time to make hers.

Gamil strode to the high-backed chair at the end of the long table they reserved for the monthly feast and sat heavily. They celebrated Jonathan’s passing at the new moon each month by eating the finest foods they could marshal for the occasion. Ancient wines from a makeshift cellar they’d found below the main chamber, meats and cheeses when they were available. It had been rice and beef stock as of late, though the previous month Jordin had brought a clutch of rabbits she’d borrowed from a small farm south of the city.

“So be it,” Mattius snapped. “He’s thrown his life away.”

“Thrown his life away?” Jordin said. “Feyn won’t kill him. Will you prove worse than her?”

His face hardened. “His fate is in his hands, not mine.”

“We must assume Feyn will turn him,” Adah said.

“His Sovereign blood won’t have it,” Gamil said.

“Do we know that?”

“No. But the virus will kill him,” Jordin said, her stare fixed on Mattius.

“His decision.”

“So you don’t deny that the virus—this Reaper of yours—may kill Rom if he’s forced to Dark Blood?”

His silence was answer enough.

“Then all Sovereigns will know that Mattius the alchemist—no, Mattius the traitor—killed the holiest among us. Rom Sebastian, the very man who found Jonathan when he was a boy and saved him from certain death so he could give us the blood that now flows in our veins. They will know, and I will make sure of it.”

Mattius showed no sign her words had affected him. “Far better to bring death to one if it means the salvation of Jonathan’s blood.”

“Far better to trust the leaders Jonathan put over you,” Jordin said.

He leaned in toward her. “Rom brought him to maturity, you let him die, but I will see his legacy live forever.”

Jordin trembled with the effort not to shove him against the wall by the neck.

Adah, too wise by far, stepped between them. “What does a resurrected Corpse know of Jonathan’s legacy? I was caring for Jonathan’s scraped knees when you were still dead. I will not see his blood defiled, and I won’t stand by while you kill Rom.”

Mattius said with deadly calm, “Seven days—six now. It’s already done, with or without me. Rom knew the stakes. I have done what I must, not to defile Jonathan’s blood but to preserve it.”

“So you hope,” Gamil said from the end of the table, shaking his head. “You said we might lose some of our emotions. Your plan to preserve Jonathan’s blood may in fact only reenact the very event that made it necessary!”

“Better muted emotion than the annihilation of our kind.”

“As the alchemists no doubt said then!”

“And if you remember, I said that we may suffer no effects at all.”

“Then take it yourself and show us,” Adah said.

“We don’t have time for the madness of old women or the antics of children! Call me a traitor if you must, but I will stand by what is right.”

He strode to the door.

“I have another way,” Jordin said.

Mattius grasped the door handle. “There is no other way.” He swung the door wide.

“I will kill Feyn. Without her, the Dark Bloods are a serpent with no head.”

Mattius hesitated and then cast a condescending look over his shoulder. “Don’t be absurd.”

“I tell you another way, and you won’t even hear me out?”

The alchemist shut the door and turned back. He spoke as one does to a very dull child. “You follow Rom to folly. There is no other way.”

“Your calculations have failed you. There is.”

“You can’t even reach Feyn, much less kill her. The old tunnels into the Citadel are far too heavily guarded for any Sovereign to pass.” He paused. “Even if you could get in—even if you could kill Feyn—you would only be paving the way for the Immortals.”

“Not if Roland is dead.”

He gave a short laugh. “Kill Feyn and Roland both?” He looked around with theatrical incredulity. “Have you hit your head?”

“If it were possible, Rom would have thought of it already,” Gamil said with audible reluctance.

“He has.”

“He would never approve of your killing Roland, much less Feyn,” Adah said.

“He wouldn’t approve. But Rom is no longer your leader, I am. If I say I can deliver Roland’s head, then clearly,” she said, looking meaningfully at Mattius, “I have a way.”

“How?”

She lowered her arms and walked to a bottle of wine on the table. She poured some into a goblet and set the cork back into the bottle. “That’s my concern.” She took a sip, set the goblet down, and turned to face Mattius.

“But I need more than six days. Give me ten.”

“You have six.”

“Give me nine days.”

“You have six.”

Jordin stalked toward the alchemist. “I would throw myself into the jaws of death to save us all, and you refuse to give even a day?”

“How can I, when you won’t share your plan?”

“I plan to cut off Roland’s head and bring it to you in a bag with Feyn’s. That’s all you need to know. But what I need is time!”

A long measure of silence filled the chamber before he spoke. “So you’ll fly into the Immortal lair, pluck off Roland’s head, fly to the Citadel, and do the same to Feyn. Do we look like fools?”

“Do you want me to answer that? Because history will. What foolishness is found in attempting one last desperate option before throwing the world back into Chaos with alchemy? Before throwing away all that Jonathan came to bring!”

“They’ll smell you coming and spill your blood on the sand before you lay eyes on them. It’s not reasonable. It’s not even sane.”

The echo of Rom’s parting words sounded in Jordin’s head. Insanity. She gave a slight quirk to her lips. “It’s a pity you never knew Jonathan. They said the same of him.”

Gamil stood up from the table. “Jordin, please. In one thing I agree with Mattius. There’s no way to get to Roland alive. How many lives must we lose? Take time to think.”

“I have. And I know what I must do.”

“Do you even know where the Immortals are?” Adah asked.

“No.”

“Have you ever seen one unmasked?”

“No.”

“How can you kill an enemy you can’t see?”

“That’s my problem. I just need more time.” She fixed Mattius with a hard gaze. “Give me eight days. If I don’t deliver both Feyn’s and Roland’s heads, assume that I am dead and the fate of all Sovereigns will be on yours.”

Mattius flicked a glance from Adah to Gamil, who both appeared at a loss for words.

“First Rom walks to his death, and now the fearless Jordin,” Mattius said. “Suicide abounds.”

“Better than genocide. Eight days.”

He spun and strode for the door. “Seven. If at that time either Feyn or Roland is still alive, Reaper will be loosed.”