‘LET’S TRY THIS,’ Wintrow suggested. He pushed her fetter as far up her skinny shank as it would go. He took a strip of rag and lightly wrapped it around the girl’s raw ankle. Then he slid her fetter back over the top of it. ‘Is that better?’
She didn’t speak. The moment he took his hand away, she began working her ankle against the fetter again.
‘No, no,’ he said quietly. He touched her ankle and she stopped. But she did not speak and she did not look at him. She never did. A day or so more, and she’d be permanently crippled. He had no herbs or oils, no real medicines or bandaging. All he had was seawater and rags. And she was gradually scoring her own tendons. She seemed unable to stop herself from working against the fetter.
‘Give it up,’ a voice from the darkness suggested sourly. ‘She’s crazy. She don’t know what she’s doing, and she’s going to die before we get to Chalced anyway. You washing her and bandaging her is only going to make it take longer. Let her go, if that’s her only way out of here.’
Wintrow lifted up his candle and peered into the gloom. He could not decide who had spoken. In this part of the hold, he couldn’t even stand up straight. The slaves chained here were even more restricted. Yet the rolling of the Vivacia as she cut through the heavy seas kept them in constant motion, flesh against wood. They averted their eyes from his dim candlelight, blinking as if they stared at the sun. He slipped further down the line, trying to avoid the worst of the filth. Most of the slaves were silent and impassive to his passage, all of their strength invested in endurance. He saw a man half-sitting up in his chains, blinking as he tried to meet Wintrow’s eyes. ‘Can I help you?’ he asked quietly.
‘Do you have the key to these things?’ one man to the side of him answered sarcastically, while another one demanded, ‘How come you get to move about?’
‘So that I can keep you alive,’ Wintrow answered evasively. He was a coward. He feared that if they knew he was the captain’s son, they’d try to kill him. ‘I’ve a bucket of seawater and rags, if you want to wash yourself.’
‘Give me the rag,’ the first man commanded him gruffly. Wintrow sopped it in water and passed it to him. Wintrow had expected him to wipe his face and hands. So many slaves seemed to take comfort from that bare ritual of cleanliness. Instead he shifted as far as he could to put the rag against the bared shoulder of an inert man next to him. ‘Here you go, Rat-bait,’ he said, almost jokingly. He sponged tenderly at a raw and swollen lump on the man’s shoulder. The man made no response.
‘Rat-bait here got bitten hard a few nights ago. I caught the rat and we shared it. But he ain’t been feeling well since.’ His eyes met Wintrow’s for a glancing moment. ‘Think you could get him moved out of here?’ he asked in a more genteel tone. ‘If he’s got to die in chains, at least let him die in the light and air, on deck.’
‘It’s night-time,’ Wintrow heard himself say. Foolish words.
‘Is it?’ the man asked in wonder. ‘Still. The cool air.’
‘I’ll ask,’ Wintrow said uncomfortably, but he wasn’t sure he truly would. The crew left Wintrow to himself. He ate apart from them, he slept apart from them. Some of the men he had known earlier in the voyage would watch him sometimes, their faces a mixture of pity and disgust at what he had become. The newer hands picked up in Jamaillia treated him as they would any slave. If he came near them, they complained of his stench and kicked or pushed him away. No. The less attention he got from the crew, the simpler his life was. He had come to think of the deck and the rigging as ‘outside’. Here ‘inside’ was his new world. It was a place of thick smells, of chains caked with filth and humans meshed in them. The times when he went on deck to refill his bucket were like trips to a foreign world. There men moved freely, they shouted and sometimes laughed, and the wind and rain and sun touched their faces and bared arms. Never before had such things seemed so wondrous to Wintrow. He could have stayed abovedecks, he could have insinuated himself back into the routine as ship’s boy. But he did not. Having been belowdecks, he could not forget or ignore what was there. So each day he rose as the sun went down, filled his bucket and got his washed-out rags, and went down into the slave-holds. He offered them the small comfort of washing with seawater. Freshwater would have been far better, but there was precious little of that to spare. Seawater was better than nothing. He cleaned sores they could not reach. He did not get to every slave, every day. There were far too many of them for that. But he did what he could, and when he curled up to sleep by day, he slept deeply.
He touched the leg of the inert man. His skin was hot. It would not be long.
‘Would you damp this again, please?’
Something in the man’s tones and accent were oddly familiar. Wintrow pondered it as he sloshed the rag in the small amount of seawater remaining in his bucket. There was no pretending the rag and water were clean any more. Only wet. The man took it, and wiped the brow and face of his neighbour. He folded the rag anew, and wiped his own face and hands. ‘My thanks to you,’ he said as he handed the rag back.
With a shivering up his back, Wintrow caught it. ‘You come from Marrow, don’t you? Near Kelpiton Monastery?’
The man smiled oddly, as if Wintrow’s words both warmed and pained him. ‘Yes,’ he said quietly. ‘Yes, I do.’ In a lower voice, he amended it to, ‘I did. Before I was sent to Jamaillia.’
‘I was there, at Kelpiton!’ Wintrow whispered, but he felt the words as a cry. ‘I lived in the monastery, I was to be a priest. I worked in the orchards, sometimes.’ He moistened the rag and handed it back again.
‘Ah, the orchards.’ The man’s voice went far as he gently wiped his companion’s hands. ‘In the spring, when the trees blossomed, they were like fountains of flowers. White and pink, the fragrance like a blessing.’
‘You could hear the bees, but it was as if the trees themselves were humming. Then, a week later when the blossoms fell, the ground was pink and white with them…’
‘And the trees fogged with green as the first leaves came out,’ the other man whispered. ‘Sa save me,’ he moaned suddenly. ‘Are you a demon come to torment me, or a messenger-spirit?’
‘Neither,’ Wintrow said. He suddenly felt ashamed. ‘I’m only a boy with a bucket of water and a rag.’
‘Not a priest of Sa?’
‘Not any longer.’
‘The road to the priesthood may wander, but once upon it, no man leaves it.’ The slave’s voice had taken on a teaching cadence, and Wintrow knew he heard ancient scripture.
‘But I have been taken away from the priesthood.’
‘No man can be taken away, no man can leave it. All lives lead towards Sa. All are called to a priesthood.’
Some moments later, Wintrow realized he was sitting very still in the dark, breathing. The candle had guttered out, and he had not been aware of it. His mind had followed the man’s words, questioning, wondering. All men called to a priesthood. Even Torg, even Kyle Haven? Not all calls were heeded, not all doors were opened.
He did not need to tell the other man he was back. He was aware of him. ‘Go, priest of Sa,’ the man said quietly in the darkness. ‘Work the small mercies you can, plead for us, beg comfort for us. And when you have the chance to do more, Sa will give you the courage. I know he will.’ Wintrow felt the rag pressed back into his hand.
‘You were a priest, too,’ Wintrow asked softly.
‘I am a priest. One who would not sway to false doctrine. No man is born to be a slave. That, I believe, is what Sa would never permit.’ He cleared his throat and asked quietly, ‘Do you believe that?’
‘Of course.’
In a conspiratorial voice, the man observed, ‘They bring us food and water but once a day. Other than that, and you, no one comes near us. If I had anything metal, I could work at these chains. It need not be a tool that would be missed. Anything metal you could find in any moment you are unwatched.’
‘But… even if you were out of your chains, what could you do? One man against so many?’
‘If I can sever the long chain, many of us could move.’
‘But what would you do?’ Wintrow asked in a sort of horror.
‘I don’t know. I’d trust to Sa. He brought you to me, didn’t he?’ He seemed to hear the boy’s hesitation. ‘Don’t think about it. Don’t plan it. Don’t worry. Sa will put opportunity in your path, and you will see it and act.’ He paused. ‘I only ask that you beg that Kelo here be allowed to die on deck. If you dare.’
‘I dare,’ Wintrow heard himself reply. Despite the darkness and stench all around him, he felt as if a tiny light had been rekindled inside him. He would dare. He would ask. What could they do to him for asking? Nothing worse than what they’d already done. His courage, he thought wonderingly. He’d found his courage again. He groped for his bucket and rag in the darkness. ‘I have to go. But I will come back.’
‘I know you will,’ the other man replied quietly.
‘So. You wanted to see me?’
‘Something’s wrong. Something is very wrong.’
‘What?’ Gantry demanded wearily. ‘Is it the serpents again? I’ve tried, Vivacia. Sa knows I’ve tried to drive them off. But throwing rocks at them in the morning does me no good if I have to dump bodies over the side in the afternoon. I can’t make them go away. You’ll have to just ignore them.’
‘They whisper to me,’ she confided uneasily.
‘The serpents talk to you?’
‘No. Not all of them. But the white one,’ she turned to look at him and her eyes were tormented. ‘Without words, without sound. He whispers to me, and he urges… unspeakable things.’
Gantry felt a terrible urge to laugh. Unspeakable things uttered without words. He pushed it away from himself. It wasn’t funny, not really. Sometimes it seemed to him that nothing had ever really been funny in his whole life.
‘I can’t do anything about them,’ he said. ‘I’ve tried and tried.’
‘I know. I know. I have to deal with it myself. I can. I shall. But tonight it’s not the serpents. It’s something else.’
‘What?’ he asked patiently. She was mad. He was almost sure of it. Mad, and he had helped to make her that way. Sometimes he thought he should just ignore her when she spoke, as if she were one of the slaves begging him for simple mercy. At other times he thought he had a duty to listen to her ramblings and groundless fears. Because what he had come to call madness was her inability to ignore the contained misery caged within her holds. He had helped to put that misery there. He had installed the chains, he had brought out the slaves, with his own hands he had fettered men and women in the dark below the decks he trod. He could smell the stench of their entrapment and hear their cries. Perhaps he was the one who was truly mad, for a key hung at his belt and he did nothing.
‘I don’t know what it is. But it’s something, something dangerous.’ She sounded like a child with a high fever, peopling the dark with fearsome creatures. There was an unspoken plea in her words. Make it go away.
‘It’s just the storm coming. We all feel it, the seas are getting higher. But you’ll be fine, you’re a fine ship. A bit of weather isn’t going to bother you,’ he encouraged her.
‘No. I’d welcome a storm, to wash some of the stench away. It’s not the storm I fear.’
‘I don’t know what to do for you.’ He hesitated, and then asked his usual question. ‘Do you want me to find Wintrow and bring him to you?’
‘No. No, leave him where he is.’ She sounded distracted when she spoke of him, as if the topic pained her and she wished to get away from it.
‘Well. If you think of anything I can do for you, you let me know.’ He started to turn away from her.
‘Gantry!’ she called hastily. ‘Gantry, wait!’
‘Yes, what is it?’
‘I told you to get on another ship. You remember that, don’t you? That I told you to get on another ship.’
‘I remember it,’ he assured her unwillingly. ‘I remember it.’
Again he turned to go, only to have a slight form step out in front of him suddenly. He startled back, suppressing a cry. A heartbeat later he recognized Wintrow. The night had made him seem insubstantial in his stained rags, almost like a wraith. The boy was gaunt, his face as pale as any slave’s save for the tattoo that crawled over his cheek. The smell of the slave-hold clung to him, so that Gantry stepped back from him without thinking. He did not like to see Wintrow at any time, let alone in the dark, alone. The boy himself had become an accusation to him, a living reminder of all Gantry chose to ignore. ‘What do you want?’ he demanded gruffly, but he heard in his own voice a sort of cry.
The boy spoke simply. ‘One of the slaves is dying. I’d like to bring him out on the deck.’
‘What’s the point of that, if he’s dying anyway?’ He spoke harshly, to keep from speaking desperately.
‘What’s the point of not doing it?’ Wintrow asked quietly. ‘Once he’s dead, you’ve got to bring him up on deck anyway to get rid of his body. Why not do it now, and at least let him die where the air is cool and clean?’
‘Clean? Have you no nose left? There’s nowhere on this ship that smells clean any more.’
‘Not to you, perhaps. But he might breathe easier up here.’
‘I can’t just drag a slave up here on deck and dump him. I have no one to watch him.’
‘I’ll watch him,’ Wintrow offered evenly. ‘He’s no threat to anyone. His fever is so high that he’s just going to lie there until he dies.’
‘Fever?’ Gantry asked more sharply. ‘He’s one of the map-faces, then?’
‘No. He’s in the forward hold.’
‘How’d he get fever? We’ve only had fever among the map-faces before this.’ He spoke angrily as if it were Wintrow’s fault.
‘A rat bit him. The man chained to him thinks that is what started it.’ Wintrow hesitated. ‘Perhaps we should remove him from the others, just in case.’
Gantry snorted. ‘You play on my fears, to get me to do what you want.’
Wintrow looked at him steadily. ‘Can you give me a real reason why we should not bring the poor wretch onto the deck to die?’
‘I don’t have the men to move him just now. The seas are heavy, a storm is brewing. I want my full watch on deck in case I need them. We’ve a tricky bit of channel coming up, and when a storm breaks here, a man has to be ready.’
‘If you give me the key, I’ll bring him up on deck myself.’
‘You can’t haul a grown man up from the forward hold by yourself.’
‘I’ll have another slave help me.’
‘Wintrow…’ Gantry began impatiently.
‘Please,’ Vivacia interceded softly. ‘Please. Bring the man up here.’
Gantry could not say why he didn’t want to give in. A simple bit of mercy he could offer, but he wanted to hold it back. Why? Because if this small act of taking pity on a dying man was the right thing to do, then… He pushed the thought away from him. He was mate on this vessel, he had his job, and that was to run the ship as his captain saw fit. It wasn’t his place to decide that all of it was wrong. Even if he faced that thought, even if he said aloud, ‘this is wrong!’ what could one man do about it?
‘You said if there was anything you could do for me, I should let you know,’ the ship reminded him.
He glanced up at the night sky, shrouded in gathering clouds. If Vivacia decided to be obstinate, she could double their work through this storm. He didn’t want to cross her just now.
‘If the seas get any heavier, we’ll be taking water over the deck,’ he warned them both.
‘I don’t think it will matter to him,’ Wintrow said.
‘Sar!’ Gantry declared with feeling. ‘I can’t give you my keys, boy, nor permission to bring a healthy slave up on deck. Come on. If I have to do this to keep the ship happy, I’ll do it myself. But let’s be quick about it and get it over.’
He raised his voice in a shout. ‘Comfrey! Keep an eye on things here, I’m going below. Sing out if you need me!’
‘Aye, sir!’
‘Lead the way,’ he told Wintrow gruffly. ‘If there’s fever in the forward hold, I suppose I’d better see for myself.’
* * *
Wintrow was silent as he led the way. Having made his request of Gantry, he could think of nothing more to say to the man. He was painfully conscious of the differences between them now. Gantry, his father’s right hand and trusted advisor was as far as could be from Wintrow, the slave and disgraced son. As he made his way into the crowded forward hold, he felt as if he led a stranger into his private nightmare.
Gantry had given him the lantern to carry. Its brighter light illuminated far more than the candles that Wintrow had become accustomed to. It enlarged the circle of misery, made clearer the extent of the filth and degradation. Wintrow breathed shallowly. It was a skill he had learned. Behind him, he heard Gantry cough from time to time, and once he thought he gagged. He did not turn to look back. As first mate, it was likely that Gantry had not had to venture far into the holds lately. He could command other men to do that. Wintrow doubted that his father had been belowdecks at all since they had left Jamaillia.
As they got closer to the dying man, they had to hunch over. The slaves were packed so tightly it was hard to avoid stepping on them. They shifted restlessly in the lantern light and muttered quietly to one another at the sight of Gantry’s lantern. ‘Here he is,’ Wintrow announced needlessly. To the priest beside him, he said, ‘This is Gantry, the mate. He’s letting me take your friend abovedecks.’
The priest slave sat up, blinking in Gantry’s lantern light. ‘Sa’s mercy upon you,’ he greeted him quietly. ‘I am Sa’Adar.’
Gantry said nothing to either the introduction or the slave’s claim of priesthood. The mate seemed, Wintrow thought, uncomfortable at the idea of being introduced to a slave. He crouched and gingerly touched the dying slave’s hot flesh. ‘Fever,’ he said, as if anyone could have doubted it. ‘Let’s get him out of here before he spreads it.’
Gantry sidled down to reach one of the heavy staples that had been driven into the Vivacia’s main timbers. Here was where the running chain was secured. The salt of the sea air and the sweaty humidity of the packed slaves had not favoured the lock that fastened the running chain to the staple. Gantry struggled with it for a time before the key turned stiffly. He tugged at the lock until it opened. The running chain dropped free to the squalid deck. ‘Unhook him from the others,’ he ordered Wintrow brusquely. ‘Then re-secure them and let’s get him up on deck. Quickly, now. I don’t like the way the Vivacia is taking these waves.’
Wintrow divined quickly that Gantry didn’t want to touch the filth-encrusted chain that ran through the rings on each slave’s ankle fetters. Human excrement and dried blood no longer bothered Wintrow much. He crawled down the row of slaves, lantern in hand, rattling the running chain through each ring until he reached the dying man. He freed him.
‘One moment, before you take him,’ the priest-slave begged. He leaned over to touch his friend’s brow. ‘Sa bless you, his instrument. Peace take you.’
Then quick as a snake Sa’Adar snatched up the lantern and threw it. His force was savage, his aim unerring. Wintrow clearly saw Gantry’s eyes dilate in horror just as the heavy metal lantern struck him full in the brow. The glass chimney broke with the impact and Gantry went down with a groan. The lantern landed beside him, rolling as the ship was rolling now. Oil trailed from it in a crooked track. The flame had not gone out.
‘Get the lantern!’ the slave barked at Wintrow as he snatched the chain from his lax grip. ‘Quickly, now, before there’s a fire!’
Preventing the fire was the most urgent thing to do, of that Wintrow had no doubt. But as he scrabbled towards it, he was aware of slaves stirring all around him. He heard the rattle of metal on metal as the running chain was tugged through ring after ring behind him. He snatched up the lantern, righting it and lifting it away from the spilled oil. He exclaimed as he cut his foot on the broken glass of the lantern, but that cry of pain turned to one of horror as he saw one of the freed slaves casually fasten throttling hands around the unconscious Gantry’s neck.
‘No!’ he cried, but in that instant the slave had slammed the mate’s skull down hard on the staple that had secured the running chain. Something in the way Gantry’s skull bounced told Wintrow it was too late. The mate was dead and the slaves were freeing themselves from the running chain as fast as the chain could be dragged through the fetters. ‘Good work, boy,’ one slave congratulated him as Wintrow looked down on the mate’s body. He watched the same slave claim the key from Gantry’s belt. It was all happening so fast, and he was a part of it happening, and yet he could not say how he fitted in. He wanted no part of Gantry’s death to be his.
‘He was not a bad man!’ he cried out suddenly. ‘You should not have killed him!’
‘Quiet!’ Sa’Adar said sharply. ‘You’ll alert the others before we are ready.’ He glanced back at Gantry. ‘You cannot say he was a good man, to countenance what went on aboard this ship. And cruel things have to be done, to undo worse cruelty,’ he said quietly. It was no saying of Sa’s that Wintrow had ever heard. His eyes came back to Wintrow’s. ‘Think on it,’ he bade him. ‘Would you have refastened the chains that held us? You, with a tattoo of your own down your face?’
He did not wait for a reply. Wintrow was guiltily relieved at that, for he had no answer to the question. If by refastening the chain he could have saved Gantry’s life, would he have done it? If by refastening the chain, he condemned all these men to a life of slavery, would he have done it? There were no answers to the questions. He stared down at Gantry’s still face. He suspected the mate had not known the answer to such questions either.
The priest was moving swiftly through the hold, unlocking other running chains. The mutter of the freed slaves seemed part and parcel of the rising sounds of the storm outside the hull. ‘Check the bastard’s pockets for the key to these fetters as well,’ someone suggested in a hoarse whisper, but Wintrow didn’t move. He couldn’t move. He watched in stunned detachment as two slaves rifled the mate’s clothing. Gantry had carried no fetter key, but his belt knife and other small possessions were quickly appropriated. One slave spat on the body in passing. And still Wintrow stood, lantern in hand, and stared.
The priest was speaking quietly to those around him. ‘We’re a long way from free, but we can make it if we’re wise. No noise, now. Keep still. We need to free as many of ourselves as we can before anyone on deck is the wiser. We outnumber them, but our chains and our bodies are going to tell against us. On the other hand, the storm may be in our favour. It may keep them all occupied until it’s too late for them.’
The priest glanced at Wintrow. His smile was a hard one. ‘Come, boy, and bring the lantern. We’ve Sa’s work to do.’ To the others he said quietly, ‘We have to leave you now, in the dark, while we go to free the others. Be patient. Be brave. Pray. And remember that if you move too soon, you condemn us all, and this brave boy’s work will be for naught.’ To Wintrow he said, ‘Lead on. Hold by hold, we have to free them all, and then take the crew by surprise. It’s the only chance we have.’
Numbly, Wintrow led the way. Above him, he heard the first pattering of a hard rain falling on Vivacia’s decks. Within and without, the long-brewing storm overtook the ship.
‘I don’t care about the weather. I want the ship.’
‘Aye, sir.’ Sorcor took a breath as if to speak further, but then changed his mind.
‘Let’s go after her.’ Kennit went on. He stood in the waist and stared out over the water, clutching the rail with both hands like a landsman. Ahead of them, the silvery hull of the liveship glistened as she cut the rising waves, and seemed to beckon him through the night. He spoke without looking away from her. ‘I’ve a feeling about this one. I think she’s ours for the taking.’
The bow of the Marietta bit deeper into an oncoming wave. Spray flew up suddenly, drenching them all. The blast of icy water almost felt good against his over-heated body, but even that splash was nearly enough to push him off-balance. He managed to cling where he was and keep his leg under him. The ship fell off as she crested the wave and Kennit was hard put to keep from falling. His crutch hit the deck and washed away from him as the next wave rushed out through the scuppers. He was barely able to keep his foot under him by clinging tightly to the ship’s rail. ‘Damn it, Sorcor, trim her up!’ he roared to cover his shame.
He doubted the man heard him. Sorcor had already left his side and was shouting orders to deckhands on his way back to the helm.
‘Let me take you back to the cabin,’ the ever-present whore said from behind his shoulder. He had just been about to tell her to do that. Now, of course, he could not. He’d have to wait until she believed it was his own idea, or until he could think of a good reason why he had to go there. Damn her! His good leg was beginning to tire, and the bad one just dangled there, a hot heavy weight of pain.
‘Retrieve my stick,’ he ordered her. It pleased him to see her chase it across the wave-washed deck. At the same time, he noted that she definitely had her sea-legs now. There was nothing clumsy about her. Had she been a man, he’d have said she had the makings of a good sailor.
In that abrupt change so characteristic of these waters, the rain squall hit them. Torrents sheeted down over the ship, while the wind’s direction seemed to switch almost constantly. He could hear Sorcor’s bellowed commands to the deck crew. What had looked to be a simple little blow was now building up to something else entirely. There was always a current in Hawser Channel, and in some tides it could be difficult, but now the storm wind conspired with that current to send them racing. The liveship fled ahead of them. He watched her, expecting her to take in sail. Sorcor had their hands reefing canvas. Storm and current were driving them along swiftly enough without giving the treacherous winds anything extra to push on. Not far ahead was Crooked Island. To the east of the island was the better passage. The liveship would certainly take it. To the west of the island was how they would have to go. They’d use both storm and current to race ahead of the liveship and cut her off. It would be tricky, and no mistake there. He wasn’t sure they’d make it. Well, he doubted he had long to live anyway. He might as well die on his own deck if he couldn’t do it on the deck of a liveship.
Sorcor had taken the wheel himself; Kennit could tell it by the way the Marietta seemed suddenly to relish each challenging wave. He squinted his eyes against the downpour and tried to find their quarry again. For the space of three waves he could not see her. Then he spotted the liveship at the same time as he heard her distant scream.
She was taking the storm badly, her untended sails pushing her awkwardly against each wave. As Kennit watched in horror, she slid down the trough of a wave, disappeared, and then a moment later wallowed into view again. His straining eyes could pick out figures of men dashing about her dimly-lit decks, lots of men, but no one seemed to be doing anything to save her. He gave a groan of despair. To get this close to capturing a liveship, only to see her go down right before his eyes because of her own crew’s incompetence — it was too bitter to bear.
‘Sorcor!’ he bellowed through the storm’s blast. He wouldn’t be able to wait until they could cut her off. As she was going now, she’d end up on the rocks. ‘Sorcor! Catch her up and ready a boarding party of good seamen.’ The rain and wind snatched the words from his mouth. He tried to work his way aft, holding to the rail and hopping along on his good leg. Each jarring motion felt as if he’d plunged his stump into boiling oil. Suddenly he was shaking with cold as well. The waves were running taller. As each wave broke, he saw the saltwater rushing towards him and could do nothing save clutch tighter to the rail. Eventually one swept his tired leg out from under him. For an interminable moment he clung desperately as the water washed over his body and out the scuppers again. Then Etta had him, carelessly seizing hold of him with no mind for his injured leg at all. She wrapped one of his arms around her shoulders and hoisted him up, gripping him around the chest.
‘Let me take you inside!’ she begged him.
‘No! Help me get back to the wheel. I’ll take the helm; I want Sorcor to lead the boarding party himself.’
‘You can’t board another ship in this weather!’
‘Just take me aft.’
‘Kennit, you should not even be out on the deck tonight. I can feel your fever burning you up. Please!’
His rage was instantaneous. ‘Do you completely discount me as a man? My liveship is out there, her capture is imminent, and you wish me to go lie down in my cabin like an invalid? Damn you, woman! Either help me to the helm, or get out of my way.’
She helped him, a nightmarish trip across a deck that pitched with the fury of the storm. She hauled him up the short ladder as if he were a sack of potatoes. There was anger in her strength, and when his stump knocked against a rung, near stunning him with pain, she offered no apology. At the top she hauled on his arm as if it were a sheet, until she had it draped across her shoulders. Then she stood up under his weight and dragged him to the wheel. An incredulous Sorcor shook water from his eyes and stared at his captain.
‘I’ll take the helm. Our liveship’s in trouble. Prepare a boarding party, as many sailors as raiders. We’ll need to overtake her swiftly, before she gets too far into Hawser Channel.’
Far ahead of them, they caught yet another glimpse of the liveship as the seas lifted her high. She sailed like a derelict now, wind and waves pushing her where they pleased. A trick of the wind brought her despairing shriek to their ears as she dived down into a trough of water.
She was headed to the west of Crooked Island.
Sorcor shook his head. He had to shout over the storm. ‘There’s no catching up with her the way she’s sailing. And even if we had the crew to spare, we couldn’t board her in this storm. Give her up, sir! There’ll be another one along. Let that one go to her fate.’
‘I am her fate!’ Kennit roared back at him. A vast anger rose in him. All the world and everyone in it opposed him in his quest. ‘I’ll take the wheel. I know that channel, I took us through there before. You work with the crew to put on a bit of sail so we can catch her up. Help me but overtake her and try to run her onto the shoals. And if nothing is to be done then, I’ll give her up!’
They heard her cry out again, a long drawn-out scream of despair, haunting in its eeriness. The sound hung long in the air. ‘Oh,’ Etta exclaimed suddenly with a shudder as it finally died away. ‘Someone save her.’ The words were almost a prayer. She glanced from one man to the other. Rain had slicked her hair flat to her skull. The water ran like tears in streams down her face. ‘I’m strong enough to hold the wheel,’ she proclaimed. ‘If Kennit stands behind me and guides my hands, we can keep the Marietta on course.’
‘Done,’ Sorcor replied so promptly that Kennit instantly realized that had been the man’s true objection all along. He didn’t think Kennit could stand on one leg and still handle the ship’s wheel.
Grudgingly he admitted Sorcor was probably right. ‘Exactly,’ he said, as if it had been his intent all along. Sorcor made room for them. It was an awkward transfer, but Etta eventually had her hands on the wheel. Kennit stood behind her. He set one hand on the wheel to aid her, and clasped her with his other arm to keep his balance. He could feel the tension in her, but was also aware of her pent excitement. For a moment, it was as if in clasping Etta he embraced the ship herself.
‘Tell me what to do!’ she called over her shoulder.
‘Just hold it steady,’ he told her. ‘I’ll tell you when you need to do anything else.’ His eyes followed the silvery liveship as she fled before the wind.
He clasped her close to him, and his weight against her back was not a burden, but a shelter from the wind and rain. His right arm wrapped her, his hand gripping her left shoulder. Still, she was frightened. Why had she ever said she would do this? Etta gripped the spokes of the ship’s wheel tightly, so tightly her knuckles began to ache. She set her arms stiff to oppose any movement the ship might suddenly make. All around her there was only darkness and driving rain and rushing wind and water. Up ahead she could suddenly see flashes of silver-white water as waves dashed against barnacled rocks. She could not tell what she was doing; she could steer the ship directly into a rock and never know until they struck. She could kill them all, every man aboard.
Then Kennit’s voice spoke softly by her left ear. Despite the storm, he did not shout. His low voice was little more than a whisper. ‘It’s easy, really. Lift your eyes, look ahead. Now feel the ship through the wheel. There. Loosen your hands. You will never be able to react if you throttle the wood so. There. Now you can feel her. She speaks to you, does she not? Who is this, she wonders, who is this light new touch on the helm? So hold her steady and reassure her. Now then, now then, ease her over a bit, just a bit, not too much, and hold her steady there.’ It was his lover’s voice he spoke with, small and breathless, warm with encouragement. She had never felt closer to him than now, sharing his love of the ship that he guided through the storm. Never had she felt stronger, as she clasped the wooden spokes of the wheel and held the Marietta’s nose into the waves. Aloft, she could hear Sorcor calling to his deckhands. They were reefing in some sails in a pattern she still found incomprehensible, but which she suddenly found herself resolved to understand. For she could understand it. And she could do it. That was what Kennit’s arm around her, his weight against her back, and his soft voice in her ear were telling her. She squinted her eyes against the driving rain. Suddenly the cold and the wet were simply a part of this, not pleasant, no, but not something to fear or avoid for their own sakes. They, like the wind, were a part of her life now. A life that was carrying her forward as swiftly as the current carried the ship, shaping her every day into a new person. A person she could respect.
‘Why cannot it always be like this?’ she asked him at one point.
He feigned surprise and asked in a louder voice, ‘What? You prefer the storm that sweeps us toward the Damned Rocks to easy sailing on peaceful waters?’
She laughed aloud, embraced by him and the storm and this new life he had plunged her into. ‘Kennit, you are the storm,’ she told him. In a quieter voice she added to herself, ‘And I prefer me as I am when I race before your winds.’