My Father Takes My Retarded Brother Sailing

They tack up and down

all morning. Mark trailing one hand

in the waves, crying his hard

gull-cries of joy, my father pointing out

bright flags on shore, which are

us, waving

them on, until

the sudden commotion of sail, jabber

of cleats, swingabout of

boat, pivot of Central Lake on

my father’s foot, caught at that moment

in a rope,

my father hanging neither up

nor down, thrashing under, using,

maybe using up his lungs

to catch that child who hardly knows

water from air. The thought,

oh yes, the thought settles

in my heart: part of me

goes down, drowned, the perfect part

splashes back

to shore. And then years

later, here I come,

bringing out the towels, willing

as a murderer, reformed, but sentenced

anyway, to this life, to this

abundant life in which they have both

come back, my father’s ankle bloody

from the rope, my purple-lipped

brother riding his shoulders,

uncontrollably babbling.