Crouching

The day as nudging, as a nudging-stick, bark-stripped

and made to rattle across the storm drain grate,

hit the horse apples down, scrape along the sidewalk

and come, suddenly, to the deep crack, trace the crack

to its end, and the next, as if the cracks were a river,

a little portaging. There was no reason, no reason

to have a reason, and there was the creek that ran

over rocks for no reason, and the day opened

and closed like an eye to the ebb and flow of us into

and out of yards. I give her the name Sharon,

—not in the adult way involving exchange

of information, but of moving alongside of,

poking beetles to see if they move, the crouching.

Tragedy, then, more like a shadow, not

the dead baby robin in its half-embryonic whiteness,

not anything precise and possible to reach with the stick,

but huge and uncontrollable, parental. I want

to poke with the stick so that the hugeness will remain

in the upper atmosphere, not here where I am crouched.

What is the material at hand? The mink ate the baby ducks,

John Pixler killed the skunk and the raccoon. Light hangs

in the air after the rain. A man in Springboro, Ohio,

caught the record longnose gar weighing 14.72 pounds.

Did I mention that little glistenings have formed on the lake?

The terrible noises in the upper atmosphere are quieter

when I look into the microscope. There was all that

outside my bedroom door, and inside were the poems.