The Swan Flies Straight at Me

My three favorite death paintings: Blake’s Great Red

Dragon and the Beast of the Sea, a more viciously

potent duo you never saw, and Bacon’s Study after

Velázquez’s Portrait of Innocent X, all vertical slashes

as if Innocent were being lifted into a draft of terrifying

impermanence, and Goya’s Saturn Devouring His Son,

one of his “black paintings,” the ghastly white little body

limp and shining out of the gloom, head already gone.

But what do I know of this vast subject in art, and

for that matter, what did the swan know, who came

huge, sudden as if straight at me, muscular wingtips

skimming the water until it was even with me a few

feet out, stretched out, mad with concentration,

prying the sky apart as it passed, what did either of us

know of our end except what we make of it in our

separate minds that cry into the gloaming we long

to outrun, or paint safely down? Or gather up a word

or two to cover the situation, this is what I do, happily

do, by the way, which is why I recall with such frisson

turning on the dock, coming face-to-face with the subject

bearing down, and why I stood right there on the end

with my glass of wine, and the kind of unconscious smile

I imagine a hunter might get at the movement of leaves.