Muskrat

The muskrat has eaten every one of the water reeds.

I’ve seen him only once, slipping under the dock.

The summer clouds were shifting. I went inside, then,

to lay my eyes on my possessions. My things,

I knew their names. I don’t know the muskrat’s name,

yet he was nibbling around the edges of my life,

pulling threads into his den, working his jaws. He may

be a she. She may be making more muskrats. She may

be making so many burrows that the shore will crumble

into the lake. I have been steadfast, haven’t I? Yet

there is this loss. I had a dream that I was trying to get

the children to school. It was late. I was on my bike

and Kelly was on roller skates, holding on behind.

We coasted so fast we ended up in New York City.

Then we were really lost. We entered an Iranian embassy.

When I woke up, there was still this residual

responsibility, this weight. What can I say? The muskrat

has her song I can’t hear. Or, I’m indifferent to it

in the way siblings at the dinner table just eat, or kick

each other under the table. A muskrat goes by,

edges along the water with her yearning, and later

appears in the mind, a slippage with a tail.

Think about it. And the water was singing in that voice

it has when it wishes to disguise itself as sloshing,

when you have to listen through the sloshing for how

the singing breaks against the rocks.