FOR 159 DAYS, NEWSPAPERMEN AROUND THE NATION and around the world had blessed the name of Earp. Opinions about the events in Arizona had divided predictably along political lines. The Earps were stage robbers, thugs, and murderers; Doc Holliday was worse than any of them, a quarrelsome drunk and a killer. Or, the Earps were incorruptible lawmen; Doc Holliday was their loyal friend, a gentleman, and a scholar. There was a reliable market for either version, and editorials were easy to write. Law and order. Crime and punishment. That kind of thing. Interest lagged a bit after Judge Spicer exonerated the Earps, but it picked right up when Virgil Earp was attacked. After Morgan Earp was gunned down, the Wyatt Earp Vendetta Ride riveted readers and sold out multiple editions, until Bob Ford assassinated Jesse James.
A fickle public’s taste for “frontier justice” abruptly waned. Editors everywhere scrambled for a new topic. It came as a relief when a large contingent of Apaches broke out of the San Carlos reservation. Before the U.S. Army caught up with them, the renegades had killed almost as many men as the Earps and Cow Boys combined, which made for exciting headlines about red savages and warpaths. Among their victims was Zwing Hunt, one of the Cow Boys who murdered Judge Peel’s son. Zwing had taken a bullet in the chest when the deputies came to arrest him for that, but escaped the noose by fleeing the Tombstone hospital when he was partially healed up. Ironic, then, that ole Zwing had leapt from the judicial pot into an Apache fire.
Too ironic, for some. Too neat. Zwing wasn’t killed by Indians, they said, but by Wyatt Earp. The vendetta was still on, they said. Wyatt was still out there in the mesquite, avenging the deaths of the righteous.
Counterrumors were swiftly offered. Earp and his posse were hiding in Colorado. Doc Holliday had died of consumption. Sherm McMasters was killed when the Cow Boys found out he was a snitch. Texas Jack Vermillion and Turkey Creek Jack Johnson were in jail up in Prescott. Wyatt had been dead since March—everybody knew that. He’d been killed back in the Whetstones by Curly Bill, who was hiding out in Mexico.
Two months after Morgan Earp died, a second great fire broke out in Tombstone. Among the businesses destroyed were the O.K. Corral, Molly Fly’s boardinghouse and her husband’s photography studio. The site of the town’s most notorious event was now indistinguishable in a field of embers and rubble, which prompted a brief flare of optimism. “The lawless past is behind us,” people said. “We’ll rebuild, better than ever!” But flooding in the mines was getting worse, and it was even harder to keep capital and labor in town.
Everyone pretty much forgot about Wyatt Earp, until Johnny Ringo’s body was found.
THE MEN HE’D BEEN TRAVELING WITH simply left him in the desert. Waited until he was asleep. Took his horse, took the water, and took off. They were tired of the ugly cough. They were tired of the insults, the sneering. They were tired of him.
A small part of Johnny Ringo still remembered that it was wrong to degrade another person, but that had always been the thrill of it. Saying and doing whatever he pleased. For years, he had waited for someone—anyone—to have the guts to call him on it. It never occurred to him that they might just walk away.
What did he say last night . . . ? “You idiots are the kind of Irishmen who make a man wish Cromwell had done a better job.” He didn’t even think those two thick micks got the joke.
Evidently they had.
So they left in the dark. Cowards.
From the start, the headache was awful, and it got worse as the sun rose higher. Just a hangover, he told himself, but it was a bad one. His tongue felt like flannel, and his mouth tasted of sand. Squinting into the sun, he started up a slope, hoping higher ground would provide a glimpse of green that would signal a stream or a spring somewhere nearby. He had to use his hands to pull himself up the steeper parts. Halfway up, he stopped, open-mouthed, laboring for breath in the mid-July heat.
Lunger. Pathetic lunger.
“A gun is your life out here.” That’s what Martin Ringo had said moments before he provided his fourteen-year-old son with a memorable lesson in absurdity. They were on their way to California. Martin was sitting next to the Conestoga, cleaning his shotgun. “A gun is food. A gun is protection. Take care of your gun, Johnny, and it will take care of you.”
What Martin Ringo didn’t say was “Always check to see if the weapon is loaded.” Especially if you’ve got a decaying chest and an uncontrollable cough.
One moment, he was talking to his son, and the next, that son was watching the top of his father’s head fly into the air. Blood and brains and bone came down like rain and hail, all over the boy’s upturned face.
Martin Ringo. Dead. Just like that. Buried at the side of the trail in the middle of nowhere. Left behind to rot alone, like he’d never existed.
So much for California. So much for the curative sunshine of the Southwest.
Why did the family keep going? Why didn’t they go back to Missouri?
He could hear his mother saying, Your brother’s sick, too. You have to take care of him and me and your sisters now. I’m not a mule, he told her in his mind. Don’t hitch me up to pull your wagon. “None of my affair,” he muttered, but his voice was almost gone.
He was climbing again. Struggling upward, grabbing at bigger rocks. Look for green, he told himself. Green means water.
Jesus, how long can it take to get to the top of this goddam slope?
Hours. Forever. He was losing track of time. The world was nothing more than the gravel beneath his eyeballs and the pounding headache behind them. It was branches clawing at him, ripping his clothes, his skin. It was cactus, blocking his way, making him backtrack and circle. Chollas—vicious things, their spikes jumping out to jam themselves into your hands and face.
Crown of thorns, his mother whispered.
“Go to hell!” he screamed, weeping now, dry-eyed. Dry dry dry.
Just a swallow of water. He’d praise Jesus for a swallow of water.
Goddam boots. New. Meant for riding. Bad enough to be on foot without new boots rubbing blisters. He sat and pulled them off. Grunting with the effort. Hurling them away.
His mother stared at the bloody sock. Well, now, that’s ruined. After all the work I put into it.
“Go to hell,” he croaked. “Nobody asked you for the goddam sock.”
His gun belt kept snagging on things. Your gun is your life. But it was so goddam heavy. And he couldn’t breathe. It was too hot to breathe.
Lunger. Pathetic lunger. Die and be done with it, why don’t you?
Sunshine won’t help. Rest won’t help. Nothing’s gonna help you, lunger. The pain’ll get worse, and worse, and worse. Until you die. Pull the trigger, you coward. Do it.
Pull the trigger, he told himself, and this’ll be over.
Just like . . . that.
JOHN YOST SAW THE BUZZARDS the next day and went to investigate. He found the corpse near a clump of oak trees, maybe twenty yards from the ranch track. There was a pistol next to one hand. The feet were wrapped in a torn-up shirt. One of the cartridge belts was buckled on upside down. That was odd, but thirst will do strange things to a man. Crows had finished with the eyes and were tearing the scalp around the bloody hole in the top of the head, but Yost knew who it was. He buried the body where it lay and reported the death next time he went to town.
Yet another Cochise County inquest was convened to take Mr. Yost’s statement in the matter of the death of John Ringo. The dead man’s effects were listed. A small amount of tobacco and a pipe; a silver pocket watch, silver chain attached; a comb; matches; two dollars and sixty cents in cash; two cartridge belts, one each for pistol and rifle ammunition. A .45-caliber Colt revolver, Model 1876, containing five cartridges, one of them spent.
“Suicide, most likely,” the coroner’s jurors decided. “Ringo always was a crazy sonofabitch.”
NOBODY WHO REALLY KNEW RINGO disputed that conclusion, but in the saloons of Arizona, common wisdom begged to differ. Wyatt Earp came back and got him, that’s what people said. Ole Wyatt shot Ringo in the head. Then he put the pistol in Ringo’s hand to make it look like Ringo did the deed his own self.
For years afterward, whenever a Cow Boy died, the rumors about Wyatt would start up again. Of course, rustlers lived dangerous professional lives, and their leisure hours often involved drunkenness and discord. As John Henry Holliday had once observed, such men were rarely inclined to express dismay or disagreement with a well-turned phrase. They didn’t need Wyatt Earp to hurl them into eternity. They generally managed that on their own.
Even so, for the rest of his long life, the questions remained the same. What really happened down there in Tombstone? Did you get Curly Bill? What about Johnny Ringo? Why did you let Ike Clanton live? You’re the one who got him down in Mexico, aren’t you! What was Doc Holliday really like? I heard he called you a Jew boy. Is that why you two parted on bad terms? How many men did you shoot? Nine? Thirteen? Thirty? The truth was never good enough. He might say something like “Doc was a real good dentist,” but the newspaper would print foolishness: “Doc Holliday was the most skillful gambler and the nerviest, fastest, deadliest man with a six-gun I ever saw.”
Once, he got so tired of a reporter’s badgering, he said, “Yeah. I killed Curly Bill and Ringo and Ike. I killed ’em all, and two dozen more.” He was being sarcastic, but that was the only time a newspaperman took him at his word.
VIRGIL AND JAMES STAYED IN COLTON with their parents after Morgan was buried. Wyatt knew his mother worried about him and wanted him to come home, too.
He could not bear the thought of her grief. He could not face his father’s scorn. Worthless pile of shit. Thirty-four years old, and not a damn thing to show for it. I knew you’d never amount to anything.
So he moved, and kept on moving. Gunnison. Silver City. Albuquerque. Back to Dodge for a while. Assassination was a constant threat. Some idiot wanting to avenge Curly Bill. Some stupid kid wanting to get famous for shooting a man whose name had been in the papers.
He got so he hated to be approached by strangers, even polite ones, and that hatred never left him. When he was an old man, they’d say, “It’s an honor to meet you, Mr. Earp,” or something ordinary like that. Then they’d back away from the hard blue eyes that told them exactly what the elderly Mr. Earp was thinking.
You just want to shake the hand of a killer.
You want to use me to make yourself feel brave.
FOR A LONG TIME, the smallest thing could set him off. He’d catch sight of himself in a window, think it was Morgan, and grief would tear his chest open. He’d notice a shirt the color of Ike Clanton’s or hear laughter that reminded him of Curly Bill’s. The rage would explode again, all but impossible to control.
He feared what he might do. Cry, maybe. Or kill someone.
He began to drink again.
JESUS DID NOT SAVE HIM THIS TIME. It was a chance remark, just something he overheard one morning. He was hungover, standing midway between a bar and a café in some little town, trying to decide which would make him feel less bad: strong coffee or a morning shot of rye. Two ladies passed by, giving wide berth to the gaunt, unshaven saddle bum he’d become. He overheard only a few words: “My sister’s living in San Francisco.”
San Francisco.
So much had happened. So much time had passed. He had no reason to believe that Josie was waiting for him. She was probably married now, a beautiful girl like that.
He was mean to her after Virg was almost killed. He felt more remorse about that than about anything he’d done since. He wanted to tell her that he was sorry for being so mean, but with Morgan gone, there wasn’t anyone to write letters for him. You could just say the message to a Western Union clerk, but you needed an address. All he knew was that her family was in San Francisco.
It was someplace to go. It was a direction.
She’d probably tell him to go to hell, but even that was a destination.
HE SOLD DICK NAYLOR to a gangly stable boy who admired the horse and promised not to hit him. The kid was all excited about the notion of racing Dick in quarter-mile contests and had $7.15 saved up. The transaction yielded a five-dollar profit on the $2.15 Wyatt had paid for the horse back in Dodge.
Which made Dick Naylor just about the only investment that had ever paid off for Wyatt Earp.
He sold his saddle, too, and cleared enough for train fare to San Francisco with a little left over for a room above a bar near the depot. He went to a barber and got himself cleaned up. Then he started visiting banks, asking the managers, “Do you know a banker named Marcus?”
The city was bigger than he’d expected, with a lot more banks. He was all but broke and about to give up when he was told, “Well, sir, I know a Henry Marcus, but he’s a baker, not a banker.”
No, he thought, that must be a different man. Then, suddenly, it all made sense. How good she was in the kitchen. The cakes and crullers and cream puffs. The doughnuts and cookies.
He got directions to the Marcus bakery. It wasn’t far. He only meant to peek in the window. He figured he’d come back in the morning with a fresh shave and a clean shirt so he’d look more respectable when he went inside to ask Mr. Marcus if he had a daughter named Josephine.
Then he saw Higgs, asleep in the pale San Francisco sun, out in front of the store. He went down on one knee to pat the dog, who woke up and jumped on him and licked his face, wriggling and whining with joy, the way dogs do when they recognize someone who’s been missing for an hour, or a day. Or a couple of years.
“Well, well,” he heard Josie say. “Hello, stranger.”
She was standing in the doorway wearing an apron, her springy hair bundled into a kerchief. Not a girl anymore. Filled out more.
Still kneeling by the dog, he didn’t know what to say except “I’m sorry.”
“Good,” she said, and he could see she was still pretty mad at him.
Behind her, a fat little man in his fifties flipped the bakery’s sign from OPEN to CLOSED. Upstairs, a stocky older woman with a German accent was hollering from a second-floor window: “Come up already! It’s almost Shabbos!”
Her father stepped out and her mother trundled down the stairs to stand at their daughter’s side. Wyatt pulled off his hat and bore their scrutiny wordlessly.
“That him, Sadie?” her father asked.
Sadie. Her secret name. The name you called her if you loved her.
“Yes, Papa,” she answered, eyes steady on Wyatt’s. “That’s him.”
“So, Mr. Wyatt Earp,” her mother said judiciously, “are you a Christian?”
“Mutti!” Josie cried.
“I’m just asking!” her mother said with a shrug.
“It’s all right,” Wyatt said. “I was, ma’am. Not anymore.”
This information was taken in and considered.
“You’re too thin,” Mrs. Marcus informed him. “Come upstairs for supper.”
JOSIE’S SISTER, HATTIE, ARRIVED just before sunset with her husband, Emil. Their baby, Edna, was passed around and cooed over. “Look at this child!” Mr. Marcus cried. “Soft and sweet as challah!”
Wyatt was introduced. Eyebrows rose, for his name and reputation were known to them. Even so, they welcomed him and no one remarked upon the presence of a notorious vigilante at the table.
Josie’s brother, Nathan, got there last, just before the wineglasses were filled. “Count on Nate to be on time for the booze,” Hattie said dryly, and you could see that Nathan was a drinker, but Wyatt was in no position to feel superior about that. Or anything else.
There were candles and foreign prayers. There was bickering and joshing. There was a loaf of braided bread—soft and sweet as a baby girl. Brisket. Roasted carrots and parsnips. Potatoes in some kind of pudding. It was the first good meal he’d had in almost three years, and every time the surface of his plate began to show between the piles of food, Mrs. Marcus would reach over and add another serving.
“Eat!” she’d say. “You’re too thin! Eat!”
For dessert, there were lemon tarts and sponge cake and molasses cookies.
“Mr. Earp, you sure you don’t want a little something more?” Mrs. Marcus asked.
“Ma’am,” he said, “I couldn’t eat another bite,” but he was looking at Josie—at Sadie—when he said that. And he was thinking, Yes. Yes, I do. I want more.
The baby got fussy. Emil said, “Ah! It must be time for the Exodus!”
Wyatt thought that was pretty clever, but everybody else had heard the joke before and rolled their eyes. There was a flurry of kisses and hugs, more doting over the baby, and good-byes. Wyatt had moved toward the door with the others, but he lingered a few moments longer, until he and Josie were alone.
“Suppose . . .” he began. “Suppose we went for a walk with Higgs.”
“Oh, Wyatt.” She sighed. “I thought you’d never ask.”
THE DOG RAN AHEAD. They watched him sniff, and mark corners, and briefly chase a rat, circling back to check on them before ambling off to explore a pile of garbage. They didn’t speak at first. They just strolled side by side through tatters of fog that occasionally broke apart, letting moonlight through to the street.
“You read about it, I guess,” Wyatt said finally. “In the papers.”
“I didn’t believe any of it. Newspapers always lie.”
He turned so she could see his face, for he wanted no misunderstanding between them. “I am not a good man. I wanted to be. I wanted to be better than— Better than I turned out to be. I have done things . . .” He looked away but made himself say it plainly. “I have taken lives. Some of them deserved it, but . . . maybe not all of them.”
She waited. He said no more, and they began to walk again.
“I got rid of a baby,” she told him.
He stopped and looked at her, startled.
She met his eyes. “It wasn’t Johnny’s. It was later. When I was working.”
“I don’t want children,” he said. “It has to stop with me.”
The anger. The violence.
They walked again, and she took his hand.
“I was wondering,” he said after a time. “I was wondering if I could call you Sadie.”
I love you, he meant. I always have.