Contents

Title Page

Dedication

CHAPTER ONE: HOW THE YEARS HAVE FLOWN

CHAPTER TWO: A MISSING FACE

CHAPTER THREE: IN A MOUNTAIN’S PAST (AND A MAN’S) SHADOW

CHAPTER FOUR: ‘I WAKE AND FEEL THE FELL OF DARK’ — GERARD MANLY HOPKINS

CHAPTER FIVE: A GENTLEMAN TO THE RESCUE

CHAPTER SIX: POLLY AND THE POLO PEOPLE

CHAPTER SEVEN: LIFE’S SUCH A DRAG

CHAPTER EIGHT: WHAT MEETS THE EYE

CHAPTER NINE: WORKING MEN

CHAPTER TEN: UTU’S LONG MEMORY … AND REACH

CHAPTER ELEVEN: WHO MADE JAKE (ME?) WHAT MADE ME?

CHAPTER TWELVE: THE OTHER SIDE OF THE PRISON LANDING

CHAPTER THIRTEEN: PINE BLOCKSUNSHINE

CHAPTER FOURTEEN: I, I, I. ME, ME, ME.

CHAPTER FIFTEEN: SLAVES OF OURSELVES

CHAPTER SIXTEEN: HE WHO HAS PATIENCE

CHAPTER SEVENTEEN: MEMORIES ARE WHAT YOU MAKE THEM

CHAPTER EIGHTEEN: DEGREES OF PERCEPTION

CHAPTER NINETEEN: APE SWAYS THE COMMITTEE

CHAPTER TWENTY: FOOLING EYES (FOR THE FOOL)

CHAPTER TWENTY-ONE: VIEW FROM A HILL

CHAPTER TWENTY-TWO: MATERNITY, NOT MATERNAL

CHAPTER TWENTY-THREE: A MATERIAL WORLD

CHAPTER TWENTY-FOUR: THE OUTCAST TRIBE

CHAPTER TWENTY-FIVE: WHEN THE HEART RULES

CHAPTER TWENTY-SIX: HELL IN THE GARDEN CITY

CHAPTER TWENTY-SEVEN: IS THAT THE BABY CRYING (OR YOU?)

CHAPTER TWENTY-EIGHT: BACK TO THE BEGINNING

CHAPTER TWENTY-NINE: VOICE FROM THE TOP (LANDING)

CHAPTER THIRTY: ‘DESPAIR, NOT FEAST ON THEE’ — GERARD MANLY HOPKINS

CHAPTER THIRTY-ONE: TO BE ANY OTHER THAN THIS — MAORI

CHAPTER THIRTY-TWO: GUILTY

CHAPTER THIRTY-THREE: STOP BABY SCREAMING, THE SCREAMING IN MY HEAD

CHAPTER THIRTY-FOUR: A BEAST AMONGST LESSER BEASTS

CHAPTER THIRTY-FIVE: RESPONSIBILITY’S WAKE-UP CALL

CHAPTER THIRTY-SIX: THE DEVIL’S RANK AIR

CHAPTER THIRTY-SEVEN: IS THAT YOU, AL?

CHAPTER THIRTY-EIGHT: WRONG PLACE

CHAPTER THIRTY-NINE: FRIENDS IN MUTUAL NEED

CHAPTER FORTY: WHERE THERE IS GOODNESS

CHAPTER FORTY-ONE: WHAT’S THE USE OF BELIEF?

CHAPTER FORTY-TWO: WE ALL HAVE A CHOICE (OR DO WE?)

CHAPTER FORTY-THREE: UTU DIFFERENT

CHAPTER FORTY-FOUR: CHARLIE’S AWAKENING

CHAPTER FORTY-FIVE: LOVE AT A BEDSIDE

CHAPTER FORTY-SIX: GOODBYE, CRUEL (MOTHER) WORLDCHAPTER

FORTY-SEVEN: SAME PICTURE, DIFFERENT EYES

CHAPTER FORTY-EIGHT: THE OLD/NEW COMBO

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