The memorial service for Maggie was held, at her request, at the airport. Hundreds came to pay tribute to the woman who’d brought so much life and laughter and spirit to Tribulation.
The mourners who overflowed the tent stood beneath black umbrellas, until finally, when the drizzle escalated into a downpour, the services were moved inside the hangar.
When the rain stopped and the pewter clouds parted, Caine and Devlin—the older man fortified by the Dramamine tablet Nora had given him—took off in Maggie’s beloved Cessna to spread her ashes over the mountain meadows she’d loved.
The others retired to Mike and Ellen’s, where they shared a potluck supper and swapped Maggie stories, each more outrageous than the last, all of them true.
It was late when Nora returned home, but she wasn’t surprised to see Caine sitting on the porch in the wicker swing, waiting for her. Neither was she surprised by the surge of pure pleasure that flowed through her.
“Hi.” She slipped her hands into the skirt pockets of her black dress. “How’s Devlin?”
“About as well as can be expected,” Caine replied. “I offered to take him back to the cabin with me, but he wanted to stay at the house. He says he can feel Maggie’s spirit there.”
“I suppose that’s not surprising.”
“I guess not.” Caine raked his hands through his hair. “He feels she’s hanging around to make sure he’s okay with all this.”
“That’s not surprising, either. Are you?”
“Am I what?”
“Okay with all this?”
Caine shrugged. “I suppose. As much as I can be… . By the way, I got a call today from my lawyer. By this time tomorrow, I’ll be a free man.”
Her heart soared, even as Nora attempted to bank her joy. “I guess congratulations are in order.” Wicker creaked as she sat down beside him.
“Thanks. The entire process looked like it was going to last until the next century, so I decided to make an end run around the legal eagles and wrote out a generous enough check to send her to the Dominican Republic.”
“That’s football,” Nora murmured.
“What?”
“An end run. That’s football.”
He chuckled. “I can remember when you thought a tight end was a groupie in too-snug jeans.”
“You can’t escape sports talk in the doctors’ lounge.”
“I thought doctors only talked about golf.”
“I suppose they do, mostly.”
“Did you ever take it up so you’d have something to do on Wednesday afternoons?”
“Golf? No.” Nora shook her head. “I never could figure out whether to hit the ball when the dragon’s mouth was open or closed.”
He laughed and put his arm around her. Nora didn’t move away. For a while there was only the soft sigh of the night breeze in the trees and a swish-swish sound as they swung gently.
“Was it hard?” she asked finally. “Scattering Maggie’s ashes?”
“I thought it would be,” Caine admitted. “But the meadows were in full bloom and while we were circling, looking for a space, a ray of sun came out of the clouds, and gilded this one spot on the mountainside pure gold. I looked at Devlin and he looked at me, and we both knew that somehow, Maggie was guiding us.”
“She probably was,” Nora said quietly. “I worried when you didn’t show up at the potluck.”
“Devlin just wanted to go home. After I dropped him off, I drove to Port Angeles and played a little catch with Johnny.”
“That was nice of you.”
“I did it more for myself than for him. I like the kid. A lot.”
“And he idolizes you. How’s he doing?”
“Okay.” Caine shrugged. “He’s worried that no one will adopt him because people would rather have a new baby.”
“Most people would, I suppose. But Johnny’s a wonderful little boy. He’ll find a family.”
“That’s what I told him,” Caine agreed.
They fell silent again. Somewhere in a distant treetop an owl hooted.
“I brought you something,” Caine said.
When he reached into his pocket, Nora thought he was going to give her some small memento of his grandmother, but instead, he handed her a legal-size white envelope.
Slanting him a questioning look, she slid her fingernail under the flap and opened it. “A check?”
The moon was riding high above the horizon, the cool white light bright enough to enable Nora to read the amount. “I don’t understand.”
Stunned, unable to believe what her eyes were telling her, she slowly counted all the zeros again. “It’s made out to the Dylan Anderson O’Halloran Memorial Pediatric Trauma Center.”
Caine nodded. “That’s right.”
“But there isn’t any such center.”
“Not now. But there will be.”
She couldn’t believe he was serious. Her first thought was that this was some sort of grandstand play to win her approval. Her second thought was that Caine was not the type of man to indulge in such subterfuge.
She stood and began to pace. “But a trauma center is so very expensive.”
“Tiffany didn’t get all my money, Nora.”
“But even you can’t fund it by yourself.”
“I know that. But I’m a helluva fund-raiser. You should hear my after-dinner speeches. Besides, I’m going to have help.”
She stopped in her tracks. “What kind of help?”
“There’s going to be an All-Star baseball game in October, after the World Series and before winter ball begins in South America,” he informed her. “All proceeds going to the center. ESPN has committed to broadcasting the game and here’s a list of people who’ve signed up to play. I expect more when the word gets out.”
Nora scanned the list he’d pulled from his pocket. The names represented the top stars, past and present, of the game.
“You’ve been busy.”
Caine shrugged. “I spent the past few weeks making some phone calls. It kept me out of the pool halls.”
He’d done more than make phone calls. It was obvious that he’d spent a great deal of time and effort on the project. Not to mention money. “I can’t let you do this.”
“It’s too late to stop me, Nora. Besides, I’m not doing it for you,” Caine argued calmly. “I’m doing it for all the little kids like Dylan who need a fighting chance.”
Caine’s incredible plans left Nora feeling drained. She sat back in the swing and stared up at the star-spangled sky.
“After all these years, I didn’t think there was anything you could do to surprise me,” she said finally. “But you’ve succeeded.”
“I’m glad to hear that. But I didn’t do it as some elaborate scheme to get you back in my life, Nora.”
“I know.”
They resumed swinging.
Need was a fist, twisting at Caine’s gut, crawling beneath his skin, burning him from the inside out. With effort, he pushed it down.
As if reading his mind, Nora turned her head so that her face was inches from Caine’s. His arm was stretched along the top of the swing; the slightest movement would have it around her shoulders.
“I guess I’d better go home,” he said quietly. “Before I stoop to begging.”
When he began to rise—fully, honorably, intending to leave—she placed her hand on his arm. Her eyes, more gold than brown in the streaming moonlight, revealed her own desire.
“You wouldn’t have to beg.”
He couldn’t resist. He had to touch her, if only to cup her face with his hand. “I want you to be sure about this, Nora. Very sure.”
“I am.” Her answering laugh was as quick and shaky as her pulse. “In fact, I don’t think I’ve ever been so sure about anything in my life.”
She slid her arms around his neck, her smile a seduction in itself. If Scheherazade had flashed that fatal, womanly smile at the Sultan, Caine mused, she definitely wouldn’t have needed to tell the guy stories to keep him interested during those thousand and one nights.
“Kiss me, Caine.” Nora’s soft voice curled around him like smoke. “Kiss me the way you were going to kiss me at the festival.”
He combed his hands through her hair, gathering it into a knot at the nape of her neck, and held her gaze to his. “If I do,” he warned, “it won’t stop with a kiss.”
“Good.” Her fingers were playing with the curls at the back of his collar. “Because I want you to make love to me.” Her eyes were open and fixed on his. “Nobody has ever made me fly so high.”
Caine hadn’t come to Nora’s house to take her to bed. He’d only wanted to be with her, to tell her about the center, and, perhaps, ease the pain of losing his grandmother just a little.
He thought of his promise to Maggie, to stay away from Nora until he was free.
But dammit, Tiffany was on her way to the Dominican Republic—along with a cashier’s check—and in a matter of hours a marriage that should have been declared dead at the altar would be legally dissolved.
Reminding himself that he’d never been bucking for sainthood, Caine tangled his hands in her hair and kissed her—a deep, drugging kiss that had heat pouring out of him and into her.
Kissing Nora was like partaking of a feast after a long fast. Hunger. Greed. Need. They rose like ancient demons, battering at his insides.
Fighting for patience, Caine buried his lips in the soft scent of her hair. Every ragged breath he took was an agony of effort.
“I want to make love with you, too, sweetheart.” He ran his palms down her arms and struggled valiantly for some semblance of control. “But let’s try to keep this flight from being over too fast.”
“I’ll try if you will. But I’ve never had a great deal of self-control where you’re concerned, Caine.”
“I know the feeling.” Caine laced their fingers together and stood, bringing her to her feet with him.
When he led her into the house and up the stairs, Nora experienced a moment’s hesitation—one that did not go unnoticed by Caine.
He stopped on the landing and framed her face between his hands. “If this isn’t what you want—”
“It is.” She pressed her lips against his quickly, cutting him off. Although she was thirty-two years old, there was no artifice in her kiss, no clever experience; only honest, feminine need.
“I’ve never wanted anyone the way I want you right now, Caine,” she whispered when the brief flare ended. “I’ve never needed anyone the way I need you at this moment.”
It was all he needed to hear. Holding hands again, they walked the rest of the way up the stairs and into her bedroom.
The room was a direct contrast to the proper, professional image Nora showed the world. It was pretty and feminine and smelled of flowers. It was the kind of room a man would only feel comfortable in if invited.
Antique perfume bottles stood atop her dresser along with a trio of fat white candles and a dish of potpourri made from the petals of the scarlet roses Nora’s grandmother had planted behind the house.
Framed photos, of friends and family, covered most of the rest of the dresser top.
Caine smiled when he saw a picture of Maggie, standing in front of a red Stinson four-seater she’d owned back in the 1950s. She was grinning with the sheer confidence of a woman who had never let any obstacle stand in her way.
Caine’s gaze moved to an open sandalwood box where a strand of polite pearls was hopelessly entangled with gold hoops, and a pair of discreet silver stud earrings rested on velvet beside a funky ceramic pin shaped like a gray whale.
Caine remembered the pin well; he’d bought it for Nora on impulse one April day when they’d taken a cranky, teething Dylan on a ferryboat ride to Orcas Island. He was moved and vastly encouraged by the fact that she’d kept it all these years.
The hand-carved bed was wide and tall; the four posters reached almost to the ceiling. The mattress was covered with a wedding-ring quilt from some Anderson bride’s hope chest. Piled atop the quilt were dozens of pillows—too small to be useful for anything other than feminine ornamentation—covered in lace and satin and pretty floral-chintz prints.
Beside the bed, he was pleased to see, his wildflowers sat in a white china pitcher he remembered Anna Anderson pouring milk from. He plucked a petal and rubbed it between his thumb and forefinger, releasing a burst of sweet fragrance.
“I dreamed of you that night,” Nora murmured. “On Midsummer Eve.”
He’d known she would. Just as he had dreamed of her.
Centuries of folklore hovered in the perfumed air between them. “But I don’t think it counts,” she whispered, “because I’ve been dreaming of you every night since you came back to Tribulation.”
The soft admission was more than he’d dared to hope for. “Every night?”
“Yes.” The single word shuddered from between her lips on a soft sigh. “Every single one.”
A fierce burst of primitive satisfaction surged through his veins. “Although I’ve never been a man to worry about setting the scene for romance, I wanted to do this right.” His gaze moved lingeringly over her face; he was making love to her with his eyes. “I had it all planned: champagne and red roses and music.”
“I don’t need champagne. Or roses. Or music.” He was standing so close to her, Nora couldn’t tell if it was Caine’s heart beating so wildly, or her own. “All I need is you.”
His eyes didn’t waver from hers as he slowly traced the exquisite shape of her mouth with his thumb. His fingers explored the planes of her face and found her perfect. His mouth drank from hers with a gentleness he hadn’t known he possessed.
When his tongue slipped between her parted lips to touch the tip of hers, Nora wondered how it was that her body could be so thrillingly alive while her mind remained so clouded.
Refusing to dwell on it, she let herself slide effortlessly into this seductive, misty world. She lifted her arms, entwined them around Caine’s neck and pulled him to her. Their bodies fit just as she remembered. Perfectly. Wonderfully.
The more she gave, the more Caine wanted. He ached for her—body, mind and soul.
“All these years,” he told her, “I’ve tried to forget the way you felt in my arms when we made love. And the incredible, terrifying way you make me feel.”
“I know.” She ran her fingers over his dark face. “I’ve tried to forget, too. And I’ve tried to pretend that it wasn’t real—that it had been only a fantasy, a trick of memory.”
The wonder of her admission shimmered in her voice. “But it was real.” Her fingers moved down his neck, to the open collar of his shirt.
Something about Caine had always had Nora wanting to give him more than she’d given to any other man. Something about him always had her wanting more from him than any man had ever given her.
She pressed her lips against his warm skin, drinking in his mysterious male taste. “It’s only ever been that way with you, Caine.” Very slowly, he unbuttoned her dress. Caine O’Halloran had always made love the way he played baseball: with a skill that made every move seem eminently natural.
Yet, as his fingers fumbled with the small pearl buttons running down the front of her dress, he wondered why it was that this act, which he’d performed so many times before, could suddenly seem so different. So new. So frightening.
The buttons went all the way to the hem. Breathing a sigh of relief as he released the final one, Caine folded back the material. She was wearing a silk teddy with a low-cut lace-trimmed bodice and a pair of black, lace-topped thigh-high stockings that had looked appropriately somber with the dress, but now were incredibly sexy contrasted with the pale skin above them.
The fact that the teddy was as scarlet as sin made him smile, reminding him of the first time he’d discovered her penchant for sexy lingerie.
When Caine slid the dress from her shoulders, Nora reached for him, but he caught her hands.
“No, let me.” He brushed his lips against hers again, tempting, tantalizing, tormenting. “Let me see if I can make you float.”
“You always could.”
The crimson teddy smelled like her. Caine could have drowned in her scent. But since the temptation of her silky skin was even more irresistible, Caine dispensed with the sensual barrier. Slowly, thoroughly, he seduced her solely with his mouth. Her blood warmed, her pulse hummed. And then, as impossible as it sounded, Nora began to float.
She found herself lying on the bed without knowing how she’d gotten there. When Caine’s lips closed around the rosy tip of her breast and tugged, Nora gasped; they moved on, scattering hot kisses over her stomach, the inside of her thigh, the back of her thigh, the back of her knee. His teeth nibbled at the ultrasensitive tendon that only he had ever discovered, creating a flash of heat that spiraled outward to her fingertips.
But she wasn’t allowed to dwell on that riveting feeling. His mouth was everywhere, tasting, tempting its way along a seductive path from her tingling lips to her bare toes. Everywhere his lips touched, they left tormenting trails of heat. Her blood was molten, flowing hot and thick through her veins, then deeper still, to the bone.
Caine was a tender, but ruthless lover—driving her toward delirium as he turned her in his arms, bending her to his will, tasting every fragrant bit of exposed flesh. And just when Nora didn’t think she could take any more, he drove her higher, to where the air grew thin and it became hard to breathe.
Dazzled, dazed, desperate, she closed her eyes and clung to him as the years peeled away. And then she was tumbling over the rocky precipice, shuddering as climax after impossible, breath-stealing climax slammed through her.
Caine watched Nora’s dazed eyes fly open. He heard her astonishment as she gasped his name. Strangely, the absolute trust she’d shown him had made him feel like a hero again—for the first time in a very long while.
He held her until the wild, aching tremors passed.
“Lord, I’ve missed this,” he murmured against her mouth. “I’ve missed you.”
For what seemed like an eternity, Nora lay limp in his arms, her mind spinning, her heated skin drenched. How could she have forgotten that it was possible to feel so much?
Sometime during the heady lovemaking, Caine’s clothes had vanished. But how could that be? When she couldn’t remember a single instant when his lips or his hands had not been warming her body.
Outside the window, the large white moon rising in the sky made Caine’s dark skin gleam. Nora touched his chest. His flesh under her stroking fingers was soft and smooth. But the muscle beneath was hard and wire-taut. She pressed her lips against that warm moist flesh, drinking in the texture, the taste, his earthy male scent.
She ran her hands over his body, delighting in the way his muscles rippled and clenched beneath her palm. She pressed her open mouth against his flat stomach and felt him shudder. She flicked her tongue over his pebbly dark nipple and heard him groan.
The idea that she could cause such a primitive response was thrilling. Abandoning caution, she rose to her knees and ran her palms down his legs, her fingers exploring the corded muscles of his thighs, his calves. Testing, she touched her lips to the flesh her hands had warmed.
How had the tables turned so devastatingly? Caine wondered dizzily. Just moments ago, he’d been the one in absolute control. He’d been the one creating havoc with Nora’s stunned senses.
But now, with just the delicate glide of her hands, the feel of her mouth against his skin, the scrape of her teeth against the aching flesh at the inside of his thigh, she was driving him beyond reason. Her daring touch was like a flame; his flesh burned with it.
Overcome with a heady feminine power, Nora laughed and trailed her tongue wetly down his chest. The throaty sound tolled in his head as his body throbbed. Frustration warred with passion. Caine wanted her to stop; he wanted her never to stop.
He ached to take her now, quickly, before she succeeded in making him mad, but his power was gone. Somehow, when he wasn’t looking, Nora had stolen it; it had flowed from him into her and for the first time in his life, Caine was experiencing true helplessness.
Moaning her name between short ragged breaths, he reached for her, but his touch was vague, almost dreamlike.
“Not yet,” she whispered silkily.
He knew what she was going to do; every atom in his body was poised for that incredible moment when she would take his swollen sex into her soft wet mouth.
As if determined to torment him as he had tormented her, Nora drew the moment out. Her tongue slid hotly along his length, making him groan as he thrust his lean hips off the mattress in a mute plea for fulfillment.
But still she made him wait. When her tongue encircled the plum-hued tip, Caine thought he was going to explode.
“No more.” Need made his tone raw.
He grabbed hold of Nora’s shoulders, turned her onto her back and levered himself over her. His eyes locked with hers. A promise, felt by both, sizzled between them.
He gripped her hips to pull her close, but Nora was already rising to meet him, to draw him in.
Caine slid into her, steel into silk. His hands linked with hers. Their fingers tightened.
Outside the window the white moon rose higher. And so did they.
* * *
“That,” Caine said when he could talk again, “was definitely worth waiting for.”
“Mmm.” Nora’s head was on his chest; she pressed a kiss against his cooling flesh.
She was basking in a warm and satisfied glow and would have been more than happy to spend the rest of her days just lying in Caine’s arms.
Even as common sense told her that that would be a remarkably impractical way to spend her life, the romantic side of her that this man had always been able to tap could think of nothing that would bring more pleasure. Caine ran a lazy finger down her spine. “Have I mentioned that you’re still the most incredibly beautiful woman I’ve ever known?”
“Flatterer.” His touch created a new flare of arousal that was as sharp as it was sweet.
“It’s true.” Smiling, he wound a thick strand of her hair around his hand. “And even now, after all we’ve shared, I still want you more than I’ve ever wanted any other woman.”
“I want you, too,” she admitted with a soft sigh.
He glanced down at her. “You don’t sound very happy about that.”
“It’s just that nothing has changed.” She was trembling. Caine felt an ominous feeling of foreboding and ignored it.
“Everything’s changed.” After brushing a kiss against the top of her head, he untangled himself from their embrace, left the bed and found his jeans.
“I have something for you.”
“You’ve already given me so much,” Nora protested, thinking of the generous check, not to mention all the work he’d been doing to establish her dream clinic. She sat up against the pillows.
“That was business. This is strictly personal.”
Nora froze when he handed her the familiar blue sapphire set in antique gold filigree. “It’s Maggie’s engagement ring.”
“Got it on the first try. She wanted you to have it.”
“Me?”
Nora stared down at the ring, remembering that Devlin had bought his bride-to-be a sapphire, rather than a more traditional diamond, because it was the color of the sky she loved so well.
She ran her finger over the intricate gold weave. “You’d think Devlin would want to keep it.”
“He and Maggie decided that it didn’t make any sense to have it stashed away in some forgotten drawer.”
“But—”
“They figured, and I agreed, that you might like it. And since we didn’t exactly have a traditional wedding the first time around, I never got you a proper engagement ring.”
“The first time?”
The mattress sighed as Caine sat down on the edge of the bed beside her. “You know how I feel, Nora. I love you. And, unless every instinct I’ve got has gone on the blink, you love me, too.”
She couldn’t lie any longer. Not to herself. Not to Caine. “I do.”
“So the next logical thing to do is to get married.”
“Caine—”
“In fact, the cabin’s all ready for you to move in. I shoveled out the trash, washed the windows, changed the sheets and dusted. Even beneath the couch.” He was more than a little pleased with himself about that. “And the refrigerator’s filled with those healthy green vegetables you like.”
“I’m sorry. But I can’t marry you, Caine.”
“Can’t? Or won’t?” Nora thought she detected a note of vulnerability in his tired tone.
“You have to understand.”
“That’s what I’m trying to do.” Although Caine’s voice remained calm, his eyes were not. “But you have to remember that I’m just a dumb jock. So perhaps you’d better try speaking slowly. And stick to words with no more than two syllables.”
Caine’s passion had always simmered just below the surface. Such intensity had always been exciting to Nora. At this moment, she was discovering that it could also be frightening.
Her nerves in a tangle, she pulled the rumpled sheet up to cover her breasts. “What we shared was wonderful, Caine. It always was. But it’s not enough.”
How could such an intelligent woman not see that after such intense lovemaking, she belonged to him? The same way he belonged to her.
“It’s not enough because you won’t let it be,” he argued. “We both finally came home tonight, Nora. Where we belong. I want to spend all the rest of my nights with you, for fifty—hell, if we’re lucky—even sixty or seventy-five years.
“I want to go to sleep every night with my arms wrapped around you and I want to wake up every morning knowing that you’re beside me. I want to grow old with you, Nora.”
Dear Lord, that’s what she wanted, too. But there was something else. Something she knew he was leaving out.
“What about children?”
Don’t let me mess this up, he begged whatever unforeseen fates had taken control of their lives.
Caine took a deep breath and chose his words very carefully.
“I know you’ve always considered me selfish. And perhaps I am. Because since coming back to Tribulation, I’ve discovered I want it all, sweetheart.
“I want to marry you and live in a house with a white picket fence. I want a stupid, friendly mutt who’ll track mud in on the freshly washed floors, steal the steaks off the backyard barbecue and dig up the tulip bulbs every spring.
“And yes, I want children.”
This was probably one of the longest speeches he’d ever made in his life. Reminding himself that it was also the most important, Caine took a deep breath.
“The best thing we ever did, in spite of ourselves, was create Dylan,” he said, his voice gruff with emotion. “I love you, Nora. I want to have a family with you. Kids, Mom, Pop, a dog, the works.”
Nora went ice-cold. Hands, feet, heart. “And where is this dream house going to be located? Detroit? And for how long?”
He flinched, knowing she had a point. There had been a time when he’d been so caught up in chasing his own dream, he would have thought nothing of dragging his family across the country, from town to town, wherever there was a baseball stadium.
“I didn’t realize that the word had already gotten out.”
“What word?”
“That I’d been offered the coaching job in Detroit.”
“Oh.” Amazingly, she hadn’t known. Maggie’s death had definitely put a crimp in Tribulation’s rapid-fire gossip line. “Congratulations.”
Caine shrugged. “I turned it down.”
It was one more surprise in a night of surprises. “Why?”
Caine stared down at her in disbelief. Hadn’t she been listening to a single word he’d said? “So I could stay in Tribulation. With you.”
“I can’t let you turn down an opportunity to stay in baseball for me.”
“I’m not turning it down entirely because of you, Nora. I’d already decided to take over Maggie’s charter business. It was what Gram wanted and the more I thought about it, the more I found myself liking the idea.”
The decision had proven surprisingly easy. In the beginning, before Maggie’s death, he’d suspected that the odds of Nora being willing to leave Tribulation and follow him to Detroit were slim to none. But, dammit, he’d told himself over and over again, he wasn’t asking her to give up medicine; she could practice in Detroit. Perhaps, he’d considered, if he couched things carefully, he could make her understand that baseball had always been, aside from her and Dylan, the most important thing in his life.
But by the time he’d finished polishing the cabin windows he’d realized that he didn’t really want to return to living out of a suitcase, never having any sense of belonging.
What he wanted was for him and Nora to sink their own family roots into the forest soil of a town that had been home to so many generations of Andersons and O’Hallorans.
“So you’re staying?” She’d be seeing him almost every day. On the street, in the market, perhaps even here at the clinic. The idea was as terrifying as it was wonderful.
“For good.”
“Well…if it’s what you really want to do…”
“It is.” Sighing, he linked their fingers together and brought them to his lips. “I told you, downstairs, that I was going to leave before I stooped to begging, but dammit, if that’s what it takes—”
“No.” She pressed the fingers of her free hand against his mouth, silencing him. “There’s nothing you can say that’ll change my mind, Caine.”
“Nothing? Are you sure about that?”
“Positive.”
Instead of moving away, as she had expected him to, Caine drew her close. He pressed his lips against her temple. “You’re far too passionate a woman to give up what we have together.” He kissed her eyelids. Her cheek. Her chin.
“You said I could always make you fly,” he murmured, his lips gently brushing against her mouth. “But I only ever felt that way with you. Let’s fly together, Nora. You and me. Forever.”
His words and his kisses caused a renewed flare of warmth. Against all common sense, Nora tilted her head back, giving his mouth access to her throat.
A soft silvery mist was fogging her senses, her body began to yearn. “I want to,” she told him in a shuddering whisper.
“I know.” His mouth skimmed down her throat, along her collarbone. Caine tugged the sheet free. “So why not marry me?”
When his tongue stroked wetly along the aching slope of her breasts, Nora realized that she was teetering once again on the very edge of seduction.
“Because,” she managed, “you want a family.”
Caine was already imagining her hot and hungry beneath him. He was already remembering the soft little sounds she made when he made her rise, the look of astonished pleasure in her eyes when he took her over the edge. But Nora’s unexpected words sliced through his erotic fantasy like a sharp knife.
“Are you telling me that you don’t?” That idea had never occurred to him.
“No.” Her skin, which had been warm and prettily flushed from their lovemaking, had turned as cold as ice and as pale as sleet. “I don’t.”
Moisture pooled in her distressed brown eyes.
Comprehension, when it dawned, was staggering.
“It’s because of Dylan, isn’t it?” A single tear escaped; Caine reached out and brushed it away. “Nora, sweetheart, what happened to Dylan was an accident. It could never happen again.”
Didn’t he think she knew that? She was an intelligent woman. She had a wall downstairs covered with degrees to prove it. But that didn’t expunge the absolute fear she felt whenever she thought about having another baby.
Loving a child was the greatest treasure any woman could ever know. And the greatest peril. And although she’d never considered herself a coward, Nora didn’t think she had the strength to ever face such risk again.
“I don’t want to talk about Dylan.” Her hands pushed ineffectually at his chest.
Caine tightened his hold. “Dammit, Nora. I can understand what you’re feeling. I can understand why you’re afraid. But although life doesn’t come with guarantees, I love you and you love me and that should be enough to get us through any storms that might come along.”
“I can’t handle it, Caine,” Nora insisted, her voice rising unnaturally high. “Losing Dylan almost destroyed me. I won’t risk that pain again. Not even for you.”
“Not even for us?”
“No.” The tears were flowing freely now. Nora dashed at them with the backs of her hands. “Not even for us.”
“All right.”
Caine dropped his hands to his sides although he wanted to go on holding her. Nearly as quickly as he’d dispensed with them in the first place, he located his scattered clothes and dressed while Nora watched silently, not trusting his sudden acquiescence.
“I’m going to leave now,” he said, after he’d finished buttoning his shirt. “But there’s something you need to know.”
“Loving someone doesn’t necessarily mean losing them.”
He bent down, captured her chin in his fingers and held her wary gaze to his. “This time, I’m not going to get in my car and drive away, just because things have gotten a little rough.”
A little rough? Her heart was lying in tatters all over the floor and he was calling things a little rough?
“I love you, Nora Anderson O’Halloran,” he said, feeling an ache deep inside when his words and his use of her married name made her flinch. “Fully, totally, irrevocably. With every fiber of my being.
“And being an admittedly greedy man, I intend to spend the rest of my life making love with you here in this bed, or in front of a roaring fire, or even in the lake behind my cabin.”
“We’d drown,” Nora couldn’t resist saying.
He smiled at that and she knew she was in major trouble when the sight warmed her to the core. “Not if we’re careful.” He ran his finger down the slope of her nose. “How long can you hold your breath?”
Before she could respond, he gave her a quick, hard kiss. “What do you think about an August wedding? The weather should be warm and sunny and your grandmother’s flowers will be in full bloom, so we can hold the ceremony in her garden.”
He was doing it again—refusing to listen to a word she said. Nora welcomed the burst of irritation; it overrode her pain.
“Caine, we’re not going to get married.”
“Wanna bet? Or are you afraid to put your money where that luscious mouth of yours is?”
She’d never been able to resist that challenge in his eyes. “All right, dammit. Fifty dollars.”
“That’s chicken feed. Five hundred says you’ll be Mrs. Nora O’Halloran before the summer’s over.”
It was more than she could safely risk. But frustration at the way some things never changed made Nora rash. “You’re on.”
“Terrific.” He brushed a hand down her hair and followed the corn-silk strands around her jaw. “Remind me to remind you of this conversation on our fiftieth anniversary. When we’re sitting on the porch in our rocking chairs, holding hands and watching our grandchildren splashing around in the lake behind the cabin.”
“For the last time—”
He bent his head and touched his mouth to hers. “See you around, sweetheart,” he said when the brief, possessive kiss ended. “Call me when you’ve changed your mind.”
And then, to her astonishment, he was gone.
Nora sat there in the middle of the rumpled sheets still redolent of their lovemaking, and listened to Caine take the stairs two at a time.
Downstairs, the grandfather clock struck the hour with a flurry of Westminster chimes. She heard the front door open, then close. And then there was only silence.
Dark, lonely silence.