Texas Choice Steakhouse
ALICE felt exhausted, but somehow fulfilled. It had been a long day, during which she had gathered a lot of valuable material, but the sheer visual complexity of the SSC laboratory and the LEM detector had brought her to the brink of sensory overload. Now it was time to relax and chill out after the afternoon heat of central Texas. She inhaled the delicious smell of steaks grilling on an open fire, leaned back in her chair, and looked up at the building’s barn-like structure. She liked the large overhead wooden beams and ranch-style decor of the Texas Choice Steakhouse.
She looked closely at the fine print on the membership card that George had received from their waiter in exchange for a $5 bill. It stated that whereas George Griffin was an official and honored member of the Texas Choice Club, he or she was therefore entitled to all the rights and privileges conferred by this exalted status. Among these rights and privileges was that of ordering two long-neck bottles of “ice cold” Lone Star. George took a long pull from that benefit of his new status and smiled contentedly.
Considering that George must make frequent trips to the SSC, Alice was surprised that he didn’t already have a Texas Choice Club membership. He must not go out very much. Come to think of it, neither did she.
Alice cut another chunk from the thick medium-rare steak, wondering if she’d be able to finish it all. She glanced at George. Might as well get on with the relationship probing, she decided. “You mentioned that your wife divorced you.” she said.
George’s eyes widened momentarily, as if he’d been discovered doing something forbidden. “That’s right,” he said. “Grace, who is British, decided to put herself in competition with physics for my attention, and physics won. She’s gone back to the UK now, and I hope she’s happier there.”
Alice nodded. The message that George’s work was more important than the wishes of his ex-wife came in loud and clear. “As a writer, I’ve been around scientists enough to know that their work requires a large amount of time and effort. Most of them seem to be work-a-holics who love what they’re doing. Didn’t she understand that?”
“Not really,” said George. “After I landed the faculty job in Seattle, she developed the Oxford-esque vision of me as a university don, tutoring students, attending faculty assemblies, arguing with colleagues over fine points of philosophy, and writing an occasional monograph containing my great thoughts. She simply never understood how things work in experimental particle physics. She had never imagined, she told me once, that such a large group of people would chose to work so hard, for so long, and spend so much money to accomplish so little.”
Alice grimaced. “Did you have any children?” she asked.
“No,” George answered. “We held off at first because our finances were very tight. Then in Geneva we discovered that Grace had, as they say, a problem. We could have used one of those microsurgical fertilization techniques, but about then we began having disagreements about my working hours, so it seemed prudent to wait. I suppose we avoided many complications, as it turned out.” He stared bleakly at the table for a moment and then looked up at her. “How about you, Alice? Married? Or otherwise involved?”
“I’m a widow, actually,” she said, feeling suddenly trapped into unfolding a story she would rather keep packed away. “Steve and I were married for six years. Happily married, I guess you could say. We met as students at Florida State in 1992 while we were both working on Bill Clinton’s unsuccessful presidential campaign. After graduation I got a job as a reporter with the Tallahassee Democrat and supported both of us while he was finishing law school. When Steve graduated he got a job with a good law firm in Tallahassee, which is the state capital. Two good jobs, many good friends, a wonderful life, a nice house. We were active in politics, and Steve was planning to run for the State Legislature when the time was right. We were both too busy to contemplate dealing with children. And then he was killed in a mountain climbing accident.” She paused and swallowed.
George said nothing, so finally she continued. “Steve had grown up in Montana, and he was a climbing nut. Once or twice a year we’d go off to Switzerland or Colorado or Alaska to climb mountains. I learned enough to keep up with him, most of the time. It was good healthy exercise, and it kept us in top condition. We were at Saas Fe when I suddenly came down with the flu. Steve decided to take the opportunity when I wasn’t along to do something more challenging. He hired a Swiss guide and set out to climb the Eiger. There’d been an unusually heavy snowfall that winter, and it was warming up. And, to get to the point, there was an avalanche where there had never been one before. The guide came back, but Steve didn’t. It them took two days to find his body.”
George said nothing, but he squeezed her hand.
“The insurance money and the sale of our house in Tallahassee provided me with enough financial independence so I could do freelance writing instead of working for the newspaper. I’ve been a full-time writer ever since.” She hadn’t intended to talk so much about it, but George didn’t seem to know what to say. So she had babbled on, hoping that her anger at Steve for getting himself killed hadn’t been too obvious.
She glanced out the window. The sun was low and red over the Texas prairie. “I’m glad it’s flat here,” she said finally. “I don’t much like to look at mountains any more.”
George took another sip from his long neck beer bottle and swallowed. Twice. “I’m really sorry, Alice,” he said at last. “I’d forgotten that someone could be so charming and so vibrantly alive and still have deep sorrows beneath the surface.”
She wiped her eye at the inside corner. “I think it’s time to change the subject,” she said in a low voice. Talking about Steve made her recall the pit of depression that had trapped her for so long, that she had struggled so hard to climb out of. “I’d like to see your experiment when it’s actually running and collecting data. So far, all I’ve seen are the preparations.”
George stroked his beard. “They’re almost finished with the present machine development cycle,” he said. “We expect to have beam available sometime tomorrow night. My next shift at LEM starts at 10:00 PM and ends at 6:00 AM. How do you feel about staying up all night?”
“Actually, it sounds great,” she said, feeling her spirits lift. “I’m rather a night person. When I’m working on a long piece of writing, I tend to write all night and sleep all day. In Tallahassee it’s quieter and cooler at night, and the work goes better.”
“OK,” said George. “You’re on for the Tuesday night shift. I hope you don’t bore easily. Experiment runs are usually structured as many hours of routine checking when nothing much is happening, punctuated by an occasional fifteen minutes of panic and confusion when something goes wrong.”
Alice smiled. “Perhaps I’ll be lucky, and disaster will strike while I’m there.”