Voices

Late at night in the house by the woods

I hear kids walking home from the tram

their voices as faint

as the beginnings of rain

they draw near and there are words

yes, fourteen or fifteen,

I know, definitely fifteen

boys speaking to one another

while conversations run around and

beneath them like underground streams

At their age we drove everywhere in cars

our voices floating free of our bodies

out open windows the way sky lanterns

will rise of their own burning

making similar notations of tally

the car’s motor our track times days until summer break

we yearned to measure everything

pin it to the earth as we floated through

The streetlamp throws a pale white glow into the bedroom

nights we’ve spent in this bed awake breathing in each

other’s dreams waiting for the phone to ring in last days

when talk stops and deep silence has opened up

as far away someone we love enters that most private moment

the ultimate final solitude a wood so deep a voice cannot

depart and yet we huddle round ask for words

and sound and acknowledgment

when what the voices are becoming is a sound

beyond sound one near when far and forever

I remember hearing it her voice after she died so close

like she was there on the bed the way when I was small

she would lie next to me speak softly into my ear

what trick of evolution gave us this ability to soothe ourselves

with the sound of our departed there is no such thing

as a swan song when one dies its other half simply goes

briefly silent Now the kids’ voices are so near as

if they are walking through the room

I sit up to greet them, leaving the bed

to stand by the window and mark their arrival

in that brief slip of time they’ve passed by

the front of the house and have become a shadow

of bodies departing the gray-green dark

voices softer and softer it’s as if

they have never been here at all