“I used to blame Perry whenever I got in trouble. It wasn’t fair, of course. He only led me, I followed. Now that he’s gone, I’ve got no one to blame but myself.”
JACOB SCHROCK
Sitting alone in the interrogation room, Jacob realized that he’d never sincerely given thanks for his parents or for their store. He should’ve, he knew that. Schrock’s Variety Store was a part of who he was.
It was his legacy.
His earliest memory was sitting on a counter, his father holding him steady while a pair of customers chatted with them both.
When he was older, he used to work beside his mother, folding bags for people who checked out, or straightening a shelf. Often, he’d been given a job like holding a kitten or sitting with some customers who had come inside for ice cream in the summer.
Through the years, there had always been something eventful going on. When he was younger, Jacob, like his father, had fed off the chaos. Only when he was older did he realize that there were better, smoother ways to run the market. Little by little, he implemented his ideas. Now his father relied on him to manage the deliveries and inventory. Actually, he organized most everything, except for his father’s penchant for selling animals.
Through it all, Jacob had always known that his father was proud of him. For hours, his father had shown him off at the store, or had taken him on buying trips. Always his father had treated him with patience. Patience with his endless questions and mistakes.
And he’d definitely made his share of mistakes lately. He’d resented his job and had begun to take his parents’ unwavering love for granted. He’d let his anger with Perry stew instead of forgiving him and letting it go.
And of course, he’d fought with Perry, injured him . . . and then lied to everyone.
Just an hour ago, he’d been shocked when Mose set his old letter to Perry on the table. He’d forgotten he’d even written it, and had been mortified when he read the words again.
They sounded angry and malicious. Petty. No wonder Mose had looked at him like he was a horrible person.
After talking with Mose, Jacob realized he certainly wasn’t the only person to be keeping secrets. He was very surprised to discover that Deborah had seen that note and had only brought it to Luke and Mose reluctantly.
But nothing had floored him as much as the news that she’d had the note for weeks. And that she’d actually hidden it from the police in order to protect him.
Even when he’d been so rude to her, she had wanted to believe the best in him. It was becoming more and more obvious that he had a lot to learn about friendship and loyalty.
That was why he wasn’t upset with her for ultimately bringing the note to the authorities. She wanted to believe in Jacob, but she had loved her brother. It made sense that, now that he’d revealed that he’d been keeping secrets from her, she would share her secrets, too.
Thank goodness Mose didn’t act like the letter was proof that Jacob had killed Perry. All Mose had said was that it proved that Jacob had been angry.
And that was true.
But the thing he was sorriest about was his lack of prayer. He’d never sat with God and asked him for guidance. Instead of praying about his concerns, he’d locked them up inside himself, trying in vain to ignore the hurts.
He was paying for that now. Sitting in the back room of the sheriff’s office, he’d never felt more alone. But he was beginning to realize, surely if anyone could have the patience for him, it would be God?
Leaning forward, he braced his elbows on the small table. He closed his eyes and forced himself to relax, and then, little by little, he had a talk with the Lord.
Only then could he sleep.
Three hours after they’d taken Jacob Schrock into custody, his parents showed up with a lawyer. After talking briefly with the man, Mose released Jacob into his lawyer’s care.
They couldn’t hold him anyway; there were still too many inconsistencies in Jacob’s story for them to actually charge him with anything. Though he felt he had gotten Jacob’s whole story, Luke felt that they still were missing something important. Luke knew there was one more part to the story of Perry’s death. He just wasn’t positive about who he suspected had shown up after Jacob had left.
As he and Mose stood at the front window and watched the lawyer drive the Schrocks away, Luke stuffed his hands into his back pockets.
“What do you think?” he asked Mose.
“I think I feel like a fool,” Mose said baldly.
“Why’s that?”
“I feel like we’ve interviewed everyone who could have anything to do with Perry’s death, that we’ve scoured the area, and that I’ve written over a hundred pages of detailed notes. But even after doing all that?”—Mose folded his arms over his chest—“This case still ain’t closed.”
Luke forced himself to bring up his fear. “I don’t think Jacob stuffed Perry’s body down that well, Mose. I don’t think he was the last person to see Perry that evening.”
“I agree with you.” His scowl darkened. “And that, of course, makes me even more frustrated with myself.”
“What does the D.A. say?”
“About what you’d imagine. We don’t have any actual evidence to prove that Jacob killed Perry. Only a whole lot of stories, which won’t make a difference on the stand. He also pointed out the levels of methamphetamine the labs discovered in his body. It could’ve been a lethal amount. Luke, Perry could have overdosed.” Mose picked up a paper clip. “I feel like an idiot, Luke. I’m a smart man, and a good sheriff. But for the life of me, I can’t seem to get either the evidence or the confession I need to close this case.”
Mose’s venting wasn’t a surprise; Luke felt the same way. But his frustration didn’t make their task any easier. “Any ideas about who we should talk to next?”
“I was thinking I’d go talk to the Millers, but they’ve said time and again that they saw nothing.”
“I think we’ve missed something, Mose, and I think it has something to do with Perry’s relationship with his friends. I’m going to go through my notes again.”
“I’ll do it, too. And I’m going to reread our notes about Jacob. I must have missed something. Pull up a chair, Luke. I’ll go brew some coffee. I have a feeling we’re going to be up late.”
For a brief moment, Luke let himself think of Frannie. He knew she was most likely wondering how he was doing . . . and how her friend Jacob was doing.
Because Luke didn’t want to tell her anything about the case, he pushed back the urge to give her a call. No, it would be better to keep quiet and stay with Mose.
They were so close, he could feel it. The wrong thing to do now would be to give up. He needed to hold steady and power through. Only then would he and Mose succeed in putting this case to rest. He just needed to remember that.
Something wasn’t right, Jacob knew that with every fiber in his being. Every time he looked at his father, the man looked wary. Almost guilty.
For the life of him, Jacob couldn’t understand it. What did his dad feel guilty about? And why wasn’t he yelling at him nonstop, or at the very least offering bits of wisdom and advice?
Instead, he only kept reassuring Jacob that he believed in him. That he knew Jacob hadn’t meant to hurt Perry. That he certainly knew Jacob hadn’t thrown Perry into an abandoned well.
That they would get through this difficult time together.
After his lawyer, Mr. Meyer, had arrived at the police station, the four of them drove back to their house. His father had gone so far as to close the store early so that they could discuss Jacob’s case at length together.
Outside, the skies darkened. Jacob’s mamm turned on a lantern and made a fresh pot of coffee on the stove, then fussed in the kitchen, popping out to join them for a few minutes at a time before returning to her haven.
Jacob and his daed joined the lawyer in the living room. If Mr. Meyer was uncomfortable, sitting in his dark suit in the warm house, he didn’t act like it. Instead, the middle-aged man answered every question of his father’s easily, even when the questions were repeated several times. Exhausted and nervous, Jacob elected to stay silent most of the time. He knew that he’d told the detectives everything he knew. He had no secrets left.
But his father, on the other hand, seemed far more uneasy. It almost seemed like there was something on the tip of his father’s tongue, some secret he was trying hard not to divulge.
And Jacob couldn’t help but fixate on it.
As the lawyer continued to explain terms like involuntary manslaughter and criminal negligence, Jacob leaned back in his chair and wondered what his father was hiding.
A look to his right revealed his mother hovering near the entrance to the kitchen. She, too, seemed perturbed and nervous.
Of course she had to be worried about what was going to happen to him . . . but was that all that was bothering her? Jacob just wasn’t sure.
“Did you have any questions, Jacob?”
With a start, Jacob turned to the lawyer. “I’m sorry, no.”
His father cleared his throat. “Jacob, was your mind wandering? You should be paying attention! This is important, son. I’m sure you have much to ask Mr. Meyer.”
“I realize it’s important, father. However, at the moment I do not have any questions.”
“Do you have access to a phone?” Mr. Meyer asked.
“We have a phone shanty down the road,” his mother said.
“And I have a cell phone,” Jacob admitted.
Mr. Meyer looked relieved about that. “Please give me your cell phone number, Jacob. I think it would be best if we could stay in contact over the next forty-eight hours. I wouldn’t be surprised if you heard from Sheriff Kramer sooner than later.”
Thankful he had memorized the number, Jacob wrote down his cell phone number, and took one of the lawyer’s cards, too. He sat back down to watch his parents escort Mr. Meyer to the door.
Thinking back, Jacob recalled when he was a small child, thinking that the worst thing that could happen to him would be not to be able to play basketball with his friends on Saturdays.
Then the worst thing he could imagine was working too much, never having a day off.
Then, of course, the worst thing he could imagine had had to do with Perry. Oh, he’d been so worried that Perry was going to always disturb his perfect life!
Now Jacob realized he’d been hopelessly naïve. There was a very good chance that soon he would be forced to leave everything he’d known and loved . . . all for a lapse in judgment.
And because the real guilty party wasn’t going to come forward.
Jacob didn’t blame him. After all, the need for self-preservation was a powerful thing.