Karassian Homogeny Ship Aarens, Alkeides System
It was chaotic in the ship that would become Demosthenes. The emergency evacuation had left clutter and abandoned objects everywhere. In the massive carrier hold, Connie was barely able to find room to land, among the hundreds of personal fighters and other junk littering the deck.
Thecla patted the side of the nearest fighter, which was only a little taller than Hayes, overjoyed. “A whole fleet of fighters just for us,” she breathed.
“Fighters with a tendency to blow up if you push the steering column the wrong way,” Fontana pointed out.
“I can fix that,” Thecla said, with complete assurance.
“Later,” Bellona told her. “There’s a lot of work ahead of us to make this place livable, first.”
For over a week, they stayed aboard the Alyard, even after coupling it up to the side of Demosthenes and generating a particle tunnel between the two ships. The Alyard was too big to land on the carrier deck, although Connie had made herself comfortable in a corner she claimed as her own.
During that week, they shuttled and then walked over to Demosthenes to work on clearing up the areas they needed the most. The first priority was restarting the fusion cores, to generate the energy they would need. Fontana was a competent jackleg engineer and power was restored within twelve hours.
After that, the priorities were less clear. “There are four kitchens and seven dining rooms,” Hero pointed out. “One of them just for the captain. Where do we start?”
“One dining room and one kitchen. Living quarters for everyone—assigned, to start,” Bellona told them. “Later, if someone finds different quarters more to their taste, they can clean them up for themselves. We clear out the bridge, the medbay and as much of the landing deck as we can.”
“You’re not going to dismantle the bridge?” Khalil asked.
“Not yet,” Bellona told him and everyone who was listening. “We might still want to move, one day. Thecla says the null generators could be made functional again.”
“The space engines are completely fried, though,” Thecla added.
“You have to be moving for the null engines to work,” Khalil pointed out.
“A meter a second is all that is needed,” Sang said.
“Positional thrusters will overcome inertia enough for that,” Thecla said. “Just,” she added. “And it might take a few minutes to get going, so it’s not something we can use for an emergency.”
“I’ll bear that in mind,” Bellona assured her.
The interior of Demosthenes rang with industry as the priority areas were cleared out and returned to a functioning state. Useful objects and abandoned possessions rounded up from these areas were added to a growing pile in one corner of the landing deck. Crew members—that Bellona insisted be called residents—could take from the pile anything they needed, or raid the unused areas of Demosthenes for more.
Bellona put Hero in charge of environmental ambience and told her to get rid of the stark white walls wherever possible. Hero immersed herself in color technology, converting the static walls to blush expressive and experimenting with colors and patterns. She also found a wide-mouthed assembler in the deeper bowels of Demosthenes and with Sang’s help, adjusted the programming so it would extrude textiles.
Bellona was made aware of the new capabilities of the assembler when she found drapes over a generated screen at one end of the dining room they were using. The screen showed a view of mountains and a window frame.
“It should be a lagoon,” Hayes complained, when he saw the view. “I like lagoons.”
No one pointed out to him that he liked lagoons only because his Ledan conditioning had taught him to like them.
After six days of hard but gratifying work, Bellona was satisfied enough to allow everyone to move over to Demosthenes from their cramped quarters on the Alyard. She found the expansive captain’s suite located behind the bridge almost uncomfortably roomy. She also heard comments about elbow room and breathing space and knew everyone else was enjoying the scale.
When Demosthenes was functioning at a basic level, she turned to the real priorities, leaving others to take care of the details of life in Demos.
She called Sang to her new quarters first. “I can’t ignore that this was a Karassian ship, originally,” she told him, as she punched at the controls on the big desk, trying to dismiss the screen that had spontaneously generated when Sang walked into the room. “We’re getting all their feeds—so many of them, it’s overwhelming. I can’t figure out how to turn them off so they don’t spring to life some time later.”
“I can take care of that,” Sang assured her.
“We should not turn all of the feeds off,” she added. “We could learn a lot from monitoring them.”
“Connie does monitor, as much as she can. She reports to me—although she doesn’t always understand what she’s watching, so something critical could be overlooked.”
“We can set up algorithms to monitor,” Bellona said. “Did Connie tell you about the man they call Chidi?”
“I remember Chidi from my time on Kachmar,” Sang said. “He is highly influential in Karassia.”
“I don’t know why,” Bellona said. “He doesn’t say anything significant, yet he is adored.”
“I believe he says what everyone wants to hear,” Sang said. “That is why they appreciate him. He confirms that their thoughts and opinions are valid.”
“He’s saying Xenia is real and I’m a fake,” Bellona said.
Sang grimaced. “Exactly what Karassians would prefer to believe. It lets them sleep peacefully.”
Bellona considered him, startled. “They think I’m lying?”
“They think,” Sang said slowly, “that you’re using Xenia’s fame and glory to further your own hidden agenda.”
“I’ve been perfectly frank.”
“Karassians are not used to frankness.”
She stared at Sang, flummoxed. “They don’t believe that Shavistran was wiped out? They really believe it was all faked?”
“It’s more comfortable to believe it didn’t happen,” Sang said. “If it did, then it raises questions. Why would Eriuman destroy a whole city and if they have that capability, when will they destroy Kachmar City, or their city? Better to pretend your claims are all lies.”
“They could go to Shavistran and see the melted ruins for themselves,” Bellona said.
“That would be too proactive an action to take over something they don’t believe is true.” Sang shook his head. “There is an inertia to a communal belief that is difficult to overcome. No matter what you say, they will spin it to fit with their beliefs.”
“If I say it enough, surely some of them will start to question what is the truth?”
“The problem is, you are Bellona, who looks only vaguely like their hero, Xenia.”
Bellona sat back. “What if I looked exactly like Xenia?”
Sang looked thoughtful. “That might jar them into asking questions,” he admitted. “Although the official Karassian reaction might be more…forceful.”
“Can you cover the source of the transmissions so the Karassian officials can’t find us?”
“Connie could. She is on a first name basis with a lot of Karassian inter-system satellites now.”
“Name basis? You’re speaking metaphorically?”
“No. Connie asked them to give themselves names, so she didn’t have to keep using serial numbers to talk to them.” Sang smiled.
“Good,” Bellona said. “Let’s overcome the Karassian common man’s inertia, Sang. A flood of footage from Xenia herself. A deluge—so much of it that Chidi and his cohorts are drowned out by the volume. Let’s give Karassians a choice and ask them to make up their minds for themselves.”
“I can do that, of course,” Sang said. “Khalil is good with communications networks—”
“No,” Bellona said sharply. “Just you, Sang. Connie, of course. I prefer to keep this in-family.”
Sang grew still. His gaze cut away from her.
“What is it, Sang? You disapprove of that?”
Sang cleared his throat. His odd pale eyes met hers again. “May I speak frankly?”
“Don’t you always?”
He shook his head. “Bluntness is rarely appreciated.”
She sighed. “Speak.”
Instead, Sang shifted on his feet.
“Sang…”
“I thought Khalil was family,” he said, as if he was forcing the sentence from his inner-most self.
Bellona’s heart squeezed. She could feel the thud of it in her temples, too. “You’re right, Sang. I don’t like your brand of frankness.”
Sang lifted a hand, as if defeated. “Has he not proved himself to you? ‘If there was a beating heart to the Bureau I would tear it out with my bare hands and give it to you.’ That is what he said.”
“He did say that,” Bellona said, as calmly as she could. The heat and the pounding in her veins sickened her.
“Then…” Sang trailed off helplessly.
“Words are not proof.”
“Why does love have to prove itself?”
Bellona sucked in a breath as something shifted and rolled in her gut. “That’s enough, Sang.”
He grew still. His gaze dropped to the floor. “I apologize,” he said stiffly. “I’ll go and start on the algorithms.”
“And the Xenia feed,” she reminded him.
He headed for the door, his back straight and stiff.
“Sang.”
Sang didn’t look back. It was a very human form of denial. Yet he did hesitate at the open door.
“He betrayed me once,” she reminded him.
“He had to.”
“Which means he might be forced to it again.”
Sang’s shoulders dropped. Silently, he stepped out and let the door close.
* * * * *
The front end of the cavernous landing deck, tucked behind the growing pile of cast-offs and curiosities, was where Zeni held her daily combat training sessions. She didn’t pad the floor or prepare the area in anyway, except to clear the trash.
Sang attended the early morning sessions, as did Khalil. When Khalil asked Sang to practice with him late in the afternoon, though, he agreed.
There were three Abilio people working their way through the cast-off pile. Everyone digging through the heap tended to sort as they went. There were separate and growing piles of related things—clothes, entertainment, comfort, grooming and more.
As Khalil and Sang put each other through mock fights and maneuvers, their audience grew. Sang was pleased to see Amilcare among them.
There was enough floor space that they could talk quietly without their audience listening in. Sang drew Khalil’s attention to the watchers.
“I should bust your butt for their edification?” Khalil asked, with a grin that flashed white teeth and made his eyes glitter, as he settled into a stance for the next flurry.
“As if you could,” Sang replied, preparing himself.
Khalil launched himself. It was a speedy attack. A heavy-handed one. Sang held him off using more strength than he usually needed and sent Khalil rolling along the floor.
Khalil jumped to his feet and came at Sang once more.
The flurry this time was longer.
Sang risked glancing at Khalil’s face as they grappled. There was a look in his eyes that Sang had not seen before.
He tripped Khalil and pushed him away, troubled.
Khalil staggered, regained his balance and faced him once more.
“Perhaps a punching bag might be more useful to you,” Sang suggested.
Khalil smiled, without mirth. “A punching bag doesn’t hit back.”
“You want to be beaten?” Sang launched himself at Khalil. The exchange was hard and fast. This time, Sang spun away, retreating.
Khalil breathed quickly. The smile had gone.
“I don’t want to hurt you,” Sang said.
Khalil shrugged. “I’m used to it.”
Sang lowered his hands, as he sorted out the odd notes in Khalil’s voice. “Not from me.”
Khalil leapt at him.
Sang was unprepared. He countered barely in time. Khalil hissed as Sang’s foot connected with his forearm and turned away, shaking it out. “Not from you, huh?” he said dryly.
Sang straightened from the ready position. “Perhaps I should find that bag for you. I cannot help you, here.”
“Stay and fight, damn you,” Khalil snapped. “Get ready.”
Sang hesitated. There were too many warring emotions swirling about them for him to process without full attention. Human emotions were the most complex of concepts and he knew that this moment was full of conflicting ideas that involved him in some way he had yet to fathom.
Khalil swore. “Ready yourself.”
Sang shook his head. “I do not think you are in the right mood.”
Khalil came at him, ninety kilos and a hundred and ninety centimeters of fury. Even so, Sang could have held his ground. Instead, he let himself be overcome. He didn’t know why he had made the choice to fight with less than his usual strength and agility. Sometimes he acted before he had fully formed the logic that should generate the act. He had learned to call those moments instinctive. His instincts told him now to give way. To submit.
Khalil dropped him to the ground with an impact that made the deck floor shudder and slammed Sang’s breath from him. Khalil fell on him with both knees, winding him.
Sang didn’t have to pretend to be helpless. The lack of oxygen made him dizzy and he lay gasping in shallow sips, waiting for his diaphragm to start working properly again.
Khalil stared down at him. “We’re the same, you and I. You, she trusts.” He rolled away and sat with a knee to his chest, breathing hard, his gaze on the floor.
Sang couldn’t have spoken even if he wanted to. His mind, though, was chaotic with surprise at this sudden and unexpected insight.
He should have anticipated Khalil’s unhappiness. There was no excuse…except for the human one that when it came to matters of close personal interest, he was often blind.
When the first tendril of energy grew enough to give him movement, Sang rolled over and sat up. That was all he could manage for now. “You should not be jealous. Not of me. I am an android. A help-meet. That is all.”
Khalil looked at him, then away. “Is that why you write those endless histories of yours? Is that your punching bag?”
Sang swallowed. “Histories are always written by the victors. I am…anticipating.”
Khalil met his gaze once more. “I only want to help, just as you do.” He hammered at the floor. “I deserve this. Yet I hate it. I could help, Sang. My knowledge of the Bureau alone…” He sighed.
“I know. So does Bellona. Give her time. That is the only thing that will help, now.”
“I don’t think there is time enough to overcome this,” Khalil said bitterly. “Yet I can’t give up, either.”
Sang let out a heavy breath. “Nor can I.”
“At least you have a place here,” Khalil said. “You have a purpose.”
“Do I?” Sang asked, surprised.
Khalil’s smile was small. “Of course you do. Why wouldn’t you?”
“I am a generalist,” Sang said automatically. “Purpose was never given to me.”
“You’re not that household android anymore, Sang,” Khalil said gravely. “You’re your own man, purpose and all. Her cause is yours.”
Sang nodded as he saw the truth in that. “It could be yours, too,” he told Khalil. “It should be.”
“It would be, but for my history.” Khalil got to his feet, moving slowly. Their audience had disappeared now they had stopped moving. It left them alone on the floor. Khalil held out his hand toward Sang. “Up you get.”
Sang took his hand and let Khalil help lift him to his feet. He was breathing almost normally once more.
Khalil kept hold of his hand, welding him to the spot. He gaze met Sang’s. “I don’t know what may happen in the future, Sang.”
“No one does.”
“There are parts of her life where she won’t let me in.” Khalil’s gaze didn’t move. “You’re in, though.”
“Like you, there are parts I am not privy to and never will be,” Sang said, as evenly as he could. “Those are yours.”
“Yes.” Khalil’s grip tightened. “Between the two of us, Sang, we can be everything she needs.”
Finally, Sang understood the patterns of the currents around him. Khalil had seen it before he had. He had loved Bellona longer. Sang nodded. “We can,” he said softly.