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Dead girlfriends, that’s the theme of it, dead young girlfriends. Dead girls who, meanwhile, at times seem to return from the dead. At times.

Vincent Gallo covers a vast expanse, on the highway, listening to music and meeting girls. They all have names of flowers: Violet, Lily, Rose. But he’s looking for Daisy. En route he stops at Daisy’s childhood home. Her mother is there, and a grandmother in a vegetable state. And a brown rabbit that apparently belongs to this Daisy. The mother assures him it’s the same rabbit from before. Vincent asks her about Daisy, the mother says it’s been ages since she’s heard from her, and she asks the same things over and over again. Here we learn that Daisy and Vincent have known each other since they were kids. Vincent starts back on his journey, stops his truck at some salt flats and gets out to keep going on a motorcycle. He finally makes it to California. He goes to this house to look for Daisy, but she won’t open the door. He leaves her a note. He goes to a hotel to wait for her. And she comes, in the end she comes, and it’s Chloë Sevigny dressed up like a secretary, wearing a little suit. The encounter is highly disturbing, she goes to take drugs in the bathroom, he asks her to stop, tells her he loves her, she tells him she loves him, she wants to sit on his lap, he kind of doesn’t want her to but does, and you don’t really understand why, why all this suffering if they love each other so much, but you get that something terrible must have happened in the past, but you don’t know what, you just don’t know. The point is that indeed at some point Chloë sits down on his lap, then I think they make out, he takes off her blouse and I’m pretty sure her bra too, I can’t quite remember, and then she starts sucking his dick, just like that, for real, porn in the foreground, and Vincent Gallo’s dick is clearly going very well for them, it’s huge, you can see the veins, and she takes it all in her mouth, and he’s saying to her, like, as he brushes her hair from her face, he’s saying in this way with all this pathos in it, swear to me you’ll never suck another guy’s cock, swear to me you’ll never suck another guy’s cock, and she, with his dick down her throat, makes a few guttural sounds as though giving him to understand that yes, I mean, that no, that she will not suck any other guy’s cock, ever, and it’s all very sad and very awful. In the end he comes and lies down on the bed, desperately sad, and she lies down beside him and tries to console him, but he cannot be consoled, and they start talking about something, about a night when something happened, something terrible, something irrevocable, and then you finally get the flashback and find out.

So apparently one night in the past they went to this concert together, and she was a little bit high and drunk and went to the bathroom by herself, and she was followed by some guys who gave her something or other to smoke, which she thought was marijuana, but actually she ended up unconscious, and they raped her, the three or four of them all raped her, and the tragic thing is that he, Vincent, at some point realizes that she hasn’t come back and it’s been forever and he goes to look for her, and he sees her, he sees her being fucked, but he doesn’t realize she’s passed out, and he leaves! He leaves! Here we have the tragic error, he leaves because he is mistaken, because he reads the situation wrong, and he comes back hours later, and at that point there’s an ambulance there that’s taken her, taking Daisy away, and she—back in present day—is telling him how she was left there lying on the floor and that she threw up and that since she was unconscious she choked to death on her own vomit. And she asks him, Why did you leave, why didn’t you help me? And he says, What happened? What happened? And she says, Well, I died. And at first you don’t understand, and then you do; she tells him a few times that she died, and you see her on the stretcher with her face covered up by the white sheet, and you’re wondering if maybe they managed to revive her. But no, she just died, she actually died, and then you go back to the present in the hotel and realize he was alone in the bed and that Daisy isn’t there anymore and that she never was, like the brown rabbit.