LUNA SHOWED UP pretty much everywhere for the rest of the week, which meant she was willing to go way out of her way to make her point.
One day, I came out of a bathroom stall, and there she was, drawing lipstick on her fragile little mouth—ragemonster red—watching me in the mirror as I washed my hands.
“Boo,” she said, twisting her half-lipsticked mouth into a grin.
“Fuck off, Luna,” I said, ripping off a paper towel and pushing back out into the hallway. I tried to look as if I couldn’t care less that she was following me, but on the inside I was a little disturbed. I could kick ass, but there was a difference between Stefan the Slug and Luna Fairchild the ghost.
The next day, she appeared outside my seventh-period classroom, leaning against a locker, not even bothering to hide the hatred in her eyes.
“How does it feel to know someone wants you gone?” she asked as I walked by. I ignored her and had to restrain myself from peering back over my shoulder to make sure she hadn’t followed me.
I had gone to my locker and gotten my stuff, and by the time I got to my car, she was already there, sitting on the trunk.
“Get off,” I said, again trying to be nonchalant, but feeling a little like I was failing.
“I would love to see you do something about it,” she said. She lay back against my rear window, resting her head in her hands.
In my mind, I took two steps toward the car and axe-kicked her right in the gut, so hard it dented the trunk lid beneath her. But in reality, I simply got into my car and started the engine.
She still didn’t move.
God, the girl had balls.
I sat for a second in the driver’s seat, unsure what to do. Unsure what war I was willing to wage here. Every day, Luna proved herself to be scarier than the day before. But every day she tempted me to be scary, too.
I finally decided to put the car into reverse and ease out of the space. Luna felt the roll of the wheels and hopped off the trunk, storming around to my side of the car, muscles bulging on the sides of her neck.
“You have no idea who you’re messing with!” she screamed, and even though my window was rolled up, I heard her loud and clear.
ON FRIDAY MORNING, there was a pot of coffee already brewed when I came down for breakfast. Dad must have gotten up early. Thank goodness. The stuff with Luna had me more than a little freaked out. The thought of Dad being up and able to protect me while I slept comforted me.
I hadn’t talked to Dru since the hospital on Monday afternoon. He’d been in meetings with his lawyers but hoped to be able to get together over the weekend. We had plans to meet up at his apartment like we had before. I tried to wave off the dread of a long school day ahead of me, knowing that the payoff would be to see him again. I could almost smell his skin if I thought about it really hard. I could almost taste the salt of his sweat. I wanted to taste it again, even if part of me was unsure what I was doing with him, and who he really was underneath.
I’d made up for missing Dru by going to see Peyton every night. Of course, there was no change, except most of the flowers had begun to wilt and had been removed. Someone had given Peyton a bath, had cleaned her up a little. I almost thought I saw some makeup on her face again and wondered if Luna had done it. Maybe the girl had one tiny devoted bone in her body.
Still, when I left the hospital, I felt followed. Could almost hear footsteps behind me in the parking lot, starting when I started, stopping when I stopped. Stealth wasn’t exactly Luna’s style, though, and there was the little matter of Peyton’s attacker still being out there. I knew Luna was somehow behind it, but there was no way the girl had done it herself. Peyton was small, but Luna was smaller.
Dad came into the kitchen, smelling like his morning shower, just as I sat down with a muffin and coffee.
“Good morning, Sunshine,” he said, opening the fridge. He began assembling a green smoothie, his usual. “You’re ready to go early.”
I took a bite of the muffin. “Want to get this week over with,” I said around the bite. I took a sip of coffee.
“Hear, hear,” Dad said, capping the blender and starting it up.
I took another bite, washed it down with the coffee, then dumped some extra sweetener into the cup. Dad must have gotten overexcited with the grounds again—it was bitter. “Listen, I have a shoot in San Diego this weekend. I’m leaving this morning. Will obviously be staying down there. I won’t be back until Tuesday. I trust you will still go to school while I’m gone?”
“Would you stay home if I said I wouldn’t?”
He poured the smoothie into a cup and sighed. “Come on, Nikki. You know I can’t.”
“I know,” I said, disheartened. Dad wouldn’t stay around to parent me even if I desperately needed it. I looked him over—jeans and flip-flops, a V-neck tee that showed off a little tuft of chest hair, tan face with a boyish look to it. He was handsome. Still looked young. Why wouldn’t he just settle down already? “Don’t worry. I’ll go. I want to graduate and get the hell out of there.”
“Good, that’s the spirit,” he said. He came over and planted a kiss on my head. “You sure you’re okay?”
I sipped my coffee and took another bite of muffin. I was starting to think neither one of them tasted all that great after all. “Yeah, why?”
Something felt funny about my mouth. My lips. They were numb. My thoughts were slow. And the sunlight streaming in through the kitchen window suddenly seemed very bright, and like it was dripping in through the windows rather than shining through it.
“Just not like you to be up early enough to make yourself coffee before school,” he said as he disappeared behind me. “I’ll see you Tuesday.” I heard the front door shut, struggling all the while to make sense of his words. I knew what I’d just heard was bad but couldn’t quite pinpoint why.
“Dad,” I said, or maybe I only thought I said it, because I wasn’t entirely sure that my mouth was working. The room had begun to spin. “Dad,” I tried to say again, but he was gone.
I tried again to stand up, my hands slipping on the table and knocking the coffee to the floor. The plate that the muffin had been on shattered on the tile, but the sound came to me muted and from far away. Panic set in as I tried to move my legs around the chair, catching the chair leg and sending it clattering backward as well.
“Oh, God, help,” I said, but my breathing had gotten too shallow to put any effort behind the words.
My heart pounded and my ears rang, but suddenly I felt so weak, so very weak. I vomited down the front of my shirt, felt my legs give out beneath me, and then everything went black.
THE NEXT SENSATION I was aware of was something hitting my face. Repeatedly. Hard. But I couldn’t feel any pain. Just the movement, the pressure of being struck.
“Jesus, wake up already. Why the hell won’t you wake up? I didn’t put that much in it.”
I tried to open my eyes, but they felt cemented shut. My head ached, too, as if it was being pried open like a cantaloupe. I groaned.
“It’s about time,” the voice said, and I felt the sensation of being struck again.
I put all my concentration behind it and finally opened my eyes. Luna Fairchild was bent over me, her blurry face taking up all my vision. Immediately, the panic was back, but my limbs still weren’t working. I needed to be ready to fight, but how could I?
“Wakey, wakey,” she said, her sweet voice sounding almost shrill as my ears cleared from whatever drugs I’d been given.
“What—” I started, with no clue of how I was planning to finish that question. I closed my eyes again, swallowed. Thirsty. I was so very thirsty.
“Shut up,” she said. “You don’t get to talk here.”
“Where—” The word tumbled out of my mouth. This time the slap hurt, but only in a distant sort of way. I whimpered and brought my hand to my face. It rested against my cheek heavily. Thank God, my arm was working now.
“I said shut up,” she said. “Of course you don’t know where you are. That’s the point. You are not a Hollis, no matter what you might think.”
“Who—” I winced before the slap came. In a weird way, the pain was bringing me back to lucidity.
“If you were truly my sister’s friend, you would know where you are. You would have been here before. Clearly, my brother doesn’t think enough of you to bring you home to meet the family. Which I think is kind of piggish, but whatever floats your skanky little boat.”
Home? I was in Hollis Mansion? I turned my head and blinked hard. An ornate bookshelf filled my vision, leather-bound books and gold paperweights and little porcelain doodads lining it, but they were undulating, switching places. A dormant fireplace hunched next to it, the brass tools reflecting the lamplight she’d turned on, looking very serpentine. A rainbow floated above me, twisting, surging, bursting, my colors exploding in confusion.
She slapped me again. I felt the itch to slap her back but knew my limbs would never cooperate for such a movement. “Are you listening?” I turned my eyes to her, managed a nod. “Good. So here’s the deal. I’ve been warning you all week to stay out of my family’s business. Have you listened? No. There you are, hanging out at Peyton’s bedside, just like two happy little twins. Did you know that people used to think Peyton and I were twins? We looked so much alike. Don’t you think that’s weird? We’re not even related, right? But we were sisters. Sisters.”
“Half sisters,” I corrected, my voice croaky and dry.
Again with the slap, and this time my hands jerked up. I was thinking clearer. I was hearing clearer. I was getting angry. Who the hell was Luna to sneak into my kitchen, drug me, and kidnap me? I’d played along with her game up until now. But I was done letting Luna win.
“I said shut up!” she yelled. “I spent my whole damn life with my useless father in his disgusting little rental house, knowing I belonged somewhere better. Somewhere that lived up to my lifestyle demands. My mother was here, beautiful and rich and perfect and happy, and raising two kids. They had what I deserved, and I did everything I could to get it.”
“And now you have it,” I said, shocked to hear a full sentence come out of my mouth. I also felt like I could maybe lift my throbbing head now. I could feel my elbows and heels pressing into the floor. Things were coming back into focus.
Her eyes, which I’d once thought of as reptilian, narrowed into reddening slits. “And Peyton was taking it all,” she said. “She had to stick her nose into business it didn’t belong in. She knew too much, and I was going to lose everything I’d worked for to some ridiculous half sister.”
I knew it. Luna wasn’t trying to help Peyton get out of the escort business. She was trying to take over her life. “So you attacked her. Why? Because you’re selfish?”
Luna’s face split into an evil smile, and she laughed out loud. “Aren’t you listening at all? Or are you really so stupid you think that this is all about me?” She slapped me again. It burned, and the anger seethed inside my chest. I had to wait for just the right time to pounce. “Peyton Hollis, the perfect, knew too much. And now, guess who else knows too much, Nikki Kill?” She leaned in close. “This is your last warning. Get out of my business. Leave my brother alone, leave me alone. Or next time I will kill you.”
There was the dull thud of a door shutting somewhere in the house, distracting Luna. She looked away, cursing under her breath.
“Luna?” a voice called. A female’s voice.
Luna looked torn. She reached down and pressed her palm against my throat, momentarily cutting off my air. I held my breath, readying myself. If she was planning to kill me, she was first going to have to fight me.
“Don’t you dare move. I will find you and kill you right now,” she said. She pressed down into my throat with one final jolt and got up, leaving the room.
I barely waited for the door to close before I got up. My limbs still felt rubbery, and as if they were moving of their own accord, and my muscles felt stiff and achy. My head pounded and I swooned with dizziness. I held on to a nearby desk—a giant glass-topped boat of a thing that matched Vanessa’s desk at Hollywood Dreams—to keep myself steady. I could hear voices—Luna’s and the other female’s—echoing from elsewhere in the house. Now was my chance to get out of there.
Slowly, my legs building strength beneath me, I made my way to the door. I pushed my ear against it. Nothing. I opened the door a crack and peered out. Nobody.
I crept into the shadows of the endless hallway. At one end, I could see part of a den, a shiny black baby grand piano the centerpiece, looking spiderish, its fangs clicking at me. I blinked away the hallucination. At the other end, I could see that the hallway emptied out into what was maybe a vestibule. The house was so enormous, I had to blindly choose a way to go. I made my way toward the vestibule, lurching and grunting and sweating.
As I got closer, the voices grew louder. Across the vestibule was an archway to an ornate living room, complete with a brass-decorated wet bar and what looked like an authentic bear rug—which almost appeared to be breathing—sunken two steps below the vestibule. The room was dominated by a cavernous fireplace, the mantel adorned with dozens of brass statues. Beyond that was what looked like a kitchen, the voices emanating from within.
I gave the front door a longing look, noting the enormous chandelier that hung directly over my head, and between the kitchen and living room, on the far end, a spiral staircase that led to an upstairs loft walkway. Instead of turning toward the front door, I went right, drawn by the voices, thanking God for the plush bone-white carpet in the living room, so soft that even in my half-drugged state I walked soundlessly, like walking ankle-deep through snow.
“. . . much does she know exactly?” a woman’s voice asked.
“Enough. She knows about Hollywood Dreams. She got hired there, Mother. You really need to fire Brigitte.”
A sigh. I snuck closer to the kitchen doorway. “Prism. I knew I’d seen her before. Okay, but that’s it? We can handle that.”
“I don’t know. She’s relentless. Always at Peyton’s bedside. Sleeping with Dru. She needs to be stopped, Mother.”
I took a chance and craned my neck around the corner. Luna stood with Vanessa Hollis in a shadowy corner of the state-of-the-art kitchen, the morning sunlight doused by blackout shades, the stainless steel appliances dully gleaming, the marble countertop looking like wool to my foggy eyes, my still-confused colors smearing across everything I looked at. Luna’s back was to me. Her mother, wearing a skintight pink satin minidress and leopard-print heels, leaned backward against the wooden cabinet behind her.
“Luna, we have to be careful about these things. We can’t just—”
“Shush, did you hear something?” Luna interrupted.
Quickly, I ducked my head back around the corner as the two of them listened for me.
“You didn’t leave her there, did you?” Vanessa asked. “For God’s sake, Luna, of course she’s going to run.”
“She can’t run; she’s too out of it,” Luna said, her voice moving closer to me.
I dropped low and crab-walked behind an easy chair, which dwarfed a corner. I watched between the arm of the chair and a ficus tree branch as the two bolted through the living room toward the hallway. It was now or never.
But there was no way I would make it to the front door without them spotting me from the hallway.
As I clawed my way out from behind the ficus, I was struck with a realization. I was in Peyton’s house. She’d lived here until just a few weeks ago. Dru had said she’d barely taken anything when she moved out. She might have left behind a clue. If Luna had her way, I would never step foot into this house again. Now was my chance.
The spiral staircase waved and dipped beneath my feet, making me sick to my stomach as I tried to quickly navigate it. I stopped, gagged, covered my mouth, and kept going, churning my leaden feet as fast as I could until I was on the landing up top. I dropped to my knees and peered through the wooden railing, listening as Luna and Vanessa yelled at each other about where I might be and whose fault it was I was now missing.
I closed my eyes and took two deep breaths to clear my head and my stomach, and then opened them and looked down the hallway ahead of me. It was dotted with doors on either side. I got up and headed toward them, holding my breath and praying for an empty room each time I opened a door. Bathroom, another office, boutique, some room with a giant pink couch, generic bedroom, generic bedroom. And then a bedroom that looked like a tornado had hit it.
I knew right away I’d hit pay dirt when I saw the Forgotten Rebels poster stapled to the far wall. It had been half ripped down and seemed to dance in front of my eyes, but it was still unmistakably punk. Unmistakably Peyton. There were also boxes strewn across her bed and floor and stacked in the closet. These must have been the things Bill Hollis had cleaned out of the apartment.
I stepped into her room and closed the door behind me. I wanted so badly to take my time, to pick through her things methodically, discover her one piece of memorabilia at a time. But I could still hear doors being slammed downstairs, and I felt like I was moving through quicksand. I pushed myself to move faster.
I pulled open boxes and checked the bottoms of each and every dresser drawer. I felt behind the half-affixed poster. I rummaged through books on her bookshelf. Nothing. Nothing, nothing, nothing. Dru had said Peyton had barely taken anything when she moved out, but that wasn’t quite the truth. She’d taken everything important. She only left behind the pieces of her life she didn’t want anymore.
I was just about to give up and make my way back downstairs, when I saw a rainbow-colored box tossed haphazardly into the bottom of one of the moving boxes in her closet. Somehow I’d missed it when I’d searched the apartment.
Rainbow. Live in Color.
I opened it, and there inside were mementos—the kind of things kids keep from elementary school. Field day ribbons, burnt birthday candles, photos of classmates. Nothing that made any sense to me. I sat on the closet floor and dug through, using every ounce of concentration I had to understand what these things meant. I had been hoping the rainbow was significant, the box a clue, but I guessed I was wrong. It was just a conglomeration of childish crap.
And then my hands landed on something solid on the very bottom, beneath an old, folded Girl Scout vest. I pulled it out.
It was a cell phone.
My heart leaped into my throat. This wasn’t a childhood memento—I was sure of it. This was what Peyton had wanted me to find. This was the cell phone everyone had been talking about—the old one she ditched right before moving out. This was why she’d left the rainbow box in her apartment. I pushed the power button, but nothing happened. Dead. I would just have to take it home and—
“There you are,” I heard. “I should have known you’d be too stupid to listen to my warning.”
My head whipped up to find Luna standing outside the closet door, her legs spread wide, her arms outstretched to come after me. From my vantage point, and to my drugged head, she looked like a giant standing there. A big, bulging, terrifying giant.
I didn’t wait for her to make a move. I already felt slow and stupid. I only hoped my training would kick in automatically. Take her down and get out, Gunner’s voice said in my head. Use what you have on hand.
I only briefly glanced down at Peyton’s cell phone—Luna’s eyes following mine—and then I wrapped it tight in my fist, reared my arm back, and drove it into the side of her knee with everything I had. She let out a surprised squawk, her leg buckling, and I used the moment to then drive the edge of the phone down onto the arch of her other foot.
She squealed, so loud I felt my eardrums vibrate, and I knew then I had to move. I jumped up, the top of my head catching her chin, and used my arms to push her back like a football player hitting a dummy. She went flying, and I raced out of the room, running for the stairs.
I could hear Vanessa calling out Luna’s name from somewhere downstairs, getting closer with every step. I missed one of the stairs and hit my knees, sliding down several steps, but got up again and ran, my shins and ankles crying out with dull pain.
“Luna?” Vanessa’s voice was coming from the entryway as I hit the living room floor.
“She’s upstairs!” I heard Luna shriek, and I turned just in time to see Vanessa storm into the living room. There was no way I was going to get to the front door, and the last thing I wanted was to have to fight Vanessa. My muscles were already screaming. My hand that had hit Luna’s leg and foot throbbed. And my knees ached from falling down the stairs. The rainbow that had swirled my confusion before was now mostly the green of a bruise.
Instead, I turned through the kitchen. Surely, there had to be a door somewhere.
I found it, behind a long blackout shade. A set of French doors that led out to the patio. A pool, and pool house, straight ahead. The door squeaked as I pulled it open. I wasted no time slipping through the tiniest opening I could manage and ran like hell out of there.
I didn’t stop until I was two blocks over, which was precisely when I had to bend forward and vomit again.
MY HEAD WAS much clearer by the time I got to Dru’s, though my stomach still cramped in on itself over and over again. I burst through the door the moment he opened it.
“She’s crazy,” I said, panting.
“Whoa, what?” he yelped, shutting the door and trying to catch up with me. I was already pacing his living room, back and forth, back and forth. In the light, his apartment was all bachelor opulence—browns and grays, tribal artwork, a kayak standing on end in one corner.
“Luna. She’s insane,” I said.
He came to me, a worried crease in his forehead. “What happened this time?”
I stopped pacing. I was hot. So hot the sweat felt like it was pouring off me. And my mouth was drier than ever. “She drugged me.”
He stepped back, looking incredulous. “Drugged you? Are you sure?”
“I’m positive,” I said. “I passed out, and when I came to, I was in the mansion. She said it was a warning. She’s going to kill me if I don’t stay out of your family’s business. What is this business, Dru? What is going on that I haven’t figured out yet?”
He shrugged, shaking his head, palms up, as if he were as in the dark as I was, but I could sense that familiar wall going up between us, just as I had before. He was shutting down, closing out the parts of himself he didn’t want me to see.
“Come on, Dru,” I said, throwing my hands up. “You’ll sleep with me, but you won’t tell me why your crazy sister wants me dead?”
“I don’t know why,” he said. “Did she say anything else?” He licked his lips, and if it had been anyone else, I would see chipped slate that meant nerves. But Dru wasn’t anyone else. Dru was a mystery. Instead I saw slate marbled with turquoise. Cheater blue, my mind singsonged. Cheater blue, cheater blue.
My stomach cramped in on itself again and I doubled over. He wrapped his arms around me from behind. “You okay?”
I gasped, gulped. “I need to use the bathroom,” I said.
“Okay, I’ll get you some water.”
I headed toward the bathroom, passing Dru’s office on the way. Because his apartment was so open, everything was in view. Had it been in a shut room, I might not have even seen a color jump out at me as I walked by. On his desk, tucked half under a paper, maroon and black shiny letters—the color pattern I associated with electronics. I looked back over my shoulder. Dru was still in the kitchen area, an open cabinet door shielding his face. I crept toward the desk, my stomach forgotten.
The desk was littered with papers, books, electronics, and cords. It all looked like the usual household paperwork—travel website printouts, a couple of résumés, some bills. But when I moved an application for a modeling school that had a Post-it stuck to it (You have an interview Monday. GO TO IT.—V) the maroon and black blazed out at me.
I picked it up and turned it in my fingers. SanDisk. Just what I thought.
A camera memory card.
Suddenly the ailments from the poisoning were such a distant memory I didn’t even feel them anymore. Dru had a camera memory card here. Peyton had a camera memory card missing from her car. Was it the same one?
I was just about to pocket it, take it home, when Dru came up behind me, silent as a cat.
“I thought you were going to the bathroom.”
I jumped, gasped, nearly dropped the card. “Oh. Yeah. It passed.”
His eyes landed on the card. He handed me a glass of water and took the card from my hand. “What’s going on?” he asked, his voice slick and cold. Again, I had a sense of Bill Hollis lurking under there somewhere. Cheater blue, Nikki. Slate with cheater blue—you can’t ignore it.
“I just didn’t realize you like photography,” I said, trying to keep the water in the glass steady.
He turned the card over. “I don’t. This is just from a trip to Vail. Did some hiking there last summer. It was really beautiful, so I took some pictures.”
His face gave away nothing. My legs started to shake, since I wasn’t allowing my hands to do so. “I’d love to see them,” I said, offering a small smile.
“Sure,” he said, offering one back.
“Now?”
He frowned. “Maybe not. You’re pretty pale. You look sick.”
I looked sick, or he was hiding whatever was on that disk from me? I put the water on his desk. “You’re right. I should go. I don’t feel very good.”
“You sure? Sounds like you’ve been through a lot today. You can stay. You can tell me more about what Luna said. Sounds traumatizing.” He brushed his palm down the back of my head, threading his fingers through my hair on the way down. Sparks flew up the back of my neck as his fingertips touched it.
I disengaged myself and headed toward the front door. As tempting as it was to spend some time with him, my head was way too foggy to even consider it. I had to do some thinking about who Dru Hollis really might be. Slate and cheater blue! Slate and cheater blue! “Maybe next time,” I said, stepping out into the hallway and pushing the elevator button.
“Okay, if you’re sure,” he said. The elevator opened and I stepped inside. “And, hey, let me deal with Luna. I’ll take care of it.” He slipped the camera card into his front pocket as the elevator door slid closed.