REFLECTING

BY RHOZIER “ROACH” BROWN
Lorton, VA
(Written in 1969)

Two hands resting on bars of steel

Wondering was all this really real

Living from day to day using dope

Death was waiting with a steel rope.

Living a life I thought was pretty cool

Moving in a hurry and breaking all the rules

Stepping on anyone who got in my way

Never expecting any dues to pay.

I was hooked quite early, and dying quick

Staying high and fly, and pretty slick

The world passed by and I was in a deep nod

To awake a young old man and find no God.

Wine and reefers were a part of my song

Getting my kicks and doing wrong

It’s a miracle, how I managed to survive

Riding a pale white horse, bent on suicide.

Her eyes are moist, bursting from within

Alone and crushed, her man in the pen

Patiently she tried and done all she could

It didn’t work, it just wasn’t any good.

I killed all the love that stood in my path

Love was for suckers, and I was in a Hip Bag

If only I had listened, or even cared

My youth and dreams, wouldn’t die in here.

I knew all the angles, and how to score

But all it’s brought me was time and a steel door.

A few days of fun and years of pain

Is the price I pay for doing my thing.

Now I hurt in a way I’ve never known

For the rest of my life, I’ll be alone.

Here in the House of Time, grown men cry

I, too, am one of them and I know why

My brand of cigarettes tells of a hip young fool

Who destroyed his life and family being real KOOL.