Broken glass sparkled like crushed diamonds in the lobby. Morning smelled fresh, as if carnage’s stink clung to the darkest hours and swept straight through Laguna Madre. The beach no longer resembled a bride’s white satin. Soiled, with the ocean’s treasures laid out to dry, along with man-made wreckage displayed in chunks along the way.
Still shaking, Amanda stepped past clusters of hotel guests and found a quiet corner with a phone. Angling the prepaid card to read the numbers, she made the call. Her second of the morning, because the first had gone unanswered.
“Mom, we made it.”
The crackly reception couldn’t mask her mother’s tears. “I tried to call, and couldn’t get through…. Oh, baby, we were so worried….”
“I know. Me too.” Amanda’s eyes burned at the memory, the terror of crouching with strangers in the dark, hiding behind kitchen counters in the hotel’s one windowless room. The screaming. The mindless force of the water as it crashed through the hotel glass.
The murmur of prayers in different languages, gripping the hands of people she’d never seen before.
Even now her knees quivered. She’d tensed them through the hours, as if by clenching her body still, the earth would hold firm underneath them and they wouldn’t be washed away in a great black flood.
“Is Marianne… ?” Katy’s voice sounded small.
“She’s fine. A little banged up. She bumped her head in all the chaos. But she’ll be okay.” Marianne stood in line at the concierge desk, jostling for information about a flight back to Lubbock.
“Let me put your father on the phone-”
“Mom, I’ll try back later, but I really can’t talk long. We’ve got to figure out what we’re going to do.”
“Just promise you’ll call.”
“I will. Listen, I know this is a crazy question, but have you heard from Mark?”
She tried, in the dead of night, with only the light from her emotionless cell phone, to reach him. No service. No service. She’d get a tenuous line, then sob through the cutoffs, frantic fingers dialed again and again. All she wanted was a chance to say goodbye. No service.
Minutes on the hour. She never got through, even when dawn broke and the storm whispered away.
“It was meant to be a surprise.” Katy paused, as if searching for a way to explain. “He’s coming down to get you.”
“What? He’s coming here?” Thrill raced through her. Sheer adrenaline pumped her heart and heat rose to her face. “But when-”
“Days ago.” Katy’s words came out flat, deflated. “If he left when he should have, that would put him-”
The heat chilled as horror froze her hope. Amanda finished the thought her mother couldn’t voice. “Right in the middle of the storm.”
The lobby closed in on her, with its bright colors and animated faces. The vacuums sucked up window chips. She couldn’t breathe. Couldn’t talk. Somehow she managed to say her goodbye to Katy and hung up. Walking to the concierge desk, she spotted her mother-in-law waiting in the irritated line of guests.
Marianne hugged her. “Did you get through?”
“Yes. Everything’s fine.” Your son is lost. He’s swept away in the middle of a hurricane and it’s all my fault. “I’m going for a walk.”
She left, a liar and a coward.
THE TOYOTA BURNED to a grinding halt. Mark rested his head against the steering wheel. So weary. He’d driven through the night by sheer will. His body felt like he’d played a Super Bowl against God. Run over, defeated. Unable to go any farther.
Miraculously, he had found Laguna Madre.
In the midst of the storm, he had stopped to pick up highway road signs flattened by the wind. His headlights gleamed on glints of metal, twisted clues for him to follow. Rain battered him as he crouched, pouring transmission fluid into the great gaping hole, praying for enough to keep going.
When he made it to the outskirts of Laguna Madre, it looked like scattered puzzle pieces. Houses leaned at crazy angles, clothes dangled from trees, debris floated in rushing streams on either side.
He’d come all this way. Fought through a storm to be stopped by a failed transmission.
He was so tired. Tired of fighting. Not knowing where he was going, not knowing what awaited him around each turn. Keeping fear at bay through determination and drive.
No fatalities. His mantra and his prayer. He clung to it-else he’d dissolve in his fear.
You’ve come on a fool’s errand. You’re a fool. A lost fool.
“All us lost fools,” Ervin had said. “Being lost is a good way to start getting found.”
As long as she’s alive, I haven’t lost her.
He’d lost one already. The baby, gone without knowing a father’s love. Slipped away before he shared his heart.
He wouldn’t risk another by listening to pride’s whisper again. Even if she didn’t want him, she would know he loved her. That he’d entered hell and come out broken. A fool. Her fool.
Mark released his seat belt and scooped up Mr. Chesters. He retrieved the one bag that meant anything and slung it over his shoulder.
She’s alive, he convinced himself. And as long as she’s alive, there’s a chance.
Tucking the cat under his arm, he started walking.
AMANDA PICKED HER way down the cobbled roads. She stepped past garbage, leaped over streams of rushing water. The morning sun brushed the carnage with absurd cheer.
Mud sucked her tennis shoes and splattered against her favorite floral dress, thrown on in last night’s panic.
She rounded the corner, to the street with the old church. Its appearance was so altered, she might have missed it. The huge tree was upended, roots like arteries torn from the earth’s heart. The leaves withered. It had fallen on her stone bench and broken it in two.
An oversize branch blocked the entrance to the courtyard. Amanda stepped around it, bracing herself against a limb. Pointed wood scratched at her arms, but she wiggled through.
Inside the courtyard, she paused in surprise. The gardener. He had with him a woman and several children. Together they cleared the smaller brush away, loaded it in his wheelbarrow. The children chattered while they worked.
Once beautiful petals lay like tired confetti all around, not one bush had a bloom left on it. The plants were knotted, with huge bunches broken and ripped away. The gardener’s clippers flashed in the light, his whistle like that of a warrior. No longer sweet and mellow, but a fight song to battle.
She passed them, silent as a specter, and entered the sanctuary. Water puddles formed in the aisle, bare bits of sky peeked through holes in the roof. Amanda stepped inside, nearly overcome by the damp smell and the rot. The destruction.
Still, her kaleidoscope windows shimmered in the sun.
This time, she didn’t ask questions or search for answers. This time, she knelt on the sodden floor and bowed her head.
So many blessings. Why hadn’t she seen them before? With Mark, she had all the family, all the love she ever needed. She only needed to open her eyes and see the glory all around her.
She would journey the chosen path, she would celebrate her joy, but she wanted her favorite person by her side. And for that, she had no power to make it right. So she poured out her heart like water. Knowing only hands bigger than her own could grasp the power of life and death.
The storm had proven that much.
“Please keep him safe. Give us another chance. Please…” She lost the rest in her tears, but after a while, she lifted her head with a sense that she’d been heard. Even when she didn’t have the strength, or the words, to speak.
She left the sanctuary and, for the need to help instead of hurt, to work instead of wait, she joined the gardener and his family at their task.
MR. CHESTERS HUNG limp under Mark’s arm. Perhaps calmed by the trauma of days on the road, the fury of last night’s storm or the physical aftereffects of greasy eggs and bacon working through his system.
They walked miles, passing trashed storefronts and waterlogged ditches. Mark spotted a steeple in the distance. He thought people might be gathered there after a storm. For comfort, for community, clinging to the fact they survived.
He picked up the pace, hoping to find someone there to help him. To take time for a stranger and point the way to Palacio del Grande. The bag slapped his side as he hurried and his shoes squished blisters into his heels.
A man and his family crossed the muddy road on the other side, the children carrying rusted tools.
“Hola.” The man smiled in a flash of white teeth.
A good sign. “Hola.” Mark waved a free hand and they disappeared around the corner.
He neared the church. Casing the perimeter, he found a wrought-iron entrance to the church’s courtyard, partially hidden by a felled tree. Roots dangled overhead. Not hearing the hoped-for murmur of conversation within, disappointment sank in his chest.
Still, maybe a priest lingered inside the building, at prayer. An English-speaking priest. There had to be someone.
He bent low under the branches, the bag slung over his shoulder, clasping Mr. Chesters. He braced his shoulders and pushed his way inside.
On the other side, he saw her.
Amanda.
She sat on the ground against a crumbled bench in the shambles of the garden. Tears streaked her face and her nose flamed. She didn’t hold a journal in her lap, but broken stems of roses. She stroked at the petals, petting them as she cried.
Her dress, a bright floral print splattered with mud. Tennis shoes clumped with filth covered her precious feet, else he would fall to the ground and kiss them.
Her hair was pulled back from her face, a small twig stuck in it. Her face, whiter than he’d ever seen it.
I am looped in the loops of her hair.
For a minute, he stood frozen. Then he inched forward as if in a dream. The old game, the one from a thousand years ago in a park in Houston, unfolded. How close could he get without her noticing?
Would she accept him when he got there?
His life, swinging in the balance, waiting for her to catch his heart and make him whole.
A stick snapped under his step, announcing his presence. He spoke. “Mandy.”