I could not get Lizzie out of my mind. That image of her lying in the sunshine with contented, half-closed eyes kept returning. Back in England, well-meaning friends tried to tell me to put it behind me: they had similar stories to recount of holidays in Mediterranean countries where they too had come across hungry or sickly cats.
‘You do what you can while you’re there but, when you leave, you have to put it out of your mind. You’d drive yourself crazy, otherwise.’
But I couldn’t forget. The anger I’d felt that night at the Grotta di Ulisse renewed whenever I thought of the dreadful deed some animal hater had committed. If I could do something to help these feral cats, then Lizzie’s death would not have been in vain.
So what should I do? What was really at the core of this cruelty towards animals, which appeared to extend throughout the Mediterranean countries? It wasn’t the first time I had come across it. Travelling in Cyprus, Greece and Tunisia always there were skinny and sickly cats that appeared by magic the moment you sat down at a restaurant table; always unfeeling waiters, who chased them away.
‘Next time we’ll take a holiday where there aren’t any cats!’ Andrew would sigh.
But there were always cats and the visits to a local super-market to buy tins of tuna, always the awareness that sooner or later, I had to leave them to their fate. Lizzie, I realised, represented a symbol, awakening my energy to act. But I didn’t know how to begin. And then something quite fortuitous happened.
Not long after my return from Sicily, I’d met up with a photographer friend, also called Jenny, to discuss feature ideas for our county magazine, Sussex Life.
‘There’s always something happening in Brighton,’ I said. ‘Why don’t we offer a series of monthly features on the 24/7 City?’
My friend was enthusiastic.
‘If they commission us,’ I added, ‘it would mean that some months we’d be up at an unearthly hour.’
‘It will be fun,’ she smiled.
I sometimes reminded her of that remark when we talked to the homeless at midnight, or shivered in Brighton Market at four in the morning. But it was the 10pm slot that was the catalyst for me.
A white Vauxhall Combo came to a halt outside Hove station. On its side was the distinctive logo of the Cats Protection League. Beverley Avey, Welfare Officer for the Brighton and Hove City branch, waved us aboard and off we went. A stray, unneutered black cat and her three kittens had been sighted in a Hove garden. Our mission tonight was to catch them.
‘We have so many calls from people telling us of cats seen in the neighbourhood scavenging for food,’ Beverley explained as we drove through the night. ‘Owners move away and just leave their pets behind, believing they will fend for themselves. Cats are not as stand-offish and self-sufficient as people think, they crave love and attention.’
She told us she was never really off-duty. Working late into the night, she juggled this with being a wife and mother, as well as holding down a job.
‘I come home to find the answer machine jam-packed with messages. Calls range from lost cats to reports of ill treatment or accidents, to those who have given one of “our” cats a home and want to report on its progress. Other people have decided they don’t want their cat anymore and can we take it on.’
Felines are twilight creatures so our best chance of catching them was now. We knocked on the door and the owner led us through to the garden. I carried the food, strong-smelling pilchards, and Beverley lugged in the trap. Unlike the one I had seen Giulio use, this was sprung by remote control. It meant we could sit a distance away, ready to press the switch when or if the cats took the bait. So we sat on a garden bench in the darkened garden and prepared for a long wait.
Beverley stifled a laugh. The house owner had apparently let her own cat out and, notoriously curious as felines are, this one was sniffing around the trap. We managed to pick him up and take him indoors.
While we waited, Beverley told us about some of her latest cases. There was Luca, who waited patiently outside his so-called family’s house to be let in until he collapsed. When he came to Beverley, he wouldn’t eat for some time. Happily, he decided there was life beyond his first unkind owners and was now being fostered.
The week before, Beverley had collected two very small kittens, which had been shut inside a shed for a week.
‘They were desperately hungry and crying so pitifully until I squirted syringes of kitten milk into their mouths. It was a miracle they had survived that long.’
When a lovely surrogate mother called Trina accepted them as her own, this resulted in a story with a happy ending.
‘There won’t be much difficulty finding pretty little kittens like those a home,’ she went on. ‘Older cats have so much to offer, although they are never as popular. They have a wonderful serenity about them and are truly the ultimate stress busters, if only people would give them a chance.’
Suddenly, we were on the alert: a shadow darker than the gloom of the night was making its way towards the trap. And another… Beverley pressed the switch and the door clanged closed.
They didn’t like it, not one bit. Their big green eyes gazed at us through the bars and I tried to tell them we were doing this for all the right reasons. But they weren’t listening; instead, they were leaping about, trying to escape.
We decided to call it a night. As Beverley said, Mum and her other kitten had been alerted and would now give the trap a wide berth. She would return the following evening.
We drove towards Brighton, where fosterer Jo was waiting. Beverley had a team of people who were prepared to take on cats and kittens and care for them on a short-term basis. Jo led the way outside to her tiny garden, which she had given over to a series of purpose-built pens. Released, the kittens shot out of the trap, understandably freaked by this transition. One of them climbed up to the roof and then hung there, wondering how to get down. As Jo said, in a couple of days they would have calmed down and realised they were in receipt of lots of TLC.
Over a cup of tea, Beverley outlined the huge problem Brighton and Hove has with cats.
‘So many people won’t have them neutered and so they continue to breed. Did you know that one cat can be responsible for 20,000 descendants in five years?’
No, I didn’t, but I was learning fast.
Beverley shares her home with eight cats, not to mention several felines in the pen near the back door. Further down the garden is a log cabin, which her long-suffering husband imagined would be an office. Here, there are more cats, like the aptly named Angel.
‘I can’t turn them away,’ she explains, fondling Boris, a cat that wasn’t rescued but decided to move across the road from his former home. ‘And the joy they give in return makes it all worthwhile.
‘But I still find it hard to talk about William, a lovely old gentleman. He needed permanent medication for a kidney problem and I had terrible misgivings about letting him go.
‘I was persuaded by someone who vowed he loved cats and would give William a good home. When this man’s girlfriend returned to him, he moved out of his house and left the helpless cat to its fate. William crept into a cardboard box and died. I shall never forgive nor forget.’
There was such a passion in her voice. An echo of how I had felt, that evening sitting in the Grotta di Ulisse, when Filippo had brought me the news of Lizzie’s death. It was late but I couldn’t leave without telling her my story.
‘I can’t get her out of my mind,’ I finished. ‘I’m so angry about the way these people treat cats and I just feel I’ve got to do something about it.’
Beverley listened and nodded. ‘I know exactly how you feel.’
‘But Sicily,’ my friend Jenny put in, ‘surely that’s a bit crazy?’
‘Do it,’ Beverley said decisively. ‘Someone has to help them.’
It was nearly midnight before Jenny and I started on the drive home but I had made up my mind.
Beverley’s words rang in my ears: ‘If only cats were neutered the numbers would reduce and they would be chosen by those who really want to offer a loving home.’
‘It all stems from overpopulation,’ animal welfare campaigner Suzy Gale confirmed. ‘None of these countries has an efficient neutering programme for feral animals; consequently, they breed at an overwhelming rate. The mother cats are weakened by continuously giving birth and the kittens too are sickly. And local people seem to think the only method of control is to kill them.’
I’d come across Suzy as I researched people who worked for cats. For several years she had organised and carried out a neutering programme in Cyprus and had achieved a great deal in controlling the colonies.
‘It involves a lot of hard work and heartbreak, too,’ she told me. ‘But if you decide to have a go, I’m happy to advise you.’
Brighton isn’t called breezy for nothing. As you step out of the railway station and start down Queens Road, you receive a blustery greeting. That autumn of 2002, it was particularly wild, with high winds and rough seas; the poor old West Pier took another battering. By the end of the year, part of it collapsed, the beginning of the end. One man was swept out to sea, having clung to the girders underneath the pier and called for help. I battled my way to a cosy tearoom, where I met another cat lady, Angela Collins. The world was beginning to appear thronging with these feisty women who took it on themselves to do something practical for felines.
Angela’s project, Care 4 Cats, concentrates on the Balearic Islands, where she has made considerable inroads into controlling the cat population.
‘Several years ago, I was on holiday in Ibiza,’ she told me. ‘I was horrified to discover the many thousands of stray cats and kittens all over the island, having either been abandoned, or born on the street. There was no help for them, and they were simply left to die of starvation or diseases such as cat flu, leukaemia, AIDS and enteritis.’
This sad situation preyed on Angela’s mind and so she decided to try to do something about alleviating it. In the Millennium year she set up Care 4 Cats and the charity began its work of neutering these strays to decrease the population in a humane way. She echoed Suzy Gale’s words.
‘It’s an uphill battle and you have to be prepared for local opposition. Sometimes you get so downhearted when they just don’t seem to understand what you are trying to do.’
I was to remember this advice during my own struggles in the years ahead, but at that time and with the poignant image of Lizzie in mind, I refused to see obstacles; I was determined to go ahead. If they could do it, so could I.
So what should I call my project? It’s been shown that people prefer words that are easy to pronounce and understand. My search revealed that many such names had already been taken. Finally, I plumped for Catsnip, liking the play on the words ‘cat snip’. I opened a building society account and set about raising funds. I’d never done anything like that before and I soon discovered it wasn’t easy. Take car boot sales, for example. I began by taking a stall at my local community centre. This proved to be a steep learning curve. I arrived early for my first sale, with a pretty cloth to lay over my table and set about arranging my goods. I’d scarcely finished when a fat woman arrived.
‘New to this, are you?’ she demanded, picking up and examining some pieces of porcelain donated by a friend.
‘I thought the doors didn’t open till ten,’ I said.
‘Oh, I’m not the public! My stall is over there.’
She held up a pretty glass, one of a set of six. ‘I’ll give you a couple of quid for these,’ she smiled, showing a missing tooth. ‘Take them off your hands.’
I hadn’t priced the glasses but instinct told me they were worth more than that.
‘I’m selling them for a pound each,’ I said, surprised at how firm I could be.
The smile faded. ‘Well, I hope you get it,’ retorted the woman and waddled away.
I’d learned my first lesson. Seasoned car boot sellers will often prowl the other stalls, trying to pick up a bargain, which they can sell on for a lot more at their own pitch.
On another occasion someone had donated a collection of costume jewellery – necklaces, bracelets and earrings. I’d brought in a mirror, which I propped against the wall so that people could try them on. There was one woman whom I swear tried on every piece and took her time about it. I struggled to keep my eye on her while I served other customers, but not long after she had gone I found a pair of earrings was missing too. Lesson number two: car boot sales can be very susceptible to thieves. Far better if you can persuade a friend to help out, otherwise you’re also stuck behind your table without the chance of a break.
I’d embarked on these sales with the idealism of a missionary but I soon discovered that, never mind my worthy cause, these canny shoppers were set on knocking the prices down to as low as they could get. They weren’t prepared to pay more than thirty pence for a paperback and were quick to point out if they thought one looked a bit dog-eared, lowering their offer to twenty-five pence. Sometimes they were simply out to swindle. It still hurts to remember Weasel, the name I gave to the tall, thin man who arrived at my stall shortly after the public had been let in.
‘Got any books?’ His tone was nasal.
As a matter of fact, I had a large number of them. Some friends I’d known from our days of demonstrating against live animal exports had cleared out their attics. There was a large box of them I had yet to sort through.
Weasel laughed, an unpleasant sound. ‘Oh, don’t worry about that! Let me have a quick look at them.’
At that moment, a young woman arrived who had read my poster and wanted to know more about Catsnip. Her eyes filled with tears when I told her about the death of Lizzie.
‘I don’t want to buy anything,’ she said, ‘but here’s something for your funds.’
I was still basking in the fact someone had shown an interest when I realised Weasel was holding out a five-pound note.
‘I’ve had a quick look,’ he said. ‘And I’d like to buy this little lot.’ He opened a large checked bag, where I could see about five books already stowed inside. ‘I think that should cover them.’
And he was off, his long, thin body slithering into the crowd, and I was left with a strong feeling I’d been cheated. There was something about his manner, the swift, practised way he had gone through those books and packed them away that convinced me they were far more valuable than the price he’d paid for them. After that I was always careful to examine every donation before I put it on sale.
Those car boot sales were mortifying, threatening to crush my enthusiasm for my project. The final straw came when, after spending hours on hand-stitching a series of cushion covers, absolutely no one showed the slightest interest. I calculated my overall takings, £67.13p. That wouldn’t take me far. So I turned my back on the community centre and decided to try something else.
Time was passing and, if I wanted to launch Catsnip the following year, I’d have to get a move on. Perhaps selling wasn’t for me. I was, after all, a journalist and writing was my forte. Suzy’s voice came into my mind.
‘We contacted various charities and some of them were very good in giving us a grant. I can give you a list, if you like.’
The letter writing came easily enough and I was able to explain my aims clearly: ‘to take a team of vet, nurse and helpers to Sicily to treat and neuter feral cats, considering that the local authorities do nothing to ameliorate the problem’. I also had to fill in application forms, something I more than dislike but seem to have a block about. Nevertheless, I put my head down and soon they were in the post.
I wrote articles about Lizzie’s story and one of them appeared in a little magazine called Animals’ Voice. Betty, Jayne and Tracy are three wonderful women who rescue and care for wildlife in the New Forest area of Hampshire. Their magazine covers all kinds of animal issues and they were kind enough to include mine. The response was excellent; I was so touched by the readers’ letters. Often women, they were by no means wealthy but sent me what they could afford. The balance in my building society grew and, when I received substantial cheques from three of the charitable organisations I had written to, I knew I could go ahead.
So I phoned Elke, my landlady. Before I had left Taormina we had had a long talk and she had agreed to help in any way she could.
‘Don’t mention it,’ I replied. ‘We are having awful wind and rain.’
‘It’s sunny here,’ came the cheery voice, ‘not all that warm, but sunny.’ She laughed. ‘But you don’t want to talk about the weather! How are you doing?’
‘Good news, I’m ready to start planning the trip,’ I told her. ‘I have the money but I don’t know where we can operate. I’ve asked my vet if he’d be part of the team, but he’s busy.’
There was silence for a moment. Elke was obviously absorbing this.
‘I have an idea,’ she said at last. ‘Remember Ines, the woman who lived in the downstairs apartment where you stayed?’
Yes, I remembered her, a rather eccentric German woman but undoubtedly a lover of cats. I’d heard her calling them in to be fed, every evening.
‘She has a summerhouse – it’s big and secluded. It would be the perfect place. No one would see what we were doing.’
‘And the vet?’
‘Leave it with me, I’ll see what I can do.’
Within days she was back to me. Yes, Ines had said we could use the summerhouse and she had managed to persuade an American friend who was a vet to volunteer his services. All I had to do was pay for his flight from the States. Frank Caporale was on board.
That year, I hardly noticed Christmas. The moment it was over I began to assemble the equipment I would need. There were traps and cages to order, which would be sent by road and delivered upon my arrival in Sicily. Guy, my sister’s vet, had given me a list of the drugs and other things I would need for the ‘surgery’. As the idea of this project took shape, I became increasingly bolder in asking people to give me things. I wrote to several drug companies and some of them donated necessary medicines. My local hospital in Worthing offered forceps and scissors. Other equipment I had to buy from veterinary supply firms.
Daffodils appeared in my garden and the days lengthened. There were copies of the May 2003 Brighton Festival brochure in the library. Sometimes I despaired I would ever be ready in time. During the week before I left England, I was still rushing round collecting last-minute supplies. Finally, I was faced with the problem of how to get the drugs and surgical supplies from the UK to Sicily. And here I must say my ignorance proved a blessing: I had absolutely no idea of the nature of ketamine, the drug used by vets in the absence of inhalant anaesthetic. I knew nothing about its use as a recreational drug, stronger than the same amount of speed or coke and with unpredictable effects. Drug taking has never appealed to me, though I do enjoy a glass of good wine. Where I was concerned, it was just one item on my list of veterinary drugs and I treated it as such. Of course, I know better now and I shudder to think of what I was doing when I packed everything into a large box, covered it with brown paper and labelled it ‘SICILIAN CAT WELFARE’.