Questions for My Body

Your brain's like 100 million hornets in a Campbell's Soup can,

               so where's the axe to split it open?

Speaking of can openers, what is it about midnight that makes

               your spine shake like the hand of a holy roller

               shooting craps against a back alley curb?

               Click, click, click—snake eyes, and all your pretty dresses

               lie in tatters, Ave Maria and her butternut squash.

Why do some days seem like factory work and others like a picnic

               at the beach? What's in the picnic basket—fried chicken?

Is that the same chicken nesting in your throat, with her

               tambourine and Old Testament phlegm? Glory

               be to God in the highest. Roll over Rover, let Jimi take over.

How can your heart be as hard as the face of Teddy Roosevelt

               on Mount Rushmore and as soft as the stomach

               of the fat boy on the bus, crust of chocolate around his mouth?

And where did you get your nasty mouth? In that pile of body parts

               behind the morgue?

Götterdämmerung, girlfriend, are you speaking in tongues—is that why

               you dream about running away to Mexico? Do you want

               to blame your mental riot on not speaking Spanish?

Si, si señora, remember when you were first married, and every time

               you wore a loose shirt, someone would squeal,

               “Are you going to have a baby?” Did you have to say,

               “I'd love to, but their heads are so big and my vagina's so small?”

How did you sharpen your tongue? With that missing ax,

               or did you use a matchbook from the Pair-o-Dice Lounge?

               Remember the years you walked down that blind alley?

               There's no scrapbook to hold those photos.

Why do sex and hex rhyme? What about Tex-Mex? Cerebral cortex?

               Why is sex like eating at a Mexican restaurant—beans and rice,

               tequila, habañeros—¡Ay, caramba!

O my darling mumbojumbologist, who is the architect of your double talk?

               Who made you from her bones and bread?

               Will you never stop missing your mother's voice?

Did you know that Hindus believe we are God experiencing himself?

               Does that make you a holy chalice or a holy chassis?

               O Chevy Vishnu, Studebaker Jesus. O Buick Bodhisattva

               of the Bebop-a-lou.

Why does luck make you feel like you're in front of a firing squad,

               looking down the barrels of 14 rifles? You think

               you're Dostoevsky, don't you?

That reminds me, why are you so in love with Prince Myshkin? Don't you

               remember he lost his mind? Do you want to lose your mind?

               Don't you wish it were that easy?

If you could go back in time, who would you save—Keats? Marlowe?

               Carole Lombard? Okay, so you could talk Lombard out of getting

               on that plane, ditto Buddy Holly and Otis Redding, but how

               would you get the penicillin back to Keats? And how good

               would a sissy girl like you be in a knife fight?

Remember that Tootsie Roll you ate when you were 12? You should.

               It's still on your left hip.

So why do you bother to get out of bed in morning?

               Because last time you checked your name wasn't Marcel Proust.

               Because like Samuel Beckett, you've been waiting all your life

                               to be old.

               Because a nickel will get you a shoe shine, but a penny will get

                               you the nothing that is so something else.

               Because there's no business like show business.

               Because being an animal is so shambolic.

               Because you're stuck here like a cluck-mad chicken on the wrong

                              side of the road, Tom Joad on amphetamines, high queen

                              of spleen, trying to outfox your ultra-sneaky archenemy

                              that teetotaling Mr. T, two-timing Time