Ode on My 45s, Insomnia, and My Poststructuralist Superego

O that life could be a day-and-night dance party

               with ginger ale, gin and tonics, or Bacardi

and Coke—who cares?—as long as the music keeps coming

               like a railroad train without brakes, the engine storming

down the tracks, the conductor's hair flying in the night

               air, like a tornado now, because I might

just take off, Little Richard screaming “Tutti Frutti”

               on my little portable record player, duty

fleeing like an a-wop-bop-a-loo-bop bomb on speed,

               and though my drug days are behind me, tonight I need

a fix of funk, because, lights low, “Little Red Corvette”

               will cure any ailment, even the knock-down Tourette's

that attacks at three a.m., super-ego Babette,

               snappy little twat with a French accent, legs, you bet,

in fishnet hose and a skirt up to here, snarling, “Slut,”

               though for emphasis she adds, putain, salope. “But, but,

but,” I stutter, “I haven't slept with anyone but Dave

               for 25 years.” “That's what you think, you bourgeois slave,”

and God knows I can let a detail slip, but you'd think

               I'd remember that, so excuse me while I sink

into a slough of despond so deep I can hear Chinese

               beneath my feet, but hold on—What's that?—It's “Please,

Mr. Postman,” and the Marvelettes swing down and grab

               me up, for my rock-and-roll ids, Barbie and Babs,

have pushed back the rug, are doing the twist, drinking Tabs.

               “Forget that French bitch and her zombie hoard. You can stab

us in the back and call us Keith Richards,” the girls coo,

               and then scream the lyrics of “I Put a Spell on You,”

because they've read Heidegger and Simone de Beauvoir,

               too, but it's not going stop them swinging ce soir,

dancing in the streets with Martha and the Vandellas

               and drinking mai tais with little purple umbrellas,

for they reside in the land of a thousand dances,

               where Wilson Pickett reigns supreme, while I freelance

at the funk bazaar, because sometimes Prince's “Kiss”

               is all that stands between me and the darkening abyss,

and my girls are swinging their ponytails with Nadine,

               Layla, Gloria, because we heard it through the grapevine

that not much longer will we be here, so let's go, girls,

               down to the basement and say hello to the devil,

because his dress is red and trouble is on his mind,

               and he's out searching for girls, but what does he find

when he gets to the party, revved up, ready to scare

               our pants off—our pants are off and we're not fighting fair,

and who is the devil anyway but some ugly

               guy with a goatee and fire coming from his ears. We

say, to hell with you, your minions, too, for there's music

               in the air, and the night is shorter than your prick,

Satan, so move along, because we have some dancing

               to do, in the streets, under the sheets. I'm not mincing

words here, because I've got three girls in one body. Wait,

               that smells like religion, which I can do, especially the hate.