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James’s POV
I know I had the cheesiest smile on my face during the walk back to my room. When I walked inside, I saw that my roommate was there just lounging on his bed and scrolling through his phone.
“Oh, hey,” I greeted, not expecting him to be here. Usually around this time he was out doing... well I have no idea what my roommate did in his spare time.
We had only started getting to know each other a little bit after he found me sulking on my bed the day after Robbie dumped me. He’d been pretty friendly to me since that day. I guess seeing your roommate have a mental breakdown tends to bring people together and create a bonding experience.
“Hi,” he greeted. “Date?”
I grinned. “Yeah, went out with my boyfriend.”
My roommate chuckled. “And I’m assuming you had fun based on your reaction.”
“Oh, hell yeah. It was amazing and it’s not like I haven’t been on dates before. Something was just different about this one.”
“Well, you must like him then.”
I swallowed. “I do and it’s even more than that. I love him.”
“God, you have it bad.”
This caused me to groan. “Yeah, I do. So bad, but hey he has it as bad as I do. It’s just more obvious with me because I’m not very good at hiding my emotions.”
Now that I was officially dating Robbie, I wanted to go and come out to my team. It had been something I was thinking about for the past few days now. I knew there was no pressure from Robbie or anything else. This was what I wanted to do. My team was my family, even the ones I didn’t get along with. I wanted to share everything about myself with them and something this big deserved to be shared.
The issue was finding the best time to come out to them and tell them of my new relationship. I guess I could do it after one of our games or after practice. Best to do it when we were all in the locker room. I mean, what other time would all of us be together at the same time and place?
I told Robbie what I was doing, and he seemed nervous but supportive. He understood that it was my decision in the end. To make him feel a little better, I offered to leave his name out of it, but Robbie declined and told me he wanted them to know whom I was dating.
It was kind of hot to hear that come from Robbie, to be honest. Almost like he was staking a claim to me.
Eventually, I decided just to do it after practice because it was just the best time to do it. I didn’t want to come out again and again. That would just be a huge hassle.
Bernie was the one guy I told before I was going to do it. He supported me and said if I needed any assistance, then he would be there.
So, what I did was just blurt it out right after practice.
“I’m dating a guy right now,” I said, practically shouting it so loud that my voice echoed throughout the locker room. “And before you ask, I have no idea if I identify as gay, bi, straight, or whatever. It’s still a mystery to me, but the one thing I’m sure of is that I like this guy that I’m dating.”
For a minute, there was silence and I’m not going to lie; I grew nervous.
“Any comments, questions, complaints?”
“I have a lot of impropriate questions that I can google so I’m just going to say congrats dude! As long as your happy that’s all that matters!” One guy said.
My teammate beside him nodded. “Yeah exactly. I gotta ask: who is the guy?”
I grinned. “Remember the one who was tutoring me? Well, it’s him.”
There were a round of oohs and ahhs from the other players, earning a laugh out of me.
“So hot for teacher?” Brian, the football captain asked, wiggling his eyebrows for comedic effect.
“I mean, yeah that’s basically what it is,” I muttered in reluctant agreement.
Everyone was accepting, except for the two guys you wouldn’t expect to be. Hunter and Parker sucked and wanted everyone to be aware that they sucked.
“So, you are a homo?” Hunter asked, saying the word like it was the most disgusting thing in the world.
“Yeah, to some level, but like I said I haven’t figured out how to label my sexuality yet. Hell, I might never be able to, which is okay too.”
Parker sucked his teeth. “Dude, you get all the girls. Why do you want to settle for some dumb nerd?”
“Because I love him, duh.”
That was all the pushback I got. The two left the locker room, muttering a few things under their breath as they walked past us. I think they might have said a few slurs but to be honest, it didn’t matter. Let them say their bullshit because it didn’t bother me right now. All that mattered was that my team had accepted me coming out as I thought they would.
I got the feeling that Robbie hadn’t had as much luck as I had in coming out to people, which broke my heart for the truth to be told. It wasn’t fair that he had to deal with that bullshit. Everyone should be accepting, which sounded a bit naïve, but it was how I felt.
When I told Robbie how well it went, he was so happy for me. I jokingly asked when he wanted to meet the team, which earned me a long period of silence.
I was quick to assure him that he didn’t have to meet them anytime soon or at all really. It was just an idea that hit me.
It would be nice if my team, which meant the world to me, and Robbie could meet up, but I’d let it drop for now.
Robbie said he’d think about it, which was all I needed from him.
It was a few days before I had a chance to meet up with him and by the time I did, I was dying to get my hands on him.
We hadn’t done anything, partially because it was Robbie’s idea, and also because the school did keep you busy but now, I was finally able to stop by his dorm, which was unlocked thankfully.
“Hey,” I greeted.
Robbie barely got a hello out before I kissed him deeply. Robbie made a noise of surprise but melted into my kiss. Honestly, it did feed my ego knowing I could coax these noises out of Robbie and make him Jell-o in my arms, but I wasn’t going to dwell on that right now. We had more important things to get to.
Luckily, Robbie wasn’t that shy anymore when it came to undressing and the same could be said about us doing this in general on my part. I would have never thought I could be confident in taking the lead with another guy, yet here I was.
He let me undress him and lead him to the bed, which we ended up stumbling on rather unceremoniously. I burst out laughing first, followed by Robbie.
“You, okay?” I asked with a chuckle. “I know I’m pretty heavy.”
Robbie shook his head. “No complaints from me. I... like the feeling of you on top of me.”
That comment went straight to my groin. I groaned, letting my head fall against Robbie’s shoulder.
“Dude, you are going to be the end of me and the reason I come too quickly.”
We had gone pretty far in bed but had not done anything remotely close to penetration. I brought it up to Robbie once and he said he wanted to try one day but wasn’t sure about it yet. That was fair. It wasn’t like we couldn’t do other things.
Since we had started, I had done a lot of research on how gay guys can have sex because I had no idea what I was doing. Besides, it was important to be informed when it came to things. With knowledge came power.
They probably weren’t referring to a once straight guy trying to figure out how to perform gay sex well, so his boyfriend was pleased when they mentioned this. However, weirder things happened.
I opened my mouth to say something but then Robbie suddenly took my hand and placed it on his ass.
“Uh, Robbie?” I asked, unsure of what was going on.
There had been a plan for what I thought we would do tonight, and this was not part of the plan at all. Robbie was taking some initiative, which was fine by me. It was pretty damn hot.
He was bright red, blushing all the way down to his chest. When he failed to answer my question, I decided to do some exploring on my own. My fingers found their way to his hole and to my surprise, I found slickness.
Now it was my turn to blush.
“I prepped before you came here,” Robbie admitted, not able to meet my gaze. “Actually, I’ve been experimenting with fingering myself back there for a few days now. You know, to see how I would like it and make it easier for you to fuck me. God, why the hell am I saying all this?”
“I fucking love you,” I blurted out, not giving Robbie a chance to say anything as I leaned down and captured his slightly swollen lips in a kiss.
Even though Robbie had prepared himself, I still thought it was a good idea to check to see. You know, for science. I pressed one finger inside followed by two. They both slipped inside Robbie easily.
“Crook your one finger a little to the right,” Robbie suddenly whispered.
I grinned. “Ah, I get it.”
Learning about the prostate had been an interesting part of my research. I hadn’t yet tried it on myself but if Robbie’s reaction after I pressed against that spot was anything to go by, then I knew it would feel good.
“I told you I prepared myself,” Robbie reminded me after my teasing seemed to get too much for him. “Will you get on with it and fuck me?”
I swallowed. “Robbie, I swear to god one day you’re going to be the death of me.”
“At least then I’ll die well fucked.”
That was it. It was the last thing I needed to hear before I started to push inside Robbie. I’d been with girls, but this was an entirely different feeling. I was about halfway in when I looked down to check on Robbie.
“You, okay?”
Robbie nodded.
“And it doesn’t hurt?”
He shook his head. “It feels a little weird so just give me a minute. Then you can continue.”
I obeyed and again, looked back down at him just to see how he was doing. This time it was a lot harder to do because being fully inside Robbie was driving me insane. It felt so fucking good and I wanted nothing more than to start moving.
“Why are you stopping?” Robbie hissed, shifting, and wrapping his legs around my waist. “Move, James.”
Who was I to ignore such a request?
I quickly obliged, starting slowly before increasing the speed of my thrusts as time went on. Oh, there was no way I was going to last long being inside Robbie like this. After a few more thrusts, I was finally pushed over the edge.
Robbie followed me soon after, having started stroking his own cock once I started thrusting faster. I collapsed right next to him, throwing an arm over his waist.
We lay there for a while, just enjoying the afterglow.
“Should we get up and try to clean up?” I asked, feeling the slight urge to do it but the idea of pulling myself away from him didn’t exactly appeal to me right now.
Robbie shook his head and shifted so he was snuggled into my side.
“I’d rather just stay here and sleep. We can clean up after we get some sleep.”
I yawned. “Yeah, you’re right. I’d rather sleep.”
We ended up sleeping well until the next morning. When I woke up, I found myself just watching Robbie sleep for a while. He ended up waking a little bit later and found me watching him.
“Morning,” Robbie said, giving me a small smile.
It took some effort for us to get our butts out of bed and get to the shower. This time I was able to get Robbie to join me as well. He was shy during the entire process, but it didn’t matter. As long as I was able to share a shower with him, I wasn’t going to complain.
Doing all this domestic stuff with Robbie was just amazing. I can’t believe how used to it I was getting. When we were done with the semester it was going to be hard to be apart from him. It looked like we were going to have to go long distance for a little while.
I don’t know how long distance was going to go with us, but I had a feeling we could do it. I’d bring it up to Robbie the closer we got to the date.
“You look like you’re thinking hard about something,” Robbie said to me after we were out of the shower.
I grinned sheepishly. “I was just thinking about what we are going to do when we go back home for the holiday.”
Robbie kissed me gently on the lips. “From our discussion in the past, our home towns are only two hours apart. We won’t have to travel that far.”
This made me feel pretty good about the future, whatever the hell it might bring us.
“Yeah, we’ll figure it out,” I told him, leaning down to return his kiss.
I left the apartment with a spring in my step, embarrassingly enough. Hey, I couldn’t help it. Robbie had talked about the future with me without freaking out and had seemed like he was genuinely looking forward to it.
Eventually, I was able to learn why Robbie had been so guarded in the past. He had a crush on a guy and when he told him, it went badly. No wonder he freaked out back when he kissed me all those weeks ago. If I had gone through what he went through, I would have been just as nervous.
I’m just glad he felt comfortable enough to share it with me. He was nervous the entire time and after he was done, I just hugged him.
I wish I could promise that I would never break his heart, but this was something impossible to promise to someone. Anything could happen, but I was dedicated to making this work. Robbie just might be my forever person, the person I would spend the rest of my life with.
Was I a bit young to think that? Well, probably but my parents met at this age and have been together ever since. My sister had been with a girlfriend since high school as well so it could happen. It was just going to take a decent amount of work from both of us.
It was about a week after I told my teammates that I was with Robbie, that Robbie told me he would be okay with coming to another game and then meeting them afterward. I blinked, in a state of shock because I thought he would put it off until literally the end of the semester or wait until the next.
“Are you sure?” I asked seriously, wanting to confirm that Robbie knew what he was getting himself into.
Of course, I wanted him to meet my team, but it was a huge step. The issue was going to be those homophobic idiots Hunter and Parker. They were going to cause a huge stink about it. However, I had the rest of my team and even the coach to back it up. He would make sure that nothing happened to Robbie.
