if I say I did it, did I do it or
did someone else do or say he did it
or did I imagine I did it or that
someone else did: or did someone
say he heard someone else say he did
it: I take the pieces of action where
I find them: judge them by the
curvatures of their unfoldings, by
the reasonableness of their scripture:
it matters importantly who something
happens to, I know you know, and
if something was done, it can mean
a lot if you or I did it: so don’t
get me wrong: sometimes I did what
I say I did—if memory serves,
memory filtered through by invention
and displacement: responsibility
bears where it can be placed: so,
oh, yes, I stick with a sort of
reality: but let the writer go:
let reality come true if it can at
the center of his fictions: let his
dreams be as if histories: let what
went before come after: but I didn’t
do it, I didn’t do it, they cry,
sometimes until they gurgle in the
rope or splatter the blade—and
sometimes, what’s more, they didn’t
do it: mostly, they did: some that
did it laugh all the way home: it’s
hard to distribute justice fairly:
injustice happens: money talks