I know I could be really good

if I had a private loch and bog

away from the other hermits’ cells.

Colman and his bloody bells

disrupt my praying. I can see

his candles burn across the bay

more hours than mine. It drives me wild,

so crowded are these blessèd isles

with would-be saints who all deny

the flesh in more outrageous ways.

I want to be indifferent as stone.

I demand to be holy all on my own.