At 5:30 a.m. I give up on sleep. I’ve had another restless, nightmare-ridden night, but I can’t remember any of the dreams.
By 7:00 a.m. I’m at work, exhausted. The thought of seeing Josh tonight for our second date manages to wake me up a little. In bed with Josh…that’s a welcome distraction.
I pick the top file from my in-tray and get sucked straight into it. This one’s a kidnapping profile that’s come from the Chicago Field Office. All profiles in the field have to be checked by us before being forwarded to the cops in the area. I haven’t seen a profile from the Chicago office before, though I’ve been told Matt Johnson, the profiler there, is excellent. I make my way through the coroner’s reports, crime-scene photos and police reports, jotting down notes as I go. An image of the kidnapper forms in my mind. Not as detailed as if I was doing the profile from scratch myself, but enough to have a pretty good picture. Then I compare my notes and impressions with Johnson’s profile, reading through each element. I agree with all points of his profile and whip up a covering memo for Rivers.
At 8:45 a.m. I walk the file, memo and the D.C. Slasher profile to Rivers’s office, passing Sam’s office on the way. Just like yesterday the door is locked and the lights off. She’s having a bad week.
“Here’s the Chicago file for Rivers, and the D.C. Slasher profile,” I say to Janet, Rivers’s assistant, handing her the documents.
“Thanks, Sophie.”
“No worries,” I say.
She gives me a smirk and a nod. She loves it when I use Australian expressions.
I return to my office and as I pick up the phone, Marco’s frame fills the doorway.
“Hi,” he says, leaning against the doorjamb.
“Hi.” A slight blush rises in my cheeks.
He smiles. “We still on for dinner tonight? My house at seven?”
“It’s a date. But can we make it quarter to eight? I want to get a workout in.”
“Sounds fine.”
Marco turns around and I watch his rear end disappear. I smile, imagining it naked. I let the thought sit with me for a couple of minutes before I force myself back to work.
My computer chimes as a new e-mail arrives. It’s the daily staff list. Who’s sick, who’s on annual leave, who’s working from another office, etc. I quickly scan the e-mail and am surprised to see Sam’s name under the Sick heading. I dial her cell phone, but get voice mail. I leave a message.
“Hey, you. I hear you’re sick? For real? Give me a call and let me know how you’re doing.”
I hang up and look at the pile of files in my in-tray. I take a deep breath and plan to work solidly until I go to the gym. I need at least two profiles off my list today. The first file is a child abduction and murder. Two sisters were taken from their home in Miami.
The time flies and before I know it it’s 6:00 p.m. I’m very happy with my day’s work and I finally feel as though I’m making some progress with my cases. I call it a day and head to the gym. I only do a light workout, just fifty minutes. My body’s too tired to take any more than that. But even with the short session, somehow I manage to run late and end up rushing around at my place to get ready on time.
I get to Josh’s place at 8:00 p.m. He lives in a three-bedroom terrace house in Georgetown, a ritzy part of D.C. Josh comes from money and I presume his parents must have kicked in for him to be able to afford this place. His street is tree-lined and Josh’s is one of the smaller houses on the block. The entranceway consists of a red brick fence and a wrought-iron gate. I walk down the pathway to the front door. The garden is immaculately kept—roses, daffodils and a few small trees. A black wooden door is complemented by leadlight of geometrical shapes. Frosted-glass panels line either side of the door. I ring the doorbell and within a few seconds I hear footsteps coming down the hallway.
Josh opens the door. “Hi. Come in.”
“Hi.”
He scoops me up in a kiss and we continue walking awkwardly down the hall, kissing one another. We get roughly to the dining room when I hear a very purposeful throat-clearing.
Both Josh and I turn around.
“Sorry, Marty,” Josh says, laughing.
Josh doesn’t seem too fazed, but I’m embarrassed. Firstly because we all work together, and secondly because I prefer private displays of affection, particularly sexual affection.
“The hot new item,” Marty says, smiling.
Again, I’m embarrassed and this time Josh seems a bit awkward too. I wonder if he prepped Marty on the latest development.
“Marty is going to join us for dinner,” Josh says.
“After that performance maybe I should excuse myself. They say three’s a crowd.”
“Don’t be silly,” I say. “Stay.” I still feel embarrassed but am eager to keep the mood friendly.
Marty pauses. “I’ve got work to do tonight anyway, but I have to eat, right? Besides, Josh’s cooking is too good to pass up.”
“That settles it. I cooked for three anyway, and it’ll be ready in a few minutes. Marty, you can be the host while I make the finishing touches.”
Marty clicks his heels together and does a slight bow. “A drink, madam?”
Josh laughs and moves down the hallway into the kitchen. Marty and I take a left into the dining room.
The house is laid out with a long hall down the middle. There are two bedrooms at the front of the house, one either side of the hallway, and the third bedroom, Marty’s, is the second right off the hall. Josh’s bedroom has an en suite and the main bathroom is next to the back bedroom. To the left of the hallway is a large open dining-living room and at the end of the hall is a modern kitchen, full of stainless-steel appliances offset by polished wood countertops and polished floorboards.
“I’ll have a glass of wine,” I say.
“White or red?”
“Either.” I’d prefer red, but I’m trying to be a good guest.
Marty exits the living room and I take a seat on the sofa. The living area is large, with two long couches, two armchairs and a frosted-glass coffee table, all focused around the room’s centerpiece, a widescreen TV system with surround sound. Every man’s dream. To the side is a bookshelf that doubles as a cabinet, with rounded squares containing photos, a vase and some books. The room is carpeted in a rich mushroom pile that I know would feel great on bare feet. The couches and armchairs are royal blue with modern square cuts, and the windows are covered by timber Venetians. Josh has got taste.
Tonight the table up the other end of the large room is set for three, with two long white candles in the center. Already on the table sit cutlery, salt and pepper, and some butter.
Marty comes in the far door, carrying two glasses of wine. Red.
“Pinot.”
“Thanks,” I say, taking the glass.
Marty sits down in the armchair to my left.
“The chef is dishing up. It looks good.”
I’ve only experienced Josh’s cooking one other time, when we were working the Henley case. Most of the time if we worked late we’d get takeout because it was easier, but one night he whipped up an Asian stir-fry with scallops and egg noodles. It was delicious.
“So, what’s he got in store for us tonight?”
“He’s doing the French thing.” Marty pauses. “Perhaps in your honor?”
I shift uncomfortably in my chair and take a sip of wine.
“The Pinot’s good.”
“Josh said you’re a bit of a wine connoisseur. He was gone for about an hour choosing this one.”
Really? He is trying. “I like wine, but I’m no expert.”
I’ve actually done a wine course in Australia and both my parents are wine lovers. I can usually pinpoint grape variety, but I’m not like some people who can pick the region or year with a couple of sips.
“Any breaks in the Slasher case?” I ask, not being able to keep off the subject for long.
Marty shakes his head. “You’re a workaholic.”
“I’m not that bad,” I say.
Josh comes in, laden with plates.
I jump up and put my wineglass down on the coffee table. “Need a hand?”
“I’m fine. We’re ready to eat.”
Marty stands up too and we both move to the dining table, glasses in hand. Josh puts two plates on the table, and Marty and I sit down. Josh is back a few seconds later, juggling another full load. In his left hand he holds his plate, and tucked under his elbow is a basket of sliced French bread. His right hand holds both his glass and the bottle. He’s slipped the glass in between his ring and little fingers and holds the bottle by its neck with just his index and middle fingers. It looks precarious, but he has no trouble unloading.
“Beef bourguignon,” he announces.
The three wide but shallow white bowls are full of a hearty mixture of beef, vegetables and a rich sauce. Steam rises and my nostrils are immediately filled with the delicious aroma. A perfect meal for a cold fall night.
“Yum,” I say, now absolutely starving. I pick up my fork, eager to dig in, even though the food looks way too hot.
Marty picks up his fork too. “Anyway, Sophie, I’m afraid the answer to your question is no.”
I blow on a small mouthful. “I was hoping you wouldn’t say that.”
“Fill me in,” Josh says, taking a piece of bread.
“Miss Workaholic here—” Marty motions my way with the fork “—wanted to know if we’d turned up anything on the D.C. Slasher case.”
Josh butters the bread. “What are you still processing?”
“Most of the stuff from the third murder. We found some blood at the scene. DNA on it should be in tomorrow.”
“Victim’s?” Josh asks.
“We’re not sure. She was moved postmortem, so we wouldn’t expect blood flow from her. Which leaves us with the perp.”
“Sounds promising,” I say.
“Hopefully.”
“Anything else?” Josh takes his first mouthful of beef.
“Not so far. Coroner did the usual swabs and tests. Nothing unusual. Fingernails were clean and cut back, and we couldn’t find a single hair or fiber on her. Bloods came back all clear. Just a slight trace of alcohol, .01, but no other drugs or anything strange.”
“The letter?”
“Still with Mark in Questioned Documents. He’s got a bit of a backlog but he’s going to let us jump the line a bit.”
Silence.
“You want this one bad, don’t you?” Marty says before eating some stew.
Josh smiles. “She wants every one bad.”
It’s true. I’ve always been like that. Psychologically speaking, I know it’s because of my brother. I still need justice for him—his killer was never found.
I keep quiet and decide to enjoy the meal.
I take a few more mouthfuls. “This is really, really good.”
Josh beams. “Thanks.”
“Definitely worth hanging around for,” Marty says.
We eat the rest of the meal steering well clear of the case. Maybe I am a workaholic.
Just before nine, Marty excuses himself.
“You sure you don’t want dessert?” Josh asks him.
“No, I’m fine. I’m just going to finish off a few reports and then do a bit of surfing before hitting the sack.”
We both nod.
“I’ll leave you two to it.” Marty smiles and we say our good-nights. He disappears into his room.
“What’s for dessert?”
“Lemon tart.”
“I love lemon tart.”
“Not homemade, I’m afraid.”
“You mean you didn’t get a chance to whip it up after work?”
He laughs. “No, not tonight. But I did get it from an excellent French bakery.” Josh stands up. “Back soon.”
I get up to stretch my legs and wander around the living room, finishing what’s left of my second, and last, glass of wine. I make my way to the bookshelf to look at the photos. Most of them are of Josh and his family—his parents, his sister and her family. There’s a fairly recent one of Marty and Josh, taken in the courtyard out the back, obviously in summer. They both have beers in front of them and I can make out a few other people from the unit, including Sam, Peter James and Rivers. I study the photos until Josh comes back in.
“Let’s sit down here for dessert,” he says. He puts both plates on the coffee table and brings over two spoons from the dining room. I take a seat on one of the couches and Josh sits next to me.
He picks up his plate and has his first bite of lemon tart.
I follow suit. The tart melts in my mouth and leaves a tingling sensation from the slight bitterness. “It’s good.”
“Best lemon tart in D.C.”
I lean forward and cut off another piece with my spoon. My hair falls across my face and Josh runs his hand through it and draws it back behind my ear for me.
He plays with the lemon tart on his plate.
Silence. Something’s up.
Finally he breaks. “Sophie?”
“Yes.”
“Look, I’m worried about this D.C. case.”
“Why?” I say, putting my plate down on the coffee table.
“What if the killer knows you’ve been assigned to the case and is watching you now?”
“I handed in the profile today. Tuldoon’s got the case. End of story.”
Josh doesn’t seem satisfied.
I sway like a pendulum between two reactions: one, being flattered that he’s moved so quickly into protective mode, and two, annoyed that because we slept together he suddenly doesn’t think I can handle myself.
Before I come down on one side or the other, I test the waters. “You having a macho moment?”
“I know…I know…it sounds bad. I’m really trying not to do the macho thing, I’m just worried is all.”
“Josh, I’ve been in worse situations.”
“I’m sure you have.”
“It’s just a profile.”
He takes the hint and lets it go. “So, how did the profile come out?”
A wise topic change.
“Good, but there’s something we’re missing. I’m not sure what yet.”
Josh still seems a bit uneasy. I put my hand on top of his.
“Look, the D.C. Slasher has just killed again. We’ve got at least a couple of weeks before we have to worry about who he’s stalking. And by then, he will have forgotten all about the profile,” I say, perhaps with more conviction than I feel. Being the prey for a serial killer is one of my biggest fears. I know how hard it can be to escape, even if you’re strong and trained in psychology and martial arts. Often they knock you out and next thing, you wake up tied to a bed or table. Is there any way to win in that situation?
I push the thought away and pick up my plate. I wait until the last bite of tart is eaten before giving Josh the final verdict. “That was a delicious meal.”
“So you’ll come over for dinner again?”
I smile. “Definitely.”
Josh puts his arm around me and we lean back into the couch.
“You told anyone?” I ask.
“Just Marty. I didn’t want to sit down to dinner and pretend nothing was up. You?”
“I mentioned it to Sam.”
He nods. “Sam’ll keep it to herself.” Then he smiles. “We can go public in a few months.”
I’m thrilled and relieved to hear Josh confirm we’re starting something real. I agree we should wait a bit, but I already hate the secrecy part of the relationship. Then again, the whole damn FBI’s like that.
I clear the plates and stack them straight into the dishwasher. Josh follows me into the kitchen and as I close the dishwasher he puts his arms around me from behind and kisses the back of my neck.
A slight moan escapes my lips and the volume increases as he moves onto my ear. It sends a tingle through my body. He’s already found one of my hot spots. He pulls my skirt up and I push myself against him, reaching my hands back and around his buttocks. He keeps kissing the back of my neck and my ear and I run my hands up and down his backside.
My lust for Josh is taking over, but my rational mind is still functioning.
“Condom?” I say.
“Bedroom.” He breathes heavily into my ear and then onto my neck.
I talk in half sentences, distracted by Josh. “We should…go bedroom…anyway…Marty might…come out…for a break.” But I’m enjoying the spontaneity of the kitchen.
Josh releases my earlobe from between his teeth and moves backward. I pull my skirt back down over my hips. We hold hands and tiptoe up the hallway, past Marty’s room and into Josh’s bedroom.
I always love sex the first couple of times with a new partner. It’s so exciting and full of the unknown. Our second time is no exception.
Afterwards we lie on the bed, sweat still glistening on us. I rest my head on Josh’s chest. He strokes my back.
“Sophie.”
“Yeah.”
“I’m worried about you.”
“Not the D.C. case again.”
He nods.
I push myself up and rest on my elbow. “I told you, it’s not even my case anymore. And it’s just a profile, it’s not like the Henley case where I was in the field.”
“That was different. I could look out for you on the Henley case.” He pauses, realizing he’s dug a very large hole for himself.
He’s treating me like a child. “Look out for me?” I pull myself into a sitting position. “You think I need looking out for?” I don’t let him answer. “I don’t need looking after, Josh. Not only am I a grown woman, I’m also an accomplished police officer—” I move in and lower my voice “—and an FBI agent. You think I would have got here, to the FBI, if I didn’t deserve it. If I couldn’t look after myself?” I pause for a breath.
Josh fills the short pause. “I care about you is all.”
I want Josh to care for me. I want him to be falling for me. But I’m not going to be controlled by him.
“You of all people should be able to accept what I do for a living. That’s important to me.” I throw the sheets off and start fumbling for my clothes, which are scattered around the bedroom.
“What are you doing?” Josh asks.
“Going home.”
“Don’t be ridiculous. Stay.”
But I’m too angry to stay. Right now Josh reminds me of my parents, who are constantly trying to get me out of law enforcement. Telling me it’s too dangerous for a woman. But they’re wrong. I pull on the last of my clothes. “I’ll see myself out.”
Josh gets out of bed and pulls his boxer shorts on, but there’s no stopping me.
I take the long way home, feeling the need to drive and go over things in my mind. I think of the empty flat and bed waiting for me and start wondering if maybe I over-reacted. If it wasn’t for my parents’ attitude it wouldn’t have bothered me as much, and I shouldn’t take that out on Josh. But he does need to realize that I can look after myself.
By the time I arrive at my apartment, my mind is full of conflicting thoughts. But the confusion evaporates the instant I walk into my apartment. I’m uneasy. I hesitate, halfway through the door, and look around. A breeze gently caresses strands of my hair and I notice the kitchen window is open. Open? I jolt into action and draw my Smith & Wesson. I take the safety off and throw my handbag down, not taking my eyes off the open space in front of me. Besides the window, nothing looks suspicious. I move toward the kitchen to check behind the counter.
I take a deep breath and inch along until the kitchen floor comes into sight. It’s clear.
Adrenaline pumps. I do a full sweep of the living room, then on to the linen closet. I’m ready to fire. Nothing. That brings me to the door between my living space and the bathroom. I count to three then throw the door open, hard. It bounces off the wall, nearly flying back into my face. I double-check through the crack and go into the bathroom. The shower curtain is drawn and my heart pumps harder as I jerk back the curtain, gun trained on the shower. Nothing.
I see movement in the corner of my eye and swing around quickly. My finger starts to depress the trigger then I release the tension. I’m staring at my own reflection. Goddamn, I nearly fired at a mirror. That would have been a hard one to explain at the office—I have to report all shots fired.
My shoulders release some of the tension. Only one room left to check. I come out of the bathroom and hold my gun up, pointing toward the bedroom. The door’s ajar and I check behind the door through the crack, before edging into the room. It looks undisturbed but I check the whole room, including the wardrobe and under the bed. Again, I find nothing and no one. Satisfied and relieved, I reholster my weapon.
Back in the kitchen I cross to the window, closing and locking it.
I opened it when I got home to let some fresh air in, but did I leave it open? I thought I closed all the windows, but then again I was running late for Josh so I can’t be sure.
I inspect the window. The lock’s holding and there’s no sign of forced entry. I must have forgotten to close it. Suddenly I see a woman lying naked on a narrow surface. She’s spread-eagle and ropes tie her to four stakes positioned at the corners. A man leans over her with a knife. He cuts her arm and she screams. I open my eyes and take in a quick gasp of air. The image could have told me much—the victim’s identity and the killer’s—but it was faded and out of focus. The only thing I can say with certainty is that both the woman on the table and the killer had brown hair…along with more than half the population. Great. Another useless vision.
I take off my clothes, put my gun in my bedside drawer and get into bed, still uneasy. I wish I’d stayed at Josh’s house. Doubt and fear take over and I check the apartment again from top to bottom, making sure the windows and doors are securely locked. But I still don’t feel safe. I go back to bed and read, hoping the fantasy book will win over my morbid imagination and fears.
An hour later I close my eyes, hoping to sleep. I doze and images flash through my mind.
A woman lies on a bed and the room is covered in blood.
I wake up; bolt upright, gasping for air, tears streaming down my face. I try to shake the horror. Who is this woman? Jean? Susan? The D.C. Slasher’s next victim? Or is it only a dream this time?
I clear my mind, desperately wanting sleep. My digital clock flashes 4:10 a.m. My thoughts drift to the night my brother disappeared. I experienced his death through the eyes of the killer. I enjoyed it as the killer. Nausea hits me. I grab my book and move to the couch, determined not to think of my brother and the role I played in his death. I read for thirty minutes, the story engrossing enough to quiet my fears. I return to my bedroom, leave my bedside light on and gradually fall back to sleep. But immediately I’m back in the dream. The body has been found and I’m there. Then the dream jumps, like a faulty record, and time passes.
I look up to see the shadowy image of the killer coming at me with a raised knife. The knife penetrates into my skin, into my leg, and I wake up.
I gasp and start hyperventilating, panic taking over. I open my eyes and see a dark shape in my doorway. I stifle a scream. There’s someone in my room.
I lie paralyzed. My gun is in the drawer. Can I get it and fire before the killer attacks? Then the figure distorts and I stare at the dark space, trying to decipher the shadows, the shapes. What the hell’s going on?
I move as fast as I can, fumbling for the gun and the light switch, ready to shoot. But the light only illuminates the empty room.