I sit in the debriefing room, still sore. I’ve got a heat pack on my ribs, which is helping to numb the pain—that and the painkillers. My thigh’s got fifteen stitches and I even had to get a couple of stitches in my left foot. The rest of the cuts on my feet are covered and my soles are lightly bandaged. Walking is difficult and slow. No help from adrenaline now.
The task force and everyone from the Behavioral Analysis Unit, including Pike, are present. Rivers leads the meeting, a piece of paper in his hand.
“Marty Connor Tyrone,” he says. “One of our own.” He shakes his head. “Born in Tucson, Arizona, in 1974, Matthew Connor Lande. Went to Catalina High School, graduating in 1991.” Rivers looks at Josh.
“The year below me.”
“Yes, that’s when his obsession with Marco started.”
Josh nods and Rivers continues. “Applied for Arizona Police Force straight out of school and was rejected. Applied for the FBI in 1995, also rejected. A month later he killed Sally-Anne Raymond. He changed his name in 1996 before studying forensic science at Michigan University. Applied for FBI field training another two times, in 1998 and 1999. Worked with the Chicago Coroner’s Office at the end of 2000. And of course, we’ve got him on flights to Florida for a vacation in 2000.”
“But we must have had his real name on record,” Krip says.
“We did, but we never cross-checked aliases against the college lists,” O’Donnell says.
We would have searched for name changes and aliases if all our leads turned up blank, but it would have been a week or two down the road.
“Now we know why the crime scenes were so clean,” Pike says.
Josh double-clicks his pen. “Even if he slipped up in Chicago or here, he could have tampered with the evidence. He was always protected.”
“He changed the handwriting report and that kept us focused on the left-hander angle,” I say.
“Part of his attempt to set up Marco,” Rivers says.
I sigh, tired. “I gave a sample of Marty’s writing to Questioned Documents. It matched the note to Sam.”
A few nods. It was a given anyway, but we still had to be sure.
“How’d he get it so clean in Arizona though? Before he even started studying?” Flynn asks.
“Oh, he’d been studying all right, self-studying,” Josh says.
I picture the tree underneath which Sally-Anne died. “The rain helped with Sally-Anne.” I pause. “He was lucky that day.”
“Did he actually know Sally-Anne?” Flynn asks.
“From afar. He’d seen her with Marco a few times,” I say.
“Was he on the Arizona suspect list?” Couples asks, looking at me.
“Yeah, but under Matthew Lande.”
There’s silence for a few moments, then Josh slams his pen down on the table. “Right under my nose.”
I want to reassure Josh. Not that it will make up for the trust we’ve lost, but I can’t help wanting to reach out to him. “That was the point for him. It was all part of the thrill. It was why he came to D.C. Why he applied for FBI forensics. And no doubt why he wanted to share with you. He wanted to be you.”
Josh pushes his chair back and shakes his head. “Single White Female eat your heart out.”
“How does he compare to the profile?” Jones asks.
“Perfectly,” I say. “He even had much older brothers.”
Josh is silent.
“Any domestic violence?” I ask.
“The father was on the police radar for years, but when Marty…I mean Matthew…was sixteen it all stopped. The father sobered up.”
I cup my hand around my cracked rib. “But the example had already been set. It’s okay to hurt the woman you love.”
“I guess so,” Rivers says. “I spoke to Mrs. Lande. I couldn’t get much out of her, but we’ll be following up his background very carefully.”
I nod. No doubt we’ll dig up the early indicators of a serial killer—bed-wetting, animal torture and the like.
“When did he meet you?” Flynn asks me.
“The Henley case.”
I’ve been over every interaction I’ve ever had with Marty at least a hundred times. I’d seen him both at work and at Josh’s, but each encounter was short. I had no idea he saw me as yet another thing that Josh had and he didn’t.
“And you worked out the body positioning, Anderson?” Pike says.
“Yeah. I realized all the victims’ heads were looking roughly toward the same spot.” I pause, thinking about Sargent and Montana. We found them both dead, shoved in a janitor’s room.
“I can’t believe we missed the head positioning,” Jones says.
O’Donnell rests his arms on the table. “We were looking for a pattern in the locations, not the victims’ head positioning.”
I should have picked it up earlier. Maybe then Sam would be sitting in this meeting. I still can’t believe she’s really gone.
“How’s Carter doing?” Pike asks.
Pike’s voice gets my attention and I slowly move my gaze from the window to Pike.
“He lost a lot of blood, but he’ll live. They’re going to release him in a few days. He’ll be off work for a couple of weeks though,” O’Donnell answers.
“Some vacation,” Krip says.
“Vacation?” There’s a hint of disapproval in Rivers’s voice, but he leaves it.
“It was a good holiday. He caught his man,” Josh says.
O’Donnell takes his glasses off. “True.”
There’s silence again.
“Right, well. We may as well wrap it up,” Rivers says. “Thanks to the task force for coming in and for all your work. And the rest of you, back to work.” Rivers looks up at Josh and me. “Except for you two. I want to see you in my office.”
The room empties without any fuss or hint of victory. There’s not really much to celebrate. We caught our guy, but we lost so much on the way.
We follow Rivers to his office. I hobble, the cuts on the soles of my feet still very sore.
Rivers sits down and motions to two chairs at his desk. Josh and I also sit.
“I want you two to take a few days off.”
Josh takes a breath in. “But—”
“Not buts, Marco. Marty has been targeting you for years and he was framing you.”
“But you didn’t believe that, did you?”
Poor Josh. It must be hard to know that others suspected you of being a serial killer. Work colleagues, your girl…
“You were never a suspect in my mind,” Rivers says. “But we had to investigate you properly and do the right thing.”
Is he being diplomatic or truthful?
“Anyway, I’m fine,” Marco says.
Rivers shakes his head. “You took a bullet.”
“I had a vest on.”
“I know. But you’ll be sore for a few days, and time off will do you good.”
Josh doesn’t respond.
“And as for you,” Rivers says, looking at me, “if I had my way you’d still be in the hospital.”
“For a broken rib and a few cuts?”
“You need time out, Sophie. And you’ll need to spend a lot of time with Dr. Rosen.” He looks at Josh. “Both of you will.”
Josh speaks up again. “What? For a bullet?”
“You’d have to see Rosen for a bullet, it’s procedure. But it’s more than a simple bullet and you know it, Marco.”
As much as I hate to admit it, Rivers is right, for both Josh and I. I’ve been trying not to think about what happened in that room. I was lucky, lucky that he didn’t rape me. Lucky that I escaped. But I know I’ll have nightmares about it every night. And Josh? He feels guilty about all of this, especially Sam. I know he does. After all, the murders were about Josh.
I look up at Rivers and nod. Even Josh keeps quiet.
Rivers clears his throat. “There’s also the matter of procedure. Shots fired and one person killed. There’ll be an investigation.”
“What?”
“It’s routine, you know that. You had to shoot him, of course. And personally, I think you did the world a favor. But—”
“It has to be investigated,” I say.
“Yeah. And…” He pauses. “I’m going to need your gun.”
That’s the last thing I want to give anyone. I know that Marty’s dead. I saw him die. I killed him. But I still expect to see him waiting for me around every corner. The gun is my comfort. But it’s policy when an agent shoots someone—no matter what the circumstance. I take my gun out of my holster and reach over to place it on Rivers’s desk. I wince with pain from the cracked rib. As long as I keep my arm by my side, it doesn’t hurt much, but reaching sends ripples of sharp pain straight into my rib cage.
“Okay, that’s it. Take it easy,” Rivers says.
We stand up.
“You’ll both be getting a call from Dr. Rosen. You’ll need to come in for appointments, even though you’re off.”
It’s not such a bad idea.
We leave Rivers’s office. In the corridor, Josh stops. I stop too.
“Do you want a ride home?” he asks.
“Um…”
“You’re going to the hospital.” He stares past me.
“Yeah, I was going to fill Darren in. Tell him about our debriefing.”
Josh nods curtly.
“I won’t be long though. Would you come with me?”
Josh hesitates. “Okay. I’ve got a few words I wouldn’t mind saying to Darren Carter, anyway.”
“Josh—”
“Don’t worry, I’ll be civil.” He shoves his hands into his pockets.
Walking along the hospital corridor to Darren’s room reminds me of St. Anne’s. I remember running along the corridors, naked, with Marty right behind me. I thought I was never going to escape. I can admit that now. I felt defeated. I’ll never look at a hospital the same way again.
We arrive at Darren’s ward and he pushes himself up in bed.
“Hi,” he says, keeping his eyes on me.
“Hi,” I say. Then there’s an awkward silence.
“Apologies are in order,” Darren says, looking at Josh.
“For thinking I was a serial killer? Damn straight an apology is in order.”
Darren smiles. “I’m sorry,” he says and holds out his hand.
Josh takes it.
“Thanks for helping us out on this one, Carter. Without you, we may not have found Sophie.”
I hadn’t thought about that before. It was Carter who recognized Marty from the photos. They interviewed him during Sally-Anne’s investigation. It was also Carter who knew something was up with the map.
Darren shakes his head. “The two of us studied that map for a good couple of hours before we saw the head positioning.”
“It took us a while.” Josh transfers his weight from one foot to the other. “I’ll wait outside.”
“Thanks,” I say.
I tell Darren all about Marty and everything we found out during the briefing. He listens intently, finding out about the man who shot him and killed his aunt all those years ago. Darren was lucky. The bullet pierced his right lung, but he’s going to be okay. They weren’t really prepared when they stormed into St. Anne’s. Darren was unofficial, well and truly out of his jurisdiction, and Josh was suspended. Josh had some supplies at home—two guns and a vest—but Carter only had his gun and badge. They both took big risks to get me out.
He stares at me and smiles. “I’m glad you’re okay.” He grabs my hand.
“Thanks, Darren. Thanks for everything.”
“So are you planning any trips to Tucson?”
I look down at his hand holding mine. “No. I’m afraid not.” I withdraw my hand. I’m still attracted to Darren, but I need to sort out things with Josh.
Darren nods and rests his hand by his side. “Josh is lucky.”
“I don’t know if that’s true. There are a lot of things I need to straighten out right now.”
“I understand,” Darren says.
But I don’t think he does.
“And what are you going to do about your psychic abilities?”
“I need to learn to control them if they’re going to be useful for profiling.”
“You’ll work it out. You need to practice, is all.”
I nod. “I hope so. I think it can help others.”
“I bet it can.” He pauses and smiles. “I bet it can.”