The apology

She asked me did I love her

and I

made dumb by old abuse

made no reply.

A word so used, so greasy with the using

crooned, trumpeted out, the lush

forerunner of the furtive pox

among the dregs

And by me

in far-off sordid grapples

– another self, but still the mouth’s the same mouth’s shame the same

And that alas O harrow and alas. But no help now: blind face it is.

Is that to be

the word

t’apply

to this deep unity?

On the left a half-paid, old, unsmiling whore

whose grin does not conceal a mind averse

And here, the one sole thing the sole one thing that gives to death

a terrible finality, a fear

of loss unmeasured: makes of it the sum

of all the bitter tearing wind of sorrow

man can feel.

The wheel

on which he breaks

quite breaks

Breaks.

Down. He is down.

Breaks quite down. Smashed now –

never and never and never and never again

this whole man now.

Do these two meet?