Then, a few years later, a man came in and slashed the canvas

with a knife. A statement was released that used the word unbalanced,

which seemed fair, although we hadn’t had a statement from the slasher,

who was still detained. When we got home the furniture and wall-hangings

had gone. The paint behind the frames had not been faded by the light, so

left an outline of the pictures like a kind of silhouette. I felt surprisingly

disarmed, like being caught off guard without a good excuse, unable to

give answers to the simplest set of questions – Who are you? What are you

doing here? – suffering a period of brief but harsh amnesia. What better

metaphor than that great city, rising from the swamp, laying its foundations

on the men who died constructing it? It makes you wonder if survivors

had a clue what they’d survived, or if the long, fantastic stories told

by nurses did the trick. One inspector wrote how the drowned horses

were impossible to count, and that the bridges may as well have been

constructed out of them. The thing is, as a child, I didn’t know how

distance worked, that it was somehow linked to passing time and that

forgetting sometimes meant that you might live through things again,

like when you feel you’re seeing mountains that you’ve never seen

before but then you find out from a photograph you came here

not that long ago. About a year went by in the same way. For them,

there was a chance to fix up the slashed masterpiece, re-hanging

it beside a plaque explaining what had happened here. For us,

there was a chance to catch up on the things we’d missed, doing

our best to make exceptions for the minute gains and losses of each

day, which tend to sweep by unannounced the way the wind disturbs

acres of dunes. During this period we visited Lake Tahoe, which I’d only

ever seen as a relief map in a restaurant – whose outer walls were made

of plastic made to look like it was made of wood – or in The Godfather: Part II

(1974), because it’s where the Corleones have a compound distanced

from New York. Driving north around the lake’s perimeter, I read aloud

that its depth is over sixteen hundred feet and that (because the water

stays so cold) there could be bodies from the fifties down there,

perfectly preserved. Six yachts were sailing to the state line with their

fibreglass reflecting light. I had a vision stitched together from stock

imagery of yachting scenes: mostly bikinis and champagne and people

diving in slow motion from the yacht into the lake. It all got nasty pretty

quickly, so I tried to think of something else. As far as I’m aware, though,

this was years before the news broke out, by which time we were back

at home. The papers barely covered other stories while the pictures

started turning up on posters, T-shirts, flags and students’ protest signs.

Eventually the men came to be discharged from the hospital. It wasn’t

that they’d all been cured, just that there wasn’t more that could be done;

it would be years before the fossils were discovered and it all made sense.