Four

FOR FIVE PENCE we hired a barn, with a cowshed adjoining, in the inn yard, where we could keep our things and also sleep. Five pence was a good deal for such a lodging but the innkeeper would not take less. “Why should I haggle for pence with a band of players?” he said, and he wiped his hands on his greasy apron with an air of being above such base considerations. “There are cows in the byre, or I would have asked six,” he said.

This innkeeper was a low-browed, brawny fellow, with one eye turned inward. He was scornful of us and did not scruple to show it, though he would profit from our play because it would be done in the yard of the inn. But he was of those who boast where they despise, as if to justify contempt. “Others will take the barn if you do not,” he said. “Why should I haggle with vagabond players when I am preparing rooms for the King’s Justice, who comes here from York and is expected hourly?”

Martin said nothing to this but looked him coldly enough in the eye. He had taken off his angel’s mask but still wore the wings. I had kept on my mask, being afraid to remove it because of my tonsure, and through the eyeholes I saw Springer and Straw exchange glances and Straw crossed his eyes in imitation of the innkeeper and wiped hands on an imaginary apron, doing it however in such a way that his hands were crossed also, a gesture very comic in his present dress of fashion, fortunately not observed by the innkeeper. I wanted to ask why the Justice came here at such a time of year, and perhaps would have done so in spite of the muffling mask, but he left us to drive away a blind man who had come into the yard to beg. There was a little ragged girl with him and she had pissed against the wall.

When he returned we agreed on five pence and Martin paid it. It was a bare place with an earth floor, but it was dry, the roof was good, and there was a stout door to it with an iron bolt and a padlock. This last was an important matter as we had much to fear from thieves. All the capital of the company was in the costumes and masks and pieces needed for setting out the playing space. These had been added to over the years, some made, some bought, some, for all I knew, acquired by the very means we now had to guard against.

We changed out of costume and unloaded everything, including Brendan, whom we carried all in a group in his covering of curtain and laid in a corner. Here inside, among smells of dung and straw and trampled earth, his presence was not so evident.

The inn yard was busy with people coming and going. There were some soldiers in breastplates talking in the middle. By the arches on the inn side of the yard there was an old woman with a tray of buttons and two young ones with squares of green in their sleeves to give notice they were whores. The blind man and the little girl had returned. There were shouts for service from guests in upper rooms and a serving man passed along the yard to the staircase that led up to the gallery. An ostler was trying to stable a black palfrey on the other side of the yard but it was high-metaled and made nervous by the noise and bustle, it reared and shied at obstacles that only it could see, and its hooves clattered and sparked on the cobbles. Slung over the saddle was a tourney shield bearing a crest with a coiled serpent and bars of blue and silver. A squire in early middle-age, bareheaded, wearing a coat of thin mail under a brown surcoat, came forward and spoke to the horse and calmed it. He was dusty and stained with travel, and on the breast of his surcoat was a badge with bars of the same colors, blue and silver. I heard him call to the innkeeper to have wine sent up for himself and the Knight whom he served.

All this was like a public show for me. I felt no relation to anything I saw because no one knew what I was. I did not know myself. A fugitive priest is a priest still, but an untried player, what is he? I could breathe and I could see, now that the mask was off. I was set apart, in a different space, as the spectator is always. And I wondered if these people too, who seemed able to move as they wished about the yard, were in truth constrained to behave as they did and were only pretending to be free, as we ourselves had done when we came in procession through the town.

Then Martin, with Tobias as witness, went to give an account of the death and arrange matters with the priest. There were things for the rest of us to do. Brendan continued to give us labor. He could not be taken to the church in my clerical habit nor could we deliver him naked. He had to be dressed in his own clothes again—and again by Margaret, who was as gentle with him as before. The habit was hung from a rafter to freshen it as far as could be; it was now become part of our common stock. Meanwhile I wore the high tunic and sleeveless jerkin of Mankind and a woolen cap borrowed from Stephen, which was too large for me and came down over my eyes.

These things were scarcely done before the same ostler came with straw and sacking for our beds. It was mid-afternoon only, but the light was already beginning to fade. Stephen and I were standing at the barn door. I am inquisitive by nature and talking comes easily to me. I asked the ostler about the squire and the one he served.

“They stay the night here,” he said. He was young and round-faced and had a simple look of importance at knowing something we did not. “They have ridden from Darlington today, and that is a good long road,” he said. “He is a knight with a fief in the Valley of the Tees from what I heard tell. They are either poor or mean. The squire gave me one penny only.”

“One penny is not bad reward for holding a nag’s head,” the sardonic Stephen said. “I do it hours together sometimes without being paid at all.”

But the ostler was one with small play of mind, who took everything strictly by the letter. “There was not just the one,” he said, with the beginning of anger. “There was also the warhorse to stable, a beast that could back and crush you like a fly if you did not look to it.”

“True, it is little,” I said. “Perhaps the fief is small. Why do they come here?”

“They will have come to take part in the jousting,” he said. “There is to be six days of jousting lasting till St. Stephen’s Day. The Lord has sent to knights from many parts. This will be one who travels from tourney to tourney and lives by the prize money. He has small hope of prizes here, with Sir William taking part, that is the Lord’s son and the very flower of knighthood and has never been unhorsed.”

“Which lord is that?”

“Why,” he said, with a look of surprise for our ignorance on his simple face, “that is the Lord Richard de Guise, who holds this town in his fief and the land all east from here to the sea. He is known everywhere for his giving of alms to the needy and his punishing of wrongdoers and his godly life—he would have none such as you in his Hall.”

It was his castle then that we had seen from the road that morning. Into my mind the vision came again: the huddled houses in their pall of smoke, the battlements and pennants beyond, rising into light, that gleam of light on metal from among the parapets.

He was turning away when I said, for no more reason than idle curiosity, because it had been in my mind since talking to the innkeeper, “Well, what with that and the Justice that is expected you will be kept busy.”

The light was failing now from moment to moment, there were brands being lit and set in their brackets along the walls of the yard, and also above in the rooms of the inn there were lights showing. The light from the brands made shifting ripples on the dark stone of the walls and moved on the damp cobbles. I could hear the breathing of the cows behind me. “Why does he come,” I said. “What brings the Justice from a great place to a small in the days before Christmas?”

The ostler’s face had been in shadow but as he turned away the light fell briefly on it and I saw that his expression was changed, it had become unwilling. “I do not know why,” he said. “The trial has already been. I cannot stay longer, I am called for above.”

“Better than to be called for below.” This, with a gulp of laughter, was from Straw, who had come up behind us from inside the barn. They had lit a torch inside and his disheveled hair had a bright halo around it.

“What trial?” I said. “Has there been a crime then?”

The ostler hesitated, divided between caution and the pleasure of knowing. “God’s pity, yes,” he said at last. “Thomas Wells was murdered. He was found the day before yesterday on the road outside the town. There is Roger True’s daughter found guilty of it by the Sheriff and she is to be hanged.” He spoke the names as if they must be familiar to all.

“The man will have betrayed her,” Margaret said, as if there could only be that one reason. She too had come to join us at the door. “He will have played fast and loose with her.”

“But if already she is found guilty,” I said to the ostler, “what brings the Justice with his retinue here?”

He made no answer to this, but shook his head only and went quickly from us, passing through the arches and so into the inn.

“There is swift justice in this town,” Straw said. “Only two days since he was found on the road and the woman is tried and condemned already.”

No more was said about the matter then and I thought we would have no more to do with this murder, but I was wrong.

Martin and Tobias now returned, each in his different way affected by what they had to say to us, Tobias seeming abstracted and more interested in his dog than anything else, Martin white-faced with rage. The priest, a fat, slothful fellow with a thick tongue, he said—this a piece of scorn very typical for anyone not neat in movement and nimble of speech—this priest had demanded four shillings for burying Brendan. They had gone to seek him at the church and been told by a man cutting holly for Christmas where he lived. A young woman had come to answer.

“His leman,” Tobias said.

“To be a priest’s whore,” Margaret said, with a toss of her head. “She was not dressed for keeping house, I daresay.”

It was more than any of us had thought possible. He had asked a shilling for the ground, twopence for the gravedigger, and two shillings and ten pence for himself.

“Two weeks’ wages for a laboring man.” Straw brushed a ragged sleeve over the glinting stubble on his face. “For mumbling over a hole in the earth and the lump of clay they fill it with.”

“It has brought us low in the common money,” Martin said. “We are left with eighteen pence and one half penny.”

“You have agreed then?” Stephen said. He was one of those who must cavil and question and Martin’s fury turned on him now. “Do you start carping again?” he said. In rage he was a man to beware of. He had no relief from it in gesture or shouting, which was strange, for he was accomplished in all the gestures of feigned emotion, also that emotion of players that becomes real by feigning. But passion felt directly was like a suffering he had to contain. He had no expression for it save this pain of stillness. Beyond the pain—and only a touch beyond—there was violence.

“We agreed together before ever we came here,” Springer said. “Do you not remember, Stephen?”

“We did not set a limit on the price,” I said, joining in debate for the first time, as I felt now to be my right. “Just as it is true that ignorantia juris non excusit, so also it can be said of the price, pretium, and this is a principle very important both in—”

“I knew we would get a ladleful of Latin before long,” Stephen said, glowering at me, but I was not offended because I saw that for him this diversion had been opportune, even necessary. And it came to me then that all the members of this company were playing parts even when there was no one by but themselves. Each had lines of his own and was expected to say them. Without this no debate could be conducted, here among us or anywhere else in the wide world. The parts perhaps had been chosen once, fanatical Martin, Springer the timid and affectionate, Stephen the disputatious, Straw wavering and wild, Tobias with his proverbs and his voice of common sense; but the time of this choosing lay outside memory. Now I too had taken my part within this company. I had my lines to say. It was my role to moralize and lard my talk with Latin and turn all to abstraction, so that Straw could pinch his nose and nod wisely in mockery of me and Stephen could glare and Springer laugh and Martin’s anger be muzzled. The only one without a part was Margaret, who had neither public voice before the people nor private one among us.

Martin took his eyes from Stephen slowly. “These worms that eat the common body,” he said. “As ignorant of doctrine as of grace. They know only how to sleep through a confession and drink a flagon and exact their dues. And the better to do this they work with the nobles and keep folk tied to the land.”

His words were insulting to the Church, but I made no protest. To say truth, since I had embraced this trade of player, I wanted to succeed in it, and a sure way to fail was to mark myself off from them. To serve the time is the mark of wisdom, as Tobias might have said; and the time had made me a man for songs, not sermons.

Besides, what he said about priests in country parishes is true in large measure—at least it is true of a great many. Many are unlettered and incapable of expounding a text. They live in open concubinage and charge the people for their services. In some parishes the priest will not perform the Eucharist without being paid beforehand in cash or kind.

As to his other charge, of aiding the lords in securing land services, I said nothing to this either, but it is the merchants and men of business in the Commons who make statutes to keep wages down and prevent men from offering their services to new employers. Men are taken and branded as fugitives, on the forehead for all to see, only for leaving their lord’s land without permission. But it is not the Church that makes these laws. It is true, of course, that the Church frowns on traveling folk and works always to keep men in their place. Where sufficiency is, there is stability, and where stability is, there is religion, ubi stabilitas ibi religio.

As I have said, I did not argue for priests. I did not want to defend this one, who asked so much money, because we all suffered alike from his cupidity. On the other hand, they knew I was in Orders, they would register my silence, they would think me craven. “Priests vary in their nature as do other men,” I said. “They are as various as players are.”

Tobias spoke now, for the first time since his return. “There is good and bad in every kind,” he said, “and all are needed to make up the world. Speaking of priests, there has been a murder in the town. A woman is condemned for it and it was a monk brought her to be questioned.”

Martin turned to this as if he needed the change. “We heard them speaking of it in the porch of the church,” he said. He spoke softly and in his eyes was a vagueness as of strong feeling past. “He is the Lord’s confessor and lives there with them in the castle. He is a Benedictine.”

That word comes back to me now and his look saying it, spent with his rage, and the gleam of torchlight on the straw we sat on. I could hear the moving and breathing of the cows. The smell of their dung and their pissy straw was strong in the barn and this was mingled with the dark smell of Brendan in his corner. Margaret sat with spread legs mending a rent in Adam’s smock, her face turned to the light. This parting of her legs under the skirt disturbed my mind and I prayed within myself to be delivered from evil. From hooks and nails in the barn there hung our masks and curtain stuff and costumes, the Serpent’s wings, the Pope’s hat, the shoulder pieces of the Fool, the horsehair suit hanging from the rafter like a great bat. The barn had been made into a place of strangeness. The sheet of copper rested against one wall and the torchlight moved in eddies over it, as if the surface melted colors, blue and gold and red from Eve’s wig and her glass beads that were hanging up together. My sight was troubled by these shifting colors and reflections and by the blurring fumes of the torch.

“We were talking of it to the ostler.” Straw looked round, his eyes unsteady, his wild hair glinting in the light. “He did not like to talk of it,” he said, “though he was ready enough to talk otherwise.”

“It was a robbery,” Tobias said. “They found the money in her house. The Monk found it.”

“They have always a good nose for that,” Stephen said.

There was no time for more talk, we had to dress ourselves and prepare to put on the Play of Adam. And I was nervous, there was a tightness in my chest, I had no mind for other thoughts. But the shadow of this crime was over us already, though I did not know it then. It is over me yet.