Isabel was making such splendid progress on her master’s thesis that Raymond paroled her for a brief Christmas return to San Diego. To her elation, she was able to get home in time to watch Edmundo conduct Handel’s Messiah with the University Orchestra and Chorus.
Perhaps it was an illusion created by the gray December weather, but to Isabel her stepfather seemed somewhat pale.
“It’s just fatigue,” Muriel explained when mother and daughter were talking at breakfast the next morning. “Edmundo has gone through hell with this production. Two weeks before the performance, the baritone soloist left to sing The Marriage of Figaro in Chicago. If Edmundo hadn’t been able to cajole José Mauro to come out of retirement and fly in from Argentina, we’d probably have had to cancel the whole concert.”
Since Muriel had badgered her to remember her promise, Isabel diligently brought her violin and, on Christmas Eve, the Zimmers had a real soirée musicale. Francisco Zimmer, while not a professional, had become a fairly accomplished pianist. And Dorotea bravely took up the cello, having for a time played in the Buenos Aires Symphony.
Despite his handicap, Edmundo could, as he put it, “at least make a tolerable noise” on all of the stringed instruments. Now that Isabel had joined them, the happy family gathered around the Christmas table as a piano quintet—with one spectator.
As Peter joked, “When I was growing up, a conspicuous failure at every instrument, Mom taught me that somebody has to be in the audience. I’ve developed my claps and bravos to a virtuoso standard.”
Indeed, the evening was so joyful that it made Isabel feel pangs of sadness that Raymond had been left to celebrate on his own.
December 28
Naturally, I would never tell Dad that this was the happiest Christmas I ever spent in my life. Though I had some intermittent qualms about him being on his own, I rationalized that he was being well looked after by the Prachts, who had invited him over
When I asked him on the way home from the airport how their celebration had been, he confessed that he had called Karl and canceled at the last moment. He mumbled something about having felt under the weather when he woke up that morning.
But I think he was afraid to face Jerry, who might have given him some subtle—or maybe not so subtle—heat about “keeping his little bird locked in her cage,” as he once said on the phone.
But then of course there was the chance that Dad’s illness really wasn’t psychosomatic. He’s been kind of lax on the jogging lately, and he’s put on weight. Most mornings he just walks me to the track and waits while I do my laps.
I can’t help feeling guilty at not having been there. Yet I somehow sense there was a part of him that wanted me to feel that way.
Isabel’s remorse for having abandoned her father during the holidays was magnified when she learned that he had spent the time cleaning up her computer—organizing the interim results of some of the experiments she was doing on the Fifth Force.
Ray tried to downplay his sacrifice, lightheartedly insisting, “That’s my job.” Indeed, he seemed to have slaved nonstop, for he had also spent hours in the library, photocopying everything he could find on Lóránt Eötvös’s publications.
“Gosh, Dad,” she said gratefully, “in return for all you’ve done, I’m going to wash all the dishes myself for the next year.”
“Come on, Isabel, I was just a simple gofer. All these theoretical physics types based their work on the experiments of this unpronounceable Hungarian. But there’s no question that the guy was a major figure at the beginning of this century. His work on gravity provided one of the major principles of Einstein’s General Theory of Relativity.”
“Well, he’s certainly the flavor of the month—at least in our lab,” Isabel agreed. “Everybody seems to be getting on the bandwagon—although I think Karl has a definite game plan. He agrees with Eötvös’s argument that the gravitational force depends on the baryon number of the material. Now, if that’s true—and Karl is pretty sure it is at short distances—that really cuts the grass from under Einstein’s principle of equivalency.”
Just watching his extraordinary daughter walk surefootedly through the labyrinth of complex thought made Raymond beam.
“I don’t know if Karl is helping me, or vice versa,” Isabel rushed on, “I mean, he’s given me some of those experiments to repeat. And of course if my data matches his, that will make him the king of the hill.”
“It’s called paying your dues,” Raymond commented sagely. “You’ll do his spade work, he’ll get the credit, and then—if I’m any judge of the man at all—he’ll find a way to pay you back.”
“Just working next to him is reward enough,” she replied with equanimity. “Besides, I’m not the only player on his team. The key to the whole theory is to prove that gravitational force isn’t constant.
“So would you believe that Karl has gotten two of his graduate students working down a mine in Montana? And another two taking the same measurements on top of the Transamerica Pyramid in San Francisco? Their results ought to come through any day now. Karl can hardly wait.”
“Yes,” Raymond allowed. “And I bet those miners didn’t stop work for Christmas.”
Isabel felt a stab of remorse. “You know something?” she confessed. “I’m feeling so bad about it that I wish I could go to the lab right now.”
“Why not?” Ray reacted eagerly. “I’ll drive you over. After all, science never sleeps, so why should scientists?”
December 29
By the time I’d spent two hours with Dad, the sparkling colors I thought I had perceived in Mom’s house had faded into a monochrome gray memory.
There’s no greater joy than a carnival of intellect, and I spent the hours of last night and all today in the lab, running new experiments that I worked out to test the Fifth Force hypothesis.
The Prachts had never been known as party-givers, so, when they decided to throw a big New Year’s open house, tongues began to wag. The corridors buzzed with rumors that MIT had finally signed him up and his gathering was, as one wag put it, a “fěte accompli.” This conjecture was certainly supported by the professor’s extraordinarily high spirits.
Ray had misgivings about their attending the celebration. It would be difficult, if not impossible, to keep young Jerry from at least a minimal social contact with his daughter.
Jerry himself was in a state of anticipatory ecstasy, oblivious to the dozens of guests already present, his eyes fixed unswervingly on the front door, waiting for Isabel to arrive. The moment he caught sight of her, he moved through the crowd like a broken field runner.
The elder Pracht started the New Year with an act of paternal complicity. He locked Raymond in conversation, keeping him a prisoner of politeness while his tennis-playing son attempted to pursue his infatuation with the pretty scientific genius.
“Hey, Isa, you can’t imagine how desperate I am to see you. D’you know what number I am now?”
“As a matter of fact, I do.” She smiled. “In less than half a year you’ve broken into the top fifty.…”
“And if I make the quarter finals tomorrow, which is the only reason I’m staying sober, I’ll jump thirty places. And if you come and watch me play, I might even be inspired to win.”
“Come on Jerry, you know I have … previous commitments.”
The young man sighed in frustration. “God, Isa. You’re going to slow down my career, do you know that?”
“What do you mean?”
“I mean I’ll have to wait till you’re eighteen so I can take you to watch me play at Wimbledon. And you’ve got to tell me before your father interrupts this conversation whether you’ll come if I wait.”
A strange new thought for New Year’s Eve—one that had never struck Isabel before. The notion of being grown-up and an adult, free to follow her emotions instead of just her curriculum.
“Say, do you think your dad would go ballistic if we took a walk in the garden to look at the view? It’s absolutely breathtaking.”
Isabel surprised even herself by answering, “Why don’t we go before he can stop us?”
To her right she noticed the outline of a wooden shack, with a long, conical shape protruding from its roof.
“Is that your observatory?” she asked.
“Yeah,” he answered. “It’s now known as the Darius Miller Memorial Planetarium. I want you to spend the night with me there sometime—with your dad, of course. But before he can find us …”
Isabel glanced over her shoulder and saw Raymond still deep in conversation with Karl Pracht.
Suddenly, Jerry’s fingers were enlaced with hers, which caused a little tingle at the back of her neck. She walked quickly with him to the edge of the garden, and they stood there, gazing down at the lights of San Francisco.
“Isn’t it terrific?” Jerry exclaimed. “Look, you can even see the harbor, way over there.”
For all her mighty vocabulary, the best Isabel could respond with was a monosyllabic, “Wow.”
“I think Karl is crazy to give all this up for MIT, don’t you?” Jerry whispered.
“You mean it’s definite?” Isabel asked, unable to conceal her feeling of disappointment at the possible departure of the Pracht family.
Ignoring her question, Jerry turned to face her and murmured, “Isa, I can’t wait any longer. I’m going to kiss you.”
She remained silent and motionless.
“Thank you,” he said gently.
“What for?” she asked.
“For trusting me enough not to run away.”
Thus, at twenty-five minutes before midnight on the last day of the year, Isabel da Costa let Jerry Pracht take her into his arms and press his lips to hers.
She so enjoyed it that she lost all sense of time. For all she knew, it might have been several minutes. And a little tingle became a full-fledged shiver down her spine.
“What’s wrong?” Jerry murmured.
Isabel wanted to say nothing was wrong. Feeling as though she was about to drown in emotion, she reached out and grasped onto reality to save herself. “Jerry, we’ve got to stop. My father will find us.”
“So?” he murmured with defiance. “What we’re doing is perfectly innocent. Not doing it would be abnormal.”
Instinctively, Isabel knew he was right. But she was suddenly afraid. She was not sure whether it was fear of being discovered by her father, or her own growing ambivalence about her cloistered life.
She tried to break away, and he let go of her. As she hurried toward the house, he addressed her from a few paces behind.
“May I call you?”
“No,” she said without turning.
“Will you call me?” he persisted.
For a moment she did not reply, and then, for an instant, she stopped, looked over her shoulder, and answered, “Yes.”