Day 191
I’ve never had a hard time sleeping. But since Magdalene was taken I can’t sleep, and if I do it’s only for moments at a time and I wake up panicked from nightmares. Keith has always had a hard time sleeping and Magdalene struggled some too, but I never have until now. I can’t imagine I’ll ever sleep well again. Keith keeps trying to get me to take something but I don’t know. I’ve seen some of the things he’s done in his sleep while on the medication and it scares me. I don’t wanna be that out of control, but I’ve got to get some sleep or I’m going to shoot myself in the head.