Dana appeared in the room, condensing like dew from the moisture in the air. Her bare feet touched down lightly on the floor, and she watched us with eyes sunk deep into her skull. Her hair hung tangled and stringy in a frame around her face.
We looked back, too frightened to speak.
“Is it safe to assume,” said Harris at last, “that if you wanted us dead we’d already be dead?”
“You’re safe for now,” said Dana. Her tattered dress dripped tiny drops of water on the floor, splashing and mixing with the sludge from Mr. Connor’s death. The muse, toppled by the storm, sat in meaningless, powerless heaps upon the floor.
“So, what can we do,” asked Jasmyn, “to make sure that doesn’t change?”
“Nothing,” said Dana. “Stay away from me, I guess.”
“Is that a threat?” asked Harris.
“It’s a weather report,” said Dana, and sighed. “No pun intended.”
“She won’t be lucid forever,” I said, watching her carefully. “Maybe longer than normal, after so many victims, but it’ll fade eventually.”
“Her mind?” asked Harris.
“Her control,” I said, and took a step toward her. “How long does it last, usually?”
“There’s no way to predict it,” she said. “Part of the deal, I suppose. Part of the chaos. I didn’t want rules; I didn’t want to feel trapped in somebody else’s way of thinking. I wanted to be free, I guess, and now I’m free of everything.” She breathed in and tried to smile, and the feigned good humor was more painful to look at than the sadness. “My mind’s so open I can’t hold anything in it.”
“Then Mr. Connor was right,” said Harris. “The only way out is down.” He looked at me, so tired and frustrated and broken he was practically laughing. “Don’t you get it, John? We have to keep fighting them because they have to keep fighting us. It’s never stopped for ten thousand years, and it’s not going to stop now just because we want it to.”
“I came to the same conclusion,” said Ren, and we spun around, guns raised, to see her standing in the doorway. Agent Harris maneuvered himself closer to the wall, where he could see both women at once, and moved his eyes and gun back and forth between them, twitchy and terrified.
“Either one of them could kill us in a second if they wanted,” I told him, “but they don’t. So just stay calm.”
“She just said she’s planning to fight,” said Harris.
“I didn’t say it to you,” said Ren, and her voice held the authority of ten thousand years. “John’s the one who deserves an explanation—you keep quiet and try not to attract my attention.”
“Maybe Dana can’t control herself,” I said to Ren, “but you can. You’re smart, you’re powerful, you’re an ancient goddess, for crying out loud.”
“That’s exactly why I can’t follow your rules,” said Ren. “I have to be me—I can’t let other people make all my choices for me.”
“So, you choose to kill?” I said. “You choose to fight and hurt and maim and destroy?”
“I choose to live the way I want to live,” said Ren. “That’s never been any more violent than anybody else, but the world still wants to kill me for it.”
“I can think of three people you tried to kill in the last six hours alone,” said Harris.
“I was trying to help,” said Ren fiercely, but then her voice softened, and she looked at her palms. “It just … got out of hand.”
“So, you fight and you die,” said Jasmyn. “John and Harris and I here, presumably, and then you later on, and what does that get us?”
“It gets us freedom,” said Ren. “And when we finally die, at least we die making our own choices, under our own control.”
“You’re not under your own control,” said Dana. “And you’re not free.”
“I’m the mother of darkness,” said Ren. “Who do you think is controlling me?”
“Pride,” said Dana. “Selfishness.”
“I’ve heard the church-and-sin talk plenty of times before,” said Ren. “You can save it for next time you give someone a speech.”
“You don’t want to be controlled?” asked Dana. “I gave up my control when I did your ritual, and I lived my life without anyone telling me what to do. And it wasn’t a life worth living.” She started walking as she spoke, tracing a small arc across the floor of the room; Harris tracked her with his gun. “Choosing to follow rules isn’t giving up control,” she said, “it’s controlling yourself. That doesn’t seem like a superpower, but try it for sixty years and tell me what you think about it then.” She stopped in front of the oven, and her shadow fell across the room like a storm cloud. “I’ve killed five people this morning, one of them a Withered.” She stared into the flames as she spoke. “Ten thousand years old. I have more control now than I’ve ever had before.”
“What are you going to with it?” asked Harris. I didn’t say a word, because I already knew.
“Honey,” said Ren, “don’t you dare do what I think you’re going to do.”
“I’m going to do what you won’t do,” said Dana, holding a hand to the heat of the flames. “I’m going to break the cycle. You can’t stop me from killing, Agent Harris, but I can stop myself.”
“No!” shouted Ren, but Dana seemed to explode into a storm again, a furious maelstrom of wind and water and chaos—but now, for one brief window of time, controlled by a powerful presence of mind. Her storm surged into the oven, hissing and steaming as the water expanded, but the intelligence behind it kept pulling back in, reining in the clouds and forcing them over and over into the heat of the flames. Steam hit the ceiling and condensed into big, heavy drops, only to come back into the fire again, over and over, endless and relentless, until the cloud grew smaller and the steam grew darker, and the harsh, acrid smell of tar filled the room like a toxic mist. I walked to the side of the oven and turned it off, and the flames disappeared. The inside of the oven was coated with soulstuff, brittle and burned into charcoal.
Ren was crying.
Agent Harris turned his gun on her.
“Don’t do it,” I said.
“Last one left,” said Harris. “I can end it here.”
“Don’t end it by killing,” I pleaded, and looked at Ren. “End it by choosing.”
“I don’t want to burn myself,” said Ren.
“You don’t have to,” I said. “You just have to promise. Don’t hurt anyone—don’t destroy any lives, don’t control any minds. I know that’s all in your nature, but you can be better than that.” I stopped talking and stared at her, trying to make her understand. “Ren,” I said, and then, after a pause, “Margo.”
She looked up.
“I’m the worst person I know,” I said. “If I can do it, anyone can.”
“That can’t possibly be true,” said Margo. “Most of the people you know are monsters.”
“Everyone’s worth saving,” I said. “Even monsters.”
Margo looked at me, and I looked at her, and I thought about what I was doing. Did I really know? Was I really certain she could change? Was any of this really worth it? I looked at her, and I thought about my mother.
And I knew.
“Let me stay with her,” I said. “Tell the FBI that we’re dead, and that the war’s over, and leave us here. You can drop in every now and then if you want, but I’ll stay here, and I’ll help her stay clean.”
“I can’t have a family,” said Margo. “It’s part of the pact—I gave that up. I can’t have children, and I can’t be needed.”
“I can be,” I said simply. “Maybe that’ll be enough.”
We watched each other, and Harris watched us, his eyes flicking back and forth from Margo to me to Margo.
“It’s not that easy,” he said. “For all the reasons I told you before. The government wants you locked in a cell that nobody even knows exists.”
“But you know me better than they do,” I said. “Death follows me because I’ve been hunting Withered, but if I’m not then it won’t. I’ll stay here—you know I will.” I looked at him. “You’re a criminal profiler, and I’m practically your entire career. As depressing as this sounds, you know me better than anyone in the world.”
He stared at me and then shook his head—not in argument, but in disbelief.
“You’d be under constant, omnipresent surveillance,” said Harris. “And you, personally, would be responsible for everything. If I have to come back here next week or month or whatever for some kind of mind-controlled, arsonist, crazy-ass murder spree, I’m going to be very disappointed. And that disappointment will be measured in platoons of active-duty soldiers, adequately equipped to kill Godzilla.”
“We’ll be fine,” said Jasmyn.
“You’re not a part of this arrangement,” said Harris.
“My best friends are a serial killer and the Mother of Darkness,” said Jasmyn. “Try to stop me.”
Harris rolled his eyes but holstered his pistol. “Fine. But give me that gun back. And be prepared for a very long interview process before this is all over. Five FBI agents died on this property today, and even if I can manage to fake your death, John, this isn’t going to go away easy.”
“I believe in you,” I said. “Super-Best-Friends Powers, activate!”
“Shut up.”