1.
Susanna Mitchell was late again picking up her daughter from the KiddieKare. There aren’t enough hours in the day; this is what she’d say to her sister whenever they both managed to carve out an hour of time for each other, on the phone or over thin, greasy cheeseburgers at the K-Grill. A cliché, but Susanna hadn’t happened upon a truer way of putting it.
It was a quarter past five. Stuck at her third red light in a row, she slapped the steering wheel of her car a few times with the meaty heel of her palm, then backhanded tears from her eyes with a mascara-stained knuckle. “Damn it,” she whispered. Then, because there was no one around to hear her: “Fuck.”
Hound’s Liquors was up ahead, just before the turn to the day care and her daughter, and Susanna popped her turn signal to the right. She was already late: in for a penny, in for a pound. It was Friday, and normally her husband, Dale, would give the marching band the night off from practice, or they’d be playing the halftime show at the football game, but tomorrow was state quarterfinals, and Susanna knew from experience that he’d be working them to exhaustion, letting them out no earlier than nine or ten o’clock tonight when the first parents started making threatening noises to pull their children off the field by force. She and Abby would be alone this evening, and Abby would probably be tired—it had been unusually warm for late October, in the midsixties, and she would have been out on the playground most of the day—so maybe Susanna could have some wine and a slow bath and a good cry without worrying about answering to anybody. Was that too much to ask?
She passed her gaze over the bright bottles, the fancy fruit-infused liqueurs with French and Italian names, the whiskeys that glowed amber with backlighting. Finally she purchased her usual seven-dollar bottle of pinot grigio, which was already chilled in the front cooler. Dale barely tolerated her wine drinking and groused on the rare occasions she brought liquor into the house. Did she want to end up like her father? Like her no-account sister?
“Are you ready for the weekend?” the clerk asked, smiling as he punched the price into the cash register. He was a man Susanna knew by reputation, an Indian who owned both Hound’s and the town’s two newest hotels, a Comfort Inn and a Best Western, and he was probably a millionaire, or close. But he was always here, always dressed in a polo shirt and loose-fitting khakis that had the ragged look of a Goodwill purchase. His one show of wealth was a bracelet of near-orange gold, dense and glittery against the brown skin of his forearm.
“As I’ll ever be,” Susanna said tiredly. She always felt like a single mother during band season; she couldn’t remember the last time she’d been able to go for a long walk, or out shopping with a friend, or even to bed early with a good book. Abby wanted not just company but constant attention, and Susanna, who’d had an uneasy childhood, was loath to deny her.
The clerk handed her the brown bag he’d packed. “Drive safely,” he told her.
Back in the car she sat, engine idling, and looked at the bottle for a moment, thinking about her sister, Ronnie. They rarely drank together, she and Ronnie—Ronnie, like their father had, drank to get wasted and loud, and Susanna drank to get sedated. She wished that they could drink together tonight, though. She imagined it for a moment: Abby tucked in, out cold, and she and Ronnie downing vodka tonics and watching a movie that they both liked and having some laughs before falling asleep in their armchairs. Susanna could vent about work, and Ronnie could say something like, “Forget that little brat, and forget that rich bitch with the stick up her ass. She’s a bored housewife with nothing better to do than get in your face,” and Susanna would, temporarily at least, believe her. Susanna believed Ronnie about these things better than she did Dale. She knew that Ronnie wouldn’t bullshit her.
Dale didn’t like Ronnie. He didn’t like her drinking or her swearing or the way she dressed—reasons enough, he said, to keep her away from Abby. Dale could always tell when Ronnie had come over to the house, because Ronnie couldn’t go an hour without a smoke and Susanna wasn’t going to make her sister sit outside every time she had one. He’d walk through the door, sniff, and frown. He’d check the trash can for ashes, the sink for a lipstick-stained glass, making a big show to prove a point, as though he were looking for the signs of a lover instead of his own sister-in-law.
It had been—Susanna racked her brain and did the math, putting her car into gear—about two weeks since she’d heard from Ronnie. Could that be right? She’d called Susanna on a Thursday night, when she knew Dale would be at band practice, and yes, it must have been two weeks (and a day) because Susanna had been complaining about having to do chaperon’s duty at the high school’s homecoming dance. “Why should middle school faculty get roped into that?” she’d asked. “I don’t see high school faculty coming down here to run the concession stands at our football games.” Grousing to Dale never did her any good. Dale taught music and band at both schools and thought that he had insights into the administrative realities that Susanna couldn’t grasp.
But in fact, she was late picking up Abby because of one of those “administrative realities.” Christopher Shelton’s mother had wandered in after school let out, demanding to know why her son had been given detention. Principal Wally Burton, in typical Wally Burton fashion, had immediately ushered the parent to Susanna’s classroom—God forbid he should have to put in an extra fifteen minutes after final bell—and left her in the doorway, smiling his slippery smile and saying, “Mrs. Mitchell will explain everything, don’t you worry, ma’am,” before disappearing.
Susanna had stood and extended a hand, already wary. She usually ran into two kinds of parents at Roma Middle School: the very poor and the very well-to-do. The poor parents Susanna could manage; they reminded her of her own folks, or at least her mother. The woman in Susanna’s classroom today was one of the well-to-do parents, and not just manager-at-the-factory money, either, which was the kind of slightly above-average salary that could sometimes pass for wealth in Roma. Real money. Executive factory money. Unlike the lawyers’ wives or the doctors’ wives in town, this woman made no special effort to garishly display her wealth. No big rocks, except the stunner on her left-hand ring finger; no thick cloud of pricey perfume. She was dressed in simple clothes—a black blouse and slacks and riding boots, with a cropped red sweater as accent—and these items, though not ostentatious, struck Susanna as well cut, as suited to the woman’s figure in a way that Susanna, armed with this same woman’s credit card, could never have been able to approximate. The woman’s dark blond hair, too, was very well cut, worn in a slightly angled bob—not so angled that it seemed unfeminine—and tucked behind an equally well-shaped ear.
“It’s nice to meet you, ma’am,” Susanna had said, all at once certain that the woman would spurn her extended hand. But Christopher’s mother shook it firmly, smiling, so Susanna had cleared her throat a little and smoothed her wrinkled paisley skirt and motioned to a pair of school desks. “Would you like to sit down?”
“Thank you,” the woman said, somehow managing to slide elegantly into one of the desks. Her voice fit the rest of her: sophisticated, pleasant, no trace of an accent. “Mr. Burton told me that you’d be the person who could explain why my son got detention today over some kind of a writing exercise.”
Susanna, still smarting over this morning’s humiliation, took a deep breath. Christopher—she had to admit this to herself—was a very, very bright boy, probably categorically “gifted.” One of the best in his grade, and one of the best to pass through Susanna’s classroom, too. His paper on Bridge to Terabithia had been a marvel, as well constructed and elegant as his mother’s hairdo, and he could be earnest and insightful in class discussions. But he was also arrogant, dismissive of any activity he deemed beneath him, and this arrogance had been revealing itself lately in more frequent acts of defiance, today’s by far the worst.
“Mrs.—” Susanna hesitated. “Shelton?”
“Yes. Nita Shelton.”
“Mrs. Shelton, Christopher volunteered to read out loud a response he had written to a sample test question on John Knowles’s A Separate Peace. It was a joke. A very offensive joke, in my opinion. He flat-out defied the assignment and me.”
“Do you have a copy of it?”
“I certainly do,” Susanna said, rising to retrieve it from a stack of papers on her desk. Her hands were shaking, and she felt a blush—that stupid goddamn blush, bane of her teaching career—creep across her cheeks and down her neck. She laid the paper down quickly in front of Nita Shelton, before its quivering could reveal her nervousness.
Mrs. Shelton scanned the paragraph with pursed lips.
“I think you see the problem,” Susanna said. “If I’m going to be frank here, I’d say that it’s tantamount to an act of aggression, and the punishment would have been greater than detention if I’d had my way. As it is, he’ll get a zero for the assignment.”
“Well,” Mrs. Shelton said, “this is certainly very silly. I’m sorry to hear that he read it out loud. But I know Christopher well enough to understand what he’s doing.”
“And what’s that?”
“He’s countering absurdity with absurdity,” she said. “Christopher gave you an answer that equaled the intelligence of the question.”
“I’m sorry,” Susanna said, face so warm now that she was nearly light-headed, “to hear that you’d advocate your son’s disrespect of a teacher. Christopher is quite smart, but he doesn’t have the right or the ability to question the intelligence of the question. It’s his job to fulfill the assignment.”
“These open-response questions,” Mrs. Shelton said. “This is some kind of standardized testing thing?”
“That’s right. The superintendent is trying to raise spring scores by two percentage points so that we can avoid state-imposed penalties, such as funding audits. I’ve been directed to devote one class period a week between now and January to test-taking strategies, specifically open-response questions. That prompt”—she pointed to the sheet Mrs. Shelton had placed on the desktop—“was my attempt to make the prep session relevant to our current course content.”
“You’re telling me,” Mrs. Shelton said, “that my son is losing an hour of regular class time every week to these test-training sessions?”
“Yes,” Susanna said tiredly. Do you think I like this? she wanted to shout into that smug face, so like the son’s. That this is what I went to college for? That I’d do it if I didn’t have the administration’s foot on my neck?
Mrs. Shelton tilted her head prettily, scanning the sheet of paper again. “There’s something I still don’t understand. Can you explain to me how my son can score A’s on each of the papers and reading quizzes and projects you assign but still get an 89 for his average in English?”
There it was. The bottom line. Christopher Shelton had brought a B home to Mother, and Mother was not pleased. “Christopher scored a B in English because he’s performing far below average on his open-response questions,” Susanna said. “The questions account for fifteen percent of his total grade for the class.”
“I want you to imagine for a moment how this sounds from my perspective,” Mrs. Shelton said. “It sounds like you and your colleagues are in the business these days of protecting yourselves, and children like mine are paying the price. I’m not worried about the fact that my son made a B. But you’ve shaken his confidence. He tells me that he doesn’t know the terms for getting an A in your course.”
Susanna’s heart was beating so quickly now that her eye seemed to be twitching along in time. “Your son knows fully well what he has to do to get an A in my class,” she said. “And he chooses not to do it. If you reinforce for Christopher at home that he should take these open-response questions as seriously as his other assignments, I don’t doubt that he can raise his grade to an A by the time report cards go out.”
“I plan to do no such thing,” Mrs. Shelton said. Close up, her face revealed the feltlike texture of translucent powder. Susanna could see the path of a delicate blue vein curving between her ear and the corner of her mouth, making her jaw look hinged-on. “It’s the role of some teachers to reinforce the status quo among their students. It’s the easier path, and I don’t hold that against you. You’re trying to teach eighty or ninety students at a time, but I’m raising one, and the way I see it, my role as a parent is to tell him to resist those things in the world that seem foolish or beneath him. These open-response questions are beneath him.”
“I can see you’re used to a certain level of privilege,” Susanna said, a little voice in the back of her brain screeching, Shut up! Shut up! even as her anger made her articulate, “but this is a public school system, and nothing that I assign is beneath any of these students. That includes Christopher.”
Mrs. Shelton pursed her lips. “You and I agree on one point. Christopher is no different than his peers. He’s been raised to understand that. These open-response questions are beneath every boy and girl you force them upon, and the sad part is that most of the other children’s parents won’t have the nerve or the ability to tell you as much.”
Susanna felt tears threaten and swallowed them back. This was, she’d think later, a version of the arguments she’d had when she had been in eighth grade with the richer and prettier and more popular girls in school. She felt the same crippling insecurity, the same despair, and the hardest thing was realizing that nothing much changed between the ages of thirteen and twenty-eight. “My hands are tied,” she managed to say. “If I don’t assign a grade to the open-response questions, there isn’t any student accountability.”
“Then perhaps my son has more integrity than you do,” Mrs. Shelton said pleasantly. She paused, waiting to see if Susanna would attempt a rebuttal, but Susanna had nothing.
“Okay, then,” Mrs. Shelton murmured, and she walked out.
2.
As Susanna drove the last leg between Hound’s and the day care, she found that her passing concern about Ronnie had solidified into actual anxiety. Perhaps the stress of the day had made her more on edge than usual. Perhaps some instinct had kicked in. She and Ronnie weren’t close the way a lot of sisters she knew were—their history was too fraught, their personalities too different—but every now and then they ended up on the same wavelength. Susanna would fight with Dale, and Ronnie would call, a welcome interruption. Once they’d run into each other at the grocery, glanced at each other’s shopping carts, and laughed to discover that they’d both picked up Cheerios, Colonial bread, orange juice (extra pulp), and Neapolitan ice cream, which had been their father’s favorite.
So there was a bond, if you want to call it that, however tenuous. But there was also Ronnie’s history of personal screwups, colorful enough that Susanna would have been a fool not to feel a twinge of worry at her sister’s recent silence. There was the time when Ronnie drank a fifth of Wild Turkey and woke up in the hospital with alcohol poisoning, and the day, five or so years ago, when Ronnie had mouthed off to a guy in a bar and gotten her nose broken. The earliest memory of this kind still frightened Susanna; she had never been able to shake it. She was twelve, Ronnie sixteen, and Ronnie was climbing into a conversion van with four or five guys—men, really—and Susanna could see that they were all drinking and smoking, and there were no other girls around, not one, and Ronnie was trying to get Susanna to come with them. Are you a dyke? she’d taunted, the look on her face a mixture of meanness and desperation that Susanna hadn’t understood. The men had laughed. Susanna had backed away. In those days she’d had to put energy, real effort, into rebuffing her sister’s attempts to corrupt her. She’d spent her adolescence hating and fearing Ronnie and her young adulthood forgiving her and worrying about her, and Ronnie, to her credit, had tried in the last few years to be a better sister. She’d given Abby a $500 savings bond on each of her birthdays and she’d never complained about the fact that Susanna didn’t trust her to babysit or even take Abby alone for an ice cream or hamburger at the Dairy Dip down the street. Ronnie knew all the things she’d done, the reputation she’d earned, and she didn’t feign self-righteousness. She was a realist.
At the KiddieKare, Susanna opened the door to see her daughter already launching herself across the room in excitement to greet her, midair before Susanna could get her arms outstretched, and then the child was clinging like a monkey to her middle, all clutching legs and arms, smelling of salty sweat and orange-scented tearless shampoo. Susanna kissed her neck, which was warm and a little sticky, then her forehead. There was a spider painted on her plump pale cheek; it was already threaded with cracks.
“Mama-mama-mama,” she said, and Susanna said back, “Abby-Abby-Abby,” because that was their routine. Susanna hugged her again, feeling her stomach flutter in the way it had when she’d first started falling for Dale. Abby was her sweetheart now, her one true love, and that excitement hadn’t waned in the four years that the two of them had spent getting to know each other, as hard as mothering could sometimes be for Susanna. She’d taken to it like she’d taken to cooking: with intelligence and determination but no confidence, consulting books and her own mother’s counsel the way she checked, every time she made a white sauce for macaroni and cheese, to make sure that the recipe called for two tablespoons of flour and not three. She wasn’t the kind of woman who could throw three or four ingredients into a pot, willy-nilly, and create a meal. She wasn’t the kind of woman who could give discipline or life instruction or even an allowance, willy-nilly, and create a daughter.
Cindy’s smile was polite but strained. “Mrs. Mitchell”—she pronounced “Mrs.” the way Susanna’s mother did, emphasizing the “r,” mizz-rizz—“we’re supposed to shut up here by five on Fridays.”
“I’m so sorry,” Susanna said, emptying her wallet of its contents. She handed the bills, a ten and a five, to the young woman, who stared at them for a moment before folding them into thirds and slipping the wad into the watch pocket on her light-washed blue jeans. “I was held up at school.”
“If you could just get here by five from now on,” Cindy repeated, her expression flat, “we’d appreciate it.”
“Can do,” Susanna said. She took Abby by the hand and left.
At home, Abby was up another four and a half hours, until the Nashville news came on. Susanna grilled her a cheese sandwich with Velveeta, Abby’s preference, and ketchup—a combination that still made Susanna nauseous, even as she served this feast to her child for the hundredth or more time—then she bathed her, taking care not to rinse off the spider face-painting, which Abby was on the verge of getting screechy about. “Don’t clean it,” she’d whined, lip fat, and so Susanna had worked around the grubby little black spot with her washrag-sheaved forefinger, getting Abby behind her ears and rubbing at the dirt ring on her neck until she whimpered dramatically, falsely, that Susanna was hurting her. Then, freshly done up in her Flintstones footed pajamas, an artifact from Susanna’s own toddlerhood, Abby requested her mother’s assistance on a handful of projects: reading Lottie’s Halloween Adventure again before it was due back at the library, Susanna prevailed upon to make distinctions between the high-pitched voice of Lottie, girl investigator, and Max, her talking cocker spaniel; and then, after that fifteen minutes had been successfully killed, playing Duplo blocks in front of the television while Susanna watched a rerun of Family Matters. By the time Abby passed out, spread-eagle, in front of the television, and the dishwasher was unloaded, loaded again with the plates and glasses that had accumulated over the last few days, and set to run, Susanna was tired enough to just turn in and give up—but she’d promised herself the wine and the bath, and she hadn’t swallowed down more than the messy sandwich rinds, those that hadn’t touched the pool of ketchup, of her daughter’s grilled cheese sandwich. She thought for a second and decided that yes, she was probably hungry. It had been a long time since her lunch of microwave lasagna.
She’d downed half a glass of her cheap wine, which was teeth-rattlingly cold and yet still sour, and was investigating a carton of ice cream, which was furred with freezer burn, when she thought about Ronnie again. It was after ten on a Friday, so calling was silly, but Susanna resolved to try her anyway.
She got the machine, as she’d known she would. “Ronnie, it’s Sister,” she said. That’s how Ronnie knew her: Sister. That had been what Susanna’s father always called her, solidifying her place as the younger and secondary of his children, but Susanna had never minded. “I realized tonight that we haven’t talked in a while, so I thought I’d check in. Will you call me back?” She glanced at the clock above the microwave: ten thirty. Dale would be home soon, and he’d have to go to sleep immediately if he wanted even a few hours before embarking on his big day tomorrow. The students were due at the band room by six A.M., and Dale would get there by no later than five thirty to warm up the school buses and triple-check the equipment list. Nonetheless, she finished the message by saying, “You can call me when you get back tonight, no matter how late. Or early. Love you, bye.”
This done, she topped off her glass of wine. It really was a glass, a regular drinking glass, because when she’d married at twenty-two she’d seen no reason to register for any stemware but water goblets—what was she, a dignitary? Queen of England? But, sour or not, the wine was doing its work now, and she went into the living room and curled up, feet tucked under her hip to warm them, in Dale’s recliner. Abby’s blocks and dolls were still, were eternally, scattered across the swath of pilled carpet in front of the TV. The TV was eternally on.
Susanna had met Dale at Murray State University, at band camp the summer before her freshman year of college—his senior year—and they were a couple by the time the week was out. He was her first real boyfriend. Her first kiss.
Now, almost ten years later, she looked around Dale’s living room. Their living room, she amended, swallowing more wine. This was still Dale’s house more than hers; he’d purchased it, with help from his parents, the year he got the job at RHS. The only newish piece of furniture was the couch. Dale had allowed her to pick it out as a wedding present, and her twenty-two-year-old self had fixated on the kind of sofa her mother would have chosen: a floral brocade, overstuffed, in greens and reds and threaded with metallic gold. Hideous. She hated it now. The TV, a thirty-two-inch that perpetually transmitted through a layer of dust, was stored in a pressboard entertainment unit from Wal-Mart. The coffee table and end tables, hand-me-downs from Dale’s parents, were varnished a dark and sludgy color, wet looking, like Karo syrup, and the glass tops were always smudged with Abby’s fingerprints and rings of condensation. The only artwork on the wall was a framed print of a barn and a silo, the kind of thing you could find at a garage sale for seventy-five cents. Susanna didn’t know where it came from, what had drawn Dale to it. She’d never thought to ask. It was as much an institution in this house as the grandfather clock that had been his granny’s, ancient and unmoving, significant merely because it, like most everything else here, predated her.
The lock turned and Dale entered, already sliding out of his “RHS Marching Tigers” windbreaker. He squinted at her, furrowing his brow at her glass of wine, then hung his jacket in the coat closet.
“And hello to you,” Susanna said lightly.
“Wild night at the Mitchell house.” He crossed the room and kissed the top of her head. “Does this mean I might get laid?” He squeezed—honked—her right breast. It was his way of trying to make fun of himself.
Susanna took another swallow. “Well heck, if you keep sweet-talking me like that, who knows.”
“I’m beat, baby,” he said. “Set the alarm, will you?”
“Yeah.”
She went to the bedroom to set the digital alarm clock while Dale looked in on Abby. She turned down the bedspread and top sheet, then removed the sham-covered pillows that she tried to keep nice, free of coarse hairs and drool stains. In a few moments she could hear him in the bathroom urinating—he always left the door wide open—and then he entered their bedroom stripped down to his boxers. He was a man of good but not exceptional height, and lean—a leanness that had seemed athletic nine years ago, when Dale was still the hotshot new teacher straight out of college, but now registered as . . . well, not as delicacy, exactly, but as cerebral and prematurely middle-aged, the figure of a man who could be coerced into no greater physical activity than the occasional brisk walk around the subdivision. But he had a good, thick head of dark brown hair, and his blue eyes, veiled by fashionable wire lenses, were wide-set and strikingly lashed. He was still attractive to Susanna. She registered this fact some days the way she always had, as a sensation of pleasure in her middle, but more often as an act of intellect—when she’d see a man, a man in worn jeans instead of pressed khakis, maybe, or a man who could sit in a restaurant and laugh loudly and openly, the way Dale never would, and she’d think, Perhaps it would have been him. And then, because she needed such touches with reality, she’d imagine the inevitable trajectory from excitement and thrill to predictability, the heartfelt whispers of love becoming empty, automatic recitations as they parted for work in the mornings, and she’d think, Dale looks as good as he does, and most days that sufficed.
They slid under the covers next to one another, and Susanna sidled into the space between Dale’s side and his arm, letting him pull her close. She could hear, from the right side of Dale’s chest, the distant echo of his heartbeat.
“Don’t guess you’d want to go with us tomorrow,” Dale said.
Susanna tried to make a face that suggested she was entertaining the notion. She’d gone to so many band competitions now that she could no longer distinguish the memory of one from another, and making the haul with Abby—rousing her at five A.M. and dressing her for the cold bus, trying to keep her entertained on the two-hour drive to Owensboro, appeasing her at the football field with nachos and hot dogs only to throw away most of the food uneaten, the endless ride back, the inopportune demands for bathroom breaks—would be a nightmare. Dale didn’t want to deal with that either, she knew, but he always felt obligated to make the offer. To remind her that she was wanted.
“Guess not,” she said. “I’m pretty wiped out.”
“Tell me about it.” He adjusted. “I got into it tonight with a parent. Corey Kirchner’s dad. Goddamn redneck. He started in about how he couldn’t arrange his whole life around picking his boy up and dropping him off at band practice, went on and on about how he has to work midnights at the plant and this and that. And you know me, Suze, I’m sympathetic. I really am. But nobody’s making Corey take band, and I told this guy as much.”
“You don’t want him pulling Corey out of band, though.”
“Well, no,” Dale said, his voice going up an octave the way it always did when he was defensive. “He’s a good drummer. He’s a good kid. But I can’t teach and chauffeur and fund-raise and do everything else these people want from me. The kids have got to practice. There isn’t any getting around that.”
He went on that way for another few minutes, and Susanna, listening, felt herself reliving her discussion with Nita Shelton, its insult and her own quiet fury, and she thought about sharing this incident with Dale, as a way of supporting him, but she found that she couldn’t bring herself to talk about it. Instead, she said, “I realized today that I haven’t heard from Ronnie in two weeks,” and she must have interrupted a point Dale was making, because he looked confused, then irritated.
“What?” he said. “You what?”
“Ronnie,” she said. “I haven’t heard from her in two weeks. I tried calling her tonight and she wasn’t there.”
He adjusted again, this time pulling his arm out from under Susanna’s neck so that she had to lean back on her own pillow. He made an exaggerated display of flexing his bicep, as if in explanation. “Well, don’t take this the wrong way,” he said. “But that doesn’t seem all that unusual to me.”
“It is, though,” Susanna said. “She usually checks in at least once or twice a week. I’ve just been so busy lately that I hadn’t noticed.”
Dale rolled to his side, placing his back to her, and pulled the bedspread up around his shoulders. He yawned. “I’m sure she’s fine,” he said. “Probably off shacking up with some loser. She’ll be back in no time, asking for money.”
“She’s never asked me for money.”
“She’ll show,” he said.
Susanna turned off her lamp and rolled over, too, wanting to place the cold bottoms of her feet against Dale’s calves but reluctant to favor him with the intimacy. She both hoped Dale was right and resented him for being flippant; she thought, drifting toward an uneasy sleep and bracing herself for the ring of the phone, that she’d suffer a thousand embarrassments at the hands of Nita Shelton if Ronnie would show up at her door tomorrow morning, hungover and hoping for a free meal. She slept through Dale’s alarm and his departure. The phone never rang.