FOUR

AT BREAKFAST THE mood was sombre.

They’d de-bussed at SAS HQ shortly after 6 a.m. and, calling for hot coffee in his hut, Ross had debriefed Alex immediately. Alex’s account had been detailed but unemotional and Ross had heard him out in near silence, only occasionally interjecting a brief question. When they were done, an hour or so later, Ross had nodded, his lean features expressionless, and sat for a moment in silence. Alex knew he had liked Don Hammond as much as any of them.

‘You did well, Alex. Bloody well. All of you. Another few hours and we would have had three dead UK nationals on our hands, not to mention egg all over our faces. Bearing in mind that we were hitting a hot DZ, it was always going to be a very high-risk operation.’

Alex nodded. At times like these, as both men knew, there was not a great deal to be said. Violent death was the everyday currency of their profession and there was no sense pretending otherwise.

‘Just remind me of the daughter’s name, Alex.’

‘Cathy. I think she was seven last birthday.’

Ross looked tiredly down at his notes. ‘Right. Thank you.’

Would I like that job? Alex wondered. Would I enjoy sitting up and watching the clock as my men risked their lives? Would I be able to write the letters of condolence that David Ross always made a point of writing?

The phone at the OC’s right hand buzzed. He listened for a moment, then covered the mouthpiece and turned to Alex. ‘It’s Hugh Gudgeon at Para HQ. The TV people are all in one piece, apparently. They want to thank the leader of the rescue team personally.’

‘I haven’t got much to say to them, David, to be honest.’

Ross nodded and looked away. ‘I’m afraid that won’t be possible, Hugh, nor do I want any mention made of the Regiment in connection with this business. Would your chaps very much mind taking the credit? No? Excellent. All right, then. ’Bye.’

Alex had left the CO’s hut to shower, shave and clear himself of leeches. This was a rather simpler process than that shown in films like Bridge Over the River Kwai. One touch of army-issue insect repellent and the fat, purple-black bloodsuckers fell off. The repellent was useless for anything else – it positively attracted mosquitoes – but it did have this one killer application. Stripping to the skin in the makeshift outside shower area, Alex managed to rid himself of twelve bull-leeches – a personal best.

In the mess tent he joined the rest of the patrol, who had got a head start on the NAAFI baked beans, pale-yolked local eggs and monkey-bananas. And beer, of course. It may only have been seven in the morning, but after a mission it was understood that you popped a few cans.

Alex helped himself to a plate of beans, one of the doughy, locally baked bread rolls and a can of Carling. The food looked none too appetising in the tent’s greenish light, but at that moment Alex could have eaten practically anything. ‘Cheers, lads,’ he said, thumbing back the tab. ‘Here’s to a daring rescue!’

‘Who was responsible for that, then?’ asked Lance Wilford.

‘The Paras,’ said Alex.

‘Ah.’ Dog Kenilworth smiled. ‘Fine body of men.’

There was silence for a moment.

‘Any news on Ricky Sutton?’ asked one of the troopers from Zulu Three One patrol, who had been tasked to recce the Arsenal camp.

‘Should be OK, is my guess, barring a very sore arse,’ said Alex.

‘And Steve Dowson?’ Dowson was the ‘D’ Squadron corporal who had been hit while attempting to rescue Hammond.

‘Shoulder’s a mess but he’ll live.’

There were relieved nods, followed by another protracted silence, then Stan Clayton raised a fridge-frosted beer can. ‘To Don Hammond,’ he said loudly. ‘Bloody good soldier, bloody good mate.’

The others raised their own drinks and then everyone started talking at once and the mood lifted. There was no shortage of good Don Hammond stories and it had been one hell of a successful mission.

As Alex drank and listened in silence, the elation of the successful mission faded, to be replaced by the sombre reality of his friend’s death. After the third can his mood had not improved and, unwilling to spoil the others’ celebrations, he slipped from the mess tent, collaring a bottle of rum as he went.

In his own tent he raised the mosquito net overhanging his camp bed, sat down and took a deep hit of rum straight from the bottle. He would say goodbye to Don alone and in his own way.

He was about to neck a second swallow when a trooper ducked through the tent flap. ‘Sorry, but the Boss wants you.’

Again? thought Alex, pulling himself unsteadily to his feet. Bollocks. Glancing regretfully at the rum bottle, he followed the trooper from the tent.

In the hour since their last conversation, David Ross had clearly suffered a change of mood. Irritation now etched the spare features. ‘You’re going home,’ he told Alex abruptly. ‘Don’t ask me why because I don’t know. All I’ve been told is that you’re wanted in London as soon as you can get there.’

Alex stared at him, mystified. What the fuck was going down? Whatever, he’d had enough of this sweaty shithole. ‘Can I take a couple of the lads back with me? We can jump a Hercules.’

‘No on both counts,’ said Ross testily. ‘They want you quicker than that. You’re being choppered to Banjul and boarded on to a BA civilian flight to Heathrow. For that reason you’re taking civilian clothes and cabin luggage only.’

‘I didn’t bring any …’ Alex began.

‘One of the liaison blokes is picking some stuff up now. Should be back any minute.’

‘Is this to do with last night’s operation?’ Alex ventured.

‘Not unless there’s some element to the whole thing that I haven’t been told about.’

That such a possibility even existed, Alex saw, clearly rankled bitterly with the CO. ‘I’ll get packing,’ he said.

Ross nodded.

Fifteen minutes later, dressed in a flowered bush shirt, over-tight slacks and plastic sandals from Freetown market – all that the liaison guy had been able to rustle up at ten minutes’ notice – Alex was watching from the passenger seat of a Lynx helicopter as Kroo Bay and the curving northern sweep of Freetown fell away beneath him. The rain of the early morning had given way to sunshine and now the whole country seemed to be steaming in the heat. Beside him, the khaki T-shirt of the special forces pilot was dark with sweat beneath the arms and where it was in contact with the plastic seat cover.

‘Another hot one,’ said the pilot laconically over the intercom.

‘Looks like it,’ Alex replied, settling himself back into his seat. They had the best part of two hours’ flying time ahead of them. In twenty minutes they would be in Guinea airspace and in half an hour would be overflying the capital, Conakry. Thereafter they would follow the coastline northwards through Guinea-Bissau and touch down at Banjul at 9.30.

He determined to enjoy the view.

At Banjul he was the last one on to the British Airways flight.

‘You must be important,’ said the stewardess who met him at the door of the 777. ‘They’ve held this plane for fifteen minutes!’ She looked down at his plastic sandals with a lemon-sucking smile. ‘Ready to walk the gauntlet?’

His appearance prompted a slow handclap. Around him, the sea of faces was hostile. They had been waiting for him, one angry woman informed him, for over twenty-five minutes. Perhaps next time he travelled he might bring an alarm clock with him?

His seat, needless to say, was right at the back of the aircraft. Toilet class. He was shown there by the lemon-sucking stewardess, and had to endure the eye-rolling and barely disguised impatience of an almost entirely female complement of economy-class passengers.

The stewardess directed him to a seat next to an amply proportioned woman, some fifty years old, who smelt strongly of coconut tanning oil.

She looked him up and down. ‘Well,’ she murmured purposefully, noting the uncomfortable tightness of his trousers. ‘Aren’t I the lucky one!’

Alex’s spirits sank. How long was this fucking flight? Eight hours? ‘Are you all … together?’ he asked, indicating the other passengers.

‘Well, it’d probably be true to say that we’re all here for much the same reason,’ the woman said with a small smile.

‘Which is?’

‘To meet Gambian boys, of course. Bit of the old Shirley Valentine.’

‘Ah,’ said Alex. ‘Right.’

‘Africans are properly appreciative of the fuller figure, you see. And they know how to woo a girl without ever mentioning DIY or football.’

‘Or their jobs?’ ventured Alex.

‘Or their jobs,’ she agreed. ‘Quite right. I’m Maureen, by the way.’

‘Alex.’

‘So what brings you to the Gambia, Alex?’

‘Oh, I never talk about my job. Too boring.’

‘You came here for … work?’

Mistake. Serves me right for being a smartarse, he thought. ‘I’m in, er, travel,’ he explained.

‘So you … get around a bit?’

‘Here and there.’ He shrugged.

She nodded. Taxi-ing into the oncoming breeze, the big 777 started its long race to take-off.

‘And do you like big girls, Alex?’

Blimey, he thought. Talk about cutting to the chase. ‘Did you have a good holiday, Maureen?’ he asked her, with what he hoped was professional-sounding interest.

In answer she fished a polaroid photograph from her purse. It showed a young Gambian man, nude except for a pair of sunglasses. He was about seventeen, slender and leaning backwards to counterbalance his evident enthusiasm. The plane hurtled into the air, pressing them back into their seats. ‘There’s my answer, Alex. Now can I please have yours? Do you like big girls?’

He turned to her, took in the painfully sunburnt flesh, the hennaed hair, the small hopeful eyes. ‘Maureen,’ he said. ‘I do like them. But I’ve got one waiting for me at home.’

‘Hm,’ she said, unconvinced.

An hour or so after take-off, breakfast was served. Uncertain of what was waiting for him at Heathrow, Alex ate the lot. With a bit of luck there’d be some lunch, too. Trouble, as every soldier knew, was best faced on a full stomach. And with a well-rested mind. The adrenalin rush that accompanied violent action was invariably followed by exhaustion and Alex slipped gratefully into sleep. One of the few advantages of his present situation – perhaps the only advantage – was that he would be able to see Sophie again and he didn’t want to appear completely knackered when he did.

For a long while, scenes from the previous night replayed themselves before his eyes. The smell of rotting mangoes and the river, the clicking of that severed windpipe, tracer scorching across the clearing, the screams of the maimed RUF men, the stillness of the Puma pilot as his aircraft danced beneath him, the Puma enfolded in flame against the sodden grey of the jungle, Don Hammond pitching forward, the smack of SLR rounds impacting into Steve Dowson’s shoulder and Ricky Sutton’s thigh …

The images faded. They were not ready to join the longer-established nightmares in the vault of Alex’s memory – it would be weeks and perhaps months before that happened – but they had been faced. He had always tried to make horror his friend.

It showed, Sophie told him, on his face.