We were able to get a search warrant immediately and I accompanied Ed and the forensic officers to Torres’s apartment. Mrs. Pereira was hysterical and even though we had taken the precaution of bringing along her parish priest, she did everything she could to physically prevent us entering Torres’s room. Finally, Ed was forced to have her restrained and removed temporarily from the premises. Torres didn’t own a computer but I wasn’t the least surprised to find dozens of porn magazines stashed under his bed. I’ve yet to see a case of rape where the rapist hadn’t fed on a steady diet of pornography. He’d also made copies of all his “correspondence,” which was extensive. They were in fact neatly pasted into a scrapbook. He was proud of them. Deidre was only one of the recipients. The other letters were to people in the news who in some way had drawn his ire, mostly by breaking some moral code. The note he’d put in my mailbox was something of an anomaly, but I’d bet he got off on thinking he was inducing fear. The room was small and stuffy but the feeling of breathing in foul air was more psychological than physical.
Finally, Ed, me, a legal aid lawyer who couldn’t hide her dislike for her client, and Torres all came together in the interview room at the police station. Torres made our job easy. After a brief denial — “I was just walking Lily” — he collapsed and made a complete confession. I wish I could say it was because he was seized by conscience but I can’t. He was full of the rationalizations and selfcentredness that was so characteristic of men like him. He told us he made a habit of parking somewhere outside of places where he might be able to see handicapped people or elderly people. And yes, he admitted he did masturbate in his van while he watched. Yes, he had taken it further on several occasions, taking advantage of his job as super to gain access to the buildings. He swore he didn’t intend to hurt anybody, and according to him, he was gentle with all the women. There were several more that we didn’t know about, including two young residents at the Huronia Institute, both of whom were confined to wheelchairs. They hadn’t reported him.
I asked him about the sexual assault on Doris Bryant and he answered eagerly. After all he’d had nobody to share his experience with before this. Although he wept every so often, I thought it was pity for himself only. Rather like Sigmund Forgach, he was initially concerned about his mother and what she would say.
“Will she have to be told what the charges are?” he asked.
I stifled back a sarcastic retort. “We could just pretend you haven’t paid Lily’s dog licence, if you like.”
All of this outpouring had taken about two hours. We took a break, then returned. Torres’s counsel met my eyes as we went in. She was too professional to say anything but it was clear from her expression what her feelings were. She would have been only too happy to get a different brief.
He was across from me, his arms on the table, hands clasped as if in prayer.
“Why don’t you tell us in your own words what happened on Tuesday night?”
His eyes welled up with tears and mucus ran from his nose. He wiped it away with the back of his hand. “I didn’t intend to hurt her. I was just driving around when I saw her walking away from the park. It was a miserable night so I thought she’d appreciate a lift. To tell the truth, I didn’t notice it was Deidre at first. I just thought … I just thought she was another young girl who should have been at home. She recognized me and Lily and got in no problem. It was then that I realized who she was. She was the one who had deliberately made her child deaf to suit her whim.”
At this point, Torres looked angry. He became lost in his thoughts for a few minutes. I didn’t hurry him. Then he went on.
“I drove her in the direction of the Narrows away from the town centre. I don’t know why exactly, I thought I’d try to talk to her. Get her to see how wrong she’d been. It was impossible. She didn’t understand what I was saying and when she saw we weren’t going to her house, she became alarmed and wanted me to let her out … I had to hold her in the car or she would have jumped out. She struggled and she actually hit me … I don’t really remember what happened after that. All I wanted to do was talk to her and she was fighting like a wildcat … Her scarf got sort of caught in the seat belt and she started to choke … Before I could do anything to stop it, she died. Right before my eyes…”
A long pause now. Given what I’d seen of the scarf, so tight it was biting into Deidre’s neck, I didn’t believe him for a minute that the strangulation was an accident.
“What happened then?” I prompted him.
“I panicked, I suppose. I thought if I put her in the lake I’d be able to get far away from the scene. Maybe it would look like suicide. So I drove back to the park, filled her pockets with stones, and put her in the water. Then I went home.”
“You came back in the morning?”
“I couldn’t help myself. I wanted to know what was happening. I didn’t expect to see you there and her father. Poor man, she’s brought him a lot of grief.” He looked at me from underneath his eyelids. “I tried to help, didn’t I? “
His tone was “I was a good boy, wasn’t I?”
I didn’t answer.
That was it. He was charged and remanded over until magistrate’s court the following day.
The following week was hectic. I told Leo about Torres’s confession and he looked stricken. “A few more minutes and he might have missed her.” Then he rubbed at his arms as if they were covered in mire. “And to think I actually had that man’s coat on my body.”
I took Chelsea to visit Joy and she was wonderful with her. We went to a park and they ran around and played on the slide till their noses were getting red with the cold. Nora had told Joy as best as she could about her mother’s death. She herself had agreed to stay on at the house for the foreseeable future and I thought Joy was as settled as she could be. Loretta had to fly out to the east coast but Leo was visiting every day and getting to know his grandchild.
Ahmed moved out.
Paula’s biopsy came back positive and we’re getting ready to deal with the onslaught of chemotherapy treatment.
On Friday, Gill phoned me just as I was reading over the statements of the kids involved in the drug bust.
“Give me your opinion first then I’ll tell you what has happened.”
“Is this a trick question? Is my reputation on the line?”
“Yes.”
“Here goes then. I think that the girl, Janet, is telling the truth about what happened, as are the other two lads. But I’d say Angus definitely has something to hide. He’s the one I’d lean on.”
“Angus, huh?”
“Oh come on Gill, out with it. Am I right or not?”
He laughed. “Absolutely right. On all counts. And you did that with your coloured pencils?”
“Cut it out.”
“Right then. What has happened is that Angus Neil had made a clean breast of it. He was devastated about what happened to Janet, who is recovering nicely by the way. He confessed he has been dealing in cannabis for some time. He has a job at the grocery store and every two weeks, a boat comes in from the mainland. He unloads the groceries and transports them to the shop. Get this. In a box of Cadbury Tray chocolate that is marked for him, he will find his weed, all ground up and ready to go. It’s in a false bottom apparently. He just declares the box to be damaged and nobody questions it. Then he had a system worked out with the other boys to put their dope in a hollow tree on the school playing field. They put in their money then later on pick up the dope.
“Angus also said he was the one trying to seduce Janet and she didn’t want to.”
“Wow, you didn’t need me at all, did you? Never mind about my intensive study of statement analysis. All we need is a kid with a conscience.”
“I suppose so.”
“I’m definitely thinking of relocating to the Hebrides.”
“Sounds good to me.”
Unfortunately, Gill was called away at that point and we had to hang up. I sat staring at the phone for a while longer. It was a pipe dream but I let myself fantasize about a place where people lived by their principles, had an almost non-existent crime rate, magnificent landscapes, the sea, not enough daylight, Inspector Gordon Gillies…