Lament of the Middle Man

In late October in the park

the autumn’s faults begin to show:

the houses suddenly go stark

beyond a thinning poplar row;

the edges of the leaves go brown

on every chestnut tree in town.

The croaking birds go south again

where I have gone in better times;

the hardy ones, perhaps, remain

to nestle in the snowy pines.

I think of one bold, raucous bird

whose wintry song I’ve often heard.

I live among so many things

that flash and fade, that come and go.

One never knows what season brings relief

and which will merely show

how difficult it is to span

a life, given the Fall of Man.

The old ones dawdle on a bench,

and young ones drool into their bibs;

an idle boffer, quite a mensch,

moves fast among the crowd with fibs.

A painted lady hangs upon

his word as if his sword was drawn.

Among so many falling fast

I sometimes wonder why I care;

the first, as ever, shall be last;

the last are always hard to bear.

I never know if I should stay

to see what ails the livelong day.

I never quite know how to ask

why some men wear bright, silver wings

while others, equal to the task,

must play the role of underlings.

“It’s what you know, not who,” they swore.

I should have known what to ignore.

I started early, did my bit

for freedom and the right to pray.

I leaned a little on my wit,

and learned the sort of thing to say,

yet here I am, unsatisfied

and certain all my elders lied.

A middle man in middle way

between the darkness and the dark,

the seasons have tremendous sway:

I change like chestnuts in the park.

Come winter, I’ll be branches, bones;

come spring, a wetness over stones.