Chapter 41

Heather’s Letters Blog Entry

Draft: October 29th

Mom and Dad are still at it now, and here it is after one in the morning. I’m sure Rue is awake, too, but I don’t want to leave my room to find out. I wish I could tune out their yelling. I feel like I’m always the one precipitating their arguments. Oh well, let them have at it. I have my own problems to worry about. Namely, the dance. I’ve been envisioning myself going with Adam for so long now, I don’t know what to think anymore.

How could Adam agree to transfer to Hawthorne with me, yet he is so terrified he won’t even acknowledge me by going to the dance with me! I really do want to help him, but he frustrates me. He’s got to want to help himself. I can’t help but think that maybe he’s right. Maybe he is a coward.

So cowardly that he’d leave me to go to the dance with Burton.

Why do I always have to be the strong one?

The time between now and the dance is going to be an eternity. And with Mom and Dad yelling again, how will I ever get to bed tonight? I guess it’s on with the music and on with the packing.

Hawthorne, here I come.

-H