DOWN 4 THE UP STROKE

for Danny Solis

But you have poetry, you say.

And if you can tell me what poetry is,

where the line is drawn

between the beauty and the breathing

of breath into something to make it beautiful,

I will claim poetry as my own.

Poets, when last breath sought to seduce,

your mojo flashed skinned nerve to the open air.

You bitched and cajoled until I was pissed enough

to assign you the task of my wounds.

You said Patricia,

come to us if the world bleeds through.

You drove in from the city and backhanded me

with your clunky rhymes, your limp couplets,

your falterings, your leaps for the sky,

your lean and joyless works in progress.

You jumped up and down on my heart,

yelling beat beat,

when I was June’s only sin, you screeched

beat beat,

when there was nothing I could do but be a liar

flat under everyone, you angled storm boot heels

at my chest until the irritation warmed dead muscle

and pulled it onto the dance floor. Ignore the mic static.

What unflinching poems spring from the mouths

of the almost dead. I could never love me like this.