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abduction by secret police, 38, 42–3
Adel (Mayada’s employee), 36
African jasmine plant and Nizar Jafar Al-Askari (Mayada’s father), 364–5
Ahmed, reciting Surah 54–5, 127
Al-Ani, Sabah, 307–8
Al-Askari, Abdiya (Mayada’s sister), 86, 107, 146, 203, 260–1
Al-Askari, Fay (Mayada’s daughter), ransom by Mamoun, 361, 365–6, 369
Al-Askari, Jafar Pasha (Mayada’s grandfather), 49, 70–1, 72–7, 113
Al-Askari, Mayada
abduction by secret police, 38, 42–3
Alef Ba feature writer, 203, 204, 288
Al-Jumhuriya, 81, 146, 201–2, 282
Anna (nanny), 109
appearance of, 130–1, 333
arrests of, Dr. Fadil Al-Barrak’s intervention, 83–4, 292–4
Baath officials’ suspicions of printing companies, 41, 44, 52, 359
Baath Party, exemption from, 203–4
birthday parties, 259–60
birth of, 112
blackmail by Mamoun, 348, 365–6
Chemical Ali interviews, 204–28
childhood of, 106–111, 258–61
children (Fay and Ali), concern for, 38, 40, 43, 44–6, 52–3, 65, 79, 100, 240, 254, 262, 273, 326
children (Fay and Ali), reuniting with, 352–4
contacting families of shadow women, 361–3
“Darb Al-Sad Ma red,” 41
“Decoration of Perfection,” 118
democratic exercise of Chemical Ali, 228–37
depression of, 328–9
divorce from Salam Al-Haimous, 39, 92, 306
education of, 180–1, 203, 278
extrasensory perception (ESP) research for Saddam Hussein, 160
family home of, 83, 258
family tree, 26–7
Fay (Mayada’s daughter), ransom by Mamoun, 361, 365–6, 369
fifty-two as unlucky for family, 49, 275–6
fortune-telling articles, 160
gifts from Saddam Hussein, 152, 158–9, 160
government’s atrocities, deceiving herself about, 47
heart attack of, 64–8
homecoming of, 351–4
imprisonment by secret police, 38–9, 41–3
interrogation of, 96–102, 103
Iraqi Liberation Day, 355–71
“Itlalat” (Overviews) column, 146, 282
Jordan home of, 357–8
Kuwaiti invasion, 91–2
leaving home and country, 93, 351, 361, 366–8
letter to Samara (shadow woman), 355–70
Majalaty Wa Al-Mizmar, 282
marital relationship, 80, 88–9, 147–8, 228
Michael Simpkin and, 40
miracles at Baladiyat, 103–4
Muslim, evolution into, 238–9
Nostradamus translation by, 101
pictures taken with Saddam Hussein, 151, 152, 158
“pin-up hero” (Ayatollah Khomeini), 82–4, 292
political journalism and, 204, 238
print shop of, 35–7, 40–1
punishment for remaining in Iraq, 276–7
qabaj chirping, as sign of moving from current place, 329, 330, 332, 336
release, hope of, 251–2, 265, 329
release of, 332–8, 341, 343–6
rowdiness of, 110
Saddam Hussein, personal encounters with, 141–53, 157–60
Scottie (family dog), 43, 259
shadow women, affection for, 129, 266
“This Beautiful Silence,” 153–4
time, article on concept of, 146–7, 150
torture of, 250–8
treason, accusation of, 44
Um Sami family helped by, 163–72, 208
“Vertical Rays of Sun,” 154–9
world leaders, connections to, 81
writings, honored for, 101
See also Al-Barrak, Dr. Fadil; Chemical Ali; four black doors; Hussein, Saddam; Hussein, Sajida (Saddam’s wife) “The Lady”; Samara (shadow woman); Sati, Jido (Mayada’s grandfather); shadow women of cell 52; torture
Al-Askari, Mustafa (Mayada’s great-grandfather), 37, 73
Al-Askari, Nizar Jafar
(Mayada’s father)
African jasmine plant and, 364–5
colon cancer of, 86, 142, 180, 261, 262
curse, early death of Al-Askari men, 261
death of, 86, 87, 101, 180
grave, visited by Mayada, 363–5
property confiscated by Baath Party, 261–2
Scottie (family dog) and, 43
shots, given by Mayada, 220
Al-Azhar, 113
Al-Bakir, Ahmed Hassan, 79, 138, 207
Al-Barrak, Dr. Fadil, 275–320
appearance of, 275
arrest of, 48, 101, 102, 310
arrests of Mayada, intervening in, 83–4, 292–4
Chemical Ali hatred, 206–7, 209, 223
Chemical Ali interview with Mayada, 206–7, 208–9
Daphne Parish helped by, 302–4
death of, 101, 308
Director General of Iraqi Secret Police, 46, 47–8, 277
disappearance of, 309
Dr. Kareem Al-Saadi helped by, 299–301
Dr. Mohammed and, 311–15
Dr. Saib Shawket helped by, 283–9
Fatin Fuad (fiancé), 278, 279–80, 306
gifts from Saddam Hussein, 48
Head of Intelligence Service, 205
helping others due to Mayada’s relationship, 165–6, 167–8, 283
Iraqi Military Attaché to Soviet Union, 277
Jinan Fuad (wife), 279–81, 306, 315
journalistic advancement of Mayada, 203–4, 282–3
manipulation by Salwa Al-Husri (Mayada’s mother), 86–7, 209–10
“pin-up hero” (Ayatollah Khomeini) of Mayada, 82–4, 292
Saddam Hussein’s advisor, 305
Salam Al-Haimous, helped by, 290–1
Sati Al-Husri’s papers, interest in, 82, 281, 282
Shiites killed by, 310
spy accusations, 308, 309
spying request of Salwa Al-Husri (Mayada’s mother), 301–2
torture of, 309, 310, 313
two worlds of, 87, 281–2, 291, 292, 294, 305
Al-Berezenchi, Haqi, 356
“Al-Da’wah al Islamiyah” (Islamic Call), 90
Al-Dulaimi, General, 314
Alef Ba, 203, 204, 288
Al-Hadithi, Dr. A., 97
Al-Haidari, Jalela, 283–6, 289
Al-Haimous, Mohy, 353–4
Al-Haimous, Salam (Mayada’s husband)
divorce from Mayada, 39, 92, 306
helped by Mayada, 290–1
military service of, 80, 82, 88, 147–8, 203
remarriage to Mayada to leave Iraq, 350–1, 365, 367–8
Al-Hakimiya, 307, 309
Al-Husri, Hilal, 113
Al-Husri, Salwa (Mayada’s mother)
Baath Party, exemption from, 203
birth of Mayada, on grandfather’s birthday, 112
book gift to Saddam Hussein, 146
breast cancer of, 369–70
clothing advice for Saddam Hussein, 145
Daphne Parish, life saved by, 302–4
death of, 370
Dr. Fadil Al-Barrak manipulation by, 86–7, 209–10
education of, 181
foreign printed material, smuggled by, 201
gifts from Saddam Hussein, 143, 304
heirlooms inherited from Jamila, 118
Jordan and, 39
message from Baladiyat, 68
Michael Simpkin and, 40
release of Mayada, 358–60
Saddam Hussein, personal encounters, 138–42, 145, 146, 181
Sajida (Saddam’s wife) and, 181, 182, 183–5
social successes of, 181, 199–200, 259–60, 302
spying request from Dr. Fadil Al-Barrak, 301–2
traveling of, 182
Al-Husri, Sati. See Sati, Jido
Aliya (shadow woman), 119–27, 137, 153, 177, 197, 263–4, 339
Al-Jaddir, Adib, 334
Al-Jaddir, Muayad (Judge), 334–5
Al-Jazaeri, Muhammed, 153
Al-Jumhuriya, 81, 146, 201, 282
Al-Khayat, Lutfi, 282
Al-Madina Pharmacy, 260
Al-Majid, Ali Hassan. See Chemical Ali
Al-Masbah, secret police headquarters, 47
Al-Mustansiriya University, 83
Al-Obousi, 77
Al-Qasr Al-Jumhouri, 147
Al-Ramadi Detention Center, 60, 122
Al-Saadi, Dr. Kareem and Nibal, 297–301
Al-Said, Fakhriya, 364
Al-Said, Nouri, 73, 74, 75, 78–9, 97
Al-Samawi, Sahib Hussein, 147, 152, 282
Al-Sharqi, Kamil, 204–5, 206, 210–11, 218
Al-Sullaikh, 304
Al-Tikriti, Barzan, 184, 280–1, 286–8, 315
Al-Tikriti, Dr. Abid Mahmud, 359, 360
Al-Tikriti, Hassan Majeed, 219
Al-Tikriti, Usama, 310
Alwiya Club, 362
Amani (shadow woman), 343
American University of Beirut, 86, 181
Amin Al-Amma (Director General of Iraqi Secret Police), 47, 205, 277
Amjed (Saddam’s private secretary), 147, 151
Anna (Mayada’s nanny), 109
Anwar (shadow woman), 138, 325, 343
Arab Labor Organization, 203, 204, 292, 296
arrests of Mayada, Dr. Fadil Al-Barrak’s intervention, 83–4, 292–4
Asia (shadow woman), 325–6, 332, 343
Ataturk, Mustafa Kemal, 115
award (takreem), 154, 155
Aziz, Tariq, Prime Minister, 40. 90
Baath Party
intelligentsia vs., 180
joining, forced into, 67
Mayada’s family exemption from, 203
printing companies, suspicions of, 41, 44, 52, 359
property seized by, 261–2
Saddam Hussein and, 79, 138, 141–2, 167, 180, 203
Baghdad Al-Jadida, 348, 349, 350
Baladiyat
death of prisoners at, 104
map of, 31
prisoners at, 43, 46, 102–3, 104, 253
Saddam Hussein murals, 31, 42
secret police headquarters, 31, 41
white-haired man at, 44–6, 52
See also Al-Askari, Mayada; shadow women of cell 52; torture
Bazoft, Farzad, 303, 304
beatings, 60, 61, 123, 126, 172
beauty of women, valued by Iraq, 57, 59
Bell, Gertrude, 213–15
birthday parties of Mayada, 259–60
blackmail of Mayada by Mamoun, 348, 365–6
Blair, Tony, 370
blank page in nation’s history, 371
breast cancer of Salwa Al-Husri (Mayada’s mother), 369–70
British fear and hatred of Jido Sati (Mayada’s grandfather), 110, 215–16
British Observer, The, 303
British occupation of Iraq, 74
Broummana, 109
burning, 124, 125, 161, 234–5
Bush, George W., 370
ceiling, hanging from, 60, 98, 266
Chemical Ali, 199–243
advancement in Baath Party, 208
appearance of, 197–8, 207, 211, 218
childhood of, 207, 219–20
children of (Omar, Hassan, Hibba), 226
democratic exercise, 228–37
diabetes of, 220
Director General of Iraqi Secret Police (Amin Al-Amma), 205
Dr. Fadil Al-Barrak hatred, 222–3
education of, 217, 219
fear he inspires in others, 224–5, 227, 232–3
interviews by Mayada, 204–28
kindness of, 223, 225
mental unbalance of, 237
military story for Mayada, 224
press, hatred of, 205, 206
social graces (lack of), 217
Sunni Muslim al-Bejat clan, 207, 208
sweets, love of, 220–1
voice (nasal) of, 216
wealth of, 225
children of Mayada (Fay and Ali)
concern for, 38, 40, 43, 44–6, 52–3, 65, 79, 100, 240, 254, 262, 273, 326
reuniting with, 352–4
Churchill, Winston, 74
cigarette burns, 124, 125, 161
Clark, Lady Terence, 303
clothing advice for Saddam Hussein from Salwa Al-Husri (Mayada’s mother), 145
coffins, dirt-filled, 58, 61
colon cancer of Nizar Jafar Al-Askari (Mayada’s father), 86, 142, 180, 261, 262
“Committee of Good Endeavors,” 200–1
compartmentalizing outside world, 53, 54, 274
comrades-in-tears, shadow women as, 179
contacting families of shadow women, 361–3
Cox, Sir Percy, 213
criminals’ families to be notified of crimes, 230–7
criticism of Saddam Hussein, crime of, 132, 312, 314
cruelty of Sajida Hussein (Saddam’s wife), 132, 133, 136, 188–91
curse, early death of Al-Askari men, 261
“Darb Al-Sad Ma red,” 41
“Decoration of Perfection,” 118
delirium from torture, 257–8, 265–6
democratic exercise of Chemical Ali, 228–37
depression of Mayada, 328–9
Der Spiegel, 201
detention, processing into, 48–9
dinar devaluation, 39
Director General of Iraqi Secret Police (Amin Al-Amma), 47, 205, 277
dismemberment, 171
Diyya (compensation for death), 155
electrical shocks, 62–3, 98, 122, 170, 256–7, 264, 265, 312, 315–16, 323
Eman (shadow woman), 135–6, 340
execution, feigned, 239–43
extortion of Iraqis, 173
extrasensory perception (ESP)
research for Saddam Hussein, 160
Faisal, King, 73–4, 75, 182, 213, 215
family members, killing of, 102
family tree, Mayada’s, 26–7
“Father of Arab Nationalism.” See Sati, Jido
Fatiha, 316
feet beatings, 63, 258, 264, 265
52 as unlucky for Mayada’s family, 49, 275–6
fingernails torn out, 124, 125, 234, 312
Fonoun magazine, 153
food for shadow women, 54, 56, 69, 94–5, 245, 327
foreign printed material, smuggled by Salwa Al-Husri (Mayada’s mother), 201
fortune-telling articles of Mayada, 160
four black doors, 72–105
Iranian war, 82, 88, 89–91, 148, 158, 200–2
Kuwaiti invasion, 91–2
secret police, 93
U.N. sanctions, 39, 91, 92
Fuad, Fatin, 278, 279–80, 306
Fuad, Jinan, 279–81, 306, 315
Gulag Archipelago, The (Solzhenitsyn), 244
General Establishment of Constructional Projects, 191–5
General Publication Surveillance Directorate, 160
George V, King of England, 215–16
German Kindergarten and Primary School (Berlin), 110
gifts from Saddam Hussein
acknowledging by favors, 143
Dr. Fadil Al-Barrak, 48
Mayada Al-Askari, 152, 158–9, 160
Salwa Al-Husri (Mayada’s mother), 143, 304
gold donations from every family to support army, 185–7
Golden Harp of the Sumerians, 215–16
government’s atrocities, Mayada deceiving herself about, 47
grave of Nizar Jafar Al-Askari (Mayada’s father), 363–5
Gray, Thomas, 176
greed of Sajida Hussein (Saddam’s wife), 183–4, 185–8
Hameed, Dr. Hadi, 67–9, 175
Hamid, Abdul, II, 113
Hammadi, Dr. Lamya, 186–7
Hammadi, Dr. Sadoun, 186–7
Hamoudi, Saad Qasim, 40
Hashim, Sultan, Minister of Defense, 40
Hassan, Abid, 219
Hassan, Hashim, 219
Hassan, Suleiman, 219
Hayat (shadow woman), 325–6, 343
Head of Intelligence Service, 205
heart attack of Mayada, 64–8
helping others due to Dr. Fadil Al-Barrak’s relationship, 165–6, 167–8, 283
historians and Saddam Hussein, 196
Hizb Al-Dawa Al-Islamiya (Islamic Convocation Party), 310
Hmoud, Dr. Abid, 359, 360
homecoming of Mayada, 351–4
hook, suspended from, 266
Hussain, Jalal, 116
Hussain (Mayada’s employee), 36
Hussein, Hala (Saddam’s daughter), 188
Hussein, King of Jordan, 60
Hussein, Qusay (Saddam’s son), 187
Hussein, Raghad (Saddam’s daughter), 156
Hussein, Saddam, 129–61
appearance of, 139, 150
Ayatollah Khomeini and, 89–91, 201
Baath Party, 79, 138, 141–2, 167, 180, 203
brutality, cause of, 135
charismatic personality, 79
clothes, love of, 145, 146
clothing advice from Salwa Al-Husri (Mayada’s mother), 145
criticism of, 132, 312, 314
Diyya (compensation for death), 155
education of, 217
extrasensory perception (ESP), 160
family members, killing of, 102
General Establishment of Construction Projects, 191–5
gifts from, 48, 143, 152, 158–9, 160, 304
Hala (daughter), 188
historians and, 196
Hussain Kamil, 156–7
Iraqi Liberation Day, 355–71
martyrs, Iraqi Army as, 202
Mayada, personal encounters with, 141–53, 157–60
Mukhabarat and, 142, 165, 192, 292, 309, 312
Mukhtar (dog), 131–5
murals overlooking Baladiyat, 31, 42
newscasts about, 166
Nostradamus translation by Mayada, 101
palace opulence, 148, 149, 196
pictures taken with, 151, 152, 158
power base, building, 142
procedures when meeting Saddam Hussein, 149–50
Raghad (daughter), 156
romanticism of, 153
Salwa Al-Husri’s personal encounters, 138–42, 145, 146, 181
Samara Shabendar (wife), 136–7
Sati Al-Husri admired by, 140–1, 144, 150, 151, 158, 159, 180, 212, 228
self-love of, 196
song about, 166
Sunni Muslim Al-Bejat clan, 207
support by Iraqis, 144
Tabaeya Iraniya deportations, 294–301, 304
takreem (award), 154, 155
tribal loyalties, importance, 207, 208
underestimation by Iraqis, 142
voice (nasal) of, 144
women interrogations, nonviolent, 100
See also four black doors
Hussein, Sajida (Saddam’s wife) “The Lady,” 162–98
appearance of, 182–3
childhood of, 182
cruelty of, 132, 133, 136, 188–91
gold donations, wearing, 186–7
greed of, 183–4, 185–8
Kuwaiti royal jewels as hers, 187
Mukhtar (dog) and, 131–5
Rosa and ring from, 188–90
Salwa Al-Husri (Mayada’s mother) and, 181, 182, 183–5
Sara, problem with, 184–5
shopping with Salwa Al-Husri, 183–4
thief, Sajida as, 183–4, 185–7
Hussein, Uday (Saddam’s son), 134, 156, 204, 366–7
Iman (shadow woman), 137, 153, 177, 187–8, 315, 324, 336, 340
imprisonment by secret police, 38–9, 41–3
innocent imprisonment of Iraqis, 163–72
Institute for Archives and Librarian Studies, 278
intelligentsia vs. Baath officials, 180
interrogation of Mayada, 96–102, 103
Iranian war, 80–1, 82, 88, 89–91, 148, 158, 200–3
Iraq
Baath party, 67, 79, 138, 141, 142, 167, 180, 261, 262
beauty of women, valued by, 57, 59
blank page in nation’s history, 371
brides, young, 221
British occupation of, 74
cash for arrests, 172–3
coffins, dirt-filled, 58, 61
corruption under Saddam Hussein, 39
criticism of Saddam Hussein, crime of, 132, 312, 314
dinar devaluation, 39
extortion of Iraqis, 173
gifts, acknowledging by favors, 143
gold donations from every family to support army, 185–7
innocent imprisonment, 163–72
intelligentsia vs. Baath officials, 180
Iranian war, 82, 88, 81–91, 148, 158, 200–3
Kurds, 92
Mahram, required for women traveling, 21–2, 351
maps of, 28–9
military coups in, 75–9, 167, 260
mourning custom, 142–3
Ottoman Empire, 37, 72, 73, 113, 114, 115, 116–17, 118, 119, 294
promise of future, 39, 71
royal family and, 77–8
sandstorms, 39
Shiites, 56, 89–90, 92, 254–5, 310
sons favored over daughters, 43
“staring,” crime of, 165, 168, 171
suicide as sin, 120
Tabaeya Iraniya document deportations, 294–301, 304
telephones bugged in, 338, 361–2
torturing of Iraqis, 60–1, 98, 122–5, 126–7, 136, 165, 170–1, 172, 234–5
travel prohibited during war, 159
tribal loyalties, importance, 207, 208
U.N. sanctions, 39, 91, 92
Wahhabi sect, 55
World War I, 74
See also Al-Askari, Mayada
Iraqi Liberation Day, 335–71
Iraqi lullaby, 240–1
Iraqi Military Attaché to Soviet Union, 277
iron beds/benches in Baladiyat, 52, 56
Islamic Call (“Al-Da’wah al Islamiyah”), 90
Islamic Convocation Party (Hizb Al-Dawa Al-Islamiya), 310
“Itlalat” (Overviews) column of Mayada, 146, 282
Jabbar, Abu, 292–3
Jameel, Captain, 76
Jamila (shadow woman), 245–9
Jassim, Latiff Nusaif, 153–4
Jordan, 59
journalistic advancement of Mayada, 203–4, 282–3
Journalists Federation and Writers Union, 203
Kadumiya, 347
Kamil, Hussain, 156–7
Kanaan, Abu, 194
Keer, Sir Clark, 75
Keynes, John Maynard, 87
Khomeini, Ayatollah, 82–4, 89–91, 201, 292
kicks, 175, 254, 256, 264, 265
King Ghazi, 75–6, 182
King of Jordan, 60
King’s College at Cambridge, 86
Kurds, 92
Kuwaiti invasion, 91–2
Kuwaiti royal jewels for Sajida (Saddam’s wife), 187
“Lady, The.” See Hussein, Sajida (Saddam’s wife)
Lawrence, T.E. (Lawrence of Arabia), 72, 73
leaving home and country, 93, 351, 361, 366–8
letter to Samara (shadow woman), 355–70
“Lion’s Paw” mark, 73
Mahram, required for women traveling, 121–2, 351
Majalaty Wa Al-Mizmar, 282
Mamoun, 332–3, 344–9, 365
manipulation of Dr. Fadil Al-Barrak by Salwa Al-Husri (Mayada’s mother), 86–7, 209–10
maps of Iraq, 28–9
martyrs, Iraqi Army as, 202
Mayada. See Al-Askari, Mayada
May (shadow woman), 340
messages to families, 331–2, 337, 338–43, 361–3
military coups in Iraq, 75–9, 167, 260
miracles at Baladiyat, 103–4
Mohammed, Dr., 311–15
muezzin, 94
Mukhabarat, 142, 165, 192, 292, 309, 312
Mukhtar (Saddam Hussein’s dog), 131–5
Muna (shadow woman), 137, 174, 175, 177, 197, 239, 242, 245, 249, 251, 263–72, 323, 337–8, 344
murals of Saddam Hussein at Baladiyat, 31, 42
Muslim, evolution into, 238–9
Nadir, Suhail Sami, 238
Nahla (Mayada’s employee), 36
newscasts about Saddam Hussein, 166
Nostradamus translation by Mayada, 101
Ottoman Empire, 37, 72, 73, 113, 114, 115, 116–7, 118, 119, 294
Overviews (“Itlalat”) column of Mayada, 146, 282
Oxford University, 181
palace opulence, 148, 149, 196
Parish, Daphne, 302–4
pictures taken with Saddam Hussein, 151, 152, 158
“pin-up hero” (Ayatollah Khomeini), 82–4, 292
poetry, Samara (shadow woman), 178
political journalism and Mayada, 204, 238
Political Section of Al-Baladiyat Secret Police Headquarters, 31
Porsun, Hussain Husni, 116
prayers in Baladiyat, 244–5, 327
print shop of Mayada, 35–6, 40–1
prisoners at Baladiyat, 43, 46, 102–3, 104, 253
procedures for meeting Saddam Hussein, 149–50
promotions for torturing Iraqis, 173
property confiscated by Baath Party, 261–2
qabaj chirping, as sign of moving from current place, 239, 330, 332, 336
QaQae Establishment for Construction Materials, 325
Qassim, General Abdul-Karim, 77
Raheem, Muhammed Jassim, 37–8
rape, 123, 128, 130
Rasha (shadow woman), 123–5, 323, 339
release, hope of, 251–2, 265, 329
release of Mayada, 332–8, 341, 343–6
remarriage of Mayada to leave Iraq, 350–1, 365, 367–8
Resat, Sultan Mohammed, 73
Revolution Command Council, 208
romanticism of Saddam Hussein, 153
Roula (shadow woman), 55, 131, 136, 336, 342
rowdiness of Mayada, 110
royal family and Iraq, 77–8
Royal Shahany School (Istanbul), 114
Saad, Dr., 228
Sabah, Dr. (shadow woman), 174–8, 179, 186, 191–7, 239, 251, 263–4, 266, 315–16, 322, 323, 332, 339
Sabah, Um, 306–8
Safana (shadow woman), 70, 266–7, 269–72, 320–3, 336
Salih, Hamdiya, 222
Samara (shadow woman), 103–4
advice for Mayada, 53–4, 94
care of shadow women, 248, 251, 262–5, 272–3, 315–16, 322, 324
cleanliness of, 327–8
encouragement for Mayada, 265, 329, 330–1
injuries of, 173–8
Iraqi lullaby, 240–1
lying to calm fears, 136
Mayada’s letter to, 355–70
miracles for Mayada, 103–4
mirror of, 130
poetry, 178
story of, 56–64
torture of, 161, 173–5, 343–5
Sami, Um, Omar and Hassan, 164–71, 208
sandstorms in Iraq, 39
Sara (shadow woman), 133, 242, 263, 272–3, 315–20, 323–4, 336, 341–2
Sati, Jido (Mayada’s grandfather), 106–28
alarm clock for family, 107
artist’s brushes and paints gift to Mayada, 111
Beit Meri resort, 106–112
birth of, 112
breakfast with, 107
British fear and hatred of, 110, 216
death of, 111, 140
Dr. Fadil Al-Barrak interest in papers of, 82, 281, 282
educational system improvements, 115
Governor of Bayna (Yugoslavia), 115
honesty of, 110
intelligence of, 114–15
Jamila Hussain Pasha (wife), 116–18
Ottoman Empire and, 113, 114, 115, 116–17, 119
Prophet Mohammad link to, 113
Saddam Hussein’s admiration of, 140–1, 144, 150, 151, 158, 159, 180, 212, 228 walks, 109–10
Scottie (family dog), 43, 259
secret police, 93
secret police search of print shop, 37–8
self-love of Saddam Hussein, 196
Shabendar, Samara (Saddam’s wife), 136–7
shadow women of cell 52, 35–71
affection for Mayada, 129, 266
Aliya (shadow woman), 119–27, 137, 153, 177, 197, 263–4, 339
Amani (shadow woman), 343
Anwar (shadow woman), 138, 325, 343
Asia (shadow woman), 325–6, 332, 343
compartmenting outside world, 53, 54, 274
comrades-in-tears, 179
detention, processing into, 48–9
Dr. Sabah (shadow woman), 174–8, 179, 186, 191–7, 239, 251, 263–4, 266, 315–16, 322, 323, 332, 339
Eman (shadow woman), 135–6, 340
execution, feigned, 239–43
food, 54, 56, 69, 94–5, 245, 327
graffiti, 52
Hadi Hameed (doctor), 67–9, 175
Hayat (shadow woman), 325–6, 343
heart attack of Mayada, 64–8
Iman (shadow woman), 137, 153, 177, 187–8, 315, 324, 336, 340
interrogations of, 54, 61–3
iron beds/benches, 52, 56
Jamila (shadow woman), 245–9
May (shadow woman), 340
messages to families, 331–2, 337, 338–43, 361–3
message to Salwa Al-Husri (Mayada’s mother), 68 muezzin, 94
Muna (shadow woman), 137, 174, 175, 177, 197, 239, 242, 245, 249, 251, 263–72, 323, 337–8, 344
number of women in, 51, 119
photographing of, 243
prayers, 244–5, 327
Rasha (shadow woman), 123–5, 323, 339
release of Mayada, happiness over, 332–9
Roula (shadow woman), 55, 131, 136, 336, 342
Safana (shadow woman), 70, 266–7, 269–72, 320–3, 336
Sara (shadow woman), 133, 242, 263, 272–3, 315–20, 323–4, 336, 341–2
sleep, difficulties, 94
social status and, 56, 70
stench of cell 52, 51–2
time as enemy of, 327
toilet, 51, 95, 327
Wafae (shadow woman), 55, 61, 179, 248, 263, 324, 340
See also Samara
Shatt-Al-Arab, 91
Shawket, Dr. Saib, 283–9
Shiites, 56, 89–90, 92, 254–5, 310
Sidqi, General Bakir, 75–6
Simpkin, Michael, 40
Sirri, Sahar, 172
slaps, 255, 256, 264, 265
social status and shadow women, 56, 70
social successes of Salwa Al-Husri (Mayada’s mother), 181, 199–200, 259–60, 302
Solzhenitsyn, Aleksandr, 244
song about Saddam Hussein, 166
sons favored over daughters, 43
spying request to Salwa Al-Husri (Mayada’s mother) from Dr. Fadil Al-Barrak, 301–2
“staring,” crime of, 165, 168, 171
suicide as sin, 120
Sunni Muslim Al-Bejat clan, 207, 208
Tabaeya Iraniya deportations, 294–301, 304
takreem (award), 154, 155
teeth torn out, 234
telephones bugged in Iraq, 338, 361–2
“This Beautiful Silence” (Mayada), 153–4
Tilfah, Khayrallah, 182, 284–5, 286, 287, 289
Tilfah, Sajida. See Hussein, Sajida (Saddam’s wife)
time, article by Mayada, 146–7, 150
time as enemy of shadow women, 327
torture, 244–73
beatings, 60, 61, 123, 126, 172
blindfolds, 255–6, 257
burning, 124, 125, 161, 234–5
ceiling, hanging from, 60, 98, 266
cigarette burns, 124, 125, 161
death from, 249
delirium from, 257–8, 265–6
dismemberment, 171
Dr. Fadil Al-Barrak, 309, 310, 313
electrical shocks, 62–3, 98, 122, 170, 256–7, 264, 265, 312, 315–16, 323
feet beatings, 63, 258, 264, 265
fingernails torn out, 124, 125, 234, 312
hook, suspended from, 266
kicks, 175, 254, 256, 264, 265
Mayada Al-Askari, 250–8
promotions for, 173
rape, 123, 128, 130
release, hope of, 251–2, 265
Samara (shadow woman), 161, 173–5, 343–5
shadow women, 62–4, 95, 100, 161, 174
slaps, 255, 256, 264, 265
teeth torn out, 234
waiting to be tortured, 244, 252, 313
travel prohibited during war, 159
treason, accusation of, 44
tribal loyalties, importance, 207 208
U.N. sanctions, 39, 91, 92
underestimation of Saddam Hussein by Iraqis, 142
University of Baghdad, 269
“Vertical Rays of Sun” (Mayada), 154–9
Wafae (shadow woman), 55, 61, 179, 248, 263, 324, 340
Wahhabi sect, 55
waiting to be tortured, 244, 252, 313
“War for the Gulf” (Simpkin’s TV program), 40
white-haired man at Baladiyat, 44–6, 52
Wissam (Mayada’s employee), 36
world leaders, Mayada’s family connections to, 81
World War I, 74
writings of Mayada, honored for, 101
Yeni Mektebi (Istanbul), 116