Ted slept through the light of the day. It was so loud from the street in his apartment, but Ted could sleep through anything. His senses had been numbed over the years by the full-on, 24/7 sensual assault that is New York City. Ted finally awoke in the noisy dark and stirred; an ambulance cried, moving closer, then seemingly under his bed, then moved on. Ted switched on a light, grabbed a pen and a legal pad, and poised to write. Nothing came. He put the pad down, went to the fridge, and pulled out a can of Budweiser and half a hero sandwich of indeterminate age and makeup. Ted cracked the beer, sniffed the sandwich and grimaced, then sniffed the sandwich again and grimaced less, and bit into the bread soggy from whatever yellowish condiment it had been marinating in. Ted waited to barf or choke or die as he chewed, but none of those things happened. He walked to the TV and turned it on. It did not come to life immediately; first, a small, bright circle of gray light appeared in the center of the screen, like the first energy before the big bang, Ted thought. Then suddenly, after a minute or so, the light exploded to fill the screen, and sounds and images came on. That TV was a dinosaur piece of shit.
Ted got seven channels and UHF. UHF was only good for the Spanish stations and the Spanish fake wresting, lucha libre, and you dialed in the stations like a radio trying to pick up life in outer space. They spoke Spanish in outer space, apparently. So basically his entertainment universe had seven planets, that’s it. There was 2-CBS, 4-NBC, 5-WNEW (local), 7-ABC, 9-WOR (local)—home of the Mets—11-WPIX (local)—home of the Yankees—and 13-PBS—home of Sesame Street and Masterpiece Theatre. The plastic channel-changing dial had long ago splintered off from age and use, so Ted had clamped pliers onto the remaining metal dowel that had once held it in place. There were no corresponding numbers to tell you what channel you were on anymore, so Ted just turned the pliers slowly clockwise till he landed on what he thought was channel 11.
A Yankee game, playing Boston at Fenway. The Sox were up. Ted drank his beer as he listened to the commentators Phil Rizzuto and Bill White fill the dead time in the pauses in action that make up the vast majority of a baseball game. Rizzuto was like an absurdist genius, a performance artist whose mind moseyed off in non sequiturs like a kindly uncle would wander away from a family picnic to join another family of complete strangers and eat their food. With the count 2–1 on Graig Nettles, Rizzuto meditated on the past, as he name-checked friends, all Italian, that had had birthdays or cooked macaroni for him last week, and how bad the traffic was on the George Washington Bridge. Legend had it that Rizzuto would habitually leave after the seventh inning to beat that traffic, and it seemed like he tried to fit nine innings’ worth of words—folksy schtick, ancient baseball lore, and delightful nonsense—into those seven. Bill White was his straight man, feigning occasional impatience, but just as charmed by the “Scooter,” Rizzuto’s nickname from his playing days as a Hall of Fame Yankee shortstop, as everyone else. The Dean Martin to Rizzuto’s Jerry Lewis. Bill White called Rizzuto “Scooter,” and Rizzuto called White, who was black, “White.”
Ted reached into his pocket and pulled out Mariana’s card, turned it in the light, brought it close, and inhaled. It smelled of woman and perfume and goodness, and his stomach flinched involuntarily. The phone rang and Ted started guiltily as if busted sniffing the woman’s underwear. He stared at the phone and let it ring five or six times before answering. “Hello?”
“The Yanks can’t beat the Sox at Fenway.”
“I think you have the wrong number.”
“You should do stand-up.”
“Where are you, Marty?”
“I’m home. I had to move after three days. Like Jesus Christ. You watching the game?”
“No,” Ted lied, “I was just kinda working, writing.” Ted leaned over to his typewriter and clacked a few keys on the bare platen for verisimilitude.
“Don’t let me disturb you.”
Click. Marty hung up. Ted stared at the receiver, then hung up and went back to staring at the ball game. He shook his head and picked up the phone again and dialed. Marty answered:
“Speak.”
“How come you never say goodbye, Marty? You just hang up. It’s hostile. You’re like an animal. Never once in my life when we talk on the phone have you ended the conversation civilly, never said goodbye; it’s just mid-conversation, then when you’re done, it’s click and…” Ted did a droning imitation of a dial tone.
“Really?”
“Yes, really.”
“Oh. Huh. Goodbye.”
Click. Dial tone. Ted redialed and Marty answered after waiting about ten rings. Ornery motherfucker. “Who is this?”
“I am that I am.”
“Popeye, the sailor man?”
“I was hoping more Yahweh. You got the game on?”
“Yeah.”
They sat silently and watched the game in their respective homes. Marty lived in Brooklyn, in the house Ted had grown up in. Park Slope. Brooklyn, of course, was technically part of New York City since 1898, but in actuality, Manhattan was New York City, and Brooklyn was Brooklyn. It even had its own accent. This geographical apartheid had lent the first whiff of outsider and not-quite-good-enough to young Ted’s consciousness, and still contributed to his unease with Manhattan and all it stood for. No man is an island, he thought, except Manhattan. On December 16, 1960, when Ted was fourteen, two planes, a United Airlines DC-8 carrying 84 people and a TWA Constellation carrying 44 people, crashed in midair above Staten Island and fell on his home in Park Slope. The poor bodies from the DC-8 fell to earth near his house, the sky rained fire, and everyone was killed. An unimaginable, surreal horror. Ever since then, from the age of fourteen, Ted would nervously, involuntarily check the sky in Brooklyn. In Brooklyn, Ted felt that, literally, the sky was falling. In Manhattan, the sky was the limit. Ted was comfortable in neither of those realms, so he had settled in the Bronx.
Father and son hadn’t talked in years, but they could do this—watch a game miles and boroughs away from each other, sit in a silence marked by the occasional grunt or “You see that?” inspired by the play. It was like some sort of elaborate, wordless ritual dance handed down from man to man, generation to generation. It stood in for actual communication, of which there was none, but implied the possibility of conversation, or at least the validation of conversation as a concept. It was empty and strangely hopeful.
The Yankee shortstop, Russell Earl “Bucky” Dent (né O’Dey), came to the plate. Marty made a derisive sound. “Bucky Dent. Inning’s over. Automatic out. I wish they had nine Bucky Dents. Chump couldn’t hit a piñata you hung it from his johnson.”
“I like Bucky Dent,” Ted defended. “Good glove. Shortstop’s a glove position, I don’t care about the stick at short.”
Bucky Dent tapped a slow roller back to the pitcher. Ted listened to the labored inhaling of his father, and it scared him more than he cared to feel. Ted reached for a Frisbee on top of the TV that he used to shake the seeds from his bud, grabbed his Big Bambú papers, and began rolling a joint with one hand. If he were a craftsman, you would admire his skill and dexterity. He rolled a tight pinner. Fired it up.
“Good game,” Ted said.
“Yeah.”
“You eat yet?”
“Yeah.”
The Red Sox came to bat and the men were quiet, but they could hear each other breathe. “Rizzuto’s the only Yankee I ever liked.”
“What about Catfish?”
“He’s really an Oakland A. He’s a mercenary.”
The Sox put a couple of men on. “You smoking the pot?” Marty asked. The pot. The. Pot. Ted loved the “the” of the pot that squares employed.
“No.”
“Hey, friend, I don’t give a fuck. I’m not your father.”
Ted acknowledged the wit of that one with a silent nod. He cupped the bottom of the receiver to mute his next pulls on the joint and their luxurious exhalations.
“You eat yet?”
“Yeah, I said.”
“You did?”
“Yeah.”
“You got the munchies?”
“Cut it out.”
Somebody tried to steal second and got thrown out. Ted exulted, “The Sox’ll choke again this year, like every year. Come September, the leaves and the Sox will turn color, die, and fall back to earth.”
Marty began coughing while trying to say, “Fuck you.” He kept coughing and kept trying unsuccessfully to say, “Fuck you.” Ted giggled like a stoner, but as the hacking continued, he grew alarmed.
“Fuck me, I get it. Marty, Marty, take it easy, you’re still in first place.”
Marty caught enough breath to speak again. “Why’re they running with two out? There’s hubris in that. My chest, I feel like Thurman Munson’s sitting on my chest dipping his balls into my mouth like a tea bag, that moody sperm whale clutch fat-assed fuck.” And coughed some more.
“Vermin Thurman,” Ted said, but he feared inciting his father more, so he shut up. Eventually the coughing subsided into a kind of painful wheezing. The only man talking in either room was Philip Rizzuto, who was wishing someone with an Italian name a happy birthday while Reggie Jackson tried to hit.
“You got someone there with you?” Ted asked.
“You mean like that foxy nurse?”
“No.”
“No, no one, ow, ow, ow…” Marty trailed off. Ted looked at Mariana’s card again. Grief counselor. Mortality consultant? Aide de camp to the Grim Reaper? Styx and Stones Inc.? Cerberus and Co.? Ted could do this shit all day. I should do this for a living, Ted thought, write. Funny. A commercial for Budweiser played, the king of beers. Ted didn’t know that the country of beer was a monarchy. A German monarchy by the sound of it. He bet that the Budweiser Plantagenets sat uneasy on the throne. Because it seemed to make more sense that the Kingdom of Beer would be destined eventually for fucking drunken chaos, no? John Barleycorn was definitely an anarchist at heart.
“Maybe I should come and stay with you,” Ted wondered aloud before he even had a chance to think about it. It must be the pot. “Just for a couple of days, till you feel a little better.” Feel better? That was a stupid thing to say; the old man had terminal lung cancer. Sorry about the gunshot wound, Mr. Lincoln; take the weekend off, stay off your feet, and you’ll be right as rain on Monday.
“Marty?”
“Yeah?”
“Whaddyou think?”
“I said yeah, goddammit.”
And the dying man hung up without saying goodbye.