Oh, the opposite of misery! Haven’t felt like this for… I don’t think I’ve ever felt like this. Oscar Hammerstein II knew how I feel when he wrote, “I’m… as high as a flag on the Fourth of July.” I’ve been excited before, but this time I have a much more complete outline of my future in mind, so I feel that it’s not some temporary, short-lived spurt of gusto. I have a chance to make it this time, because I have a much more realistic view of my weaknesses and eating habits.
I feel as if I’m walking across a frozen lake. I’m aware that the ice is thin in spots. I must be cautious about my every step. There is only one safe path across; I must not let myself get sidetracked. I must keep my eyes ever open for danger, or I will fall through and drown. My glorious goal is the far shore, where I see flowers and rainbows and Ferris wheels and fireworks and happiness. I must never lose sight of the far shore.