After a While

still in a whisper voice

I asked

are these good

the pictures?

good art?

I mean

I don’t know

she stopped and looked

at me as if duh

then

cupped

her hand on her mouth

and heaved a pretend puke

into her palm

I knew that move

and hated it

felt stupid and went cold

with sweat completely

through my shirt

but snorted an almost laugh

at it anyway

then she unzipped this

big black flat case

and took out a board

with a sheet of tissue paper

on a drawing underneath

she peeled the tape

off the tissue corners

she did it slow

This, if you want to know,

Is good. This is mine.

and on the paper was

a bowl of fruit

lit by a candle on

the old table

in the corner

of the art room

from gray chalk on creamy paper

she had made

two ripe apples

(one with a thumbprint

of a bruise)

three pears two bananas

a bunch of grapes

that had been rinsed

and heaped in the bowl

which looked (the bowl)

light blue but

like every other thing

was only gray

and a peach

a single peach sat on the table

next to the bowl

looking yellow

red

and in between

the colors fiery

like it was perfectly

ripe

I knew the lines that made

every one of those fruits

were flat

as flat as the sheet

the lines were on

but all the fruit was

wet under the candlelight

as if it had been rinsed

just now

and just now

being served

to us

and real

enough to eat

but most of all what

sat there on the table

that peach drawn

with gray chalk

and only chalk

punched me in the chest