The Beginning

Whispers of damnation

swirl in my head.

I am nauseous with disgust,

Hey, now

there’s an idea.

Approach the toilet.     Lift the lid.

Apply pressure to stomach

swollen under black micro-skirt.

Kneel on the cold floor.

Fishnets bite my kneecaps

desperation claws my throat.

I steady my breath

slide my thighs open

straddle the bowl.

That’s right you whore

into position

Get this fucking filth       out

Now now now     before you get

fat fat fat.

Turn the clock back about one-half hour.

Limbo under the descending bar of my dignity.